More to come [Rebirth] (GL)

"There is no perfect person in this world. It's not because you're perfect that I like you." She looked at Ji Yuyan and said word by word, "It's because I like you that I think you're perfect."

Ji Youyan's heart trembled, and Jing Xiu said again: "But that was in the past."

His hands were still in the hot water, but Ji Yuyan felt that his hands and feet were starting to feel cold.

"Maybe we have never really known each other. I didn't know you were so confused, and you didn't know it. For a long time, I also felt confused and couldn't find my self-identity."

Ji Yuyan's surprise was obvious.

Jing Xiu smiled lightly, and said with a bit of self-deprecation: "Is it because I look so beautiful that I don't seem to have anything I want and feel inferior? It seems that everyone will feel that way."

Ji Yuyan pulled out his hands suddenly, turned to face Jing Xiu, tried to say something to comfort her, but her throat was blocked.Because she found that she couldn't justify herself.She was indeed as Jing Xiu said, looking at her smooth journey, excellent and confident, it seemed that she had never thought that Jing Xiu would also be afraid and uneasy.

Jing Xiu didn't blame her, she took out the towel, raised Ji Yuyan's left hand, wiped it gently, and said slowly: "I have won one award after another, and I have been liked by more and more fans. More and more praises. But I am getting more and more sad."

Why?Ji Youyan didn't have the courage to ask her aloud.

Jing Xiu changed Ji Yuyan's right hand to wipe, one finger at a time, gently wiping. "Many sleepless nights, I looked at the ceiling and asked myself, if I am really as fascinating as they like me, why do the people I like keep away from me and dislike me less and less?"

Ji Yuyan froze in astonishment.In the next second, she grabbed Jing Xiu's wrist with her backhand, and said eagerly, "I didn't, Ah Xiu, why do you think so?"

"But your behavior is not like this." Jing Xiu looked at her calmly.She pulled out her wrist little by little from Ji Yuyan's hand.

Ji Youyan was devastated.She introspects herself, what is her performance like?

She put herself at the disadvantage of this relationship, and she was trapped in her own inferiority complex and anxiety.She distanced herself from Jing Xiu; she spread ambiguous scandals with male stars time and time again; she concealed her honestly again and again when Jing Xiu questioned her; When celebrating her birthday with her, she asked her to wait until after midnight before returning to herself; after she called Jing Xiu when she was seriously injured and dying, she was still missing.

She always thought that Jing Xiu was disappointed in her and cold-hearted, so she left her.

But Jing Xiu told her: "Admitting your failure and convincing yourself that you no longer love me is actually not an easy task."

As Ji Yuyan dodged again and again, she gradually couldn't find any evidence that Ji Yuyan still loved her.She has gone through self-consolation and walked to the road of self-deception, from being unable to bear to ask at the beginning, to not daring to ask later.

In the end, she collapsed in the "yes" that Ji Youyan agreed to break up before he fell ill.

Ji Youyan walked so simply and without taking any pictures, as if he had been waiting for that word of relief a long time ago.

The incisions on her two broken ribs that could not heal for a long time, every time they cracked, she woke up a little bit.

It was in such repeated pain that she convinced herself that Ji Youyan didn't love her anymore.

Ji Yuyan rolled down tears, except for the pale "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I don't know... I don't know..." She didn't know how she should confess herself so that she could hug the crying Jing Xiu in the past and make her believe , From the beginning to the end, she loved her so much.

As Jing Xiu's closest lover, like all outsiders, she has never really cared for Jing Xiu.She didn't dare to imagine how fragile and restless Jing Xiu spent those tossing and turning nights, and even smiled when facing her.

Suddenly, a piercing bell rang outside the door, breaking the silence of the room.It was Ji Yuyan's cell phone alarm clock thrown in the bedroom, reminding her that it was time to sleep.

"It's getting late." Jing Xiu walked out of the glass room, looked at the door, and said softly: "Go back, there is work tomorrow, it's time to sleep."

Ji Youyan saw that under the shadow of the lamp, Jing Xiu was facing her face sideways, and there was also water sliding down her cheeks.

Ji Youyan's heart ached like a big mouth opened, dripping blood.What kind of face does she have? Ask Jing Xiu for forgiveness.

She didn't know how she got back to the room, and she didn't know how long she had been sitting on the bed, silent to their chat records.

She fondled Jing Xiu's profile picture with her fingertips, and accidentally jumped to Jing Xiu's homepage, only to find that Jing Xiu's circle of friends, which Jing Xiu had blocked from her all along, had opened at some point.

Inside, there is only one dynamic, which is a lyrics.

The release time was three months after she broke up with Jing Xiu, when she and the male lead of the new drama "Massage" were rumored to be hot.

You are my dream, I am your dispensable person.

The author has something to say: Note: The last line of the lyrics is from the song "Written to Huang Huai".

Chapter 39

A calm and gentle sentence, but it seemed to have the ability to destroy the dead, easily tearing Ji Yuyan's heart and lungs apart.She looked at the lyrics and burst into tears.