Orange Savior

He feels everything and has no position.It is said that secret love is just a one-man show, one person plays all the roles, and then exits after the performance, and now it is time to wait. "It was the first time Suzie said these words, but she had understood them for many years.

"In the end, I'm a coward. I don't want to be rejected, and I don't know if a crush is liking or love." The sugar water was served, and Xiang Dong took a sip of the refreshing sago dew.

Suzy also took a bite of the mango, it was so sour!The current mood reminded him of when he graduated from the third year of junior high school and went back to school to carry things home after the high school entrance examination. That day, the whole class was taking pictures and moving things, preparing to leave the school that had been trapped for three years.Li Juan also followed Susie to the school to help her move the books. Susie only took photos with a few familiar classmates and then hurriedly packed her things. She went back and forth on the stairs several times before she finished moving the books downstairs. When I met on the road, I said "goodbye" affectionately or lightly. Maybe it was just a ceremony, but knowing it was a ceremony, it would also make Susie sad, because maybe most people could be admitted to Nanshan No. [-] Middle School, but she Not sure yet, so thought maybe this was the real goodbye.

When meeting Lu Sen up and down in the corridor, Lu Sen also said "goodbye" to Susie with a bright smile, and then he went downstairs in three steps, so fast, even Susie's "goodbye" It quickly scattered in the wind, and I don't know if it can fall into Lu Sen's ears. At that time, Susie felt that it was really a farewell. The fear of reluctance dominated her heart to beat faster and her tear glands to secrete The liquid flowed out, dominating her body and stopped in place to look at Lu Sen's back many times.

This feeling of saying goodbye to the person she likes, she never wants to meet again in her life.

After bidding farewell to Xiang Dong, Susie walked towards the station, preparing to go home by car. Walking on the small street, she saw Lu Sen who was riding home by bike. He was approaching the college entrance examination, and his hair had grown a lot. Like bangs, blown by the wind.There were few people on the street, and Lu Sen could see Suzie at a glance. At that time, they had been strangers for a long time, and they hadn't greeted each other for a long time.

When the car got closer and closer to Su Xi, Su Xiqiang pretended to walk calmly, but in fact, she was thinking how to be more natural if she wanted to say hello?In less than three seconds, Lu Sen, who was a few meters away, had already greeted Susie.

Still that smile, he didn't speak, just waved to him.

While Susie waved to him, he had already passed Susie's field of vision on a bicycle. Susie looked at his back like the farewell at graduation, squeezed out a smile, then laughed, and jumped on the road got up.

Even if it was just for that second, even if he didn't say anything, even if he couldn't see Susie's expression, Susie still felt that this matter was happier than winning the lottery. That's all.

During that holiday, Suzy posted a passage on social software, she said: I know these six years are short, I know these six years are going to end, I know this is a good ending, I know you will forget me, I know we will settle down separately, but, those things that grow and die in the cracks of time, will you remember it?

The reason why this is a good ending is because at the moment of the second farewell, Susie finally realized the meaning of this secret love. It is better to love him than to have him. He confessed not to get him, but to end.

In mid-May, the weather was sweltering, and the review mood was as enthusiastic and depressing as the weather, as if there was nothing else to do in life, only scratching your head at the unfinished questions, reviewing and reviewing the completed questions, and memorizing the formulas You have to memorize the melons, you have to memorize the words backwards and backwards, and even the punctuation marks must be accurate to a certain place to ensure that nothing will go wrong, but how can life be foolproof?

On the Sunday after the weekly exam, on the way home, Chen Feng received a call from Liang Xingzhuan. Because of the last fight, Chen Feng and Liang Xingzhuan kept their distance, but only chatted online a few times a month. , Nothing will actually contact you.

"Chen Feng, about your grandma, are you okay?"

Chen Feng didn't understand the content of this message, but he probably knew that something happened to grandma?

"What happened to my grandmother?"

"I asked your grandma when I was talking to Uncle Zhuang by accident yesterday. He actually said that your grandma passed away a few days ago. I don't believe it. I didn't dare to tell you until I went there today. Didn't your mother tell you? She They're all back, even the funeral was finished when I went, why didn't you come back?????" Liang Xing, who was on the way home, edited this passage, his breathing was difficult, and even his hands were trembling.He thought for a long time, should he tell Chen Feng about this?

Chen Feng stared blankly at the words on the phone screen for a long time, his eyes were red, he did not reply to Liang Xingzhuan, and immediately dialed Li Yan's number.

"Chen Feng?"

"Where are you now?" Chen Feng's voice was trembling.

"Oh, I'm at home, what's the matter? Is it sick again..." Li Yan's voice sounded different from usual, and Chen Feng heard the noisy crowd beside the microphone.

"No." Chen Feng interrupted her and said, "What's wrong with grandma?"

Li Yan was silent on the other side. She had just left the airport to go home, and she was really caught off guard when she received this call.

"Did something happen to grandma?" Chen Feng continued to ask.

"Your grandma had a sudden myocardial infarction a few days ago and passed away. It happened so suddenly, I didn't tell you, you are so busy studying, mom..." Li Yan said nervously while holding the phone, and Yang who was holding Xixi was standing beside her. Far.

"Then when are you going to tell me? You haven't told me after the funeral is over and you've gone home!" These words seemed to come out of Chen Feng's throat.

The only response on the other end of the phone was "Chen Feng."

"Do you want to wait until I finish the college entrance examination to tell me?" Chen Feng asked like crazy.

"Stop talking, can I go to school and explain to you tomorrow?"

Chen Feng hung up the phone and ran home, still unable to believe that his grandmother passed away like this. He always thought that in a few weeks, after the college entrance examination, he would take Gu Chen to Beijing to meet his grandmother. The only relative standing beside him in the world was pronounced dead by a phone call, without even saying goodbye.

On Monday, Chen Feng was called out by the class teacher just after biology class. When he went downstairs, he saw Li Yan standing under the eye-catching phoenix tree, holding a handbag, looking at the stairs where Chen Feng walked out.

Chen Feng didn't ask "What's the matter?" as usual when meeting, but directly asked "What do you want to explain?"

"Chen Feng, the accident of your grandmother's death happened so suddenly, I didn't know how to tell you for a while, besides, your illness is still relapsed and taking medicine. Mom is afraid that you won't be able to bear it, so I want to tell you slowly when I come back." Li When Yan was talking, she would unconsciously put her hand on Chen Feng's shoulder.

But Chen Feng didn't like it. He avoided it and said, "Are you afraid of my illness? My illness has nothing to do with grandma. You just didn't let me know because you were afraid that it would affect my college entrance examination. You didn't want me to go to Beijing to meet grandma." Is the college entrance examination so important? Is it so important that even a family member should die without going to see it?”

"Who said that the college entrance examination is not important, so why are you studying so hard? Is it for me? The fact that grandma has passed away is a foregone conclusion. Mom thinks of you and doesn't want you to have emotional burdens. Is it wrong? Do you think I Do you think she can't see you? She passed away when I went!" Li Yan's eyes were already red as she spoke.

"Am I still your son?" Chen Feng knew that she took Yang Yuan and Yang Yixi to Zhang Luo's funeral, as if his existence had been ruled out in the concept of home, and he had been replaced by that little fellow Yang Yixi.

"What nonsense are you talking about? If you are not my son, then who is?"

"It's been so many years. Have you ever seen your younger brother? He's in Class [-] on the fourth floor of this building. You're only a few steps away. Have you ever thought about going to see him? He's your son too."

"Chen Feng, I have no reason to visit Chen Ze anymore, I don't understand what you want to say?" Li Yan really felt that Chen Feng was becoming more and more unapproachable.

"You are his mother, why do you have no reason to see him? There is no reason because you have someone else, so we can be abandoned and thrown to other people at will."

As a result of this passage, Li Yan slapped him, almost making the students watching the drama upstairs dumbfounded, but this slap was expected by Chen Feng, and he didn't show too much pain.

"How can you talk like that? A person's life is not going to be smooth sailing. Many accidents will happen, and they all need to be chosen. It is impossible for you to spend this life perfectly. There is no best of both worlds in this world!" Li Yan knew that she was impulsive, but this impulsiveness made her express her helplessness.

"Of course not, so you hid grandma's death from me and said it was for my own good. Why didn't you think of it for our good when you divorced?"

"Things that have passed for so many years are meaningless now. Even if I did something wrong, can't I make mistakes?"

"Why do you ask us to pay for your mistakes?" Chen Feng said with a smile.

"Chen Feng, stop embarrassing your mother, okay? Don't you think your mother doesn't love you enough after all these years? If you said you want to study in Nanshan, I'll let you study here. If you said you want to live by yourself, I'll let you live by yourself. I can give you anything you need? Do you take everything for granted? If you grow up and become independent and you want to leave me, I will let you leave me. If you want to come back, I will let you come back. You hate I can also take it for granted, but now