Orange Savior

, This world does not allow people to fail. Failure seems to be a heinous crime. With this crime, he is going to flee in fear of the crime, and the ending bell reminds him that he is leaving.

He couldn't wait for the bus, so he hailed a taxi to go home, packed his things, but he didn't pack anything, most of the things he couldn't take with him, and he didn't want them anymore.

"Aren't you here to pick me up? Where is it?" Chen Feng called Li Yan and said.

"Here we come, we'll be at school soon!" Li Yan was happy because Chen Feng took the initiative to call.

"I'm at home, come and pick me up at home."

"This." Before Li Yan finished speaking, Chen Feng hung up the phone.

So when Li Yan got home, he just said at the beginning: "I failed the exam, I can't go anywhere, I have to go."

"How come? Where are you going?" Li Yan didn't know if he was joking right now.

"I'm going to Beijing."

"What do you mean you failed the exam?"

"Can you stop asking? How many times do you want me to say that I failed the exam, I'm done, what to do again, what choice is nonsense, fail once and keep failing, just like this damn disease , take medicine, take medicine, relapse and relapse, and finally can't do anything well!" In front of Li Yan, this was the first time he shed tears.

"It's okay, it's okay, as long as you live happily in the future."

"I won't be happy anymore, I want to go, I want to go to Beijing." In the end, he only had this request, he wanted to leave Miancheng.

At that moment, he completely became a coward, just like three years ago when he mistakenly thought that he was rejected by Gu Chen, he also fled to Beijing. He knew that after the exam, Lu Sen, who was in the same exam room as him, would definitely tell Gu Chen that he He couldn't face Gu Chen anymore, not only because he failed the college entrance examination, but also because he couldn't go to the same university. What's more, he couldn't see the future, including his own future.

Sure enough, Gu Chen called.

"Let's go!" Li Yan said, and at the same time Chen Feng turned off the phone.

He arrived in Guangzhou that night, and flew to Beijing the next morning. He was alone, and when he took a taxi to his grandmother's house, he turned on his mobile phone at four o'clock in the afternoon. In the yard, people's emotions were overwhelmed all at once, but Gu Chen actually made five calls to 130 and sent text messages all night.

Like a hot potato, the phone rang suddenly, it was Gu Chen, this time Chen Feng picked it up, because he always said what he had to say.

"Chen Feng! What's the matter with you? What's going on? I've heard Lu Sen say, where are you now?" Even though he had been calm all night, Gu Chen was still incoherent when he received the call.

"I'm in Beijing, and I failed the exam." Since Gu Chen knew that he failed the exam, he didn't know what to say next.

Gu Chen was in a hurry, and asked angrily, "What do you mean? If you fail the exam, you fail the exam. What do you mean by leaving without saying a word?"

No sound was heard, only dead silence.

"Are you going to leave like this and never come back?" Gu Chen asked.

"Yes, I won't go back. I think it's better for us to separate. You think, what's so good about a person like me? I can't even think of what qualifications I have to be with you, what qualifications I have to drag you into the water , complicate your life, without me, your life can return to the right track." Chen Feng spoke his mind, no matter how good he is in front of others, but in his eyes the most outstanding is Gu Chen.

"No, I don't want to separate! No, what right do you have to say goodbye unilaterally? How about you come back first? Otherwise, tell me the address, and I'll find you right away!"

"Don't come to me, I don't want to see you, I can't be with you anymore."

The words 'Don't come to me' had a huge impact on Gu Chen.

"Chen Feng, you are terrible. Do you know that you are so selfish? I thought what happened three years ago was just a coincidence. It turned out not to be. It turns out that you have always been like this. When you encounter little things, you just want to escape. , just hurt others regardless, who do you think I am? What have we been together for the past two years? Did I say that I dislike you? Did I say that I gave up on you? You can’t have everything you want Your reasoning, you can do whatever you want?" Gu Chen was driven crazy, he didn't expect that after waiting for a call all day and night, he was just broken up in a hurry, and the other party couldn't even give a clear reason.

"I have no other meaning, I just thought, I can't be with you anymore." He repeated the last sentence verbatim.

"There is no way to create a way. Don't you think that your life will be better if you escape to Beijing? No! I tell you, if you go on like this, you will never be better. You choose to leave In short, don’t ask me to forgive you in the future, don’t think that everyone will give you a chance, I will give you a chance, come back or go away! But you said that if you can’t say it back, never come back! Chen Feng! You have the guts , don’t come back in the future!” Gu Chen trembled and cried while holding the phone, his voice became very unfamiliar in Chen Feng’s phone, it was almost a heart-piercing cry, it turns out that calmness is useless, as long as Hearing his voice, all spirits will collapse.

Being given an ultimatum by someone he likes, Chen Feng can only empathize with it at this moment. He knows the feeling of being abandoned, he knows that he has become a bad person, and he hates doing bad things for others.

"Gu Chen, I can no longer live for myself, how can I live for you?" Chen Feng couldn't hold back his tears, sobbing too.

"Yes, you only have yourself in your heart. I always thought that I walked into your heart, but now I know that no one can get into your heart, because you resist others knowing you, and you selfishly think that every I personally don’t like you, you selfishly help me draw conclusions, I don’t understand you, but I try to understand you, what about you? What else can you do but escape and give up? You can’t say nothing, express nothing If you want me to know everything about you, how can I do it? Tell me how to do it? I will do it all, and I will do it for you!" Gu Chen is no longer sad, he is already desperate, so desperate that he speaks incoherently.

"You don't have to do anything for me. You go to your university, go to the city you want to go to, make your friends, and then forget about me. Soon you will find that you can't live without me."

This time when Gu Chen was silent, his crying gradually weakened. He said: "I will not forgive you, but you have to live well, and don't live for me. Since you are selfish, you must live!"

"Gu Chen, thank you for being my savior." Chen Feng let go of the only savior when he was drowning, and rejected the only savior in the universe, just because this savior was too precious for him to deserve.

"Don't be polite now. I'm not a great person, and I can't be your savior. I just hope that one day you will think of the cruelty you treated me, and you won't take it for granted."

"En." Chen Feng just replied one word so cruelly, completely crushing Gu Chen's bottom line.

Gu Chen was so furious that he had no choice but to smash the phone and hang up the other party's phone forever. He knew Chen Feng's character, and it was his never-turning-back obsession that ruined him.

After this phone call, Chen Feng did not get any salvation. His depression became more and more rampant, forcing him to think of death as an escape method. It's just fate, which never unfolds in a flat way, and only wants more and more. , the more it will deviate from.

After hanging up the phone, Gu Chen only had the idea of ​​running home from Chen Feng's house. At that moment, the college entrance examination, university, and future were not in his hope. His only hope was that the person who ran away said, "Don't lie." ,I come back."

But he knew that he had uttered harsh words and did not allow himself to forgive what he had done, and he had no way out. A stubborn person had no choice but to give up the other party.

When Gu Chen came home and saw his mother whom he hadn't seen for a long time, he rushed over and hugged her and said, "Mom, I don't know what to do? I lost a very important person, and he will never see me again! "

"What's the matter?" Gu Chen's mother hadn't seen him like this for more than ten years, but she could guess two or three things in the end.

"Mom, I like Chen Feng very much, I really like him." Gu Chen confessed like this.

Gu Chen's mother was shocked, but she didn't expect the confession to come too soon. She asked, "What's wrong with him?"

"He left, went to Beijing, and said he would never come back. He has depression. I don't want to hate him, but I'm really sad. I can't forgive him."

"Achen, it's time for you to mature. Everyone has their own life. You are the one who can only participate but not make decisions. You can only be responsible for yourself. What do you think and do? What kind of person do you want to be? , I respect you, but you can only do it for yourself, and one day you will know how to weigh yourself and others."

One day the cocklebur will mature, fall off, rely on its wandering ability to make a home around, and then settle down. No one knows, where will it go in the end?Whose strength is it to take root where it wants to go, but when the cocklebur leaves the branches and leaves, the pain of peeling off, only its veins remember the feeling.It can't blame the help of the wind, and can't refuse the gift of the rain. It can only blame itself for knowing the earth prematurely and throwing itself into the embrace of the earth.

When Gu Chen came out of the examination room and walked towards the classroom after finishing the science test, he saw Lu Sen running towards him, and after running close, he said out of breath, "Something happened to Chen Feng, he started crying halfway through the science test, and then gone."

Gu Chen couldn't make sense of his thoughts for a while, he just said: "I'll make a phone call." Then he ran away.

When he returned to the classroom, he couldn't see Chen Feng, so he took out his mobile phone and ran to the stadium, repeating it over and over again.