Orange Savior

He dialed Chen Feng's cell phone everywhere, but the first time it got through, he muttered: "Hurry up and answer the phone!"

He put aside the matter of the exam, and only wanted to talk to Chen Feng on the phone. He asked Lu Sen again and again about what happened to Chen Feng in the exam room, and all he got were those few words, "He seemed to have collapsed, crying. Get up and say you want to go." Even the classmates noticed the strangeness of Gu Chen and Chen Feng, but they were soon immersed in the joy of escaping from prison for a long vacation.

After school, he rode his bicycle straight to Chen Feng's house. He had the key, but he put it in his backpack and never used it. He recalled that he ran to Chen Feng's house after being injured by Zhou Qi in the provincial competition, but he missed it. At that time, he In fact, he opened the door, looked for Chen Feng, and called his name. He was afraid that he would not be able to respond this time, but thought, if he just ran out of battery and came back after a while, he would not talk to him again. Chen Feng quarreled.But this time, he still opened the door and still couldn't call out Chen Feng's response. He lay on the bed where the two slept and waited all night, calling and sending text messages all night, but Chen Feng didn't show up, and his cell phone also dialed. There was no electricity.

When Gu Chen left, he hadn't reacted to the sudden parting, but it became a fact.

Staying until early in the morning, he felt numb physically and mentally, feeling as if he had been burned to ashes, a very unreal sense of destruction, but the sun reminded him that this day would come again as scheduled, but time would not turn back. If Chen Feng disappeared, then Just gone forever.

This bed still smells like them, the shower gel they share, except for some of Chen Feng's clothes missing in the closet, this house is exactly what it used to be, as if Chen Feng hadn't walked by, Gu Chen knew that apart from his The key to this home does not own anything in this home, including that Chen Feng who can come and go freely.

Gu Chen was still unwilling to leave, and stayed until around four o'clock in the afternoon. After charging his phone, Chen Feng's call finally got through. However, as expected, he received a devastating reply. In his life, he had never thought of hurting anyone. Anyone, but he was hurt by the person he loves the most. This kind of pain made him almost crazy, crying, and collapsing.

When he recalled what he had said, he would also regret his impulse. From the day he knew that Chen Feng had depression, he was more afraid of this disease than Chen Feng. He was afraid that no matter how much time he spent, he would not be able to understand this disease and would become a thorn between them.He thought about understanding Chen Feng, understanding everything about Chen Feng, accepting even the desolate Chen Feng, and letting Chen Feng accept himself again, but it was useless. The balance of emotions has fallen, no one can be great, can't be brave in front of the suffering people, he thinks that Chen Feng may not understand his love.

It seems that after the soul-stirring youth, all that is left is the future of nothingness, the kind of future that will sigh when you talk about it.

After the college entrance examination, Su Xi bid farewell to Xiang Dong and Song Qing, and also bid farewell to some classmates in the class, but in fact this was not a farewell, maybe it was just a farewell ceremony for the completion of the college entrance examination. Li Juan said that she wanted to pick up her suggestion on the day of the college entrance examination, but Su Xi kept emphasizing on the phone, "Don't pick me up!"

In fact, Susie is just afraid. In the expected life, she is most afraid of Li Juan's concern for her studies, and she hates the words that she will be comforted no matter whether it is good or bad. First, she is easy to let people down, and second, she doesn't like comfort.

Susie just wanted to finish the college entrance examination, throw away any burdens, and go home by car freely.When going downhill, the door was already crowded with people, only the parents of the students could be distinguished, but Susie found that Li Juan was walking towards her. She looked a few more times in doubt, and it was indeed Li Juan who was waving to her.

"Why are you here?" Suzy asked.

"I just want to come!" Li Juan walked forward holding Susie's hand.

"Didn't I tell you not to come?" Susie was actually happy, but this kind of sudden concern was acceptable.

"It's okay, you see other people's parents are here to pick them up." Li Juan was trying her best to express the meaning of 'today is a big day'.

Susie smiled, and her eyes were already red from the bottom of her heart. She asked, "So many people? How can you see me? They're all wearing school uniforms."

"Why can't I see you?" Li Juan was very happy, as if she was the one who finished the college entrance examination.

"What if I can't see it?"

"Didn't you see it now?"

Li Juan couldn't answer this question, because she could always find Suzie in the crowd.

After the college entrance examination, Susie was only waiting for her grades. She couldn't think of confessing at all. The day of checking the grades was more nervous than the day of the exam. Even if she was nervous, she only got a so-so grade in the end. It took several minutes, but Li Juan was quite satisfied, as if she had completed a major mission in life, she celebrated at home.

That night, Susie remembered that since the college entrance examination had also been completed, the matter of love had to come to an end.Before going to school to get her grades, she picked out a beautiful notebook, blue and white, with a deer on the cover, and spent two days writing eight pages, which was one-third of the notebook, the first time in her life. This time, she didn’t know what to write in her confession. She just followed her own mind and wrote about the six years of her acquaintance with Lu Sen, acquaintance, quarrel, fight, conversation, comfort, perception, confidant, until the end After finishing writing, Susie still didn’t dare to say love, she only said that she liked it, because she was afraid, so she emphasized many reasons for liking, because of fear, she also emphasized the sincerity of this secret love, because of fear, Susie said that if she refused, then There is no need to give a reason.In her heart, the reason is a superficial thing, it is better not to.

On the day of getting her grades, Susie was fidgeting. When she wrote the love letter, she even thought that she might not have a chance to give it to him. She forced herself not to be nervous and calm down. She really didn't know how to give it to him?

If you can't give your heart out, it becomes waste paper.

Susie told Xiang Dong about the incident, and Xiang Dong was so excited that he seemed to be admitted to the Chinese University, and kept urging Susie to rush to block Lu Sen after getting her grades. For childish things, the two of them performed their own duties, Xiang Dong was in charge of checking Lu Sen's whereabouts, and Su Xi was waiting at the stairs.

After waiting for more than ten minutes, many students who had finished their grades left the teaching building one after another. They hadn't received Xiang Dong's text message yet. Susie was a little anxious, so she had to move up the stairs little by little. However, at that moment, Susie saw Lu Sen go downstairs, and he slowly went down one level at a time. Susie slowed down, wondering if she should take out the love letter?While hesitating, Lu Sen was about to pass her by. Lu Sen glanced at Susie, but didn't say hello as before. Susie saw the cloudy sky in his eyes and knew that he might not be happy. Susie immediately Turning her eyes away, she quickened her pace and ran away. She rushed to the third floor to find Xiang Dong.

"Why did you come up?" Xiang Dong asked.

"I saw him, he's gone." Susie said lightly.

"Then did you give it?" Xiang Dong asked anxiously.

"No, I flinched all of a sudden, and then I missed it." Opening the canvas shoulder bag, the love letter was still lying quietly. In fact, Suzie didn't even have the courage to pick up the love letter just now, let alone take her To Lu Sen.

Xiang Dong only sighed, not daring to say more, she said, "I still have a chance when I apply for the exam."

"Okay!"

"What did you write?"

"That's right, it's just some nonsense, I don't really remember it!"

"Let's go, let's go home!"

Susie's words can only appear to be an understatement, but she is still very disappointed.On the one hand, she hated her cowardice, on the other hand, seeing Lu Sen was not very happy, she was even more disappointed.They are no longer in the third year of junior high school, but they can still look into each other's eyes and bid farewell. The farewell after three years is just a passing by and no greetings to each other. After this time, is the real farewell?

Finally, on the day of applying for the university, most people’s scores are just like this, and there is nothing to choose, so after applying for the university, let the teacher check it and then go home. Find a time to go to the school computer to apply for the exam, and wait for the notification letter. It seems simple. , this is what the students have gained in exchange for three years of hard work. Now, no matter whether it is good or bad, it seems that no one cares. Everyone is waiting to embark on the next stage of life.

"Master Miejue" said that the college entrance examination is: "Although there are tens of millions of people, I will pass."

Susie and Li Juan had a disagreement in applying for the exam, and finally Li Juan compromised, but Susie also compromised.

After applying for the exam, Xiang Dong immediately ran up to the third floor to monitor Lu Sen, then ran downstairs and said to Su Xi, "He is about to leave, you should go outside and get ready!"

"Xiang Dong, I still don't dare!"

"Now you say you don't dare? This is really the last chance. If you miss it, you may not see him anymore!"

"I don't want to give it to him anymore, think about it, after so many years, he has no impression of me!" Susie was discouraged all of a sudden, and always felt that it was meaningless.

"No! The love letter is already written! You will regret it if you do this." Xiang Dong really hated iron but steel.

Susie took out the love letter, and the love letter was sealed with scotch tape, and there was a cherry blossom on the tape. The whole love letter seemed to mock her for being too girly, and her wishful thinking was too much. After that, she couldn't help but wonder, would this really disturb Lu Sen's world?

Susie took a deep breath and said, "I want him to know my heart, but I can't give it to him personally, can you help me?"

"Okay, I'll just wait for your sentence." Although Xiang Dong gave Su Xi a supercilious look, he still took her love letter and went to the stairs to wait.

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