Can't hold hands

When I left, I was much calmer than before. Even if those people were doing things under my nose, I could act as if I didn't see them.

It really only takes 10 minutes to get thick skinned.

I walked out of the bar, gradually away from this noisy street, and merged into the real night.

I don't know if Lin Jue recognized me, but I don't want to face him again, Lin Jue probably treats me as an idiot all the time, who knows!

At least I don't want to really be an idiot.

I don’t know how long I walked, I walked fast, anyway, when I saw the big red sign of KFC in front of me, I didn’t know where I was——I rarely come here, Han Hui trotted behind me, thinking Feeling a little guilty, he stopped to talk to her.

"Well, do you... know where this is?"

"Uh-huh?"

Han Hui stared at me in confusion. I suddenly remembered what she said about being drugged. I was worried and looked around. Fortunately, there are no shortage of hotels in big cities.

"Shall we go to the hotel for a night?"

Han Hui drooped her head and didn't answer me. I took her arm and walked forward at a much slower pace.

"I broke up with Sun Xue," Han Hui's voice was muffled, as if he was holding his breath, "Just before you called me, I couldn't take it anymore."

"Who can bear it..." I looked at the hotel not far away, and the pictures I saw before were all in my mind.

It's so clear, but it doesn't feel real to me.

"Do you know? She is like this, and I still don't want to break up with her. Do you think it's cheap? Although I still broke up... How much I like her... Maybe it can be regarded as love? Hehehe..."

Han Hui said intermittently, and laughed for a while, I was startled, and held her hand tightly,

When she spoke again, her voice was extremely lonely.

"The one who proposes to break up is the one who doesn't want to break up."

My heart was shaken, and I walked faster. I dragged the drowsy Han Hui into the hotel, and was watched by the hotel staff all the way. If I hadn't opened two rooms, they would probably think I was a criminal.

It is the person who does not want to separate who proposes to break up.

I sent Han Hui to the room, she kept her head down, but I still saw her flashing tears.

"have a good rest."

I patted her on the shoulder, turned around and left, unable to say anything comforting, Han Hui was crying because she had given up, but I had no clue, should I be sad?pain?Like Xu Ming, he still loves him with alcohol.

I didn't think I would spend the night outside before, and I went to bed after washing up casually. When I tossed and turned, I felt that I was really rich. It was only halfway through this semester, and I had already rented a room outside twice.

Both nights were with Han Hui, both in the same inexplicable way.

Halfway through my sleep, my mobile phone rang like a death reminder. I didn’t know where I was dreaming. When I was aroused by the ringtone, I was so anxious that I almost scrambled out of bed and stood barefoot for a long time before I realized that it was cell phone.

I breathed a sigh of relief, and my heartbeat returned to normal.

The phone didn't ring, and it was already dim outside the window. I sat on the bed, took the phone from the bedside table to my hand, clicked on it, and it was 04:30.

Lin Jue.

……

He called me at 04:30 in the morning?

Countless pictures flashed through my head, and before I had time to sort them out, the phone rang again.

Still Lin Jue.

This mobile phone suddenly became a hot potato. I wish I could be an ostrich, but I didn't see it.

Finally saw it.

Heartbroken, I picked up the phone.

"One hundred, I'm Lin Jue."

His voice sounded rustling from the phone, and I thought to myself, could someone else call me on your phone?

After thinking about it, it seems that it is not impossible, and I am even more depressed.

He hummed lightly on his mouth.

"Last night, you..."

"I'm going to find Han Hui."

Only the sound of shallow breathing remained in my ears.

"Let's... come out and talk."

I stared blankly at the pale sky outside the window, and it became extremely difficult to speak.

"Last night...does it happen often?"

"seldom……"

"seldom?"

"Sun Xue will do this about once a month. I usually leave early, but yesterday I didn't expect that group of grandchildren would dare to take such a strong medicine..."

Explanations are not Lin Jue's strong point. If you do it, you do it. If you don't do it, you don't do it. No reason, and he doesn't need a reason.

It sounds good, not deceitful, and maybe he can win a good reputation for sincerity, but in fact, he will hurt people like this.

He quickly stopped talking, or felt that it was unnecessary, or just simply felt that it was boring.

"This is the first time I've played like this since I was with you..."

He uttered the last sentence feebly.

I hung up the phone, sat on the bed for an hour, washed my face and brushed my teeth, without calling Han Hui, and went back to school fully dressed.

What I didn't know was that Lin Jue wrote a song this morning.

Drugs and drugs are the inspiration for many of his musical compositions.

During the May Day holiday, I was very depressed. After finishing the few small tasks I was responsible for, I didn't want to do anything, and I just leaned in the dormitory and had nothing to do.

The same is true for Xu Ming, he is even worse than me, I still find a few movies to watch, he lies on the bed every day, I go to the bathroom a few times, pass by his bed, and see him staring in a daze.

"Xu Ming," when I stood up for the third time to go to the toilet, I finally couldn't take it anymore, "Let's go out for a stroll? Are you too sad?"

He rolled his eyes, looked at me, nodded, and his voice didn't fluctuate at all.

"Come on, it's time for dinner."

"..."

There's nothing else to do but eat and sleep, and I've been feeling that way lately.

Why wasn't there this ridiculous sense of boredom before falling in love?How did you pass the boring time before?

I'm baffled.

While Xu Ming was getting dressed, Han Hui sent me a text message, the content was simple and rude - dinner appointment.

"Do you mind adding a girl to join us?"

Xu Ming looked at me instantly with resentment.

"You've seen it before, Han Hui, just an ordinary friend."

"Is she single?"

"Single, she...just broke up."

Xu Ming glanced at me, then bent down to tie his shoelaces.

"Ask the girl if she wants to have one more boy than me."

I made the call in front of him and turned on speakerphone.

"A buddy in my dormitory happens to be going to eat too, can we go with him?"

"Well, okay, let's go together, there are so many people."

I showed my hands to Xu Ming, and Han Hui had already hung up the phone.

"It's... so simple?"

"What else do you want?"

"I, I, I, I asked my daughter—cough, when my ex-girlfriend didn't make things difficult for me!"

"Han Hui is not my girlfriend."

I thought about it and thought it was wrong, so I added another sentence.

"But she wasn't that kind of person."

Xu Ming stopped talking.

I shrugged my shoulders, thinking that you have a good temper, accompanied your ex-girlfriend, made an appointment, and found someone by calling from the south campus to the north campus.

When standing downstairs in Han Hui's dormitory, Xu Ming was still out of his mind. I put my hands on his shoulders and hugged him, and he came back to his senses.

"I'm suddenly a little afraid of embarrassment..."

We waited for 5 minutes and saw Han Hui running down bouncing down. Her hair was cut short, just past her ears, and her hair color turned black again.

"Where to eat?"

The big smile on her face was shared equally between the two of us. Xu Ming was a little nervous, but obviously not embarrassed.

"Anything you want to eat?"

"Well... I want to eat Haidilao, how about you?"

I looked at Xu Ming, he scratched his head and said embarrassedly,

"I'm whatever."

"Then Haidilao." I had no objection, "Do you know where it is?"

Han Hui nodded, "Don't worry, I've been optimistic about it for a long time, but it takes half an hour to take the subway."

Xu Ming glanced at me,

"Okay, anyway, today is a holiday."

The three of us just set off so casually. Two of us had just broken up, and one was about to break up. We were exceptionally strong in combat. We served red soup and ordered a dozen beers. We ate from five o'clock to eight o'clock in the evening. Han Hui It was so hot that my hair was wet with sweat.

After eating, I went to the bathroom, and when I came back, I found that Xu Ming and Han Hui were arguing for some reason.

"...I'll pay the bill! Brother Xu, go away!"

Han Hui clutched the bill and pointed at Xu Ming vigilantly. The two are now called brothers.

"Are we AA, AA's head office?"

Xu Ming was helpless.

"Absolutely AA, I have a discount from this company!"

Han Hui rolled her eyes and walked to the front desk gracefully. Xu Ming was choked up and couldn't speak. He sat next to me and stared at me. I felt innocent.

"It's not my fault! I wasn't here just now."

Xu Ming was discouraged and lay down on the table.

"There are a lot of couples here."

As soon as he reminded me, I didn't notice the men and women around me.

"For the holidays, we must be tired of being together."

It suddenly occurred to me that Lin Jue and I hardly ever went out on a date during festivals, not Qingming, and even less so on May Day.

Lin Jue didn't seem to have this kind of awareness at all, he just wanted to find me, and then came to my school by himself.

Free-spirited guy.

The three of us each took a popsicle and squeezed onto the subway back to school.

On the first day after May [-]st, Lin Jue sent a text message. I stared at the phone, thinking whether this person deliberately staggered the festival because he didn't want to be crowded outside.

He made an appointment with me, but I didn't reply, thinking that I didn't see anything.

As a result, I finished my morning class and was blocked by Lin Jue when I went back.

His hair was cut short, just reaching the length of his ears, and it was dyed back to black, making him look more restrained.

Han Hui couldn't have dyed it with him, right?I had endless questions in my mind.

Lin Jue is holding a rose in one hand, and holding two strings in the other hand, with feather hydrogen balloons floating on it.

"one hundred!"

He stood under the shade of a tree in the corner, and called me with a smile. I was afraid that he would be spotted, and I panicked, probably with weak legs. What is he going to do?

"Today I took graduation photos."

The thing in his hand was explained, and I secretly breathed a sigh of relief.

As a result, Lin Jue stuffed the flower in my hand into my arms in the next second.

"If you don't come to send me flowers, I can only send you."

This is aggrieved, coupled with his wet eyes, it is very lethal, I coughed hard.

"Aren't you afraid of being seen? Are you driving?"

He laughed, and there was some light in his eyes. I found that I still couldn't resist Lin Jue's charm. If I didn't know him, I would definitely be his fan.

"Accompany me to take a photo!"

He grabbed my wrist and walked towards the door of the dormitory area openly and aboveboard.

I walked a few steps quickly, approached him, and said in a slightly frantic voice, "Do you know that you are a star!"

"No way."

I froze, and quickly turned to stare at him again.

He was driving his Toyota this time. I put the flowers and balloons in the back seat and opened the passenger door by myself.

"It's my graduation photo." Lin Jue smiled at me, then reached out to rub my hair, "It's just the two of us."

My heart skipped a beat.

I figured I should reject him, break up with him, and go back to my regular, boring college life.

I remembered that I still had two classes in the afternoon.

The scenery outside the window was quickly thrown behind me, and I had the illusion of flying.

Classes or something... just let it go.

I don't know where we are going. Lin Jue didn't tell me, and I didn't ask.

For the first time, I realized that the reason why Lin Jue has such a fatal attraction to me is probably because of this ignorance.

He is presumptuous, crazy, exciting, and reckless, so that those who are close to him can't help but learn from him and liberate their bodies and minds.

Not every young person lives his kind of life, but this kind of life only belongs to youth.

I'm a young man who doesn't live in this kind of life. I can't even compare with Han Hui, but this doesn't stop me yearning for their life. I envy them and like them.

Even if I can't join them.

Lin Jue drove the car into the stadium.

I didn't expect that he really invited a professional photographer to take pictures of us playing basketball.

"Do you play basketball?"

Lin Jue took out the black wristband from his pocket and the basketball in the trunk.

"..."

"Ok?"

I was tempted to say that I didn't want to play basketball under the sun at noon, but I nodded anyway.

It was 37 octaves at noon, and there was no one in the open-air basketball court, except for a few high school students on one court.

Lin Jue stood outside the three-point line and threw a beautiful parabola.

"One hundred you get the ball!"

I can play basketball, and I’m actually pretty good at it, but I haven’t played in this situation yet—the sun is scorching hot, and there’s a cameraman next to him, carrying a black SLR, running from left to right, every time I see it from the corner of my eye. When I see him, I will be distracted for a moment.

As a result, I ran into Lin Jue's arms several times.

"Playing basketball in the middle of the day, you really..." I played for half an hour, and my whole body was as wet as if I had picked it up from the water. I sat under the shade of a tree next to me, "What's wrong?"

He threw me a bottle of water and sat next to me.

"The light is good at noon, and I like watching people exercise." He paused, "You are especially sexy when you exercise."

He looked at me, held out a finger, and slid it slowly down my face to my collarbone.

The goosebumps on my back got up, and I leaned to the side.

"Sweaty."

"I don't dislike it," he laughed and lowered his voice, "Isn't it the same when it's sex?"

I am speechless.

We rest in silence for a while, occasionally cool in style.

"One hundred, I'm going abroad."

Lin Jue said this sentence as if inadvertently.

"I've already submitted an application to the conservatory over there."

It was a long time before I got my voice back.

"when are we leaving?"

"Early July."

The author has something to say: [-]: "When did you know I like you?"

Lin Jue: "From the first day I had dinner with you."

One hundred stared at him.

Lin Jue blinked innocently: "There are many people who like me, I can tell by looking at my eyes, and you didn't hide anything at all!"