Can't hold hands

Since December, Han Hui has come to see me more times, some bachelors in the dormitory thought she was my girlfriend.

"Wow, Bo Yi! You are not kind! Did you say that you will not leave the group for four years in college?"

"She's not single..."

"I know, I know, you are her boyfriend!"

"I'm not, I'm just her friend!"

Several people in the dormitory yelled, I took the materials and closed the door helplessly.

"One hundred!" Han Hui waved to me. This girl is not afraid of the cold even in a short skirt.Sun Xue is standing next to her, the bass player of awaken, in my impression she is a cold, dark girl with short hair around her ears, and now this beautiful girl is in a relationship with Han Hui.

"are not you cold?"

I handed part of the elective course report to Han Hui, and when I saw the flesh exposed between her boots and short skirt, I felt the cold wind blowing.

"It's okay," Han Hui flicked her ponytail, "By the way, do you want to come out to play on Christmas Eve in a few days?"

The Christmas department has also arranged activities. I think this couple probably doesn't need me to make light bulbs at all.

"No way... I have something to do that day."

"Pfft ha ha ha..." Han Hui suddenly laughed, "I'll just say..."

I didn't want to pay attention to this person who lost his IQ in love, so I went to see Sun Xue.

"Lin Jue asked her to ask you out. The reason is that he is too far away and he is busy recently."

Han Hui finished laughing, and took Sun Xue's hand, "That guy Lin Jue must have dared not come by himself, it's really rare...Did you do anything to him? Haha, I told Lin Jue that you wouldn't come if I came." I agreed, probably because I was afraid that I would become a light bulb, you didn't see his expression!"

"Tsk, isn't this a light bulb?"

When I saw the two of them holding hands together, I felt a little lost for a moment. It's better to be girls, if you want to hold hands, you can hold hands.

"Oh, we will play with you when you come out! I won't let you watch us dating pitifully."

I shrugged my shoulders, "You guys should take pictures, don't play with me, I have to go to the courtyard building."

When they were far away, I turned around and walked towards the courtyard building. In the past, at Christmas time, some classmates would send greeting cards and other things to join in the fun. When we arrived at the university, almost all festivals became the days for couples to fall in love. Those of us Bachelor, for the sake of your own mental condition, it is better not to go out.Previously, the department said that it would give gifts to the new freshmen, and there were four of them who asked me to go out and fall in love.

Alas, the freshman has left the group, I am a sophomore, I have never been in a relationship, what a failure...

There is one person who has a crush.

Thinking of Lin Jue, I became even more depressed. Han Hui asked me what I did to him, but I didn't do anything. To be precise, he asked me out twice, but I rejected them both.

I think I can slowly let go of this unreliable unrequited love, provided that I don't go to see him.

Lin Jue is really very different from me.

And he's still a man, I don't even dare to think about the future with a man now.

Although for me, liking men is not so shocking and unacceptable, it does not mean that it can be accepted by most people, at least my parents are unlikely to pass it safely.

Christmas Eve happened to be stuck on a Friday, and I had so many classes that I ran back and forth between several teaching buildings all day, and I didn't even have time to eat lunch.

The gift from the department was a very uncreative apple. After dinner, I just wanted to lie in the dormitory, so I asked for leave at night.

"Hey, Bai Yi is back!"

When I went back, I saw that those people in the dormitory were turning on the side stove. When I opened the door, I smelled a fresh fragrance.

"This soup base is delicious!"

I couldn't help admiring.

"Of course, it was sent by Xu Ming's mother. We are still wondering if you will come back!"

"Come back means you haven't left the group yet! Isn't that great? Brothers, let's just make do with it!"

Xu Ming handed me the disposable bowls and chopsticks, and I gladly took them. I moved a small bench and huddled with them. The eight boys in our dormitory gathered together to play hot pot and look at each other on this night when they were supposed to be in love. , It is rare to have a feeling of being healed.

Tsk tsk, everyone is a bachelor!Thinking about it this way doesn't feel lonely anymore.

"Cheers, cheers!"

On Saturday and Christmas, we all slept in the dormitory until the sun was up. Last night, I drank most of the night. When I got out of bed at 10:30, I felt dizzy. When I lifted my foot, I kicked a beer can.

Ping Pong Pong...

"Hey...fuck!"

I watched helplessly as the beer can rolled under Xu Ming's bed, and no one else woke up.

Shaking my head, I decided to go to the balcony to wash my face first.

After the cold water splashed on my face, I woke up a little bit, took a towel and wiped my face, glanced to the downstairs of the dormitory from the corner of my eye, and froze immediately.

Lin Jue? !

Am I still in a dream?

He still wears a black mask and a wide-brimmed cowboy hat, but I can easily spot him.

Lin Jue raised his head, I squinted my eyes, and identified it carefully. He raised his head as if... Damn it!Are you looking at me? ?

I was so scared that I almost threw the towel off.

He seemed to notice that I was looking at him, so he pulled off the mask, smiled, and made a mouth shape, so I could see clearly.

Lin Jue said "come down" to me.

Do I have any other option than to go down?

I frantically dried the towel, and when I returned to the dormitory, I found that I was wearing teddy bear pajamas again, so I quickly changed into a sweater.

Why did Lin Jue come?How long has he been here?Is their band releasing a new album soon?The publicity was quite high-profile, how dare he blatantly appear downstairs in my dormitory?Not afraid of the paparazzi anymore?

When I went downstairs, I felt my face was very hot, so I paused again when I reached the door of the dormitory.

"Why is your face so red?"

Lin Jue mentioned my face in the first sentence, and I think it probably turned redder.

"Uh... drank too much last night..."

Well, I don't know what it has to do with the blushing, but, anyway, my mouth is out of order.

"Why did you come here?"

I asked this question ahead of Lin Jue. I thought he would find some excuse to drop by the way like last time, so that the subsequent conversation would not be burdensome from the perspective of a friend.

The only people I can control are my friends.

"Last Christmas Eve, I couldn't sleep alone and wanted to visit you."

He replied like this, I have no choice, I have never rehearsed such a situation, let alone control it.

Lin Jue's eyes are deep and melancholy, and his attire today looks like a 19th-century American cowboy.I couldn't control myself at all, and every time I saw Lin Jue, I couldn't help but connect him with God.

If I believe in any religion, he must be the appearance of God in my heart.

If someone says "godisdead", I'm absolutely going to die with that guy too.

"Let's go for a walk together?"

I kept silent, so Lin Jue extended an invitation to me, which seemed to be mixed with caution.

"Okay, let's go."

I agreed to him without hesitation, and while I was extremely happy, I spurned myself.

Stay away from him!Yan Baiyi!

"I drove here, follow me."

But as soon as Lin Jue spoke, he forgot all the warnings.

"Have you eaten breakfast?"

Lin Jue drove the car out of the parking lot, and I sat in the co-pilot and fastened my seat belt.

"No... I just got up."

"Then let's go eat something first!"

He took me to a western-style restaurant. There were one-on-one couples in the lobby, all couples. I thought it was a bit weird. Lin Jue was familiar with the way and asked for a booth.

I bowed my head and walked in, what are we?Dating?out to hang out?talk about things?

too weird.

"……What do you want to eat?"

After finally regaining consciousness, hearing Lin Jue's last words, he hurriedly looked at the menu.

"Just... spaghetti."

Lin Jue nodded, ordered a steak himself, and asked the waiter to take away the menu, leaving only the two of us in the cubicle.

Silence, a particularly restless silence.

I don't know what to say, but I think I should say something, or do something, even if I'm with Zhao Wenying, I can have something to say, but now, it doesn't feel right to do anything.

What did you say before?Seems like it's all about acting.

"Are you guys going to release an album soon?"

I couldn't bear this silence, and asked whatever came to mind.

"Well, before February."

"Then haven't you been very busy recently?"

Lin Jue shrugged, "Han Hui kidnapped our bass player Sun Xue, so I can only come to you."

The two of them are lovers, and I complained silently in my heart, but I knew that I must never say it out loud. I dare not even try Lin Jue's meaning now, because no matter what he meant, I might not be able to bear it.

Ignoring the ambiguity between the words, I continue the topic,

"I heard your first album."

"Really?" Lin Jue's eyes suddenly lit up, "Do you like it? The music in it?"

Lin Jue, who talked about music, seemed to be shining, I slowly raised the corners of my mouth, and it seemed that he was the one who composed the music in the first album, "I like your music, it's very attractive."

At this time, the waiter brought the fruit plate, and the fruit was beautifully arranged.

"Actually, I'm also half of your band's fan. I will buy your new album and listen to it."

"Fans..." Lin Jue's eyes seemed to see through me, "I'll take you to the recording studio in two days! Han Hui has been taken there twice by Sun Xue..."

The last sentence is more like a soliloquy.

I was terrified after eating a meal. Lin Jue is a person who is very good at grasping the atmosphere. I am thankful that I am not stupid in front of him. There is no such thing as dominating the atmosphere.

Feeling flustered and short of breath after a meal, Lin Jue's score is too high.

"one hundred."

Before leaving the cubicle, Lin Jue suddenly grabbed my arm, and I turned my head in doubt.

Lin Jue's face slowly approached me, and I was stunned. Before his breath really entangled with me, it was almost a conditioned reflex, and I turned my head slightly.

In the next second, I felt his soft lips fall on my cheeks, which seemed to have a scorching temperature.

I'm completely frozen.