Can't hold hands

On January 400st, the three-day public holiday for New Year’s Day, I lay in bed until noon, bored, and jumped to more than [-] points. My phone ran out of battery, so I climbed out of bed.

What is the saying?Tomorrow I will be startled by myself in the mirror. When I look at myself in the mirror, my eyes are dull and my expression is dull. There is still some truth to this statement.

He picked up cold water and patted his face, then raised his head, he seemed to be awake at last.As a result, I walked to the living room, and spread it out on the sofa again, as if there were no bones.

Forget it, that's how vacations are supposed to be.I broke the jar and plugged in the charger.

Missed call?

I clicked on it and saw four large characters-Master Mushang.

It turned out to be...Mom, since four years ago...I seldom contacted my family. I stared at the screen for a long time and called back.

"Hey, Mom, it's me, Yan Baiyi."

There was silence for a while.

"An'an, you...are you on vacation recently?"

When I heard my nickname, my eyes felt hot.

"Well, there is a three-day holiday on New Year's Day."

"Will you come back? Your father... hey!"

"I'll go back...don't my dad beat me to death."

"It's okay if he hits you hard!" My mother sighed heavily over there, "He's lying in the hospital every day now."

My mother's tone was sad, and my heart skipped a beat when I heard it.

"What's up with him?"

"Just last month, alas, I don't know what happened. I was walking outside fine, but suddenly I fell down. After I was sent to the hospital by kind people, the doctor contacted me and said it was a stroke. Maybe I can only die in the future. Lying down."

Most fathers are indestructible in the eyes of their children. Even when they grow up, they know that this is impossible, but this impression will always be somewhat.

I was stunned for a long while, and I was round and round in my impression, high-spirited, and when I got angry, I beat my father with my mother's sun umbrella, and now he is lying in the hospital.

"I'll go back right away, right away, and buy today's ticket."

O my father!A bull-like father, I haven't seen him for four years.

I robbed the train ticket all afternoon and got the seat ticket in the middle of the night. I only carried a backpack and hurried to the train station alone.

Holding the train ticket to go home, go home, these two words are deep in my heart, I haven't been home for a long time, four years, can it repair the rift between me and my father?

I covered my face in pain, a train ticket home, but I haven’t held this thin piece of paper in my hand for four years. After all, I’m just a foreigner.

I never realized that I missed my parents so much and worried about their health.

The train for more than ten hours was rickety, and my legs were weak, but this is home.

go home!I looked out the window at the night that was going away quickly, and my heart beat fast because of the excitement.

Returning to my heart is like an arrow, I am like returning to my heart like an arrow.

I was very excited all the way. I barely fell asleep for three or four hours and couldn’t sleep anymore. The window was dimly lit, and through the thin mist, I could already see the mountains, the water, and the low brick houses... Originally, there were only shallow The outline is shallow, but the sun is rising in the distance, and the cold fog in the winter morning is gradually driven away by the sunlight. At a certain moment, the world suddenly becomes clear.

The sunrise was shocking, and people around me woke up one after another.

At twelve noon, I finally set foot on my hometown. When I got out of the car, I shivered from the cold before I could release my nostalgia.I put on a sweater and came back, but it was only six degrees here. I shook in place for a while, and walked out of the station quickly.

People at the train station are in a hurry whether they come or go, I also got anxious, took out my mobile phone,

"Hi, Mom, I'm back."

"Ah, come back?...It's good to be back! I'm back..."

My mother's tone was too excited, and I rubbed my hands, not knowing what to say for a while.

"You, are you still at the train station?"

"Ah."

I looked at this greatly changed train station for a while with emotion.

"You wait, I will drive to pick you up."

"Ah, no need, I'll just go by myself. Are you in the hospital?"

Unknowingly, when talking to his mother, his words were all polite.

"I'll pick you up! The city has completely changed in recent years, don't lose your way."

My mother said it firmly, so I didn't insist on it.

In my impression, my mother is a very capable woman. Although I haven't seen her for a few years, there shouldn't be much change. Will she cry when she sees me?I made up my mind about the scene in the TV series where mother and child meet each other and cry, poof and laugh out loud.

Of course, such a scene did not appear. I shrank my neck and stood at the gate of the train station, thinking whether my mother would recognize me, when I saw a silver-white Toyota parked in front of me, and the driver's window slowly opened. Shake it slowly, as if in slow motion in a movie.

This scene gave me a familiar feeling. Lin Jue had done similar things, but what appeared in the car was my mother's face.

"Yan Baiyi."

Her eyes were red, and she called me by my name. My mother rarely called me by my name, and I felt sour in my heart.

My mother is still a little older.

"mom……"

"You still remember me as a mother!" She slammed the steering wheel, and finally hit the horn, which shocked me. I saw my mother's eyes stare, and the gap that I hadn't seen for so many years disappeared without a trace I disappeared, and I immediately smiled flatteringly like in the past.

"Of course I remember you! My lord! Let me drive..."

"No! Get in the car and go see your damn father!"

She glanced at me, and her tone became more and more fierce, but I knew she was really sad, so I quickly climbed into the passenger seat obediently.

"My dad he..."

"I just fell asleep now." My mother glanced at me and drove the car out. "You go and have a look first."

I smiled wryly. If my father was awake, he would probably be angry with me again. However, my father will have to sit in a wheelchair after that. He is such a competitive person...

"He's just out of danger now, he's still awkward, and he can't speak well, I'm afraid that something will happen to him again, I want you to come back and have a look..."

What my mother said made me feel a little dazed for a while. Is my father's health so bad?

The scenery outside the car window is indeed very different.

"It's been so many years, we can't manage your affairs anymore, and I also know...it's nothing wrong with you like this, alas..."

This sigh was very light, but it fell into the bottom of my heart, and it hurt a little.

"Your father can't figure it out, so don't blame him... As for me, I think you should find someone to settle down early no matter what, don't play around, you are already 27... Is there anyone around you?"

I shook my head.

"Then... alone, in such a big city, it's very lonely when you go home every day without even being popular, let alone what happens when you get older, like your father..."

My mother's voice seemed to come from another world. I opened my mouth in vain, but found that I couldn't say anything.

After seeing my dad, it was already five o'clock in the afternoon. He was really not well, and he was still on an oxygen cylinder. I didn't dare to speak loudly, for fear of shocking him.

My mother sent me out.

"Mom, let me buy a wheelchair for my dad. I'll show him a better one."

"No, if the old man knows, I'm afraid he will smash all the wheelchairs."

"Don't tell him, whoops!" I blinked and was slapped by my mother.I have also sent a lot of money to my family over the years, I don't know if they have used it.

"Can you stay for one night and leave tomorrow? Do you have three days off?"

I nodded and took the key thrown by my mother.

"Just show us the door for one night."

I looked at the chain of keys in my hand, and I remembered which one was the key to the house.

My hometown has changed, but my home has not changed. It is the home I have lived in for 18 years. Even my room is still the same, clean and tidy.

That night, I slept very peacefully. I didn’t think about work, Lin Jue, Han Hui, these people who had nothing to do with my hometown. I dreamed at night. I dreamed that I went back to elementary school. Catch fish in dirty water, flutter butterflies, and make three sworn brothers with some good brothers in Taoyuan.

Everyone is carefree.

The next morning, I was catching the train again, and I didn’t let my mother come. When I went through the security check, Han Hui’s phone calls were urging her to die, one after another. The guy cursed all over.

After I found a seat and sat down, I called back the phone.

"You must not go home today!"

? ?

"I was checked on the water meter?"

"what?"

She didn't expect my first reaction to be this, and she choked on me.

"What the hell! Lin Jue went to your house to block people, and Sun Xue."

Lin Jue?Sun Xue?

There are so many questions that I don't know where to start.

Han Hui over there may not be very calm either. After stumbling and talking for a long time, I finally understood.

It turned out that Han Hui had been working in a coffee shop for several months, but instead of finding a new relationship, she met an old lover.

"...Just last night, it happened so suddenly. I woke up after I fell asleep and woke up. I remembered to call you. Are you not at home?"

"No."

"That's good. Didn't you break up with Lin Jue in October? Why did that person come to find someone suddenly yesterday? Isn't this reflex arc too long?"

I was also a little surprised, but I soon figured it out. Lin Jue never looked at his mobile phone during his work, and then his text messages must have exploded, so he didn’t bother to read them. His habit is to read I deleted it again, so I deleted it until now to the one I sent him.

"Ah, whatever, as long as he knows."

"The key is that he's looking for you, rounding up is entanglement."

I sneered, Lin Jue will pester her?nonexistent.

"Did Sun Xue come to pester you?"

Han Hui muttered for a while, avoiding the question.

"You have to hold on, don't be tricked back by Lin Jue again, he is..."

I looked out of the window, walked south, and the mountains gradually turned green, "Everyone, don't forget how Sun Xue tormented you back then, and now you just come back before you say it, these people, no, you should say As long as it is a person, including you and me, isn't it like this? It's not normal to change your thoughts every day?"

After hanging up the phone, I couldn't recover, Sun Xue, this name is too far away, so far away that even my memory blurred my face, Lin Jue... oh, he...

How greedy people are, it's just wishful thinking to like someone, what else do you want from others?