when we are no longer young

Park Chanyeol ran away. Before Baekhyun opened his mouth, he was afraid that the answer would be unacceptable to him. He was afraid that Baekhyun would say "Do you want to be friends with me, a disgusting pervert like you?" Then he would really go crazy.

Baekhyun stood there for a long time, watching Park Chanyeol who fled in a hurry, until the voice-activated lights in the corridor were turned off and it became dark.

"Fool, why don't you ask me if I like you too?" Bian Baekhyun murmured.

"Sure enough, I said they liked each other, but you insisted on unrequited love, Li Hyuk-jae, you lost." An untimely voice broke the silence.

"Ah!" Bian Baekhyun was startled,

"Who, who is there!"

The voice-activated lights turned on in response, and the light in the corridor was restored. Baekhyun looked up, and there were two people standing on the stairs.

"... Li Donghai, can you have some eyesight? Maybe we can hear more if you speak later."

"Hey, boy, it's the first time I've seen senior say hello to an idol by yelling."

"Hi...predecessor, you guys, when did you stand there?"

"I guess you want to ask how much we've heard, and to tell you the sad news, we've heard it all, from the moment you opened the door."

"..."

"Don't get me wrong, we didn't eavesdrop, I don't have that kind of eccentricity, we just happened to go downstairs to throw out the trash and catch up, it feels like it will ruin your relationship and make each other feel embarrassed, so we're going to wait for you to finish arguing Let's go."

"..." So you just listened to the whole thing in silence?

"Ahem, we didn't do that on purpose."

"Senior, don't misunderstand, we are..." Bian Boxian wanted to explain but choked up, people said they had listened to the whole process, how can they explain?Everything you say is a cover-up,

"Or, you didn't hear anything just now?" Bian Boxian said tentatively.

"Oh? Want to seal our mouths?"

Bian Boxian messed up his hair with his hands, it would be great if he could seal the mouth, but the question is, can he seal the mouths of those two people?

"Okay," Lee Hyuk-jae said with a smile, looking at Baekhyun with a troubled face, "We are not people who like to talk nonsense, you can rest assured."

"Boy, go down for a drink?"

Li Hyuk-jae took the garbage bag in Li Donghae's hand into his own, turned around and kissed the corner of the man's eyes, "You go back first, I'll go up later."

"I'm allergic and can't drink alcohol..."

"I'm talking about coffee, Donghae doesn't like me drinking too much."

"Oh."

"Wait, you...!" Bian Baekhyun widened his eyes.

"Well, believe what you see, Donghae and I."

Li Hyuk-jae smiled frankly, as if he was talking about an ordinary thing.

"You..., you...,

why are you telling me "

He and Lee Hyuk-jae are just juniors who are familiar with each other because of Heechul brother's relationship, but he doesn't think they are good enough to say such things.

"It's a one-on-one exchange of secrets, so you can feel at ease.

I don't doubt EXO's ability, if you do something secretly, we will probably lose both. "

"..." Senior, are you kidding me?

"Hahaha, I'm just joking with you, I don't want you to regret it, don't be like Yun..."

Li Hyuk-jae stopped talking in time when he realized that he had said too much, and he was relieved after seeing that Baekhyun didn't look strange.

"You mean we should be together?"

"I'm saying you shouldn't let yourselves regret it.

The saddest thing is not regret, but after thinking about it, it is too late. "

"People always say that if I knew it, so and so, but there are no ifs in this world.

Just like the person who was in a car accident, if he had known that he would have a car accident that day, he would not go out at all; if the passenger who had a plane crash had known that the plane would crash, he would have changed his ticket no matter how important it was.

Time does not turn back, when the established facts are a foregone conclusion, no amount of 'if only I knew' is of any use. "

"Do your members know about you and Senior Donghai...?"

"Of course I know. We used to live together. It's hard not to know."

"Then they..." Bian Baekhyun blinked, not knowing what to say.

"You want to ask them if they mind.

Why should you mind?We will not affect anyone.We're not gay, we just happened to meet each other.

In other words, I don't care if Donghae is male or female, or even what species he belongs to, as long as he is Lee Donghae, he is mine.So is he.

So they don't have to worry about anything. "

"And not only do they not mind, they sometimes cover for us. If we are alone on the stage, they will come over, especially the rotten and straight brother."

Lee Hyuk Jae seemed to have thought of some funny picture, and the exposed gums expanded a bit.

"Two... men, can they be together?

If we are together, the impact will be, for example, his family's wish for him to get married and have children will come to nothing. As a result, don't we base our own happiness on the pain of others? "

"I don't think so. You are all independent individuals, how you choose your relationship is your right.

And because of your choices, others are disappointed, and it is not you who have to adjust their emotions, but them.Because they are embarrassing themselves.Morality should not be kidnapping.

If you choose love, you base your happiness on their pain; then if you give up your love to fulfill their wishes, why not base their happiness on your pain?

If you use this way of thinking, the problem is unsolvable.

But it's not completely impossible, and how to maximize happiness is what you should do. "

Lee Hyuk Jae looked at him,

"Want to hear my story? Of course, it's with Donghai."

Baekhyun nodded.

"Actually, at the beginning, we were best friends just like you. We are the same age, so it was easy to talk, and we got to know each other very quickly."

"Lee Donghae has very little eyesight, but he just has the kind..., it can be called charm, he can make the whole group dote on him and treat him well.

I also spoil him and give him all the good things, but after petting and petting, I found that my relationship has deteriorated a bit. I didn't treat him as an ordinary friend, but as my person. "

"So I started to alienate him, I started to fear my feelings, and I was afraid of hurting Donghae. Until one day, Donghae came to me, haha, in fact, it was quite similar to you just now. He quarreled with me and asked me why Alienated him, quarreled and quarreled, and he confessed to me."

"Then you two are together?" Bian Baekhyun asked.

"It's not a good habit to interrupt the story."

Bian Baekhyun touched the bridge of his nose, indicating that he would be quiet.

"No, and then I continued to distance him.

I'm afraid of hurting him. If something happens, I can't imagine it.I'd rather just watch him from such a distance for the rest of my life, and I don't want to make a fuss until it can't end. "

"Then why are you two together now?"

After Bian Boxian finished speaking, he covered his mouth, and he interrupted again.

But Lee Hyuk Jae didn't correct him this time, because he was very absorbed, as if he was lost in memory.

"The more I distanced myself from him, the closer he came to me.

You know, Li Donghai, he probably used what little insight he had in his life on me.

Later, I couldn't help but continued to pet him, because my heart softened when he cried.

He said, I know what our price is, but if I give up on you, I will lose even more.

It was this sentence that moved me. Even if we have to face the worst situation in the future, no matter how serious the situation is, it is not more terrible than losing him, and that will be the most unacceptable to me. "

"So you two are lovers now?"

"No."

"What? But you obviously..."

"I didn't say we weren't together, we lived together, we slept together, we would kiss each other, even kiss.

Everyone knows about our relationship, but no one makes it clear, including ourselves.

We never said to each other that I love him, or that he loves me, we lived the lives of lovers like the closest friends.

None of us would marry, if at all possible, and live like this until we were old. "

"Then... isn't it a pity? Why don't you say it? It's all about this, it's just a matter of piercing a layer of window paper..."

"Because I dare not." Li Hyuk-jae closed his eyes,

"We can't lose each other, but we can't predict the consequences, so that's the way it is.

That's what I'm telling you, no ifs.

I have already taken care of everything. If something happens in the future, I will come out to take care of everything and give Donghai maximum protection.

I thought of the worst outcome, that is to sacrifice myself, but I must not include Dong Hai in it, otherwise I will go crazy. "

"Okay, I'm done with my story, this is an equivalent exchange where I accidentally heard your secret.

If you figure it out, go back quickly, every second of your hesitation is torture to someone. "

Lee Hyuk Jae returned to his standard gum smile, as if it wasn't him but someone else who was caught in the memory just now.

Baekhyun stood up, "Well, I understand, I'm leaving senior. Also, thank you."

Thank you for letting me think through a lot at once, thank you for letting me know what is the last thing I can lose.

"But I want to remind you, Baekhyun,"

Lee Hyuk Jae became serious,

"This road is just a one-way street. Once it starts, there is no turning back. You must be prepared to be destroyed at any time."

Bian Boxian stopped his pace, stood still for a few seconds, then turned around and said,

"Senior, you owe me a cup of coffee."

Then he walked out as if nothing had happened in Lee Hyuk Jae's murderous eyes.

"...Damn, isn't my tuition fee worth a cup of coffee?

I can't find such a heart-wrenching love lecture even with a lantern. I'll be fine if I don't charge you, kid. "

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The room was dark, and he sat on the edge of the bed without turning on the light. The darkness makes people who want to hide more comfortable.

Waiting is indeed torture for Park Chanyeol, he would rather not receive an answer, this may be the best result, he smiled self-deprecatingly.

They, never go back to the past.

With a bang, Baekhyun kicked open the door and entered, Park Chanyeol looked up,

'So angry?Are you going to hit me again?

Also, how disgusting should I make him feel, I hated me so much once, yet I shamelessly confessed my love twice...'

The figure in front of him approached and pushed him onto the bed,

"Park Chanyeol, are you willing to perish with me?"