when we are no longer young

Character Profile Handbook - Byun Baekhyun:

Bian Baekhyun—a primate, male, 23 years old, 1.74 meters tall.

Born in Gangwon-do, South Korea on May 1992, 05, in a very ordinary family.His parents are both workers, and he has an older brother, but he is not engaged in performing arts and is an ordinary person.

In 2011, he entered StarMuseum as a trainee. In 2012, he debuted with the singing and dancing singer group EXO and served as the lead singer.

Baekhyun is known for his sunny smile and familiar personality.

Talkative and easy to get along with, sociable, cheerful and lively, these are his labels.

In the entertainment industry, Bian Baekhyun, who has not debuted for a long time, is also very popular, and has a good relationship with many seniors.

But what people don’t know is,

Baekhyun's personality is actually sensitive and introverted, he would ponder over someone's casual words for several days, and even couldn't sleep.He is neither breezy nor sociable.

Baekhyun was often excluded when he was a child.Because he didn't join the group, the children in the class didn't like him and didn't play with him.He does everything alone.

No one spoke, and no one communicated.Living on campus, I can only go home once a month.Bian Boxian often didn't say a word for several days in a row, but once.learn in silence

Walk and try your best to become a transparent person.

Because he hates other people's stares, everyone is in groups, but he walks alone, such an existence is always conspicuous.When those people passed by him, they would look at him curiously, as if they were saying, "Why is this person walking alone, does he have no friends?"

At that time, Baekhyun's biggest dream was to have a close friend like others, who could eat, study and have fun together.

Later, he really had a friend. That person took the initiative to talk to him who was silent, and took the initiative to sit in front of him with a plate to eat.

He still remembers that person's smile, warm as sunshine.

That person opened his long-sealed heart. At that time, Baekhyun's greatest joy every day was when he was eating, because he could see him.

Every time he ran to the entrance of the cafeteria and waited there, because the cafeteria was divided into the first floor and the second floor, he was not sure which floor that person would go to eat, and he was afraid of missing that person.

He hasn't had a friend for too long, so long that he wants to cherish this friendship with all his strength.

When eating, and taking a walk after dinner, are the only opportunities for Bian Boxian to speak every day, and they are also his happiest time every day.

Bian Boxian thought that he finally had a friend, and he finally didn't have to be alone anymore.

But the good times didn't last long, one day Bian Boxian didn't see him in the cafeteria, he thought that person was delayed by something and didn't come to eat.But the next day, he still didn't come.The third day, the fourth day... He waited for a whole week, but the person still didn't come.

Bian Boxian couldn't find him, so he had no choice but to wait no longer.Without motivation, he no longer ran to the cafeteria, but walked slowly behind the crowd.

Then he saw that person, that person and a group of people who seemed to be his friends walking shoulder to shoulder in front, Bian Baekhyun wanted to go up, but he was afraid of disturbing others, because he didn't know those friends.

He could only follow behind silently.

The group in front spoke.A curly-haired boy said, "Hey, that kid isn't here today. It's so annoying to have to avoid him every day."

Another said: "Yeah, it's like a dog skin plaster, once it's on it won't come off. It's so fucking disgusting."

The man spoke, and he said: "Hey, who said it wasn't? At the beginning, I was just curious. I saw him alone, so I went to say hello. I didn't expect that I would not relax when I was stuck here. Every day I was blocked here. There was no way to say no, so I had to hide.”

"Hey, how long do you think he can stay there? I don't want to hide from people like a thief forever. It's too awkward."

"Who knows? I think that kid is very persistent. Mu Feng, you're going to get into big trouble now~"

"Oh, what a pity. If I knew he was so clingy, I wouldn't have provoked him if I killed him. Now I know why he has no friends. Heh, it's strange that such a person has friends."

With a bang, the world seemed to be quiet, so quiet that Baekhyun could only hear these voices, the voices mocking him, so it turned out that friends and so on were always his own self-indulgence, and it was all his own illusion...

Look, Byun Baekhyun, how stupid you are, sticking to others like a dog's skin plaster, annoying to the point that others start to avoid you...

Bian Baekhyun, whose thoughts were flying wild, didn't pay attention to his feet, and stumbled on the steps. The sound made the people in front turn their heads,

"Bian...Bian Baekhyun,..."

The person spoke incoherently, but he didn't explain a word when he wanted to explain it. That's right, the person who said bad things just happened to be heard the whole time, so he should be guilty.

Bian Boxian ran down without looking back, he didn't know where his destination was, he only knew that it was the opposite direction of the cafeteria, he wanted to stay away from that person, the farther the better...

Bian Boxian, you can really be a lowly person. If others give a little bit of charity, you will treat it as a treasure and hold it in your hand.

The most ridiculous thing in the world, but that's all.He regards the garbage thrown away by others as the best thing, and laughs foolishly while holding it in his arms.

Tears were scattered in the air by the wind, and he was "watched" again, and people passing by looked at him like a fool.

He didn't go to eat that day, he finished his evening class in a daze, and fell asleep in a daze.His mind was always roaring, and he avoided everyone's eyes because he felt that everyone was laughing at him.

The smile that was as warm as the sun disappeared, and Baekhyun's life fell into darkness again.

That night, Baekhyun's wish changed. He no longer wanted a friend, but wanted to become a transparent person so that no one could see him.He really wanted to hide himself.

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In fact, Bian Baekhyun has a specialty that others don't know, he is good at reading other people's expressions.Can easily see other people's inner activities and emotions.

He likes psychology very much, and there are many cases and teaching materials of psychology at home.

But his talent may be a disadvantage, because he can analyze other people's expressions "that person doesn't like me".

Sometimes he would sit by the window, watch all kinds of people passing by, and observe their psychological activities.

At that time, he actually knew that that person didn't really like to get along with him, his expression was different, his words had many loopholes, he gradually began to be cold to himself... and so on, but he forced himself to deceive himself, that's all. It's an illusion, I'm too sensitive.

The friendship he hasn't had for a long time is just a little good, even if it's just a phantom, he doesn't want to break it.

It's not so much that he has no friends, it's better to say that he doesn't trust others.

He knew that he was abnormal, and this disease was called depression in psychology.

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Entered high school, changed schools, and changed a group of new classmates.

No one knows about his past, his incompatibility.

So, is it possible to start over?

Baekhyun decided to give it a try.

He hides himself and makes himself "the best person to get along with". He is helpful, cheerful and lively, plus he has a good voice and a good appearance. Everyone likes him very much.He became the most popular person in the class.

He has been a master of aikido since elementary school. He has never lost a fight, and if others don't take the initiative to provoke him, he will never cause trouble.Slowly, he became the boss among the boys. They said that he was loyal and sensible, and everyone was willing to follow him.

In a campus art performance, he replaced a sick classmate on the spot, became famous and became the school grassroots.After that day, the love letters in his seat never stopped.

He became a "popular man" in the school, calling for friends, and countless little girls followed him.

No one remembers Baekhyun in the past, Baekhyun who was squeezed out; Baekhyun who fell on the steps in embarrassment; Baekhyun who was laughed at; Baekhyun who begged for a little charity from others; weeping weakly , Baekhyun running in the wind...

In people's eyes, Baekhyun is always shining.

Since then, Baekhyun's synonym has changed from darkness to sunshine.

Later, I left school, entered StarMuseum, and joined EXO.

He is still the radiant Baekhyun, wearing a cheerful mask and becoming the atmosphere of the team...

But he was still afraid that one day he would become nothing again.

The Baekhyun that "friends" know is not the real Baekhyun, but the Baekhyun who is friendly, easy to get along with, talkative, and familiar. If they know that the real Baekhyun is not like this, then they Will you still like Byun Baekhyun?

If fans know that the real Baekhyun is completely different from the one under the camera, will anyone still like him?

The real Baekhyun is not light, but darkness...

Perhaps because of the similarity, he and Kim Heechul are very familiar and get along very well.

A person protects himself with thorns and indifference all over his body, and a person disguises himself with friendliness and smiles.

It is said that there once was a man named Han Geng, who brushed away the thorns on Kim Heechul, hugged him, and warmed him.

It's a pity that he has never met this Han Geng, but he can guess that that Han Geng must be a warm and kind person.

And no matter before or after him, no one can make Kim Heechul take off his protective shell and open his heart.

No one can walk into Kim Heechul's world anymore...

Kim Heechul is still the same Kim Heechul, "Princess Xi", "Cinderella", "Crazy Xi", "Hee with a Poisonous Tongue", "Slightly God's Help", "Golden Ups and Downs", "King of Connections"...

But people probably don't know that Kim Heechul is lonely, he is the only one in his world.

He pretended not to understand anything, and no one really understood him anymore.

By the way, it's not just one person, there seems to be an old cat named Han J Xifan.

How cold would it be in a world with only one person...

I don't want to face the cold alone in a world of one person, I have had enough of this feeling.

Until a person appears, he is not sunshine, but fire, hot, warm flame.His existence is like a lighthouse in the dark night, guiding me in the dark.

His name is Park Chanyeol.

So, Park Chanyeol, can I trust you?

May I, put my own heart and fragility into your hands?

Can I bet again, this time the bet is all I have, if I succeed, I will have warmth and get out of that cold cage; but if I fail, I will be forever lost...