guilt

颜凯

I don't know why he came back suddenly. When he contacted me, I subconsciously wanted to refuse.But he said it was just a meeting of old friends, wouldn't that work?

But I don't know why, I actually have a guilty conscience, like some kind of guilty conscience that I'm afraid of being discovered.I don't know why.

When I was with Yan Kai, I was always a little absent-minded. I didn't know what I was thinking, but I still stubbornly felt that I didn't hate Yan Kai, and even liked him.After all, Yan Kai likes me so much.

Full of rage, I seemed to have hurt Song Zixi mercilessly.I still have some memories of that night.Seeing his tired face the next day, I still didn't say any words of concern.

Finally, when Yan Kai questioned that I was in love with Song Zixi, I broke out hysterically. I thought I was shouting: I don't love him, I didn't love him at the beginning, but he wanted to love me.But later I realized that I was speaking in a tone that I thought was indifferent enough.Then he kissed Yan Kai angrily.As if to prove something.

Yan Kai just looked at me with sympathetic and pitiful eyes, which made me turn around annoyed, Yan Kai just said silently: Why don't you understand.

I don't understand?What do I not understand?His words baffled me.I don't want to talk to him anymore, and he left my office very self-aware.

I think I'm going too far.So, I decided to go to Yan Kai's place at night.But I have never reflected on it. I am truly unforgivable towards Song Zixi.

However, Song Zixi said strange things and hung up the phone before he could ask clearly. This was the first time he hung up on me in such a hurry.

I was flustered for no reason, so after dinner at Jia Yankai's, I rushed home, yes, Song Zixi and I's home.

However, what greeted me was not the man waiting silently under the bright lights, but an unexpected darkness.

Is it because I missed my appointment?So Song Zixi is angry?

Is he losing his temper like this?I find it a little odd.

Ah, by the way, today is his birthday, right?Yeah?He never took the initiative to mention his birthday, but every year on this day, the meals on the table will be slightly richer.

That's why he's angry, right?But even so, he would not be angry in the past.

Forget it, he will come back anyway, and forgive himself with a gentle smile.

But what I didn't expect was that he still didn't come back the next day, which made me a little annoyed.

I went to Yan Kai's place, but there seemed to be something eager to surface for me to see clearly and understand thoroughly.

Even at the end, when I kissed Yan Kai, all I could think of was Song Zixi's gentle face.

I left anyway.

The empty room made me look a little small, and two rings appeared in the overturned trash can.I feel my heart beating violently.

I kept guessing why they appeared in the trash can, and the final conclusion was that they fell down accidentally.

I put on the ring that should belong to me in a daze, and I was so excited that it was outrageous.Can't wait to go to bed.

Maybe Song Zixi will be back at dawn tomorrow.

But at dawn, what I saw clearly was the empty wardrobe.

After a while of annoyance, I panicked even more and wanted to question him, only to find that I couldn't remember the address of his company.Fortunately, I still remember the address of his home, so I have to go to his home.

Sitting on pins and needles for a whole morning, but I always think of him.

The secretary suddenly said that Song Zixi was ill.sick?When did this happen?I do not know how.

That day?What?Has Song Zixi been here?I actually feel like the end of the world right now, did he hear it?

I immediately called the Song family. I knew that I was not very close to Song's father and Song's mother, but at this moment I didn't know what to do.

However, what I was most afraid of happened.

Song Zixi disappeared, he didn't tell anyone, he disappeared completely.

And at that moment, I just woke up.

It turns out that I have always been the only one who has been trapped in the fog, and it has always been the only one who cannot do without him.

When the fog dissipated, all the love that I deliberately hid was finally exposed to the sun, and I couldn't open my eyes, and couldn't find him.

Yan Kai said that I have always loved Song Zixi, he is right, I have never recognized him so much.

And I was like an idiot, finally, my retribution came.

I finally lost him, lost my treasure, and scattered my three souls and seven souls.

If possible, let my soul and soul find him, rely on him, parasitize on him, tell my regrets and mistakes, whisper my love and madness, and never separate.