I miss you so much

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January 2006, 1, Beijing, snow.

I heard that he confessed to Lin Weiwei, but Lin Weiwei didn't agree.

I heard he has confessed more than once.

I heard……

I quarreled with them again.

This time I didn't drop a chair or a plate.

Jiang Shi said me.Said that I would never be successful in my life.

He scolded his daughter like this, like crazy.

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First weekend of school.

Lu Han greeted Xu Yi to go to his house for dinner, Xu Yi thought about it and felt that it was inappropriate for a girl to go, so he shirked, but he waved his hand. "What's wrong, remember to come tomorrow Saturday, I'll wait for you at the stop."

After speaking, he ran back to the field with a smile on his face and put Zhang Liang on his shoulders. Such a flamboyant young man instantly caught her eyes.

——Pure and transparent.

There are definitely not a few people who think secretly like Xuyi, and there are many people sitting in the audience cheering him up and handing him water, but Xuyi is just a little more lucky than them.She and Luhan are at the same table and are good friends, she does things that others dare not do or can't do, such as talking to him and discussing his favorite star's favorite song.

Secret love is that even if you are so familiar with that person, even if your heart is turbulent, the surface must be calm.Maybe listen to him complaining about not being able to catch up with his girlfriend, or listen to him tell the story of the person he has a crush on.Love is so simple when it comes to one side, carefully protect this love even if it is only yourself.

"Xuyi, come here and wait for you."

He was still shaking under the stop sign in his thick clothes, and when he saw Xu get out of the car, his bright eyes widened, and he stretched out his hand buried in his pocket to wave at Xu. "Why did you come here?"

Xu Yi frowned and thought for a while pretending to be contemplative, "My mother didn't wake me up." In fact, it was only because she was struggling at home for a long time about what clothes and shoes to wear today, but it's not appropriate to talk about this kind of thing .

"Let's go, Xu Chen and the others are here." As he spoke, he turned and walked into the alley, Xu Yi watched his back and followed.Follow along the corner, cross the alley, and then step into the gate of the courtyard. Zhang Liang and Xu Chen are already chatting in the courtyard, and there are a few people Xu Yi doesn't know but look very friendly.

"Xu Yi is here." Zhang Liang was inexplicably happy when he saw Xu Yi behind Lu Han, he patted off the peanut shells on his trousers and came forward to greet Xu Yi.As soon as he walked halfway, he was dragged back by Xu Chen and slapped Xu Yi.

"Xuyi, don't pay attention to him, this girl's brain is short-circuited."

Xuyi didn't speak, just smiled and watched them fight noisily.

"You are Xuyi, right?"

"Ah?" Xu Yi responded reflexively, leaning his head from Luhan's back. The person who spoke was a woman in her early forties with well-maintained skin and a smile that never covered those bright eyes. .

"Ah! Hello, Auntie." Xu Yi hurriedly came out from behind Lu Han and greeted her.

"Hey, this Xuyi is really good-looking... I heard you mention it every day and finally let me meet her..."

Hearing her babbling and seeing her forgetting herself with a smile, Xu Yi was a little taken aback.What she meant was that Lu Han often mentioned her... often, Xu Yi couldn't help but sniggered.Laughing silly and still quiet.

"Leave Xu Yi, let's chat in the room." She said, grabbing Xu Yi's shoulder, and led her into the room without any explanation.I am not ready to say a word to Luhan at all.As soon as Dai Xu was half pushed and half dragged into the room, Lu Han helplessly sat in the peanut eating line.Zhang Liang crushed a peanut shell and looked at Lu Han with gossip. "Mr. Lu, is your mother going to see your daughter-in-law?"

Lu Han glanced at him, and threw all the peanuts in his hand to him, hitting his forehead.

Zhang Liang pretended to wail in pain, and sat away from him silently.

Lu Han looked up at the room and then lowered his head, looking a little absent-minded.

It has been like this recently, and I gradually feel that Xuyi has become important and indispensable.I like to see her gentle and quiet appearance in music class, and I like her face full of resentment in the most distressing geography class, but she still straightens up and takes notes seriously.He likes to watch her slacking off in physical education class... He likes it without knowing it. He doesn't think this is love, but he likes him to escape. He insists that his favorite is Lin Weiwei.

Today's dinner was eaten early, and the table was full of meals cooked by Fang Caixuyi and Mama Lu.Zhang Liang's gang also started to make trouble casually, Mother Lu just watched them standing aside and laughed from ear to ear.I also heard before that Zhang Liang and Xu Chen are Luhan's closest friends, they often scold and quarrel with each other but they are the most steadfast brothers.The Luhan in front of Xuyi is a little different from the Luhan in her heart, the Luhan in front of her is not as gentle as the one in her heart, but she likes it the same.

She smiled brightly, and was caught by the mother deer beside her.She thought about what happened in the afternoon, and there were only a few words in her mind to describe Xu Yi.

——Gentle and quiet.

In her memory, when Lu Han just entered high school, he was always a group of friends who "struggled shoulder to shoulder". Lu Han never took the initiative to mention any girls he had as friends.Until the day when school really started, she just asked by accident, is there anyone at his desk?He swallowed a mouthful of food, and told them with a happy face that the seat next to him, which had been vacant for half a month, was occupied. It was the person who did not participate in military training, a girl from the south.Coincidentally, I met her in the morning. She is very handsome and has a beautiful smile.There is a nice name called Jiang Xuyi, Jiang from the Yangtze River, Xu from the thread, and Yi from the Chinese language. He laughed and said how funny the girl's introduction was.

That was the first time they saw him talking so vigorously about a girl, and they were stunned for a moment.So she began to look forward to meeting this girl, and as Lu Han mentioned Jiang Xuyi more and more.She couldn't wait for the beginning of the semester, and she suggested that he invite his friends to dinner, and pointed out that it would be best to bring Jiang Xuyi along.

Of course Xu Yi didn't know this at all, but she could faintly feel how much Mother Lu liked her.Because from the beginning when she was pulled into the house to ask her how she was, to the time when she was eating, Mama Lu was always chattering.Until Xuyi said, Auntie, just call me one by one.She just changed her mind.

After a dinner, it was already eight o'clock in the evening.When the night sky in Beijing was still quite beautiful, Xu Yi also wanted to leave.

"Auntie, I'll go first."

"Come next time, you."

Xu nodded with a smile. "Okay, I will."

That was the first time she realized that other than her mother, there were people who thought she was excellent, loved her and liked her to dedicate all her enthusiasm to her.It was the first time that someone called Yi Yi very frequently, and no one else would be so nice except mother, so she liked that kind of person.

After waiting and waiting under the stop sign, the people around me greeted each other and left first.Lu Han walked around in the cold, the snow under his feet was trampled into a large lump of condensation.

"Why don't you go back first."

"I don't worry about you standing here and waiting alone."

"It's okay, I..."

"Come on, you, wait for your bus, go home and go to bed early, remember?" Lu Han stopped beside her, turned to look at her seriously, and then interrupted her excuse.His only answer was a silent nod and a stiff smile.

After getting on the empty bus, he could still see him smiling very warmly through the glass window, and he stretched out his hand to wave goodbye to her.

What a warm person, how nice it would be to be by my side all the time, Xu Yi thought.

Looking out the window in a daze, not drowsy.I just remembered that on New Year's Eve this year, my father once said that if she still played the guitar, she would never be able to achieve anything in her life.Why.It's probably because he used to play the guitar in his lonely time, and played and sang with an acoustic guitar everywhere, with the dream of becoming a star and a singer.It's a pity...he didn't succeed. When he realized how impoverished he would be in the future, he chose reality, chose to support his family, and abandoned his dream of becoming famous.

At first he thought that Jiang Xuyi would always be the idler who didn't think about making progress, but he scolded him and beat him, but he didn't expect that Xuyi would be the fierce one who dared to fight against him, he never thought of it.Later he found out that Xuyi had bought an acoustic guitar when she was only in the second year of junior high school.From "Ye Ye Ye Ye" to "At Least There Are You", he found that Jiang Xuyi's happiest thing was sitting on a stone bridge with an acoustic guitar in his arms, playing her music and singing her songs , with a happy face.

The quarrel that night continued until his mother came to stop him, Xu Yi just looked at Jiang Shi with a light smile and his eyes were full of sarcasm.

"If you don't have a dream, don't stop me from realizing my dream. No matter how difficult it will be for me to walk on this road in the future, I will be hurt all over my body, suppressed and ridiculed, I will try to go on." Her words The words were clanging, and the sarcasm was no longer in the eyes. It was full of firmness that Jiang Shi had never seen before.

Only then did he know that he couldn't stop her.

This person who was as stubborn as him could not be stopped.

He doesn't know, but Xuyi's dream is to stand on the same road as Lu Han and keep going.She has heard about Luhan's idea of ​​becoming a star, she knows that Luhan has a dream of going to Korea, she understands everything.

Since you can't accompany him, then accompany him on the road of dreams.Whether he is happy or sad, she will bear him with him, and she will help him bear his pain.In this world, the person she loves the most is Lu Han.

A fool and Luhan.

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