too embarrassing

"It's obvious that he has committed adultery with someone, but he blames his lustful nature on a star. It's a wonderful prevarication!"

--"King Lear"

In a gay bar.

Guifenin never came to this kind of place before, because he felt unclean and dirty.

He has a mental cleanliness obsession, and he has a bottom line when dating people. He refuses to date people who are too indulgent and promiscuous, and even rejects people who are dirty and messy.After all, with conditions like his, there's no need to rush.

But Doctor Gu tonight made an exception.

He walked into this kind of place with extreme anxiety and longing, eager to find someone who could replace Niu Keqing.

He didn't believe it anymore, he was wandering all over the circle, grabbing a lot, and couldn't find a substitute?

The man was dressed in high-end outfits, with fluffy and soft hair. He dressed himself up dazzlingly, exuding a unique charm from beginning to end.

He wants to prove that even if that person leaves the field, he can still hang out on the field.

The bar was full of feasting lights, and the colorful flashing ball on the top dazzled people. Guifenin approached and glanced casually——

A group of Sao Ling wearing thongs are dancing pole dance on stage, the goblins who hook up everywhere are wearing heavy makeup, the crazy DJ only wears a vacuum vest, and there are many muscular men in the aisle, taking off while walking clothing……

There are hordes of evildoers, messy and messy, and love and sex are breeding everywhere.

Dr. Gu, who had a cleanliness attack, felt uncomfortable and took a step back reflexively, but his resistance to Niu Keqing made him endure his nausea and walked in.

Such a half-breed beauty with light hair and blue eyes became the target of others as soon as she entered the hunting ground.

Men of all kinds gathered together, like a group of spider spirits, circling vigorously around Dr. Gu, the Tang monk, blowing silk and blowing air, competing for splendor, and doing everything they could.

Doctor Gu always said indifferently: "No appointment."

In such a place, this sex-addicted man has no desires, and he exudes a light that saves all living beings...

If someone passes by and throws a wooden fish to him, he can sit cross-legged and chant sutras immediately.

After sitting empty all night, Gu Yifening glanced at the back of his head, and suddenly noticed a man sitting on the edge of the dance floor not far away, with a profile that looked like Niu Keqing.

Of course, it would look even better with a pair of rimless glasses.

He tried to take that person as Niu Keqing, Xiao thought for a while, but soon ended in failure.

The two people's temperaments are completely different. This man does not have Niu Keqing's gentleness, and his eyes are not as clear as Niu Keqing's. These two things are unique to Dr. Niu, and no one can replace them.

Guifenin was hesitant about whether to go there, and caught the man, treating him as an inferior substitute.

Like this kind of bastard Ling, he can catch the bait by fishing casually, without any tricks at all.

It's not like that person, he was the one who coaxed him to bed with all his efforts and words, and he was so arrogant.

Thinking of this, Gu Yvening felt even more irritable. That's right, anyway, it's not Niu Keqing himself who picks and chooses, so don't pick, let's just pick one, right?

He was about to walk over to strike up a conversation, when suddenly, an inexplicable sense of guilt surged into his heart, as if this behavior had failed someone's deep love.

He's obviously single, and he's just going to make a date, but he actually feels guilty about cheating?

It's really crazy.

With an obstacle in his heart, Guifenin gave up the idea of ​​fishing for zero, and sat back downcast.

The surrounding music roared like thunder, making people's ears buzz.He rubbed his hair and said to the bartender in front of the bar, "A glass of whiskey."

The sense of morality, responsibility, and guilt, all these things that he never cared about suddenly surged up and weighed on his heart.

"Have I betrayed anyone?" Guifenin asked himself no less than three thousand times during this glass of wine.

His mind is full of Niu Keqing, which brings countless burdens, and he feels like being restrained and imprisoned, and he can't be free and unrestrained at all.

This is why he has always avoided love.

But now, he seemed to be unable to avoid it. Every time he drank a sip of wine, every time he chatted about flirting, the psychological burden would deepen.

Fuck, what exactly is he guilty of?What can he do to Niu Keqing?They are not a couple at all.

The man irritatedly dropped his empty glass on the bar counter, startling the bartender, and said awkwardly, "Dude, you'll have to pay for the broken glass."

Guyvernin snorted at him boredly, "Have another martini."

"Little boy, it's easy to hang up with drinking," suddenly, a voice came from behind him.

A good-looking boy walked up to him. This man wore a silver stud earring on his left ear, a dark black see-through jacket, and ripped jeans that were so fashionable that he was in the second grade. He was full of vigor.

Let's call him the stud man.

The man with the stud earrings had been observing Gu Yvening for a long time, and saw that he first ordered a glass of strong wine, as if he was pouring boiled water, and now he ordered a glass of choking wine, presumably this beauty was using alcohol to relieve his sorrow, and was suffering from loneliness.

"Hey, do you want to play?" The man with the earrings hooked Gu Yifening's shoulder and whispered in his ear, "It's definitely good for you."

Guifenin raised his shoulders, avoiding his elbows, "Forget it, we collided."

He is very disgusted with this kind of person who starts to use hands and feet and is still fucking self-righteous.

"It's okay, I'm 0.5, you can play as you like," at the end, the man with ear studs added in a low voice, "As long as the money is in place."

Guifenin sneered, with disgust in his brows and eyes, "Is it for sale? Get out."

The man with the stud ear came up again, and smiled evilly, "Don't worry, I won't do it cleanly, just try it and you'll know."

"I told you to leave, didn't you hear?" Dr. Gu was annoyed and wanted to push him away, but as soon as he raised his hand, he smelled a familiar fragrance from the other person.

Vanilla root is mixed with natural pine wood, which is clear and light, but still bewitching.

—It’s the smell of cattle grazing.

"Fuck," Guifenin scolded secretly with the corners of his eyes twitching.

Niu Keqing, Niu Keqing, do you know that you collided with a duck for perfume?

He picked up the wine glass, drank the last point in one gulp, and threw the glass on the bar, "Let's go."

"Huh?" The earring man thought he had lost the business, but he didn't expect the other party's attitude to change suddenly. He nodded happily, "Hey, ho ho ho, let's go."

They opened a room.

From the bar to the hotel, Guifenin put on Ben's sad face all the way, as if he was not going to make love, but to execute the execution.

The man with the stud earrings was very proactive, and once he entered the room, he stuck it up like a water snake. It was rare for him to meet such a superb customer, even if he didn't charge money, he would make a lot of money.

"Sir, how do you want me to serve you?" The man with the earrings was enthusiastic and unrestrained, pouted his ass and waited for a fuck.

Guifenin said nothing, as if dead.

His mind is full of Niu Keqing's image, Niu Keqing's appearance on the bed, and what Niu Keqing said to him on the bed.

Seeing him lying still, the man with the earrings took off his clothes while slandering him: Damn, this man can't be frigid, can he?Impotence?spinster?Why haven't you been hard for so long?

Guifenin closed his eyes, the man with earrings who had been playing a one-man show thought he was asleep, so he quietly leaned over, and wanted to kiss the man's thin lips.

Doctor Gu tilted his head and avoided it.

Ear stud man: "..."

"Little boy, are you going to do it or not?" The man with the earrings was left out, his face stinkier than a rotten egg: "No matter how much I flirt by myself, you should stiffen up slightly to show respect!"

At this time, Dr. Gu's eyes were empty, thinking about the scene when he had sex with Niu Keqing for the first time. The hotel was similar to here, and the time was similar to now.

It's just that people are different, so the feeling is completely different.

The man with the earrings kept kissing his body, but in his mind only Niu Keqing's misty eyes, the rimless glasses that didn't get a trace of dust, and the neck that was so white that blood vessels could be seen.

With his head in a mess, Guifenin rubbed his face and lifted the moving duck off his body.

"Are you fucking here to humiliate me?" The man with the earrings shrank.

He has been in the business for many years, and he has never met such a strange customer. He has made himself hard, and the one lying on the bed still has a lack of desire.

"Don't think that we have no dignity as ducks!" The man with the earrings suffered from his career, feeling quite aggrieved, and rushed into the bathroom crying.

With runny nose and tears, he called his sister to complain: "Fuck! This stinky man looks like a Buddha. He grew up for nothing. If he can't do it, don't be a prostitute! If you have this money, you might as well go to the Andrology Hospital to give it to you!" Treat yourself! I'm such a miserable man, it's rare to open the door to do business, and I met a dead eunuch who was paralyzed lying on the bed and meditating, I guess I will be a vegetarian tonight..."

Listening silently to the scolding voices coming from the bathroom, Gu Yvening felt that something was really wrong with him. He, a person with a mental cleanliness, actually reduced himself to looking for ducks to relieve his emptiness.

Still fucking hard.

Half an hour later, with the encouragement of his sisters, the man with the earrings decided to fight again, and he must eat this piece of fat in his mouth tonight!

He came out twisting his waist, riding on Guifenin's crotch, buried his head in the other's neck and kissed him vigorously.

Guifenin frowned, the aroma of the man with the earrings smoked him, and a wave of nausea swept over his senses, making his stomach churn.

It smells like cows eating grass, but it smells so bad...

He remembered the way the man lifted his neck for him to smell—

Guifenin: "Well, it's the smell of cows grazing, I like it."

Niu Keqing: "Dog nose, what are you talking about?"

Doctor Gu didn't realize that the corners of his mouth, which had been tensed all night, turned up slightly, as if someone had painted it.

Thinking about it this way, what he actually likes is not the smell of cattle eating grass at all, but...the taste of Niu Keqing.

That person's smell is unique, even if someone else wears the same perfume, it cannot be replaced.

Because what matters is not the smell, but the person who emits it.

Niu Keqing is the only thing that makes him want to stop.

The man with the stud earrings showed off very hard, and the smell of perfume on his body was like a storm, constantly getting into Guifenin's nose, stimulating the man's senses.

Gu Yvening suddenly pushed away the coquettish duck on his body, rushed into the bathroom, threw himself on the toilet and vomited violently.

"Damn it?!" The man with the earrings followed, with a shocked expression on his face: "You fucking vomited? Is this disgusting?!"

Guifenin wiped his mouth, his eyes were bloodshot, and he said hoarsely, "It's not your problem... Ugh—"

Ear stud man: "..."

Thinking that tonight's business must be in vain, the man with earrings looked unhappy, "That's your problem? Pretty boy, go to the doctor if you're sick, you're impotent and nauseating, be careful to die young ah."

"Myself... gh—it's the doctor... gh—"

As soon as Guifenin smelled the other person's body, he couldn't do it anymore. With the alcohol raging in his stomach, he even wanted to vomit out the jaundiced water.

The man with the earrings gave him a blank look: "You still say you're a doctor, so you have something wrong with your body, and you don't know how thick you are?"

Guifenin couldn't vomit, stood up with the toilet, turned on the faucet and washed his face. The cold water like needle pricks splashed on his face, making him sober that he couldn't wake up again.

That's right, it was never the smell of perfume that hooked his lust. It was that person.

He has a valve of desire.

Niu Keqing was not the only one who opened this valve, but since Niu Keqing came to his world, the valve automatically changed the lock, and only one person can open it.

Niu Keqing was the lock that bound him.

Gu Yvening murmured in disappointment, "It's not that there's something wrong with the body, but something wrong with the heart."

Before leaving, he gave the earring man a considerable amount.

The little duck looked at the red banknotes in his hand, "Doctor, you are quite generous. Although we can't do it this time, you are welcome to come to me next time."

"There will be no next time. The money is for thanking you."

"...thank me for not getting you hard all night?"

Guifenin put on his silver-rimmed glasses, the melancholy in his blue eyes was fleeting, "Thank you for wearing this perfume on your body."

The man with the earrings felt that the man's mind was not normal.

Walking out of the hotel gate, Guifenin was stunned for a while, the cold wind blowing on his face hit his face, scratching his skin with stabbing pain.

Looking at the endless stream of people and vehicles on the street, his thoughts drifted away, and he suddenly wanted to hear that man's voice, to hear him call "Doctor Gu".

So, Gu Yifening took out his mobile phone and dialed Niu Keqing's number.

"Beep-beep-beep-"

The phone was hung up.