memory hole

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"Perhaps she thought she would actually marry you in the end."

"Would she want to marry someone who doesn't love her?"

Zhong Xian was silent.

Deng Yi looked at his expression: "Do you mind this?"

"You said that you tried that kind of thing twice, and one of them was Zhao Qi?"

"No. She helped me through the difficulty that my father wanted to sanction me. How could I really take advantage of her. You want to know about those two incidents. There is no need to make such a big turn. I have no intention of hiding it from you. It’s just that the experience was too embarrassing to talk about.”

Zhong Xian was silent for a while: "If you fall in love with someone else in the future...if. If there is such a person."

"That's not going to happen."

"Because of me, you are so painful that you don't want to hurt me. What will you do?" Zhong Xian looked into Deng Yi's clear eyes, "This world is so chaotic, anything can happen. You are so good, you will encounter temptation sooner or later, Can you guarantee that you will always stand the test?"

Deng Yi said: "If you are afraid that one day we will be separated. I promise you that you will not. I know that you lack a sense of security. You grew up alone. I have thought about it for a long time. We will leave here in the future. Go to Australia, America, or England, or Ireland. Go somewhere where no one knows us, and live our lives in peace."

"Can you give up everything here? You are a rich young master."

"They won't be affected much. The fourth brother will take care of his father, and he will eventually take over from his father. I can come back occasionally for a reunion."

"But, am I willing to leave too?" Zhong Xian said thoughtfully.

Deng Yi was a little puzzled: "Aren't you willing...I mean, since your career is not guaranteed, I thought you had nothing to do with it. I want us to leave together. In fact, I have another idea. If you have no objection, we You can also get a certificate in those countries." At the end, he seemed a little embarrassed. "You don't have to worry anymore."

Grief surged in Zhong Xian's heart: "Why do you... You only loved me. I have no experience to remind you. You don't know that feelings should be unreserved. Aren't you afraid of a complete failure!"

Deng Yi's expression changed: "What does this mean?"

Zhong Xian said painfully: "What if it was me? What if I fell in love with someone else?"

Playing with fire

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When the first typhoon hit the Pearl River Estuary at the turn of spring and summer, Zhong Xian stood on the balcony of the Sheraton Hotel surrounded by raging wind and rain, watching the chaotic scene outside the glass.He remembered that less than a year ago, he also waited for Deng Yi in a typhoon.At the time, he didn't understand why he was so curious about the dangerous policeman.

Now, there is another person standing beside him.

The fourth brother Deng Qian stared at the corner of the platform.

"There are termites here," he said.

Following the words, Zhong Xian turned his head to look at the smooth khaki marble floor, but saw nothing.

This is a small party.The second son of the eldest brother Deng Huan, Baitianyan.It was very low-key, with less than [-] relatives and friends attending.

Deng Qian stared at the ground and said, "When I was a child, there was a termite hole in the front yard of the Liyuan villa. It was not very big, like a half gray stake hidden behind an oak tree."

Zhong Xian listened silently, and he smelled the unique aftertaste of the perfume on Deng Qian's body again, like invisible tentacles surrounding his body.Deng Qian is dressed very casually today, a silver cardigan with a deep V-neck T-shirt, matching this festive family banquet.

Prior to this, Zhong Xian had not seen Deng Qian for a week.He took an excuse to rest and stopped recording.In fact, he is determined to protect Deng Yi.

When he said painfully to Deng Yi: "What if I am the one who fell in love with someone else?" Such an unreasonable question.Deng Yi's reaction moved him.Deng Yi didn't believe it at all.That kind of firm trust makes Zhong Xian feel ashamed.

"How could there be termites in SZ?" Zhong Xian stood a little further away from Deng Qian calmly.

"I can't figure it out."

"and after."

"Father asked me to find a way to eliminate it." A smile gradually surfaced on Deng Qian's face. "I used a lot of high-tech imaginable to explore the situation in the anthole, found the location of the ant king, and then poured the mixed fuel into it and ignited it."

"How?"

"More than ten years ago, SZ had a company that specialized in customizing high-tech. I went to the science and technology park to find a research and development company, gave them a sum of money, and made a... the tiniest robot, and used the robot to find the king of ants. Fire When I was burning all the way in, I found that the small water channels I dug around the anthole were not needed at all. The termites didn’t escape, they all rushed to the center of the flame, to the burning ant king.” Deng Qian finished speaking, Looking at the dark cloudy sky brought by the typhoon outside, my eyes turned into deep pools again.

Zhong Xian said, "They were all burned to death?"

"Will humans behave like this?" Deng Qian said.

Zhong Xian pretended to think. "What kind of an act. An act of dying together?"

"Do you think anyone would do that for you?"

Zhong Xian was the first to think of Deng Yi.Then think of mother. "Parents can do that to their children."

Thinking it was just chatting, Zhong Xian deliberately hid on the dimly lit slow stage, not wanting to attract attention at Brother Deng's banquet.From the moment Deng Yi entered the door, he went straight to the center of the crowd - the baby, and left everything else behind.

Zhong Xian turned around: "You, the fourth brother, are willing to go through fire and water for you, there are thousands of troops."

Deng Qian let out a sneer.He seems to be deliberately keeping a low profile today, unlike in the past when he was surrounded by everyone whenever he appeared.

"I don't deny that there are many people who will make such a gesture in front of me." Deng Qian leaned close to the glass, looked outside seriously, and after a while he said, "What if I'm not me?"

Zhong Xian thought he had heard wrong, he had never seen Deng Qian feeling anything. "You, not you?"

"If, I have nothing... Is there anyone willing to act like they are going to die for me? No need to answer, I'm not asking. When I was a child, I always thought about this question, why did those friends bow their heads when they saw me... Do you think Those termites died together because of their feelings? What if it wasn’t the king ant who was burned to death.”

Zhong Xian finds Deng Xian's question quite interesting. "You don't think they gave their lives for the ant king itself."

The smile in Deng Qian's eyes was like the waves of light emerging from the water of a deep pool: "These ridiculous thoughts are the thoughts in my head when I was a child - whether it is family or society, if you become the center of power, others will show their strength to care about you. Oh, that expression of surprise on your face? The ignorance of childhood, with the growth of experience, it becomes more and more ridiculous in retrospect. But in those days, the hateful and poor boy thought he had found the law of the universe. "

"When I was young, I thought I was the biggest in the universe." Zhong Xian restrained his urge to hug Deng Qian.

At this time, Deng Yi appeared holding the protagonist, the son of the elder brother Baitian.Walking from a distance, he smiled like a child holding a toy. "Look, is there anything like me?"

Deng Qian said: "Except that you haven't grown up, there is no other place like you."

Zhong Xian has never seen such a side of Deng Yi, never expected him to like children so much.After Zhong Xian praised the baby a few words, Deng Yi wanted to give the baby to Deng Xie to hug, but Deng Xie refused.He had to carry him back indoors.

"I can't tell. He only likes small animals and children under the age of eight since he was a child. The only thing he can't communicate with is adults." Deng Qian said. "It's unexpected that it's become so normal now."

The little memory that Zhong Xian has is enough to prove that what Deng Qian said is true. "He had autism as a child."

Deng Qian looked at Deng Yi's back and said, "I think he will be the next one to get married. His dream is to get married early and start a football team." After a long time without hearing Zhong Xian's response, Deng Qian turned around and said, "Deng Yi's girlfriend is here. gone."

Zhao Qi is very well dressed.The low-cut gown with silver peacock tail pattern luxurious silk satin is very conspicuous in a family dinner party.After greeting everyone, she went straight to Deng Yi, who was holding the baby, and stuffed her fingers, which were a little wet from the rain when she got off the car, under the latter's sleeve, looking at the baby in surprise: "It's so cute—— —!”

Deng Yi gave the child to her to hug, and looked towards Xutai to find Zhong Xian.Zhong Xian had already hid in the shadows.

When Deng Yi was walking towards Xutai, he was stopped by the oncoming fourth brother Deng Qian: "Second brother brought some real estate partners here, you go and pick them up."

When the fourth brother Deng Qian returned to Xutai again, the typhoon blew open the unlocked French windows, and he and Zhong Xian pulled the windows back and closed them.The overhead lamp was broken by a branch blowing in, and the platform sank into darkness.Zhong Xian remembered that this scene had happened before, when Deng Yi entered his home for the first time less than a year ago.

After closing the window, the two of them slapped the water on their bodies, but neither of them planned to leave the platform.

Zhong Xian didn't want to walk into the crowd indoors, so he took out his mobile phone and pretended to look at it seriously.

"I found you a Hong Kong singer as a vocal teacher, and I will take you to Hong Kong to study with him the afternoon after tomorrow." Deng Qian said in my ear.

Zhong Xian remained silent, the screen of his mobile phone was blacked out, sinking into darkness.He saw Deng Yi walking in with his second brother and his group, and Zhao Qi walking beside Deng Yi.

Fourth brother Deng Qian's hand gently slid across Zhong Xian's wrist, the faint scent of perfume suddenly became stronger, Zhong Xian closed his eyes.

"Two days of study, one night in Hong Kong..." The finger slipped onto Zhong Xian's forearm.

"Okay." He agreed.

143

After taking a bath, Zhong Xian stood alone in front of the mirror, looking at the person in the mirror.The young man looked good, thin and well-proportioned.After bathing, his face is white and translucent, and his skin is outstanding, fine and smooth, inherited from his mother.No wonder Kaidi would say that he was not over 25 years old.