people outside of time

In one class, Xie Yi wrote a note and asked Lin Yi: I heard that XX wrote you a love letter, and you rejected it, but is it true?

Lin Yi replied: Yes.

why?

Why, of course, because I don't like it!

Who do you like?

I don't like anyone.

Deceiving.

This time it was the two of them going back and forth, and Nan Shan sat aside and became a blank.

The notebook was not sent back in Xie Yi's hands for a long time, until after a class, she wrote in the notebook: What if I wrote you a love letter?Are you going to say no to it?

And it comes with an embarrassed look, with expectations and fears.

Lin Yi took the notebook, and his eyes never moved after seeing the content.This imaginary enemy, who had been kicked out by his own hand, was now trying to open up the situation in another way and reintegrate into the trio.

He drew a crying emoji: It better not be true.

Then he handed over the notebook, and lay down on the desk facing Nanshan.

One step forward is the abyss, one step back is the wasteland, and the safest and stable distance is only when two desks are put together.Because of this distance, his social circle became smaller and smaller, until it was only half a step in diameter.

But some people don't even want to leave this half step to him.

In a certain physical education class, Xie Yi took advantage of women's privileges to ask for leave, and stayed in the classroom with a female classmate who had just been together recently.And that female classmate was Zhong Li who was rejected for writing a love letter to Lin Yi.

Xie Yi knew Zhong Li's secret, and it was through this 'knowledge' that Xie Yi succeeded in gaining her friendship.But she keeps her secrets secret, just like a contestant who has a chance to win, she sits on the wall and listens to the embarrassing cry of a loser.

It's not sympathy, but an unknown sense of superiority. As long as Xie Yi doesn't fire the gun at the beginning of the competition, she will always be a contestant with a light of hope in front of the losers.

Xie Yi also likes Lin Yi, and has liked Lin Yi longer than Zhong Li.

The love that breeds on campus, if it succeeds, it will be a childhood sweetheart, and if it fails, it will be messed up and uncomfortable.You can see the person who gave you a fatal blow as soon as you look up, and you can't avoid it even if you want to avoid it.

Zhong Li not only wanted to taste the evil consequences of failure, but also let the evil consequences ruin his whole body and mind, so during recess and on the way back from school together, she and Xie Yi talked about Lin Yi the most. .

The fighting spirit that had been revived many times was crushed by Lin Yi's unchanging indifference. Since then, the journey from a sparrow to a phoenix has become a transformation of a single person, but Xie Yi has become the best audience, with vigilance and enthusiasm. A sense of crisis, step by step, beware of the tiny possibility like walking on thin ice.

"I've been observing for almost half a semester, and I haven't seen Lin Yi look at any girl more than once. It seems that your guess is wrong." Zhong Li lay on the table, and she refused to move because of dysmenorrhea.

Xie Yi didn't have her period, but she got it anyway. She leaned against the window sill, put her right foot on the leg of the stool Zhong Li was sitting on, and said with an unclear expression, "Who knows, maybe he's hidden deep enough. .”

After a while, she said again: "If only he had the habit of keeping a diary, we can still learn from He Shuhuan."

The seat Zhong Li was sitting at now belonged to Lin Yi, and just after Xie Yi finished what she said just now, she sat up straight, and immediately lifted the desk cover.

"What do you want to do?" Xie Yi asked.

"If we don't have a diary, let's learn from Sherlock. If we look for clues, there will always be some clues." Then he moved out Lin Yi's textbook.

After Xie Yi realized it, she didn't stop him from peeping. She just quietly took the three of them's chat book, and hid the most obscure book at the bottom.

Zhong Li took out a piece of paper that was folded squarely from the biology textbook.

In front of Xie Yi, she opened the note with great curiosity:

Does everyone imagine when they are young that their beloved will come to you in the morning light of a certain day like Darcy and tell you that he loves you.

I have always had a longing in my heart, that on a sunny day, on a noisy street, you would grab my hand at a moment when I didn't care, and lead me to run on the street and out of this place. A stalemate with no clue and no breakthrough.

The sun is shining outside the window, but I am not on the street, but thankfully - you are here with me right now.

That way, it's fine.

To the narcissist who claims to be Wang Xizhi's disciple

"Lin Yi really... has someone he likes."

This note shattered her long-established fighting spirit and curiosity. Zhong Li closed the note and stuffed it into the pages of the book with her head downcast, feeling a little frustrated.

But Xie Yi, who had witnessed all this, was unable to move as if he had been struck by five thunders. Zhong Li didn't understand the meaning of the words on the signature, but how could she not understand.

Zhong Li asked: "Hey Xie Yi, who are you referring to as Wang Xizhi's high-ranking apprentice? Could it be from our class?"

Many seemingly ordinary scenes had another interpretation at this moment, and then more and more incidents that were sufficient to prove her guesses came together, all pointing at one point, that is—Lin Yi is gay.

"He's gay..." She said this sentence unconsciously.

"what?"

Xie Yi repeated: "Lin Yi... is gay."

Zhong Li pushed her: "What nonsense are you talking about!"

However, this expression of complete disbelief gradually changed under Xie Yi's more solemn expression, and the shock in his heart far outweighed the disappointment of hopeless hopes.

Young feelings are so vulnerable, in the face of this explosive secret, her liking for Lin Yi seemed so small, she didn't even have time to feel sorry for herself, she just kept labeling that person as a 'pervert'.

Because of this hat, together with the previous liking for him, it has become a kind of waste, a kind of self-infliction of rolling in the mud.

Xie Yi doesn't have complicated emotions like Zhong Li. Nanshan is her cousin who grew up with her. What she worries about is whether the two of them have already been secretly behind his back.

So her strong desire to protect caused her to hurt a person she once liked so much that she dared not speak out easily, and she also buried indelible regrets in the years to come.

Xie Yi found Nanshan and asked him directly: "What is the relationship between you and Lin Yi?"

The person being asked was confused: "What does it matter?"

She had a serious face, but he laughed aloud: "In general, they are classmates, in more detail, they are at the same table, and in private, they are friends and buddies."

"Then do you know that Lin Yi likes you?"

"What?" Nanshan raised his voice, feeling that it was too unbelievable: "What nonsense are you talking about, we are both men."

Xie Yi patted the note on his chest: "Look for yourself."

Nanshan opened the note dubiously, not taking the time to savor the poetry in the sentence, nor to appreciate the deep desire of someone who can't write, but was taken aback by the words on the signature.

That self-proclaimed disciple of Wang Xizhi, who else could there be besides Qian Nanshan?

Xie Yi's idea is very simple, as long as she makes sure that Nanshan is normal, then she can completely treat this incident as never happened, and only need to apply to the teacher for a position transfer afterwards.

The next day, the secret about Lin Yi swept across the entire campus. This secret was spread through Xie Yi's mouth, even though she only told Zhong Li and Nanshan from the beginning to the end.

The fire at the city gate affected Chiyu, and it was Nanshan who was affected by the turmoil. From being ignorant at the beginning to being silent after learning the truth at the end, everything he did was impartial. It was protecting Lin Yi.

He likes Lin Yi, but it's just among friends.

So... There is only so much he can do for Lin Yi.

No one can stop the imagination of teenagers. When they hear the word 'homosexual', all kinds of information that pop up in their minds are enough to destroy the image that a person has built up in their hearts for a long time.The word Lin Yi no longer represents a single person, but a group, and due to lack of understanding, they become hostile to this group, first repelling, and then segregating.

As for Lin Yi, he didn't even know what he did wrong, and he didn't know how the secret was spread. When the rumors spread, Nanshan, like others, alienated him like avoiding the plague.

Instead of pushing him away categorically, he gradually eliminated Lin Yi from his life with repeated dodges and various lies that could not withstand scrutiny.

The rumors did not fade with the passage of time, and the young heart was too fragile to withstand the storm, so Lin Yi became depressed, not because of the secret love that ended without a cause, but only for pointing and pointing on campus.

Such a day is a long torture, not only him, but Nanshan is also suffering.

The wind spread to the head teacher, and it was reasonable to talk to the person concerned. When Lin Yi faced the teacher's euphemistic question, all he could do was to remain silent. Arguments are just sophistry.

The most important thing is that this is not groundless, it is a fact.

The head teacher still has another trick. It seems that only by making this matter real can she reflect her virtue of teaching and educating people.

Lin Yi himself had long forgotten the existence of that note, so when the class teacher spread it out on the table, Lin Yi was completely stunned.

If he guessed correctly, this note was the root of the whole incident. When he turned around, the first thing he wanted to know was who was the instigator and why he did it.

"Who gave this to you."

The class teacher didn't answer him, but said: "You have the right to like others, no matter whether the other party is the same sex or the opposite sex, there is nothing wrong, but if you cause trouble to others, it is wrong, I say that, do you understand? "

Lin Yi was stunned again. Was she referring to someone else, Qian Nanshan?

The head teacher returned the note to him, and did a series of ideological work, which remained the same. It was nothing more than letting him focus on his studies, and don't think about other things for the time being.

In the eyes of others, the campus still looks like a campus, but in Lin Yi's eyes, the campus is a place of abalone, a place of smog.When he stepped into the classroom again, the pure land in the age of innocence fell apart.

He is not a timid person, and sometimes he even does some unexpected things. He has an idea in his heart. Before leaving this campus, he will use his own way to fight against those who deported him. There was a scene in front of him that he would never forget for the rest of his life.

If you feel disgusted, be disgusted enough.

He walked to his seat, tore apart the textbooks and the chat records accumulated over a year, threw them all into the tin bucket in the corner, lit it on fire, and threw his school uniform into it.

The class monitor stepped forward to stop him, but to no avail, so he angrily went to the next office to find the teacher. Lin Yi watched his leaving figure, knowing that the most exciting part of the whole scene had finally come, and it was also the end.

Lin Yi walked up to Nanshan, put his hands on the desk, and looked at him playfully and indulgently.

He found that he still liked him, this face with a few pimples was like some kind of enzyme, making his whole body sweet or sour, until today he was very drunk.

He took off his glasses and smiled lightly, and then, in front of the whole class and the head teacher who had just entered the classroom from the door, he held Nanshan's face with both hands, and bit his lip.

This long-awaited moment is at this very moment, before it is too late to savor it, it ends hastily.

"Lin Yi, this is the school, do you know what you're doing?" The head teacher's furious voice sounded behind him, and the stupid Nanshan woke up like a dream, so he wanted to push him away.

The smell of burning school uniforms permeated the entire classroom, and the thick smoke choked people's eyes. Only in this unclear world did Lin Yi feel a little safe.

He looked at Qian Nanshan quietly, taking the sighs and curses of his classmates as applause for this feat. He was proud of himself for finally achieving this step.

Lin Yi put the note in the other party's hand, and tapped his lips with his index finger: "This... is the price you pay for self-protection."

It should also be his reward for his silent exit.