Lost Dreams

Guanliang wrote in a letter saying that he had returned to China, and he had just met Guanlin, and immediately came back to Chongqing to find her. He also mentioned that it was a strange thing that he and Lin Ziqing finally broke up.Man Qing was also curious—the one who loved at first was dying or living, so simply broke up and broke up?It was Lin Ziqing who suggested it, and she couldn't believe it anymore.In the end, I still understand that a person like Guanliang, like her, cannot be loved for a long time.

Mentioning this, she thought of Ruan Yu again. The letters she sent recently seemed to be a little more alienated.But in the next second, he dismissed his thoughts, because he believed in himself too much, and did more extreme things before, which did not make Ruan Yu shake his determination to love her.But during this time she is usually tender and sweet, so she thinks she has nothing to fear.

Since Junzhu came to Chongqing, she often spends time in the opera garden, not asking about worldly affairs, nor communicating with her much.Manqing was a little helpless, she didn't really know whether she still loved Yunzhu or was unwilling to get it.But true feelings are always greater than false feelings, she wants to tell herself that she loves Yun Zhu——she reminds herself that this is the reason not to love Ruan Yu too much, and she still feels a little guilty in her heart.

This day Manqing didn't know what she suddenly thought of, excitedly suddenly said that she wanted to take Junzhu to a brothel - she had a dirty mind, thinking that dragging Junzhu into the water would naturally give herself a chance .But she didn't expect Junzhu to agree so quickly, but she was always shy and unwilling to go with her original appearance, so Manqing bought her a new suit, wide gauze wrapped around her chest, and her hair was tied up , and then put on a hat, you can't see the identity of a woman.

She led Jun Zhu into the alley, and the broken neon lights were weakly shining red. Manqing thought of the red lanterns in the theater, and the way Ruan Yu and Ruan Yu met for the first time on the way back after watching the movie. Calling her a snake spirit is a ridiculous compliment.She later thought that Ruan Yu had never said anything wrong about her, and she knew that she had a heart of snakes and scorpions.

As soon as they walked in, xx formed a circle around them, and Yun Zhu stood inside, frowning slightly.Man Qing watched her quietly from the side without saying a word.Until Junzhu raised her head and stared at a person on the stairs, she looked up and saw a girl.With a young face, she was dressed in a lake blue silk cheongsam embroidered with pink flowers.She suddenly felt glaring, not sure if it was because of the bright color that no longer suits her, or the youthful face.Seeing that Jun Zhu was not moving, she stepped forward and took her hand: "Master Xia, have you chosen?" Master Xia is the name she must say—as a disguise for Jun Zhu.

Junzhu nodded, raised his chin and pointed at the young girl, the bustard smiled and praised her for picking out a young girl, and asked the man to lead Junzhu upstairs.Man Qing naturally picked someone to go to the room, and she didn't realize that he was similar to Yun Zhu until she sat down with that person.

Now she felt that she was still in love with Yunzhu.

In the dead of night, she knocked on Yunzhu's door and led her home.She had already asked clearly, that girl's name was Lin Chuyao, and she had just arrived, so she had never seen her before.It was not until a long time later that Man Qing realized that she had always been jealous and worried about Chu Yao, because she was not under her control, so she couldn't stop the two from falling in love.She always thought that she was the proudest and most free and easy in her life, but she never thought that she was the last link, the last sad guest.

On the second day when Guanlin Guanliang came to Chongqing, the old man followed him, excitedly said that he wanted to stay overnight, and immediately held a family banquet.Manqing went to the theater to call Yunzhu, and saw that she still didn't look like she was watching a play—this was the first time she saw Yunzhu so lost in spirit, completely out of mind, as if she had just begun to fall in love—she was jealous of Chuyao again .

She was full of tenderness, and called Yunzhu to eat, and put her hand on the back of Yunzhu's chair inadvertently, before touching her body, she was dodged.Junzhu stood up coldly, and walked into the car with her, silent all the way.After getting off the car, he immediately smiled intimately, pretending to be friendly.Manqing understood, knowing that Yunzhu already knew her feelings, and this attitude was a response.

But she didn't feel heartache just yet.

When Guanliang arrived, he brought his female companion, Ms. Yang who played in the movie.Sitting beside the old man, Manqing chatted with him, quietly staring at Yunzhu and Guanlin from the corner of her eye, and when they mentioned their marriage, she was a little speechless.Although she knew from beginning to end that it was impossible for Yunzhu to love her, it was still difficult to push Yunzhu out by herself.But at least in this way, Yunzhu can become half of the Zhao family, closer to her.She felt humbled now, so she naturally began to laugh at herself. Back then, she thought Ruan Yu was weak and mean, why didn't she?It's half a catty, just fifty steps laughing at a hundred steps!Ruan Yu is a replica of herself, but Ruan Yu has been loved by her before, but she has never made Jun Zhu love her.Thinking of it this way, she was even more pitiful.

After that, Man Qing often took Yun Zhu to the brothel.Junzhu also never specified, went directly to Lin Chuyao after entering the door, and Manqing saw the flowers that were sent every day. Perfunctory.That day when I went home with her, Junzhu hummed the Huangmei Opera in a good mood, and Manqing seemed to be facing an enemy, as if a hammer hit her head, making her dizzy.Chuyao had already made her happy in this way—she was sure that Yunzhu was in love with Chuyao.She remembered that Yunzhu took Chuyao to go shopping in the street two days ago, and immediately criticized him, and Yunzhu replied impatiently.

After she went back, she immediately discussed with the old man, saying that she wanted Junzhu to assist Guanlin in business. Her family doesn't like people who are incompetent. Men, women and children know how to support themselves. A playful person like Guanliang never neglects his homework. Or family business.The old man immediately agreed, and started to let Junzhu learn from the accountant and the manager, and hired someone to teach her trade.When he was free, Manqing urged Guanlin to go on a date with Yunzhu, not only to watch a movie and drink coffee, but also to go to a theater.Guanlin is the person who knows Junzhu the best besides Manqing, so he naturally stays with him, and when he comes and goes, the number of times Junzhu goes to the brothel is very infrequent, so Manqing can feel relieved.

When the news of Mrs. Xia's death was received, Man Qing was teaching Guanlin how to make dumplings, and was preparing to make dumplings by herself on New Year's Eve this year.Junzhu came back from the brothel early in the morning, and came to the kitchen after taking a shower. Guanlin invited her to come and study with her, but Yunzhu was clumsy, and the total size of the package was wrong, or something was wrong, and Guanlin ate it one by one. Down.When the maid hurriedly brought the telegram, she was struggling with her dumpling that was too thick and undercooked. As soon as she read the telegram, she immediately spit it out. She was so panicked that she couldn't even speak. With tears in her eyes, Man Qing hurriedly wiped it off for her, and then went to read the telegram carefully, which was sent by brother Yun Zhu.Guanlin put down the things in his hands a long time ago, and went to hold Junzhu in his arms, and Junzhu immediately burst into tears—she was so sad that she could hardly breathe.

They stayed in Chongqing for a few days, and they didn't leave back to Shanghai until their brother sent another message. The family affairs were arranged. The eldest brother of the Xia family looked very tired, so Man Qing left Guanlin to accompany Yun Zhu at the Xia family. Help with some things, and then go back to Yi mansion.Yi Hai was a little sudden, Rao didn't expect that she would go back to Yi's mansion first after she came back, but they chatted anyway.Later, when he talked about the teacher he dated, over the past four years, they had a very good relationship, Man Qing asked with a teasing smile, "Why don't you accept it and become Mrs. Yi?"

Yi Hai was choked by her, and found that she was not malicious, but shook his head and laughed: "I told her, but she..."

"Don't want to be small?" Man Qing immediately understood.

"Yes." Yi Hai nodded, "You know, they care about this the most."

"You care too." Man Qing stared into his eyes.

"Naturally." Yi Hai didn't refute anymore.

"Then, do you want me to fulfill you?" Manqing asked.

"Oh, you are refreshing." Yi Hai seemed to be taken aback by her words, and then shook his head with a smile, "It's not in a hurry, it won't be a loss for us to separate after you find someone worthy of love first. .”

"You are worried about me." Man Qing seemed a little sorry, "For you, there is no loss."

"I also have to test whether the teacher is still willing to love me." Yi Hai smiled lonely.

Man Qing stopped talking, and they sat silently in the big empty room. The servant made tea and brought them to them. The rich tea fragrance made Man Qing smell a long bitterness in it.