Lost Dreams

Before returning to Chongqing, Manqing decided to meet Ruan Yu.

This time I won't be staying in Chongqing for long, but I'm just going to tidy up and take care of things. If the time permits, I'm going to settle the marriage between Yunzhu and Guanlin—to make a happy event.When the matter is almost over, I am going to go abroad, take over some overseas business of the Zhao family, and plan to live for a long time.

The suddenness of her return this time did not inform Ruan Yu in advance, so when Ruan Yu received the invitation, she was shocked—she never knew that Man Qing had returned.However, Ruan Yu is determined to confess to Man Qing about her relationship with Chen Liqing—she can now say that she has fully come out, using a new relationship as a gauze to bind the wound.

Manqing and Ruan Yu met in a coffee shop. Manqing first chatted about some interesting things in Chongqing, and then slowly mentioned the matter of going abroad for a long time.She said it carefully, afraid that Ruan Yu would be sad.She still regards Ruan Yu as the best of her now, and when Yi Hai first came back, she mentioned finding a new lover to her, and she immediately thought of Ruan Yu.She thinks that Ruan Yu is an irreplaceable object of emotional support. She has a bottom line of love worthy of her reassurance, and has an appearance that suits her appetite. Naturally, she is a very suitable object.

Ruan Yu didn't feel much about her departure, she drank coffee silently, smiled occasionally, and waited for Manqing to finish speaking before she finally opened her mouth, talked about her relationship with Mr. Chen, and mentioned her upcoming marriage by the way.

Man Qing was speechless at this moment, and she realized belatedly that Ruan Yu had already been heartbroken by her and turned to someone else.She wanted to get angry, but she felt that there was no reason, and she didn't even have the right to be sad—it was she who caused this situation with her own hands, and there was no need to continue her arrangement—she originally wanted to explain to Ruan Yu She finally found love.

The next thing I could say was "Congratulations." Ruan Yu didn't seem to be reluctant, and she was smiling when she mentioned Chen Liqing, so naturally she had put her down a long time ago.But when?Man Qing didn't dare to ask, she was already too hateful, too hateful, it was impossible for Ruan Yu to let her poke the scar.In any case, she knew that she already owed Ruan Yu too much, and she couldn't make up for it just because of love.

But she still loses her mind, Manqing now understands that she thinks too much of herself, obviously not that much charm, but still thinks that Ruan Yu will always love her—no matter what she does.But she never thought about whether she was worthy of such love. At the same time, she also thought that Ruan Yu gave her confidence so that she could think that Ruan Yu would love her forever and never change.

She is the ultimate loser.

After returning to Chongqing, Zhao Manqing immediately began to prepare for Yunzhu and Guanlin's marriage.She has been hurt, but she is still preparing to stay by Yunzhu's side.But Junzhu told her that she wanted to buy Chuyao as a maid. Zhao Manqing never took it seriously at first. She only thought that Yunzhu was a child, but one day she ran into Junzhu asking the old bustard for the price, and her heart fell immediately. Entering the bottom of the valley, a pool of bitingly cold lake soaked half of her heart!She couldn't accept it, Jun Zhu was really stuck in it now!It's okay not to love women in the first place, she can find an excuse for Yunzhu not loving her, but what should I say?Junzhu fell in love with a woman, but this person is not her!Nor will it be her!Another sin of her own making!

She asked Yun Zhu not to do such a disrespectful thing, but Yun Zhu refused to listen to her.Man Qing spoke Shanghai dialect angrily, this was the first time since she came to Chongqing.She always only speaks Chongqing dialect or northern dialect.She was trembling with anger, but she had to keep her voice down, afraid of disturbing other people, she scolded Yun Zhu: "Nong think about it better? Which girl in there is innocent? I am sweet with you today, tomorrow I don't know who got rolled under him again! Don't be so stupid!"

"Don't you often go to play too?"

"Playing is just playing! No one takes it seriously like you! You are not afraid of being laughed at when you say it!"

Yunzhu ignored her, still thinking about it.Manqing's heart is getting colder and colder. She feels betrayed, and she clearly understands that she is not worthy of love—no matter who it comes from.

But she is not reconciled.

"Miss Rose."

Man Qing stood in Lin Chuyao's room, nodding slightly to her.It's just past January and it's getting colder.This year is 1, and the Japanese bombing has intensified, and everyone is fleeing, only some who are not afraid of death are still playing in these fireworks and willow lanes like everyone else.Man Qing wrapped herself in a blue fox fur robe, with a pale face, quietly waiting for Chu Yao's reply.She didn't call Chu Yao by her name, even if she knew, she would call her by her flower name - tell her her identity.

"Hey." Chu Yao finally answered.

"I won't talk nonsense." Manqing closed the door, leaned against the door, took out a bong, and lit it.The red lips were pursed, and the spent rouge rubbed against the silver cigarette holder, like blood.

"Jun Zhu is getting married."

She watched Chu Yao's trembling lips, but she couldn't even make a sound.She sneered in her heart, but was genuinely sad.She couldn't tell who it was because of, Jun Zhu or Ruan Yu?She has been hurt badly and numb.

"She likes you very much, that's why I came to tell you." Man Qing exhaled a smoke ring, and the white ring quickly dissipated in the air.

"After getting married, she will go abroad with her husband." Man Qing knocked on the door for a pipe. "We're also moving out of Chongqing, it's too unsafe here. Maybe we won't come back. She's the same."

"Miss Rose, I don't know how much sincerity you have devoted to Yunzhu, but I advise you that there is no love in the first place."

Manqing left again, she stepped on fragmented steps, her high heels whineed, and she stepped on the creaking wooden boards.She didn't look at Chu Yao's expression, didn't even think about it, she asked the madam to arrange a guest for Chu Yao, and called a rickshaw to go home.

She knocked on Yunzhu's door in the middle of the night.

"I went there today." She said, "Your beloved Miss Rose is here to pick you up."

Yun Zhu didn't speak, she felt a burst of anger, she didn't know whether it was towards Chu Yao or Man Qing.In the room, the foreign money used to redeem Chu Yao was still piled on the table.Trembling all over, she pushed Man Qing and closed the door hard.Man Qing didn't stop, and walked back to her room, her high heels stepped on the wooden floor, making a crisp sound.

She stayed up all night, and saw Yun Zhu go out early in the morning from the window.She didn't even pretend to be dressed up, she was wearing a white cheongsam, like blue and white porcelain.She saw Jun Zhu bought a bouquet of flowers in the flower shop in front of her house, and walked straight to the brothel with a bag - she guessed that this was the money Yun Zhu was going to use to redeem Lin Chuyao.

When Yunzhu came back, it was already afternoon.She sprained her foot and blood was oozing from her high heels.Seeing her bleeding foot, Wang Ma yelled for the doctor to bandage it.Guanlin wanted to ask something, but was stopped by Manqing.After Jun Zhu's feet were wrapped, Xiao Fang also drove over.Today is the day to return to Shanghai, and the wedding will be held there instead.Manqing was also planning to move out of Chongqing, Yunzhu thought, Manqing probably ran into Chuyao picking up customers when she was going to do business in a brothel.Thinking of Yuan Yao, her mouth felt bitter again.Guanlin carried her into the car, she hugged Guanlin's neck, and said something suddenly.

"I love you."

Manqing stood next to them from beginning to end, listening indifferently to Junzhu's talk of love, and now she no longer feels heartache.She has completely lost the function of a lover.

When they arrived at the pier, they heard panicked cries from the crowd.It was the Japanese army who dropped it.Standing at the bow of the boat, Junzhu saw the cannon fire all over the sky. From here, he could just see the brothel, although it was in a general direction.When Junzhu saw □□ thrown over there, someone sent a telegram immediately and showed it to Man Qing, who read it to her, saying that the brothel was blown up, and several nearby buildings were also affected, but it seems that Her property was only harmed by the brothel.He also said that the people inside did not escape, and many of them were killed in the bombing.

Manqing immediately asked someone to call to ask if Yuqing was safe, and then asked someone to take Yunzhu to the cabin of the boat.She saw Yunzhu standing there in a daze, half of her soul was lost, she knew that Yunzhu must be missing Lin Chuyao right now.But what's the use?Everything is over.

Upon returning to Shanghai, Yunzhu immediately married Guanlin.On the morning of the wedding day, Man Qing drank tea and read the newspaper, and saw a small section on the wedding of Ruan Yu and Chen Liqing, which also took place today.She remembered that when she got married, she wore a big red robe and walked through the dark alley at night to knock on Ruan Yu's door.She suddenly realized that only her own marriage is the most perfunctory and ridiculous, because it is not for love, but for life.