make-up

The dim candlelight filled the entire humble room, Jun Huai let out a sigh, he stood up, and spread out the things he had brought in front of Feng Lichen.

He said, you used to like me so much...

Feng Lichen opened his eyes, struggling with hazy eyes, he did not deny Jun Huai's words.He stared straight at the paintings he had painstakingly made, as well as the two wedding dresses that he specially asked the embroidery worker to embroider. Witness, on the contrary, has precipitated a bit of deep meaning.

Feng Lichen's fingers brushed over the person on the painting, which he put on the tip of his heart before, just like now, seeing him, as if he was still the emperor who was obsessed with emotions back then, his fingertips trembled uncontrollably.He spoke again, with a hoarse voice, "I painted you." Then, he slowly set his eyes on Jun Huai, "But do you know why the people in the painting have no face?"

Jun Huai knew that it was him who drew the picture, but he had no way of knowing why he had no face.He withdrew his hand on the painting and shook his head silently.

A little better, Feng Lichen opened his mouth slowly, his voice was a little flatter than before, "That's because, I want to draw you, you will look at me seriously, with a smile on your face, gentle and elegant... It's just that you seem to be I have never treated me like this before, I racked my brains, trying to piece it together, but no matter how I draw it, I just can’t draw you..."

Jun Huai suddenly didn't dare to speak anymore, he held his breath, as if afraid of disturbing Feng Lichen's peace.

"There are also Xifu... It seems that there are many countless things, all of which are the best that I was willing to give you at that time," Feng Lichen laughed at himself, "but you want to This country is returned to its original owner, and I don’t want anything. I still admire me at that time, and I can persist for so long.”

Jun Huai thought, since I have persisted for so long, now that I can see you when I look back, can't I accept it?He pursed the corners of his lips, wanting to say these words, but Feng Lichen didn't give him a chance to say these words.

"These things, indeed, bear the weight of my obsession and joy for you, but have you forgotten that you sneered at these things, and now they are in front of me, don't you embarrass me?"

Feng Lichen turned his head and looked outside the door, the sky had completely sunk.His eyes darkened, thinking that it was time to tell someone to go back, but he saw an extremely forbearing and unwilling expression on Jun Huai's face.

He curled the corner of his mouth slightly, but it was a bitter arc.He thought, what is Jun Huai unwilling to do?He liked and attached to Jun Huai for nearly 20 years, because of Jun Huai he lost everything and suffered nine years of unbearable torture. He gave so much and got very little, but who could he complain about?

Sighing slightly, his voice softened a bit, "I didn't say this to annoy you or anything, I just wanted to tell you that nine years is too long. I may not have mentioned it to you , I am not in good health, and now I am a medicine jar, and I can only live for nine years in my whole life."

"So, Huaihuai..." Feng Lichen stretched out his hand, and put his hand on the back of Jun Huai's hand like before, but this time, Jun Huai didn't shake off his hand, and he could really feel Feng Lichen's temperature , and finally heard the word "Huaihuai" from Feng Lichen's mouth, but the feelings in those two words have changed, too much, without delicate emotions, without full of pampering, "Whether you Do you really like me, or is it because you are not used to my leaving, I will not come back to you, let alone, like before..."

After speaking, he withdrew his hand and leaned tiredly on the chair.Perhaps he was thirsty, so he leaned over, trying to pour himself a glass of water, but as soon as his hand touched the kettle, there was a throbbing pain, his fingers let go of the kettle, and he was about to fall to the ground.

Jun Huai caught it.Poured him a glass of water and handed it to him, Feng Lichen squeezed his fingers, but didn't take it.

"Drink some yourself, the corners of your lips are a little dry."

Jun Huai suddenly remembered that a long time ago, Feng Lichen would also say that his lips were dry, and then wipe some tea with his fingertips on his lips.

He was disgusted then.

Now I hope Feng Lichen can be like before.

A wave of regret rushed straight up from his heart, choked his throat, and he felt extremely bitter.He took a sip of water, put down the bowl, but from the corner of his eye, he caught a glimpse of Feng Lichen rubbing his hands.

There was a layer of sweat on Feng Lichen's face, and there was a slight glow under the candlelight.

Surrounded by mountains, it's not as hot as outside at night, and it's still a bit cold tonight, so it's not too hot to sweat.

Jun Huai suddenly realized that the dropping of the kettle was not an accident. When eating yesterday, he also noticed that Feng Lichen's hand holding the chopsticks was trembling. .From now on, it is very likely that there is something wrong with Feng Lichen's hand.The first thing he thought about was the two knives he had inserted, and the guilt felt even heavier at the moment, and he was only thinking about how to heal his hands.

"Lichen, I hurt this. I'll find a doctor to come and take a look at you tomorrow." He said, the rejection on Feng Lichen's face was very obvious, Jun Huai held Feng Lichen's hand involuntarily, Carefully rub it, like treating a fragile treasure, "I hurt this, don't reject me, at least, make me feel better..."

"No." Feng Lichen still withdrew his hand, the cold sweat in his hand made him extremely uncomfortable, "It can't be cured. My hand hurts my muscles and bones, and it will ache when it rains. Look at the weather," he looked up to the door, "it should be raining..."

"You should go back earlier, Junzhi is still young."

Jun Huai entrusted Jun Zhi to his subordinates to take care of him, so he naturally didn't need to worry about Jun Zhi's safety. Besides, Jun Zhi wished that he wasn't by his side, and he came out this time, just as he wanted.

"Why do you keep driving me away..." He laughed, and suddenly thought of what he had done before, "Is this considered retribution?"

His words made Feng Lichen stunned for a long time, and it took him a while to understand, thinking, who are they torturing?Jun Huai's indifference to him before was purely out of anger, but now he wants Jun Huai to go, and his heart is flat, not as purposeful as Jun Huai said.

However, now Jun Huai can think whatever he wants, and the explanation is just a cloud of smoke, and then it will disappear.

He said another word to tell Jun Huai to go back early.

Jun Huai gritted his teeth, put away the painting and Xipao in front of him, stood by the door and watched Feng Lichen remain motionless.

Feng Lichen rubbed his eyebrows, he didn't have the energy to deal with Jun Huai.