double struggle

When the bar was about to close, Wu Xia came out of the room on the second floor, closed the door and was about to go downstairs.He walked to the corner, just in time to see the thin figure sitting by the bar.There were no more people in the bar, and the little light shone on the small square.

"Why don't you go back?" Wu Xia walked over and twitched the corner of her mouth, suddenly feeling a pain.I don't know when, the lower lip was bitten and the skin was broken.

Xu Qingzhou changed his original bartender clothes, and stared at the wine glass in his hand thoughtfully in a loose long-sleeved shirt.Hearing Wu Xia's voice, he subconsciously glanced at the room on the second floor.

Wu Xia reached out to pour herself a glass of wine, and said with a smile, "I'm still sleeping, it's a very good night."

"Seriously?" Xu Qingzhou looked away and took a sip of his wine.

Wu Xia was noncommittal, with a smile pressed into the corner of her mouth, her eyes gently falling on the surface of the dark red wine.

Xu Qingzhou was sincerely happy for Wu Xia, raised his glass and touched it lightly.

"Happy birthday," he said.

Wu Xia shook her head amusedly: "Three days have passed since my birthday."

"Sorry, I didn't take care of it before."

"It's not a big deal. You're still so polite after knowing each other for three years."

Xu Qingzhou held his chin and shook the wine glass, as if he was looking at his nails, or at the light circle on the wall of the glass.They sat at the bar, drank on their own, and accompanied both of them quietly.

This circle is very small, and most people know each other, but the fate is really wonderful, some people will become confidantes, while some people will always be strangers.Xu Qingzhou and Wu Xia are lucky, they belong to the former.

Xu Qingzhou first met Wu Xia in this bar. At that time, the bar had just opened, and it was not as famous as it is now.To be honest, most comrades would choose to spend their loneliness in a bustling bar instead of choosing this quiet little bar to continue another kind of quietness.

Xu Qingzhou doesn't like those noisy places, so he never goes to the bars that comrades often go to.Until he knew about this bar in Wuxia, he came here often.Those who come and go again and again are also familiar with Wu Xia.

They seem to have similar personalities, they have a person in their hearts, they can't let go of it, they can't bring it up, but at the same time they like it.

Therefore, when Wu Xia finally put down the burden and was willing to start again, Xu Qingzhou was really happy for him.In contrast, he himself is still struggling in it, unable to escape.

After a long silence, Xu Qingzhou whispered, "I won't come tomorrow."

"Huh?" Wu Xia looked around in confusion.

Xu Qingzhou outlined the mist on the cup wall and drew a trace.He lowered his eyelids, and the dim light was absorbed into the darkness.

"Originally, I came to be the bartender just to see him more," he said softly, "he won't come in the future, and I don't need to stay any longer."

"It's all your business." Wu Xia raised her index finger and tapped the cup in Xu Qingzhou's hand twice, "But according to what you said, you don't plan to come here in the future?"

Xu Qingzhou said: "If you call me to drink, I will naturally accompany you, but don't you already have someone to accompany you?"

Wu Xia glanced at Xu Qingzhou with a half-smile, stood up and went around the bar to put away the wine glasses.

"I won't say much about you, but are you planning to hang one end on a tree?"

Xu Qingzhou didn't answer immediately, but watched Wu Xia wipe the cup thoughtfully.

After a long time, he finally said, "I don't know...I want to try again." He looked down at his palm prints, a little confused.

"But there's a deep-rooted relationship in him and you don't know how long it's going to be."

"I know. Anyway, it's been so many years, and those days are not bad." Xu Qingzhou thought, if it really doesn't work in the end, then he will give up.If you can really let go.

Wu Xia raised her head and threw the rag to Xu Qingzhou, and said with a smile, "I'm sorry, please help the boss wipe the cup on the last day."

Xu Qingzhou took the rag, dumbfounded, and stood up to pack things.After taking two steps, he turned back and said, "Aren't you going up to take a look? I guess everyone is awake."

Wu Xia waved her hand impatiently: "This is none of your business, pack up your things and leave quickly."

Xu Qingzhou laughed briskly, turned around and went to the sink with a rag in her hand.

In the blink of an eye, it is winter vacation, and the time flies so fast that people are overwhelmed.

Chu Wendao sat on the bed wrapped in a quilt, typing and replying to the students' emails one by one.Fortunately, he didn't have many graduate students in this class, and he spent a whole morning finally dealing with the rest of the work. He pushed the laptop to the end of the bed, and reached for the paper.

He accidentally slept overnight in the living room two days ago, and caught a cold the next morning, exhausting Chu Wendao.

After today, he was liberated.

Chu Wendao sighed, hugged the quilt and shook for a while before getting out of bed with his mobile phone.As he walked towards the living room, he called Chu's mother.After waiting for a few seconds, the call was connected.

"Hello, Mom." Chu Wendao poured a glass of warm water with his mobile phone in his hands, then turned around and opened the medicine box to pour a few pills.

Chu's mother was a little noisy, and Chu Wendao could still vaguely hear the sound of bargaining.

"Mom, are you in the vegetable market?" He couldn't help being happy, and squeezed the pill into his mouth.Mother Chu seldom goes to the vegetable market. She often dislikes the dirty places and the chaos of people, so she always goes to high-end supermarkets to buy vegetables.

Chu's mother said: "Your father is busy recently, I will buy chicken soup for him to replenish his body, the ones in the supermarket are not fresh enough."

Chu Wendao laughed, his parents are still so loving after so many years, which is quite enviable.He swallowed his saliva and said slowly, "Then have you finished buying? If not, I'll hang up first."

"I just finished shopping and I'm going out. When are you coming back?"

"I was just about to talk about this," Chu Wendao glanced at the calendar, "I bought a high-speed rail ticket for the day after tomorrow. It will be at ten o'clock in the morning, and it should be around noon when I return to City G. Remember to leave me a meal."

Chu's mother should have walked out of the vegetable market, and her voice was much clearer.

"You won't leave when you come back?"

"If you don't leave, you have to be filial to both of you."

"Slick tongue." Mother Chu laughed and cursed, then turned her head and asked worriedly, "Your voice is very nasal, do you have a cold?"

Chu Wendao sat on the sofa with a water glass in his hand, thinking that his little cold really couldn't be hidden from his observant old mother. "A little bit, I caught a cold two days ago, and it's much better now." He said, "Don't worry."

"Then pay attention, don't think that people don't pay attention to their bodies when they are still in their prime."

"Well, I know. Then I'll hang up first, and you should be careful on the way back."

"it is good."

After closing the line, Chu Wendao was in a daze of boredom, his eyes wandering from time to time following the moving aperture on the floor.It was very quiet all around, and only his own breathing could be heard in the huge living room.The silence made him feel panic and uneasy.

It was rare for Chu Wendao to be so quiet. He always seemed to be surrounded by noisy people.It's just that most of the time, the excitement doesn't belong to him. If possible, he only wanted to create a small space.There is him and Zhang Zhiyuan there, that's enough.

In the end, this space was not completely shaped, and Chu Wendao once again returned to the excitement that did not belong to him, living a life that made him spurn and feel helpless.Or maybe it was just because of the illusory sense of belonging that he didn't tell anyone other than Sun Hai about his return journey.

At the beginning, he came for one person, but now he quit for himself.

After so many years, going around by Zhang Zhiyuan's side, Chu Wendao now thinks that he is extremely stupid.His heart still hurts, like a piece is missing, he doesn't know when he can make it up, and maybe he will keep this wound in the future.He suffered on his own and could not blame others.

Chu Wendao moved his cold fingers, leaned over and took another piece of toilet paper.He stood up and walked slowly back to the bedroom to pack his luggage.

He will still keep the house, but after returning to G City this time, he will not come back here if it is not necessary.But after all, this house will be empty for a long time, and Chu Wendao can't think of any other way to deal with it.

"You can rent it out." Sun Hai suggested for Chu Wendao.

Chu Wendao also thought about Sun Hai's proposal, but on the one hand, he felt that it would be too much trouble to rent it out to others, and on the other hand, he couldn't guarantee that he would never come back to City M again.

Sun Hai quickly replied on WeChat: "Don't you have a little attendant? You can just rent it out to him."

Chu Wendao didn't realize who the "little follower" Sun Hai was referring to, and sent a question mark in confusion.

"It's just Xu Qingzhou! Don't you usually like to see him? It's no problem to rent it out to acquaintances, right? And if you come back, you can continue to live in it."

"..."

Speaking of Xu Qingzhou, Chu Wendao hadn't questioned Master Sun Haixing yet, but his best friend turned out to be very righteous.

Soon, Sun Hai sent a string of voice messages.Chu Wendao didn't even have the interest to poke it open, so he threw away the phone, but went to drink a glass of water, and finally folded it back and clicked on it.

Sun Hai said: "Isn't your little follower still living in the school dormitory? Your house is vacant, isn't it just right? I know you don't want to get entangled, just a house will not matter."

Why is it not so good? This is a big problem.Chu Wendao made a cup of coffee and wandered hesitantly in the living room.

He knows what the teacher's dormitory allocated by the school is like. Because it is in the south, there is no heating in the dormitory in winter. The room Xu Qingzhou was assigned to is back-lit, and it is very humid in spring. Because it is a single lecturer, the space is also narrow.He has been to Xu Qingzhou's dormitory several times, and he feels that it can live in people, but it is definitely not comfortable.

After walking around the living room a few times, Chu Wendao angrily put down the mug in his hand.He had to admit that his heart softened again.