double struggle

Standing in front of Sun Hai's house, Chu Wendao felt nostalgic for no reason.Counting the days, since he left M City, he hasn't been to Sun Hai's house for a long time.

He has been in M ​​City for a few days, at first Sun Hai said that Xun Kong would drink together, but this person disappeared, until yesterday he suddenly sent a text message, asking for a drink the next day.Chu Wendao originally wanted to wear Xu Qingzhou, but Xu Qingzhou wanted to go home that night, so he gave up.

"It's half an hour late." After opening the door, Sun Hai grabbed Chu Wendao's shoulder and teased him.

Chu Wendao patted Sun Hai's arm away, and changed into slippers familiarly.He paused for a moment when he opened the shoe cabinet, the top row of the shoe rack was empty, with obvious signs of being tidied.

"Hey, what do you want to drink? Recently, I have collected a lot of good wine, let you choose." Sun Hai's voice came from the empty living room.

"Whatever you want, I don't study these." Chu Wendao replied.

He closed the shoe cabinet thoughtfully, found a place to sit down, and slowly looked at the place.Although the furnishings in the house were exactly the same as in his impression, they seemed a little different.For example, there is an extra pot of daffodils next to the TV, or there is an extra coffee table, and there are two emerald green teacups upside down on the coffee table.

"It's been a long time since I came here, did you get back your old memories?" Sun Hai came back with the wine and filled it up for him.

Chu Wendao took the wine glass, and the beam of light from the crystal lamp refracted into the deep red liquid, forming a strange reflection.He took a sip lightly, with a mellow return, and couldn't help but take two more sips.

"Is there no one who lives here?" He was not stupid, and he could naturally see traces of another person's life here.He even suspected that part of the reason why Sun Hai came to him suddenly came from this person.

Sun Hai sneered, and downed a glass full of red wine in one go.Chu Wendao frowned, hesitating whether to dissuade him.

"It's been gone for a long time." Sun Hai continued to fill it up for himself, leaned back on the sofa lazily, and squinted his eyes towards the ceiling.Again and again, he drank drunkenly, as if he was going to get drunk.

Just when Sun Hai picked up the wine bottle again, Chu Wendao couldn't bear to press his hand after all.He turned his head and looked at his friend steadily, his eyes were still clear, but as for whether his mind was still rational - Chu Wendao was not sure.

"It's your business if you like to drink, but don't expect me to take care of you when you're drunk." Chu Wendao withdrew his hand and said.

Sun Hai blinked, sighed, and carelessly hooked Chu Wendao's neck.Chu Wendao despised him reeking of alcohol, so he quickly separated the fingers that were attached to him.

Sun Hai snorted and put the back of Chu Wendao's head, complaining, "Is there anyone who dislikes your brother like this?"

"Yes, I am." Chu Wendao retorted bluntly, "I have disliked you for more than 20 years, did you just find out now?"

"Count you a cow."

Sun Hai rolled his eyes and looked at the wine glass in his hand.After a long silence, he put the wine glass on the table as if discouraged, and let out a crisp bang.All the vigor just now was swept away, the brows were drooping listlessly, and the back was hunched as if it could no longer straighten up.

Chu Wendao stroked the rim of the cup and kept silent tacitly.Having known each other for so many years, Sun Hai seems to have endless energy, and this is the first time I have seen such a dejected expression.

"I'm dumped."

After a long time, Chu Wendao heard Sun Hai's muffled voice.

"Oh, really?" He nodded knowingly, as expected.

In other words, he was not very optimistic about the relationship between Sun Hai and Boss Wu from the very beginning.Although he didn't have much contact with Wu Xia, but based on his understanding of Sun Hai, his friends definitely couldn't stand this type.

Sun Hai sniffed, and covered his eyelids with the back of his hand: "Don't you have any sympathy?"

Chu Wendao thought carefully, and then replied: "I think it's good that I don't gloat."

Sun Hai spurned Chu Wendao for a while, and couldn't help laughing.His expression is quite embarrassed now, the corners of his mouth are raised, but his eyes are bloodshot.

"Tell me, what's going on?" Chu Wendao thoughtfully took a tissue from the table, and pressed it roughly on Sun Hai's face.

"Hey, hey, take it easy! I'll do it myself!" Sun Hai bared his teeth and shouted, grabbing a tissue and simply wiped away his disappointing tears.Then, he stopped talking listlessly, as if he was considering words.

Chu Wendao shrugged and sipped his wine slowly.He thought that Sun Hai should be remembering at this moment, otherwise his face would not be so pale.

"Wu Xia's ex-boyfriend is back, oh no, I didn't know it was his ex-boyfriend at first... But I found out later, I suspect that he did it for me on purpose." Sun Hai stroked his hair irritably , face wrinkled together, "I actually don't care, I really don't mind who doesn't have a dark history."

If you don't mind, there are ghosts, Chu Wendao secretly refuted.

"But the way Wu Xia looked at him can't fool me, I understand what's going on." Sun Hai crumpled the tissue, "I knew from the very beginning that there was a place in his heart that I couldn't go to. Yes, I just wanted to work hard before, maybe it would work? Unexpectedly, before I even worked hard, the real person came."

"So? You just gave up?" Chu Wendao asked calmly.

Sun Hai licked his lips: "Well, it should be... I proposed the breakup."

"Well, your style." Chu Wendao nodded.

Although Sun Hai has a carefree style, his heart is more preoccupied than a girl's, and he will vigilantly think about retreating at the slightest disturbance.Chu Wendao still remembered that when the two were young and frivolous, they walked home together, and Sun Hai was talking beside him.

I think my mother is really stupid. She clearly knows that my father is raising a young lover outside and still refuses to divorce. Every night, there is a scene of a loving couple. Who likes to watch it?If it were me, I would definitely have to hold the initiative in my hands.Who cares about the reason, only when I say no, others can't.

Sun Hai really carried out these words meticulously. In every previous relationship, there was no time when he was the first to break up, so he was afraid that he would be one step slower than others.

Chu Wendao thought that it was his family background that caused Sun Hai's view of feelings, but even if his grandfather and grandmother reconciled later, this idea was deeply rooted in Sun Hai's heart in the early years, and he couldn't get rid of it.

"But you still like him." Chu Wendao said, "You cleaned up the traces here, but there are still some that you don't want to throw away. For example, the coffee table and teacup, and the pot of daffodils."

Sun Hai moved his head next to the sofa, and looked at him: "I regret it a little, I think I should listen to what he has to say."

"You even deleted the contact information?"

"I deleted it the night we broke up."

Chu Wendao thought that Wu Xia was wronged in this matter, and he didn't even have a chance to defend himself.

"He hasn't looked for you?"

"I looked for it once at the beginning, but after I locked the door, I never came again."

Originally, Sun Hai had always taken the initiative in this matter, but Wu Xia was willing to take the initiative and was turned away again and again. It's strange that the ending is good.

Chu Wendao said: "You can't live without doing your own crimes."

Sun Hai didn't say anything, probably agreeing with his evaluation.

"Why are you so cruel?" he asked.

Sun Hai sighed like a memory: "His ex-boyfriend is too good. He is handsome, knowledgeable, and good-natured. Standing next to Wu Xia, even I dare not say that he is unworthy. You know the first time I saw him When you were here, what did you think of?"

"what?"

He raised his index finger to gesticulate on his face, and said with a self-deprecating smile: "I'm not as handsome as him, but damn, I look a bit like him."

Chu Wendao moved his fingers holding the wine glass, and opened his eyes in surprise.After talking for so long, it turns out that this is a familiar old routine.

"So I can only do this, I can't think of a better way." Sun Hai finally said.

Chu Wendao shook his head, he didn't dare to draw conclusions.What the truth is, maybe even the person involved can't see clearly or figure it out, let alone an outsider like him.

When I returned home at night, Chu Wendao was still thinking about it. Xu Qingzhou saw that he was out of his mind, so he didn't ask much, but the worried eyes made people unable to ignore it.

"Qingzhou, let me ask you something." Chu Wendao turned off his mobile phone and put it on the bedside table, and reached out to hug Xu Qingzhou beside him into his arms.

Xu Qingzhou glanced at him, obediently let Chu Wendao hold him, and pressed his face against the crest of his neck.After a long time, Chu Wendao also found that Xu Qingzhou liked this posture very much, probably because of his attachment to him, and wished that the whole person would stick to it.

"Wu Xia is your friend, right?" Chu Wendao rubbed his soft short hair and asked, "Do you also know about his relationship with Sun Hai?"

Xu Qingzhou didn't understand why Chu Wendao suddenly mentioned Wu Xia, but he hummed softly.

"Did something happen?" Without waiting for Chu Wendao's response, Xu Qingzhou raised his head from Chu Wendao's arms.

Chu Wendao kissed Xu Qingzhou's forehead to appease his lover's worries.

"It's nothing serious, Sun Hai came to me tonight and told me they broke up," he said.

Xu Qingzhou probably didn't know about it, so he was stunned for a moment, as if he was still a little dazed: "Really..."

"Ah."

Chu Wendao stared at Xu Qingzhou, seeing him frowning in confusion, lowering his eyelids, not knowing what he was thinking.He can be sure that Xu Qingzhou guessed the reason, but just like Xu Qingzhou did to him, he would not ask too much.

"Wu Xia, he... he has an ex-boyfriend." Xu Qingzhou leaned two points closer to Chu Wendao's arms, and rubbed his lips against Chu Wendao's chin. That person has gone abroad, and I don't know why they broke up. But after all these years, Wu Xia still seems to miss him a bit, after all, there are so many people who have shown affection to him, and he hasn't even gotten close to any of them."

He suddenly thought of something, curled his lips and stopped talking.

Chu Wendao didn't ignore the word "also", and helplessly kneaded the back of Xu Qingzhou's neck.He talked about other people's affairs, but the fire turned to himself, and he didn't know what it was.

"Qingzhou, I found that you always like to ignore my words." He said.

Xu Qingzhou raised her eyes, aggrieved.

"A few days ago I just told you the most nasty thing in my life. I left my old face there, but you forgot it later." He pretended to be angry, pinched Xu Qingzhou's chin and bit his mouth, "I'll say it again, The previous things have passed, and now I am by your side, and you are by my side, you are different. If you can’t remember it anymore, just write it down in your notebook. "

Xu Qingzhou opened his eyes in a daze, then grinned, hugged Chu Wendao's neck and kissed him.

How could he not remember, it's just that he always likes to dig into a dead end.Even so, Chu Wendao still noticed his emotions, he was really happy.How can this person be so good?Good to the bone.

After turning off the bedside lamp, the stars outside the window are shining brightly, which indicates that tomorrow will be a good weather.They hugged each other for a long time, and they didn't seem to feel sleepy at all.

"Teacher, I didn't tell you about Wu Xia, would you blame me?" Xu Qingzhou asked softly in the dark night.

Chu Wendao tucked up the corner of the quilt and said, "Why should I blame you? It's none of your business."

"If I had, it probably wouldn't have happened."

"No, their problem doesn't lie in this matter. I know Sun Hai too well, he..." Chu Wendao paused, and smiled helplessly, "Even if there is no ex-boyfriend, it can't be done."

Even in the dark environment, he can feel Xu Qingzhou's confused gaze.

"Don't think about it so much, we can't intervene in this matter." He stroked Xu Qingzhou's back, as if coaxing a child, "Go to sleep."