double struggle

The hour hand stepped into five o'clock in the evening, the sun was still high, and the city was still in a busy moment.The bar hidden in the corner of the street was deserted. When Xu Qingzhou pushed the door and went in, there was only a slight knock on the glass to welcome him.He walked straight to the bar and sat on the familiar seat.

"Why are you so free today?" Wu Xia behind the bar hung up the wine glass, and then chose a glass to pour juice on.

Xu Qingzhou smiled, and touched the orange glass with her fingers.Wu Xia knew that he never drank in the afternoon, so every time he came in the afternoon, he would prepare freshly squeezed juice for him in advance.After all, Wu Xia is also a very gentle person.

"I came here this afternoon without class." Xu Qingzhou pinched the straw and casually picked the ice cubes at the bottom of the cup. "Recently, the school always compulsively listen to the lectures, and I don't even have time to spare."

"Are you considering changing careers?"

"Forget it, I can do nothing but study."

Wu Xia nodded, noncommittal.Two years ago, Xu Qingzhou had the idea of ​​speculating in stocks, but after Wu Xia taught him for a long time, he still didn't know anything about it, and finally the matter was left alone.

Xu Qingzhou bit the straw and took two sips of orange juice, rolled her eyes, and made sure that only the two of them were able to settle down in the bar.

"What's the matter? Have an appointment?" Wu Xia noticed his little gesture and smiled.

Xu Qingzhou shook his head: "Don't laugh at me, let the teacher hear this, I can't wash it off by jumping into the Yellow River."

"Didn't he come to M City?"

"Well, but he went back last two weeks." Xu Qingzhou raised his chin, his brows and eyes curved as if thinking of something, "I also plan to go to G City after this semester, and I may rarely come to you in the future."

Wu Xia's hand for wiping the wall of the cup paused slightly. "That's fine," he said.

Xu Qingzhou looked at him thoughtfully for a while, then bent his fingers and tapped the wall of the cup in front of him, making a crisp sound.

"My side is fine, what about you?" He saw Wu Xia turned around and pulled out another cup to continue wiping. He couldn't see the other person's expression from this angle, "Why is he back?"

Wu Xia wiped the glass silently, before looking at Xu Qingzhou holding the towel.His gaze was indifferent, just like Xu Qingzhou's first acquaintance, he seemed to turn a blind eye to anyone and anything.

Xu Qingzhou lowered her eyelids, feeling guilty for inadvertently hurting her friend.Maybe he should agree with what Chu Wendao said, this is not something he can get involved in.But there are some things that he feels he should take responsibility for.

Wu Xia wanted to fill Xu Qingzhou with orange juice, but Xu Qingzhou covered the cup with his hand and shook his head at him.

"You know everything?" Wu Xia sighed helplessly.

Xu Qingzhou nodded lightly: "The teacher told me." After a pause, he didn't tell Sun Hai's situation.

Xu Qingzhou was also an insider about the bad things back then, and Wu Xia had no reason to avoid him.

"He came back to China for work, so he stopped by to see me." Seeing that there was still some juice left, Wu Xia simply poured it into his own glass.His plain tone made Xu Qingzhou subconsciously frown.

"He can't come to see you for no reason."

"Well, maybe."

Wu Xia and her ex-boyfriend broke up peacefully at the beginning. One decided to go abroad, while the other stayed in China. Neither of them would give in, so they broke up naturally.For the person he once loved the most, love is not as important as future.Wu Xia also cut off very simply at that time. Afterwards, almost all the contact methods were changed, but this bar never changed.

Xu Qingzhou was a bystander back then, but he didn't know what kind of mood Wu Xia had been in all these years.If there was no nostalgia, then this bar would not be in business until now.

He stared at Wu Xia with his chin resting on his shoulders, and he felt a struggle in his heart.Wu Xia has been his good friend for many years, and he is familiar with each other's every look.Therefore, he also confirmed that Wu Xia and the person who returned to China had no so-called follow-up.

Xu Qingzhou thought of Chu Wendao again, and thought of the person Chu Wendao once cared about.People, there are always one or two points that are similar. Whether you can't get what you want, or you get what you want, the final outcome is unexpected.

Life still has to be lived, he left, he came, that's all.

"Then what are you doing for it?" Xu Qingzhou picked up the straw and continued to poke the ice, Ding Ding made a loud noise, "Aren't you and Sun Hai going to continue?"

Wu Xia curled up her lips bitterly, her eyes flicked up and down on the surface of the orange liquid.Xu Qingzhou was startled, what kind of mood does a person have to easily show an indifferent expression?

"We are always struggling in the past. Some people can get out of it, while some people will be trapped in it for a lifetime." His index finger pointed at the wall of the cup, and there was a light halo where he pointed, "Qingzhou, you You are lucky, because you met the former. But most people are not so lucky, and may often think about going out to have a look, but they all retreat because of cowardice."

Xu Qingzhou shifted his gaze following his movements, pinching his fingers unconsciously.After a long time, it was so long that he seemed to have forgotten the worry about gains and losses hidden in the depths.

"Wu Xia, I do think about it all the time, probably all my luck in my life has been spent on this." He looked at his fingers and said softly, "But luck is often not enough, if I don't That courage, then there would be no present.”

Xu Qingzhou smiled slightly, and said something that he never dared to confess to others: "No one can forget the past completely, so I was thinking, if one day he is still struggling, I will go and give him a hand." .Anyway, there is still so much time later, so I will accompany him to the end."

Chu Wendao always said that he was stubborn and stubborn, but Chu Wendao didn't know that all Xu Qingzhou's stubbornness was spent on him.

It was past dinner time when Xu Qingzhou got home. He put the key in the lock, but found that the door was not locked.He froze for a few seconds, pushed open the door almost impatiently, even forgot to put on his shoes, and ran to the bedroom where the light source came from.

He was always like this, making no secret of his dependence on Chu Wendao.Counting every minute and every second of separation, busy at work, but always feel that the days are like years.

Chu Wendao, who was sitting at the desk, raised his head when he heard the sound, and was also surprised when he saw Xu Qingzhou who came back suddenly.

"You..." Xu Qingzhou took a breath and grabbed the door frame with his fingers.As soon as his voice fell, he realized that he had nothing to say. It seemed that all the greetings seemed clumsy.

Chu Wendao smiled and didn't speak.There is something thick on his knees, and Xu Qingzhou can only see clearly when he takes two steps closer.It was also at that moment that his face turned from pale to crimson.

"Teacher! That! You can't read that thing!" Xu Qingzhou panicked and wanted to grab that thing back.

He didn't know how Chu Wendao found the photo album he had collected, and it seemed that he had been looking at it for a while.Before his fingers touched the corner of the album, Chu Wendao stretched out his arms and pulled the man into his arms.The low and hoarse laughter lingered in her ears, and Xu Qingzhou felt her cheeks burning hot.

"Teacher...I...pay me back..." He said sullenly, trying to win some sympathy.

Chu Wendao put the photo album on the desk, restraining people from moving.

"Why are you nervous? I won't blame you." His voice sounded very happy, perhaps with a bit of teasing, "However, with so many photos, how long have you been secretly taking pictures of me?"

Xu Qingzhou was too ashamed to speak, put her arms around Chu Wendao's neck, smelling the light scent of shower gel.

"Hey, why did you realize how shy you are now?" Chu Wendao stroked his back like coaxing a child, and said happily, "You don't need to take secret shots from now on, it's fair and aboveboard, I will listen to you in whatever pose you want to pose. But how can you even You also want to take pictures when I get angry and get acne? How embarrassing."

Xu Qingzhou quickly covered Chu Wendao's mouth, so as not to hear any more blushing words.After getting along for a long time, Chu Wendao's tendency to tease him is increasing day by day.

"You really don't blame me?" He licked his lips and said in shame, "You haven't broken up before, but I still do it—don't you think, isn't it a bit perverted?"

Chu Wendao pulled Xu Qingzhou's hand and traced the palm lines with his fingers.He looked at Xu Qingzhou intently, with more open emotions in his undisguised gaze.Eyes are the window for communication, but Chu Wendao's eyes are the abyss that can sink Xu Qingzhou.

"How could I blame you?" He kissed the corner of Xu Qingzhou's mouth, and sighed softly, "Is it hard to hide for so long?"

Xu Qingzhou looked at him quietly, and took the initiative to approach him for a while.The longing of those days was not relieved until the real lips and tongues were intertwined.

"It's hard work," he whispered to Chu Wendao, "but it's all worth it."