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The ranger didn't speak right away.

Wang Ze understood what he meant this time.He tightened his bathrobe: "No, it's not because I'm jealous that other people can also receive his personal letter, it's not such... a simple matter."

As Wang Ze said, he only found out about it after the writer's death.

"My mood at the time was really...I regarded him as my only friend, but I learned of his death on the Internet. There was no sense of reality, and I couldn't accept it at all."

At first, Wang Ze thought that the writer had been killed, and that the police's investigation had gone wrong.Otherwise, with the relationship between the two of them, how could the writer have never said anything to him?

Wang Ze didn't even hear the writer's complaints.

In his mind, writers are always rational and calm, completely different from adolescents like him who are always upset because of trivial things.

Wang Ze lowered his head and looked at his palm: "So, I found various contacts to investigate his affairs, and wanted to see if there was something missing, such as a letter that was missed due to a postal error. I told him He is a heart-to-heart friend, how could he just leave like this?"

Wang Ze's tone now is calm.

But at that time, he only felt that his world was completely destroyed.

He exhausted all his resources and bought back a lot of worthless relics from the writer's father at a high price—at least in the eyes of the writer's father—for example, the letters he wrote to the writer in ten years, and Writer's writing materials.Wang Ze studied those relics over and over again, and found some letters that made his hair stand on end.

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Wang Ze clenched his hands unconsciously. Even after such a long time, he was still chilled by what he discovered at the beginning: "There are a lot of letters, a lot, some are handwritten and mailed like me, and some are printed electronically. Emails, even screenshots of mobile phone text messages and WeChat, are arranged one by one and printed out, all marked with time. Moreover, they are divided into categories according to different senders and placed in different file cabinets ..."

These materials filled the writer's study room. For Wang Ze, the amount itself was already very strange.

One of the documents was named "Cake Recipe", and various "materials" were attached to it in a mess. In addition to SMS records, there were even telephone recordings.And the cake photos that appeared very frequently in the data made Wang Ze immediately realize who the letter belonged to.

Hearing this, the ranger subconsciously held his breath.

Wang Ze smiled bitterly: "Do you still remember his famous work? The girl who fell in love 65 times... This girl is based on the writer's first love girlfriend, and she is the person with whom the writer has been in communication for the longest time."

The first love of "Lovebroken Girl" is a writer.

Both of them are mild-tempered people. The reason for breaking up was that they separated after graduation. They both agreed that distance would only make their relationship estranged, so they resumed the relationship of ordinary friends.However, the writer always occupies a very important position in the mind of "Girl Broken Love", no matter what she encounters in life, she will share it with the writer as soon as possible.

Including her unusual and extreme state of emotional dryness.

"Lovebroken Girl" has a very assertive personality, but once she gets involved with feelings, she will lose all reason.As long as you get a little gentle treatment from the opposite sex, you will fall into passionate love, and because you over-magnify the other party's feelings for you, you will continue to feel frustrated and disappointed.Every time she breaks up in love, she will send a message to the writer for help, and in those emails, there will always be a photo of a lovelorn commemorative cake.In the most serious period of time, she made three lovelorn cakes in one month.

Until the writer's famous work came out, "Girl Broken Love" sent 65 cake photos.

Wang Ze said: "In his novel, the heroine No.60 never made a cake after falling in love six times. But for this girl, the number of cake photos has continued to increase."

Is the sad love path of "Girl Broken Love" caused by the writer?

The writer in the chat history of "Girl Broken Love" is so gentle and sensual, always accompanying her at the first time, and giving advice that is also very correct in the eyes of others.

But precisely because of this perfect existence, the "girl broken in love" has become an emotional black hole, never able to be satisfied in the first love, only to force the lover to leave.

The ranger felt a chill down his back.He asked, "So how is the girl doing now?"

After Wang Ze confirmed the identity of the "girl broken in love", he also tried to visit her, but——

"After the writer died, the girl committed suicide too."

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Wang Ze's eyes drooped, and he landed on his loose-leaf notebook again.

Maybe that poor girl also has such a notebook, or even several notebooks, which record the warmest care she has received in her life.And when the source of warmth disappeared, she chased after that Mars.

Ranger calms himself down: "Her misfortune was not caused by the writer."

Wang Ze said dejectedly: "I know. It's just that this girl only found out about the writer's death in the newspaper... just like me."

The ranger looked at Wang Ze's pale face, sat next to him, and grabbed his hand.

He knew better than anyone how terrible the news of the death of someone close to him was.

Wang Ze also held the ranger's hand tightly: "I am the same as this girl, and I am also the protagonist in his works. Fortunately, I survived the kidnapping because of the help of others, but the other male protagonist who helped him seemed very It is abrupt, making people feel that the whole book is just an illusory fairy tale. This, like the ending in his famous novel, is so perfect that it is almost hypocritical."

The ranger comforted: "He just wants you to be happy."

Wang Ze shook his head: "No, I also hope it's such a simple thing, but I don't think it's like this. That girl, who was originally a very independent person, became like the heroine under his comfort. Men can’t survive the dodder flower. There are also some other people, who either have a certain degree of psychological barriers themselves, or acquire mental illness later, but they all know the writer for various reasons and have a relationship with him. To maintain a certain degree of connection, just getting closer and closer to the character of the character in the book..."

"And the characters were happy, and most of the archetypes committed suicide because they couldn't accept the death of the writer."

The meticulous care made those people die like fish out of water after a moment of painful struggle.

"All these coincidences give me the feeling that he does not write with words, but with people. The people he favors, after being baptized by him, become one of his works."

Wang Ze grabbed the ranger's hand and pressed it to his cheek, trying to gain strength from the ranger's body temperature: "Without the letter he wrote to me, I probably wouldn't have been able to hold on long ago, but I'm still alive , Is it because my character is a strong kid? After I discovered this, I was very scared. In his mind, what is my position? What is the position of those who chased him to death? "

He felt so incredibly stupid that he couldn't tell anything.He wanted to tell himself that these were all paranoid guesses, and the writer who had been with him for so many years could not harm him.But he can't ignore the tragedy of "Girl Broken Love", he can't ignore the deaths of those people, and he can't ignore the writer's leaving without saying goodbye. If he can't get a definite answer, he may not be able to move on.

Tears fell on the back of the ranger's hand, and Wang Ze choked up and cried. He had been terrified for too long, and he could not speak these words until now.

These speculations are so vicious, his life mentor has been tirelessly guiding him, but he thinks that he is just one of his playthings-otherwise, how can it be explained that they can only learn about his death through official channels?They only think that the writer is their only reliance, but they don't even know why he committed suicide.

But he finally said it out, because only the person in front of him could be the one who shared the same illness as him.

Wang Ze asked: "What do you think? The reason why you feel that you have the responsibility to review other people's suicide qualifications is really not because of his influence?"

The ranger's mind went blank.

——"My highest masterpiece is you."