time has waited for me

Jing Xian closed the door with his backhand, leaned behind the door, smiled, and typed a reply: Congratulations, kid, go and tell him boldly.

A smiling face came from the other side, and asked him again: Brother Jing Xian, tell me, will he like me?

he?

Jing Xian was slightly taken aback, could this kid be gay too?

The other side has already sent another paragraph: I am very worried, he will not like me.

Jing Xian came back to his senses, continued to smile, and typed slowly: You are such a cute kid, the person you like will definitely like you too.

The child sent three smiles in a row and said: I would like to borrow your good words!

The smile on Jing Xian's face deepened, and his mood suddenly became clear.

It is indeed a very happy thing to like, but if he doesn't, it doesn't mean he won't be happy for others.

The kid said again: I am going to chase him seriously!

Jing Xian replied with a smile: Come on, I wish you success.

In the next few days, Ai Qingying really never came to the downstairs of the unit again. When the female colleagues were having afternoon tea in the office, they mentioned him again: "That handsome guy is not coming, did he give up, or did he catch up?"

"I must have given up. It rained like that that day, and I felt sorry for it. I heard from Lulu that she got off work almost six o'clock, and the handsome guy was still there. Then she forgot to take her things, 06: Come back at 30, the handsome guy is gone."

"Oh, what a pity, the little girl is too cruel."

With his back to them, Jing Xian sat in front of the computer, staring at the screen in a daze.

Life did seem to be gradually getting back on track, and on the surface, everything was back to the way he could control it.

When the child who has someone he likes talks to him every day, Feiyang's mood affects him more or less.

He has made up his mind that he will see a psychiatrist on weekends. He wants to cure his illness. He will have a good chat with the doctor this time. If he dare not face it himself, how can he have the courage to face it? people.

He thought, this is a good sign, right?

He wants to be his old self.

On Friday, the female colleagues planned to have afternoon tea again. A new fairy bean cake shop opened 50 meters away from the entrance of the unit, and it was temporarily unable to order takeaway.There are three people in Jing Xian's office, the other two are female colleagues, and other female colleagues from the next door often come to visit. Jing Xian is in a good mood recently, so he took the initiative to help them buy fairy bean cakes.

After buying hot freshly baked fairy bean cakes, Jing Xian went out to buy a few more cups of coffee for his female colleagues. The coffee shop is also nearby.When he went in, he ordered, and then stood at the pick-up counter and waited.After waiting for a while, he felt that something was wrong, so he couldn't help but look back, and when he saw it, he was a little dazed.

On the seat behind him, sat a few women, pointing at him.

One of them is Liu Xinyu's good friend and colleague. Liu Xinyu is the crazy woman who fell in love with him and killed him at the beginning. Their office area is in the exhibition hall of the museum. Came across it today.

Jing Xian pursed her lips, turned around, and didn't look at them.

Liu Xinyu's good friend suddenly got up and walked to his side, his eyes were calm and motionless.

But she asked, "Why do you still have the face to come back to work?"

Jing Xian kept silent expressionlessly.

She said angrily: "Xinyu was killed by you, do you know that you are still seeing a psychiatrist, and you have tried to commit suicide several times, and you were almost sent to a mental hospital! Fortunately, you can still come to work in a glamorous manner, don't you just Relying on the background of the family! Otherwise, you should have been fired long ago for such a low-quality homosexual!"

Jing Xian's hands were gradually clenched, his teeth were clenched tightly, and his whole body was tense.

She wanted to say more, but several other female colleagues of hers came and pulled her: "Okay, okay, stop talking, let's go!"

"I'm going to say, why!" She amplified her voice, and everyone else couldn't help but look at them.

The coffee Jing Xian ordered was also ready, and the waiter carefully handed him the packed paper bag: "Your coffee is ready."

Jing Xian didn't want to argue with these people, so he reached out to pick up the paper bag, and turned around to leave.

"Damn gay!!" The woman yelled at him loudly, and the whole shop suddenly fell silent, everyone could see it.

Those female colleagues forcefully pulled her out of the coffee shop, but Jing Xian was still standing there.

"Sir." The waiter called him in a low voice.

Jing Xian slowly came back to his senses: "It's okay."

The waiter whispered worriedly: "I, I'm gay too, it's nothing."

Jing Xian glanced at him, smiled at him, and pushed the door away with the paper bag in hand.

He returned to the office calmly and normally, joking with his female colleagues, and even ate two pieces of fairy bean cake himself, and told them that he thought the one with meat floss, salted egg yolk and glutinous rice tasted better.

After get off work, when I got home, I just closed the door and didn't turn on the lights.

As soon as he let go, his bag and mobile phone fell to the ground. He slid along the door and sat on the ground. His legs were bent, his arms wrapped around his legs, his face was buried in his knees, and he cried out instantly.

He still doesn't know what he did wrong, why he has to bear these malicious abuse and insults, why he has to bear so many malicious eyes?He has never harmed anyone. He has long rejected Liu Xinyu, directly saying that they are not suitable. When Liu Xinyu invited him to dinner for the first time, he was always polite to her, without any ambiguity.

Liu Xinyu caused him to such a situation, he did not use any identity and background to harm her, why did she and her friends treat him like this?

Now that he finally mustered up the courage and planned to cheer up to face his cowardly self, why did he push him into the sewage again?

In the past few months, he secretly cried many times.

Crying about his own powerlessness, crying about being stuck in a strange circle and unable to get out, he really couldn't figure out why it was him, why did it have to be him?

Crying for my cowardice, crying for my shrinking.

Crying as if I had become another person, a cowardly stranger who could only hide and cry.

Jing Xian slammed his head back on the door in pain, crying and wiping his tears with his hands.

The courage he had just mustered up was once again extinguished by his tears, and turned into ashes, leaving nothing behind.

In a dark corner where no one knew, the more he cried, the more wronged he became, and the more sad he became, with tears that could not be wiped off his face. Suddenly, the mobile phone in his hand rang. He didn't want to look at it, but it rang several times, all from WeChat sound.

He thought of that kid, who might also be a gay kid, and the kid said he wasn't in Shanghai these days.

He cried and picked up the mobile phone on the ground. It was indeed a WeChat message from a child.

Kid: Brother Jingxian, are you off work yet?

Kid: I'm back!

Kid: I'm going to meet someone I like, what are you doing? !

The other party was full of joy, but Jing Xian cried even harder. He had lost this pure joy for too long.

What is he doing?

Jing Xian cried and cried, and unconsciously typed: I want to die.

After sending these three words, Jing Xian realized something was wrong, and he quickly withdrew it.

The opposite side has obviously seen it, kid:? ? ? ? ? ?

After typing the question mark, the other party quickly played the video, and Jing Xian quickly refused.The other party bounced again, and the screen was full of his tears. He nodded several times in a panic, but failed to refuse, but clicked to accept.

The moment the video was connected, he was so frightened that he immediately turned his phone back and turned it off.

Throwing the phone away, he fell into his knees and continued to cry.

Ai Qingying immediately jumped up from the sofa. He planned to open a new livehouse in Wuxi. This was a plan that started in April. The renovations were almost done in the past few days. It was officially opened yesterday, so he had to be present.Just came back, took a shower and was laying on the sofa and was just about to tease his elder brother Jing Xian, how could he expect such a thing to happen? !

The moment the video was connected just now, he heard Jing Xian's cry.

What is this for? !In the end what happened? !

What are you going to do to die?Wasn't it fun a while ago?Didn't you agree to start a new life together?In the past few days, they chatted on WeChat, and Jing Xian was always in a good mood!

Ai Qingying took the windbreaker Shang Jingxian bought for him last time, put it on and rushed out of the house.

Ai Qingying lives in Songjiang by himself. It is a single-family villa, and the environment can be said to be full of birds and flowers, which is convenient for him to find inspiration and write songs.

It still took a long time for him to drive to the city. As soon as he got in the car, he called someone and said anxiously: "Now you go to the area near ASE, which is near Ruijin South Road. Isn't there a well-known neighborhood there? I told you before that Jingxian lives in a very quiet place, yes, that's right there, go and watch for me!

You are waiting at the door!Wait, I will order a takeaway to be delivered to Jing Xian. You'd better stop him. If you can't stop him, if the doorman helps to make a call, be flexible and listen carefully to see which room he lives in!Keep an eye on me!OK, I'll be there in about an hour!You must watch it! "

Ai Qingying hung up the phone, and immediately ordered a takeaway from Jing Xian's address and phone number that was closest to his home.

In 10 minutes, the delivery man arrived at the delivery location. Ai Qingying didn't know which room Jing Xian lived in, and didn't fill in the specific address.The takeaway guy was near the community, and was stopped by Ai Qingying's people, saying that the takeaway was his.After giving his name and phone number, the delivery man believed it and gave him the item.

Ask the guard again, the guard will naturally call Jing Xian.If you have a landline, you can connect. If you don't, you can at least know where you live.

A few minutes later, his people called him: "Mr. Jing Xian didn't come down, saying that the takeaway was delivered by mistake, but I found out that he lives in Building 18, Room 8 on the 22th floor."

Ai Qingying breathed a sigh of relief: "Can you find a way to get upstairs?"

"can."

"Then you stay at the door of his house, be careful, and don't let him have any accidents!"

"Okay, don't worry."

After nearly an hour, Ai Qingying finally got off the congested elevated road and drove to the entrance of the community with difficulty.

This community is a mid-range community, and the guards are not particularly strict. It seems that he drives a good car, so he was given a parking ticket and let him in.Ai Qingying met people at the gate of Jing Xian's house smoothly, he let out a breath, and asked in a low voice: "Is there any strange movement?"

"No, it's just that we don't know what's going on inside."

Ai Qingying said quickly: "You knock on his door and say you went wrong, let's see how he reacts."

There is a reason for Ai Qingying to do this. Jing Xian is a person who loves face very much. She committed suicide at the beginning because she couldn't accept other people's eyes.He is also very self-aware that Jing Xian doesn't like him at the moment, and even refuses to see him. It is not a good thing for him to appear in front of Jing Xian rashly. embarrassing time.

"Okay." The bodyguard went up to knock on the door, knocked for the first time, but no one answered, he knocked for the second time under Ai Qingying's signal.

Finally there was movement behind the door, it was Jing Xian's hoarse voice: "Who?"

"It's me, Old Chen! I've come to drink with you!"

Jing Xian said: "You knocked on the wrong door."

"Really? Oh, I'm sorry, sir!"

"It's ok."

He looked at Ai Qingying, and Ai Qingying breathed a sigh of relief. At least, she is still in good condition, and she doesn't seem to be crying anymore?

Later, Ai Qingying asked people to go back, and sat in front of Jing Xian's house all night, sending Jing Xian WeChat messages from time to time.

After ten o'clock, Jing Xian turned on the phone, because Jing Xian replied to his WeChat: I'm fine, don't worry kids [smile].

Ai Qingying felt even more distressed.

Crying like that, you can still smile and say it's okay.

Ai Qingying thought for a while, then typed: Brother Jingxian, what happened?Didn't you let me call you brother?I also regard you as my brother, my friend, you can tell me anything.

Jing Xian was silent.

Ai Qingying called again: I have someone I like, I will tell you first.What do you have to hide from me?Happy things should be shared, and sad things should be shared equally, so that the happiness will be doubled and the sadness will dissipate.

Jing Xian was silent for a longer time, when Ai Qingying thought he would not reply, Jing Xian replied: Last time you said you liked "him".

Ai Qingying pulls herself together: Yes, I like men, because of that man, I'm sure about it.

Jing Xian: I'm gay.

Ai Qingying stopped talking, and waited for Jing Xian to speak.

Jing Xian seemed to be hesitating all the time, because the other party kept typing, but no message came. It wasn't until Jing Xian sent a long message that Ai Qingying knew that he had been typing.

Ai Qingying carefully read the long paragraph of his words, it was roughly the same as what Jing Xian said to him on the night of suicide, only the lecture hall part was added.It turned out that Jing Xian was slandered by that crazy woman in the lecture hall of the museum. No wonder Jing Xian reacted like that last time.This time there is the latest paragraph, which is what happened today.

Seeing what that stupid woman said and did, Ai Qingying was so angry that she wished she could go up and kick that bitch a few times.

Ai Qingying has always been equal to men and women. What men do, the rights and obligations that men should bear, women should also have. No matter how the world is, at least he has always been like this.

So such a stupid woman, who did such a stupid thing, should she be beaten?

Should!

Of course, Ai Qingying didn't bother to think about these things now, he said directly: Brother Jing Xian, do you know what those people are.

Jing Xian asked: What.

Ai Qingying: That's a purebred idiot.

Jing Xian: ...

Ai Qingying: I'm straightforward, don't be angry.Are you worthy of yourself for putting yourself in this situation for these purebred idiots?People like you care about this kind of idiot?Brother Jing Xian, you are so powerful, you know so much, and you have such a good personality, why do you care about a few idiots?

Jing Xian: ...

Ai Qingying: Will you lose your job because of her?You will be isolated by your colleagues because of her?You will be reprimanded by the leader because of her?You will lose your knowledge and grace because of her?Do you know?

Jing Xian: No.

Ai Qingying: You are still you, so why do you torture yourself for being angry with a fool?

Ai Qingying does not know whether Jing Xian has been persuaded, although he also thinks it will be difficult.

Jing Xian didn't reply to him again, about half an hour later, Jing Xian replied: Thank you, kid, for being willing to listen to me.

He quickly replied: It's okay, I won't tell Yuanyuan.

Jing Xian: Thank you.I'm going to bed, you go to bed early too, good night.

Ai Qingying also replied "good night", but Jing Xian never replied.

But Ai Qingying relaxed a little. Since Jing Xian wanted to tell him this, it meant that he had no thoughts of dying at the moment.And speaking these out, I should be able to feel much better.

He got up from the ground, stretched his legs and feet, and planned to stay here.

Thinking of Liu Xinyu again, and the bitch in the afternoon.

He sneered, whoever made him unhappy, he would also make anyone unhappy.

Besides, how can such a flagrant and despicable perpetrator still stand on the moral high ground and live a high and happy life? !

Why don't you just bully Jing Xian for having a good temper? !

Jing Xian is willing to let them go, but he is not.