Mu Zhiqiu

Chapter 39

After being discharged from the hospital, Xu Yanmu rested for half a month before going to work.

During this period of time, he did not take the initiative to find Ziqiu.Moreover, he is still deliberately keeping a distance from her.He couldn't regard Ziqiu as Ruoran's replacement.Ziqiu is Ziqiu, Ruoran is Ruoran.He knew very well in his heart that he had to find a way to get Ziqiu to leave. He only had Ruoran in his heart, yes, only her.

Ruoran died for him, and Xu Yanmu had already died with Ruoran.A person who has died has nothing left.The most important thing is that she can't hurt the girl who likes him, but he can't give her happiness.

He couldn't get used to the warmth she brought him.For several years, he was alone, and he was used to a cold life.

However, Ziqiu was ecstatic.She finally told him that she liked him.So many years of longing, those tears shed for him, finally have a place to rely on.It's just that she didn't know that she threw a heavy burden to him.

Ziqiu was busy back and forth between the vegetable market and the kitchen, preparing meals every day and delivering them to him on time.He was still calm and cold, and he didn't say a word.Ziqiu is immersed in the beautiful world she painted for herself, enjoying the pleasure alone, she has no time to observe his feelings.

Every time he ate, Ziqiu silently watched him eat, watched him stand up silently, and politely said thank you.Like a little bird, she happily packed the tableware and left with a smile.

She ran back to her house.Even if she didn't hear a word from him, it was enough for her to stay by his side.

Seeing him go to work on time every day, her heart is empty.She couldn't wander like this, although she didn't know how long she would stay in this strange city.But you have to enrich yourself every day.She started looking for work everywhere, and finally got a job as an art teacher at a private school.

During this period, Ziqiu thought it was the happiest time.

The sky was pale, and the alarm clock rang at six o'clock on time. Ziqiu rubbed his sleepy eyes, got up quickly like a conditioned reflex, went to the bathroom to face the faucet, washed his face, and washed his hands.The icy, irritating cold makes it impossible to sleep.Towel dry off and smile in the mirror.Then I ran to the kitchen, took eggs and steamed buns bought yesterday from the refrigerator, steamed them on top, and warmed them with milk.

By the time she has tied her ponytail and put on her coat, the eggs, buns and milk will be ready.She put the food in the box and closed the door.

She tiptoed, went downstairs quickly, and turned to the 502 opposite.Knocking on the door, Iwaki opened the door in a neat police uniform.

"Good morning, Comrade Police." Ziqiu smiled sweetly, hunched over, walked through Yanmu's armpit, walked to the dining table, put down his breakfast, and then patted Yanmu who was standing silently beside him.

"Eat, I'm leaving." Ziqiu didn't look at him, and was about to turn around and go downstairs.

"Ziqiu, tomorrow you will..." Yanmu's hesitant words were interrupted by Ziqiu.

"Eat it if you like it. If you don't want it, I'll get it at noon." Ziqiu hung one foot on the stairs, took a deep breath, and said pretending to be calm.She knew that he wanted to say not to send him away in the future, and she already felt his indifference.After returning from the hospital, she didn't even have the courage to look at him now, afraid of his deep eyes, afraid that those eyes were telling the truth.Don't you just don't like me!Isn't it because you can't forget Ruoran!I just want to look at you and be with you, do you feel uncomfortable!Tears rolled in Ziqiu's eyes.

"I won't go home for lunch anymore." Yan Mu said cruelly with red eyes.He had to let Ziqiu know that there was no possibility of him being with her.

"Then I'll deliver it at night." She ran downstairs without looking back.What's wrong!What the hell is going on!Don't you just like you, hate me so much, don't want to see me so much.Ziqiu's heart was instantly torn into pieces by Yanmu's indifferent distance.To be honest, she has already noticed Yanmu's indifference.Even since she told him that she liked him, he didn't take the initiative to talk to her.So what should she do?Should I go or stay?

Yanmu stood at the door blankly, looking helplessly at Ziqiu's disappearing back.He suddenly felt sorry for her, was he too cruel and hurt her too much.

When I got home and looked at the breakfast on the table, I had no appetite at all.Grab your bag, lock the door, and go to work.

In a trance, thinking wildly.When she heard a student greet her, she came back to her senses and walked into the classroom pretending to smile.Looking at the innocent faces and innocent smiles of the children, she finally found some comfort in her heart.

Those distant times, mountains and seas, could not stop rolling in front of her eyes, the corners of her eyes were blurred, she turned around to calm her emotions, and returned a bright smile to the children.

"Class. Hello, students."

"Hello teacher!"

When she came home from get off work, looking at the empty kitchen, even she herself was not used to it.She didn't want to embarrass him, since she didn't want to see her, she just hid beside her.

Ziqiu knelt on the sofa and leaned against the window, looking at his home until it was dark, but there was still no light.

When the surrounding lights gradually turned on, his home, the black, vaguely opened window, was like a black hole, slowly swallowing her staring eyes and pulling her stiff body.She felt like she was trapped in a bottomless vortex, unable to struggle, as if she was on the verge of death, taking away her soul, leaving behind a dry and lonely body.is that herIs it herself?That disappointed hopeless face.

She leaned there, leaning quietly, she felt that the nerves in her limbs were numb and dying a little bit.She was so hungry, so hungry that she was dizzy. She hadn't eaten all day, and she had no motivation. Even if she turned around, she could pick up the morning eggs, buns or milk from the table next to her.

What she didn't know was that behind the black window opposite, Yanmu's tearful eyes were looking at her distressedly.He didn't dare to turn on the light, he was afraid of turning on the light, he had better get used to the dark night.

From that day on, Ziqiu also began to avoid Xu Yanmu intentionally or unintentionally.Try not to see each other as much as possible, so that we can live in peace and nothing will happen.

She always hangs breakfast on his door without saying a word.Then go to work, leave work, go home.Of course, the most important thing every day is to hide behind the window and watch him.

early weekend morning.

Ziqiu came back from a run, felt in his pockets, but didn't bring his keys.I can't go home, what should I do?She had no choice but to bite the bullet and run to Xu Yanmu's house and knock on the door.

"Comrade policeman, I left my key in the house, can you help me unlock it?" Ziqiu looked pitifully at Xu Yanmu who opened the door.

"Wait for me." Xu Yanmu, who was reading a book, felt a little nervous when he heard the knock on the door.He hastily put down the book, turned around and took out a tool box from the house, and the big dog wagged its tail to get it out too.

"Dog..." Ziqiu pointed with his finger in fear.

"Dabai, stay here...at home." Xu Yanmu gestured to the big dog, and the big dog turned around obediently and went back to the house.

"You're so obedient!" Ziqiu thought it was unbelievable that a person like her who is afraid of dogs has never really learned about dogs.

"um, yes."

"How old is it?" Ziqiu asked tentatively.

"Not as big as you!" Xu Yanting rarely showed a smile.

"Eh." Ziqiu looked at him and smiled, and she smiled too.

He quickly opened the lock and fixed it.

"Take a break and drink some water." She looked at Xu Yanmu who was packing up tools and said.

"No, be more careful in the future." Yan Mu said calmly.

"Are you still used to going to work?" After Xu Yanmu finished speaking, he regretted it.Shouldn't have asked.

"Very good!" Ziqiu felt sweet when he heard that he still cared about her.

"I'm leaving!" He went out carrying the toolbox.

"Thank you!" Seeing Xu Yanmu who turned and went downstairs, Ziqiu said quickly.

He didn't speak, and disappeared on the stairs.

So be it, if you feel good not to bother!Then I will guard from afar.Ziqiu looked at his back, thinking silently in his heart.

In the middle of winter night, Ziqiu tossed and turned, unable to sleep.The temples on both sides were tense and painful.I couldn't even close my eyelids tightly, and it was uncomfortable to move my eyeballs, as if my head was going to explode.

She raised her arms with difficulty, and touched her forehead in a daze, it was so hot.I have a fever, what should I do?No medicine, damn it, next time I must buy more medicine and keep it at home.It's always like this, before something happened, I didn't think so thoroughly.

Only then did she feel so helpless.It would be nice if she was at home, she misses her mother so much.Mother, mother, Ziqiu is crying,

speaking.I'm not going to die, Mom, I'm not going to just die, my head is going to explode.Mom, I miss you so much!Well, get over it, take courage, I won't be beaten!You won't die so easily, just stay up all night like this.

She felt sore and weak all over, getting more and more uncomfortable.I didn't even have the strength to shout, my mouth was so dry and uncomfortable, and I spit out bursts of hot air.

Thinking of death, she was terrified, and the tears could not stop flowing.Even my father doesn't know what he looks like, so how can he leave?Even if it's a photo, look at it.By the way, dear mother, I can't make mother sad.This time he came to Tibet, Ziqiu didn't dare to tell his mother.Afraid that she would be worried, afraid that she would be sad.Afraid that she would lose sleep all night because of herself.

I can't die, there are so many things waiting for me.I haven't even caught up with the person I like, and Duo'er is not married yet?Haven't earned a big red envelope yet?And that missing Lin Muchuan, his appearance flashed before Ziqiu's eyes.

By the way, cell phone, yes.She turned her head and looked at the desk not far away.She stretched her arms hard, faster, faster, just a little bit closer.The moment she touched the phone, she rolled off the bed and fell heavily on the cold ground.The pain spread all over her body. She trembled and dialed 120 with her fingers.Difficult to say the address, fell asleep on the ground.

When the 120 car arrived downstairs, many people were awakened.

Of course Xu Yanmu was also awakened.He got up and looked at the ambulance parked downstairs, watched two medical staff go up the opposite staircase, and saw that only the lights of Ziqiu's house were on.His heart suddenly became tense. Could it be that something happened to her?

He quickly got dressed and ran to the room.Just in time, I saw Ziqiu lying on the stretcher with his eyes closed, his face flushed, and unconscious.

"What's wrong with her?" Looking at the nurse who was taking her temperature, Xu Yanmu asked eagerly.

"I have a high fever, 43 degrees. I fell off the bed and fell into a coma. Send me to the hospital immediately." The nurse looked at Xu Yanmu.

"What should we do now?"

"Get an antipyretic injection first, and then go to the hospital for observation."

"How do you take care of the girls? They are so sick that you don't know how to send them to the hospital sooner." The nurse said.

"I, no... I will go to the hospital with you immediately."

Xu Yanmu gently lifted the sleepy Ziqiu from the stretcher, carried him downstairs, put him in the car, and sat beside her quietly watching her.

In an instant, all those beautiful pictures from more than ten years ago appeared in front of his eyes.His eye sockets are moist, yes.how many years.He has changed, but Ziqiu is still that innocent girl.How long has no one cared about his daily diet, just like when she was in high school, she always brought him delicious meals on weekends.

Silly girl, what a silly girl.

Since the departure of his first love girlfriend, his body and mind have undergone tremendous changes.Life likes to joke.Always give you misfortune inadvertently, and surprise you by accident.

Ziqiu lay in a daze, but felt that there were many people busy around him, some were hugging him gently, some were holding his hand tightly, and he felt the warmth of tears dripping down his palm.is it him?Is he by your side?Ziqiu felt the warmth from the palm of her hand, she smiled slightly, and fell into a drowsy sleep.

When she woke up, she saw Xu Yanmu walking in with breakfast.

"Thank you," she said with a smile.

"Let's eat." Xu Yanmu put down his breakfast, touched her forehead, and helped her up to lean on the pillow.

"Well, thank you!" Ziqiu looked at the concern in his eyes, and couldn't help but said tremblingly with red eyes.

"Silly girl." Xu Yanmu stretched out his arms and gave Ziqiu a big hug.Ziqiu was a little surprised, but smiled instead. She hugged him tightly. How many years had she been looking forward to this warm hug.Her tears flowed down her cheeks onto his clothes.

"Don't cry, I'm here, don't be afraid." Yanmu held her face and wiped the tears from her face with his hands.

Although Xu Yanmu was talking, in fact, the corners of his eyes could no longer hide the tears.

The author has something to say:

"Dark Night"

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the clock is panting

Trapped in the mud, desperately spinning

splash of water

blackened the night

a residual leaf

withered by the cold wind

Hanging on the edge of a loose haystack

Looking at the boundless wilderness with tentative eyes

silent scary

darkness breeds shadows

I want to use it to test the light

in the haystack

buried the seeds of youth

still dream sprout