I'm not from the same world as you

Xu Cen left and returned to Anqing. After that, he never saw Duan He again, but only talked about Duan He intermittently from Wang Meng and Qi Wei.

Duan He went to the construction site boss to argue and demanded compensation, but was beaten.

Duan He found a few workers who wanted to sue the construction site boss, but they stopped because they couldn't pay the legal fees.

Duan He's father was buried in desolation. Only Duan He, Duan He's mother and a few workers were present at the funeral.

Duan He asked the school for a month's leave on the grounds that his mother was sick in bed.

At the end of the semester, Duan He didn't come back to take the final exam, and the construction site boss disappeared.

During the winter vacation, Duan He worked several jobs at the same time to maintain the family and treat his mother.

Xu Cen frugally used the remaining living expenses to send to Duan He, but Duan He returned it intact.

In the new semester, Duan He dropped out of school.

During this period, Xu Cen had the idea of ​​looking for Duan He countless times, but every time he suppressed him, he also tried not to pay attention to the news about Duan He or think about Duan He, but, Once there was no news of Duan He, he felt uneasy again.

Worried, distressed, and regretful, these emotions tormented Xu Cen every day, but he could only choose to endure.

Xu Cen was shocked by the news of Duan He's dropout, but after hearing the reason for Duan He's dropout in Wang Meng's mouth, he was left with distress and helplessness.

Duan He's mother has never been better since she fell ill, and she seems to be on drugs every day. The death of Duan He's father made Duan He's family lose their income, and Duan He's mother's illness made the family more and more serious. Duan He couldn't make ends meet, and Duan He couldn't pay for his school tuition.

The once warm home has become dilapidated, and the once warm person has become more and more cold and hard.

Xu Cen went to ask his adoptive parents, but the result was not satisfactory. He could only watch Duan He struggle to survive. How could Duan He accept the hundreds of dollars he gave him? help.

Xu Cen has never felt so powerless, he can't help Duan He, and he can't help himself either.

After Duan He dropped out of school, there was less news about him. Wang Meng said that Duan He was always busy, and even contacted them less.

There are more and more school affairs, and Xu Cen is getting more and more busy. Gradually, the name Duan He seems to disappear from his world. A person's voice and smile.

They seem to be in two different worlds, Xu Cen is busy with his studies, Duan He is struggling to survive, two people, two places, neither meet each other.

However, the yearning has not been diluted at all.

More than two years have passed, and Xu Cen has completed all his subjects and successfully graduated ahead of schedule. At the same time, he also got the opportunity to study in the school's major.

Life is full of various experiments and papers, and Duan He has completely faded out of his life.

Xu Cen is going to move dormitory, dormitory 507 is going to have the last dormitory dinner, the three of them are sitting in the hot pot restaurant, eating hot pot and chatting, the lively atmosphere is like freshman two years ago.

They are still talking nonsense, it seems that nothing has changed, but everything is different.

There was still one seat vacant on the square table, and a set of tableware was left on the other side, which was almost the custom for the three of them to eat out, and that set of tableware was reserved for Duan He.

Qi Wei took a sip of wine, then looked at Xu Cen, "Xu Cen, congratulations, the college bullies have graduated, we have to continue."

"There's nothing to congratulate, it's just another place to continue." Xu Cen took a sip of tea, his stomach was still the same after so many years, to be honest, he still wanted to drink like Wang Mengqiwei at this time, with energy Son.

Wang Meng and Xu Cen clinked glasses, "Although we are no longer in 507, we are still a part of 507. Don't try to get rid of us!"

Xu Cen smiled, "How could that be?"

Xu Cen looked at the empty bowl and chopsticks, not knowing what it was like, but there was sadness and helplessness between his brows.

Wang Meng patted Xu Cen's shoulder, "Don't worry too much, he is fine."

Xu Cen turned to look at Wang Meng, "What do you mean? Have you seen him?"

"Don't worry, I didn't want to tell you, but... well, I haven't met him before, it's my parents, they have a small building materials business, and the partner... is Duan He."

Wang Meng told Xu Cen about this matter in detail. Wang Meng's parents had a building materials business and wanted to find a cheaper supplier. They met Duan He through someone's introduction. It is said that Duan He is now an employee of a decoration company. The boss is also in the building materials business by the way.

Wang Meng's parents met Duan He at school before, and they had an impression of Duan He, and they told Wang Meng when they returned home after the business negotiation.

"Boss? Is he the boss now?" Xu Cen was a little surprised.

Wang Meng nodded, "Well, two years ago, Duan He's father had an accident. The boss of the construction site made many workers dissatisfied, but no one spoke out and no one made trouble. The construction site refused to pay compensation. A few iron workers talked about it everywhere, and finally instigated a group of skilled workers to leave.

Although Duan He did not receive compensation in the end, Duan He led a group of skilled workers to set up a decoration team, and then slowly developed, and now it has become a small-scale company.

So don't worry about Duan He, he is doing much better than we imagined. "

Xu Cen chuckled, how are you doing?maybe.

The three of them ate dinner for more than two hours. Wang Meng and Qi Wei seemed to have endless things to say, but Xu Cen, who was the protagonist, became the one who listened.

Back in the dormitory, Xu Cen’s things had already been packed. There were not many things. Wang Meng and Qi Wei helped to get some and they were all gone. The three of them carried the things and walked to Xu Cen’s new dormitory. No one said a word on the way. Even Qi Wei, who usually talks a lot, also kept silent all the way.

Arrived at Xu Cenxin's dormitory, this is a graduate student dormitory, the room for two is much more spacious than the undergraduate dormitory, Xu Cen probably still has a roommate, maybe he hasn't arrived yet.

Qi Wei put down the things in his hands and looked around, "Xueba's dormitory is really not on the same level as ours. Xu Xueba will enjoy the blessings in the future."

Wang Mengchao rolled his eyes at Qi Wei, turned around and said to Xu Cen, "Your roommate doesn't know what to do, you are young, don't let others bully you."

"How could it be?" Xu Cen shook his head.

"Be careful, you can come to the two of us at any time if you have anything to do."

Xu Cen nodded, indicating that he understood, "You guys go first, it's getting late, I'll clean up by myself."

Wang Meng and Qi Wei glanced at each other and nodded. Before they left, Wang Meng didn't forget to say, "Call me if I have something to do."

Such a big room was empty, Xu Cen was the only one in the room, the outside wind was blowing in and it was chilly, Xu Cen got up and closed the window, it was March, it was still so cold, and there were no green leaves blooming.

Xu Cen simply tidied up, took a shower and lay down on the bed, closed his eyes, his mind was full of Duan He.

He forced himself to close his eyes to sleep, but half an hour later, Xu Cen did not feel sleepy at all. Xu Cen sighed, took out his phone from under the pillow, turned it on, and a photo of him and Duan He appeared on the screen.

Since this photo was taken, it has been the wallpaper of his mobile phone. It has been almost three years and it has not changed. At the beginning, Duan He insisted on taking it, but he was not happy. He did not expect this photo to become his daily wallpaper. Think about it.

After staring at the photo for a long time, Xu Cen stuffed his phone under the pillow again until his eyes hurt. Tomorrow is another day and he needs to rest.

Xu Cen woke up at six o'clock in the morning. Xu Cen was woken up with a start. His forehead, back, and body were covered with sweat. One night, Duan He was the only one in his dream. Duan He kept complaining, blaming, and even Abusive, he pointed to Xu Cen's nose and said, I hate you.

No matter how much Xu Cen cried and knelt to apologize and beg, Duan He only had resentment and hatred on his face. In the end, Duan He turned around without hesitation and decided to leave.

Xu Cen washed his face in the toilet. He had this dream countless times, and every time he fell into a deeper torment.

Since the beginning of this semester, Xu Cen has become even busier. His tutor is very optimistic about him, so he made an exception and let him enter the research institute to help out. Cen, everyone is taking good care of you.

Xu Cen has a grateful heart for everything he has now, he no longer has so many worries, he is used to being alone, and gradually becomes less cautious about things he has never had but has been longing for.

Many people praised him for being smart and careful, and many people felt that he was too cold and unwilling to get close to him. Xu Cen also looked down on these evaluations. Maybe he has experienced many things and read many books. Xu Cen is now acting like It's more indifferent than inferiority cowardice and anxiety.

He originally thought that his life might just go on like this, silently and without waves, but things just happened like this without a sound, like a stone thrown into his ordinary life, appearing Ripple after ripple.

It was already April, and the weather was getting warmer day by day. It was a sunny afternoon. Wang Meng, who had not seen him for almost a month, handed him an invitation card. The white post made Xu Cen feel a strong sense of uneasiness. .

Xu Cen took the invitation and looked at Wang Meng suspiciously. For some reason, he resisted opening the invitation.

"I have hesitated for a long time whether to tell you about this matter. Although reason tells me that I should not let this matter disturb your life, I think that if you hide it from you, you will regret it for the rest of your life. So, I bring this It's gone." Wang Meng pointed to the invitation card in Xu Cen's hand.

Xu Cen slowly opened the invitation. As he expected, it was a funeral invitation, and the main character of the invitation was—Mother Duan He, that is to say...

Xu Cen looked at Wang Meng in surprise, "Auntie..."

"Since Uncle Duan left, Auntie Duan has been bedridden. Duan He almost went bankrupt because of Auntie. Maybe it's because of a heart attack. Even if she was suspended with drugs, Auntie couldn't..."

Xu Cen handed the invitation back to Wang Meng, "I see."

"Are you going?" Wang Meng looked at Xu Cen and asked hesitantly.

"The invitation is for you. Since he didn't give it to me, it means he doesn't want to see me. Forget it." Xu Cen lowered his eyes.

"Alright then, I'm just here to tell you, let's go first."

After Wang Meng left, Xu Cen found a place to sit down, and pressed the center of his eyebrows with some discomfort. The last time he saw his aunt was in the hospital. At that time, she no longer had the usual air, and her whole body was like a pool of stagnant water.

Xu Cen originally thought that with Duan He, Auntie at least had hope of living, but now it seems that even Duan He can't keep her, Uncle Duan, it's her everything.

Xu Cen was very blocked. In less than three years, Duan He was the only one left in the warm and plain home he had longed for. How would Duan He feel when facing the departure of his loved ones?

He dropped out of school, worked hard, and lived hard, all of which were just for his mother, but now that this person has left, Duan He has no object to hold on to, and everything he does is meaningless.

Even if the two places are separated, Xu Cen seems to be able to feel Duan He's heartache. Duan He, are you okay now?

Xu Cen touched the phone screen, Duan He still didn't want to see him after such a big incident happened, he wanted to text and call Duan He, and even dropped everything and ran to see Duan He, but all this was because of Duan He If he didn't want to stop, Duan He might still hate him.

In the past few days, Xu Cen has always been in a dissociative state, unable to concentrate on doing anything, and always making mistakes when helping in the research institute. The supervisor asked him many times and told him that if he feels tired, he can ask for leave to rest. , Xu Cen apologized to his supervisor and the professor of the research institute, then asked for leave and went back to the dormitory.

Tomorrow is the funeral of Duan He's mother. He has been uneasy all the time. He always has a bad feeling. What will Duan He do on such a day?

When he returned to the dormitory, he was lying on the bed alone. The empty room made him feel lonely. His roommate did not come to report for some reason, so he was allowed to live alone in this dormitory as a matter of course.

But after living for so long, he is still not used to being alone.People are spoiled, and since college, the small dormitory always gave him a sense of security, because he knew he was not alone.

After adapting to such an environment, it is extremely difficult to return to the world of one person again.

Xu Cen got up from the bed, took the cigarette and lighter from the drawer, and walked to the balcony in sandals and slippers.

Although it was April, it was still chilly at night, Xu Cen didn't have any warm places on his body, his hands and feet were especially cold, so he let himself wear sandals and slippers.

Xu Cen took out a cigarette from the cigarette case, lit it and put it in his mouth. He had forgotten when he learned to smoke. He didn't like the taste of cigarettes, but his stomach didn't allow him to drink, so every time he was upset Can only smoke.

Taking a deep puff, the burnt tobacco turned into soot and fell from the balcony, blown away by the wind before it hit the ground.

Xu Cen didn't spit out the smoke, but swallowed it into his stomach. Only in this way could he feel the smell of tobacco permeating his whole body, allowing him to forget everything.

The night wind blew him a little cold. Xu Cen slowly sat on the ground with his arms folded, leaning against the balcony. Before he met Duan He, he always kept himself warm. Why can't he do it now?The chill of early spring seemed to soak his whole body, and he couldn't resist it no matter what.

After smoking a cigarette, Xu Cen directly put the cigarette butt in his palm. The burning pain from his hand made him a little more awake. He looked up at the sky. At this moment, is Duan He just like him, confused? Looking at the same sky?

Xu Cen gathered up his pajamas, took a cigarette into the bedroom, and lay back on the bed. The bed was still cold. Xu Cen took out his mobile phone, booked a ticket online, and took the sleeping pills in the bedside drawer. I took one and forced myself to sleep.

Xu Cen woke up early the next morning. After a night of sleep, he still felt tired. The self in the mirror was even more lethargic than he imagined. After a simple wash, Xu Cen started to walk to the station.

Taking this train again after two years, looking at the raindrops outside the window, Xu Cen couldn't calm down.

He didn't take this train many times, almost every time he was sitting next to Duan He. Today, he didn't know if it was the last time he got on this train, and this time, he didn't know if it was the last time he went to see Duan He.

Xu Cen frowned and leaned against the window, he was very tired.