i have a crush on you

Chapter 8: Youth Paradise (2)

It takes more than 12 hours by train from my home to S University, and He Shu accompanied me all the way to S University.The two of us who usually talk about everything didn't say a word during those long 12 hours. I know because we both have the grief of having to say goodbye.

The car in the middle of the night is so quiet and sad, you can’t keep people who are about to leave at every station, and people who come up at every station will have to say goodbye eventually.

He leaned on my shoulder, buried it in my neck, and held my hands. Unexpectedly, He Shu bit my collarbone, and he said, "This is your punishment for breaking your promise."

City S, where S University is located, is relatively cool all year round. This is what I like most about this city. He Shu and I played in S University for two days, and then I sent him to the station. We are like so many separate children. Lovers, reluctant to part.

Before he left, he gave me a Motorola mobile phone. He told me that it cost almost 2000 yuan including phone charges. He also told me to call him every day.

In this way, I started a four-year telephone contact mode with him.

I had a good time in college, and it was a good mix to be precise.I joined the student study, met many friends, and my circle of friends gradually expanded. I have to say that this will be of indelible help to my future career.

I get along well with my roommates, and every time He Shu comes, he always takes them to have a massage.But when He Shu later told me that he wanted to be alone, the number of times I took them to dinner became less.But it is undeniable that several of my roommates still like He Shu very much.

I also think He Shu is likable, after all, he is handsome and smart.

But I don't know the reason. I have never heard of him dating in the past four years. I asked Hu Hao, who is also a student in City F, and he said that he had met He Shu once or twice after graduation. The words and smiles seemed to be less, and it was difficult to feel the cheerfulness that existed in him when he was close to him.It is completely out of the question to have girlfriends, not even male friends.

I don't believe it and I can't believe it, he is very lively every time on the phone and in text messages. When he came to see me in city S and when I went to see him in city F, there was no change at all. His smile is so real.

Finally one day I decided to go straight to him without telling him.It was November 2005. I skipped three days of classes and took a train that departed at 11:6 p.m. and arrived at 6:[-] a.m. the next morning.

I am familiar with his class schedule. He didn't have a class this morning. I sat in a pavilion in the distance and looked at his dormitory building.

I'm not familiar with his roommate, I just met him a few times when I went to look for him, but the eyes from them didn't seem very friendly, so we left the dormitory without staying longer.

At ten o'clock in the morning, his other three roommates came out together. I thought He Shuhui would be behind, but it wasn't.

One of the roommates came back around eleven o'clock in the morning, without the food in his hand as I guessed.

That roommate came out again at twelve o'clock, and nothing happened.

He had a class after one o'clock in the afternoon, and I finally saw him. He was wearing glasses, holding two books in his hands, and his figure was very lonely.

I quietly followed him, he was sitting a few rows behind, and his roommate was not with him.Eventually a few latecomers sat next to him.

This gave me the feeling that He Shu was squeezed out.

I followed him all the way and watched him go to the cafeteria after class.

As soon as I sat down, my phone vibrated, and there was a text message from He Shu.

-What are you doing?

— What about eating?

—Why are you eating so late?This is not good for the stomach!

I looked at him, he was frowning, and I was in a state of confusion.

--What are you doing?

— Library study.Can Xueba understand?

——Narcissistic... Alone?

— with roommates.I can't tell you anymore, the SMS fee is too much.

——I'll rush for you, let's chat for a while.

The phone call came, I adjusted my mood and answered the phone.

"Hey, Jiang Tang, what's wrong with you?" He put down his chopsticks and leaned on the chair.

"I'm fine. Why did you call suddenly?"

"I thought something was wrong with you, and I was flattered to charge my phone bill all of a sudden."

"You have no conscience. Do you think I contributed half of my living expenses to the phone bill?"

"Yes yes yes." He smiled, "Is there any money to spend? Your eldest brother and I have money."

"Yes, there are many." I looked at him with a smile in his eyes, "He Shu."

"Ok?"

"Are you really in the library?"

"That's right." He said again hastily, "I called you when I came out, so it's a bit noisy."

"Oh. How are you doing?"

"What's wrong with you?" He was a little skeptical, "Aren't you in touch every day?"

"I kind of miss you."

"Hahahaha." He laughed, "You are so nasty, how about I visit you this weekend?"

"Do you really want to see me?"

"Think. Crazy."

My words were on my lips but I still didn't say them.I don't know what exactly happened in it. The gap between the two of us cannot be resolved by a phone call and a few text messages.

My secret love has never changed, but I feel that the friendship between the two of us is getting weaker and weaker.Invisibly, I have a new life and he also has a story that I don't know.

I spent more than two hours on the phone with him, from the restaurant to the playground to the library.His tone is always so normal, he never seems to show sadness in front of me.

It was many years later that I realized that the protection he gave me and the warmth I felt were far more than what I felt myself.

I still went back without meeting him. This matter was kept in my heart. Sometimes not everything is clear and it is a good choice, just like my love. Since the consequences of speaking out are unbearable, Just let it stay dark.

Four years have passed.

He Shu and I are 22 years old.

I had a crush on him for 5 years.