I'm fine during the day

asked, I just nodded.

"Would you like to come with me?" I asked her.

"Wherever you are, I will be there." Wen Xue said firmly.

"After a while, the company will send me to Beijing for a business trip. After I come back, I will start the branch office. So there is no rush." ​​I comforted Wen Xue.

"Well, I want to spend time with my parents during these days. I know you must be very busy recently, so just leave me alone and go about your business." Wen Xue is considerate, she always knows that what do i need.

Sometimes I don't understand what kind of blessing I have been given to be able to meet such a lover who is willing to only think about each other.I have no feelings for her, she must know, but never tell the truth.I am pathetic, so why not Wen Xue?

I called Yu Xia: "Yu Xia, I'm leaving."

"Where are you going?" He looked surprised.

"I'm leaving here." I told him that I was leaving the city.He listened quietly.

"It's nice," he said. "You know what? I miss our home west."

"Are you still coming?" I blurted out.If Yu Xia comes over, I will give up my position in the branch and stay here.At this moment, I really want Yu Xia to come back.

"Mom and Dad won't let me go." He said softly.

"I'll go find you." I said.

"No." His quick answer surprised me.Perhaps realizing that he refused too simply, he smiled and said, "I'm a bit busy this time."

My heart is bitter.Yu Xia, you are afraid that I will find you, what are you afraid of?

"Do you have a boyfriend?" I asked him again.This time, I must hear him tell me himself.

"Yes." he said.

Now that you have a boyfriend, are you going to push me out of your world?

And Yu Xia and I will never go back to the past.

4. An unexpected reunion

Beijing.In the crowd, I saw a familiar figure.Yu Xia.He and his parents are coming here.

My breath stopped, my steps were heavy, and I couldn't take another step forward.They came over.Uncles and aunts smiled at me: "Daytime."

I said politely: "Hello, uncle and aunt." I asked them, "Are you coming to Beijing for tourism?"

He smiled at me: "I'll bring my parents to Beijing to play."

Auntie took my hand: "You're so handsome during the day."

I said: "Where is there?"

"Is work okay?"

"Very good. Are all uncles and aunts in good health?"

"It's all good, we're all good." The auntie laughed, "You talk to Yu Xia, and your uncle and I will go over there to have a look." She gave her uncle a look, and the two walked towards the park next to the street.

Yu Xia and I looked at each other in silence for a while.

"Daytime." Yu Xia spoke first.He smiled at me.

"En, Yu Xia," I was silent for a while, and finally opened my mouth with difficulty, "How are you?"

Yu Xia still had a faint smile on her face, "I'm fine. How about you?"

"Me too." I have a thousand words, but I can't say a word.

"You and Wen Xue... are doing well, right?"

I was startled, I said "forehead" and lowered my eyes, "We're engaged."

His expression was indifferent, and I couldn't see what he was thinking.Then he said, "Congratulations."

"Thank you." I said.We have never been so polite before.Yu Xia, his face looks so pale, I don't know what he is thinking. "What about you?" I asked him.

"I'm very good."

"What about him?" I asked him.

"Him?" Yu Xia froze for a moment, but did not answer.

"How is he? Is he fine?" I pressed.

"He's fine." Yu Xia said indifferently, without much joy.

"Do you... love him very much?"

He turned his gaze elsewhere. "I love him very much."

I don't know what to say anymore, my thoughts are in a mess, I don't know what I'm thinking.Yu Xia also fell into a daze.But the silence embarrassed me.

"Yu Xia." We were originally close, but now we have become so polite.But Yu Xia, I just want to know, are you really nice? "Tell me, how are you?"

Yu Xia was taken aback for a moment, then smiled lightly again, "I'm fine."

As long as you are good, then I am good.I say this in my heart.But Yu Xia, my heart is so sad.The corners of my eyes were wet, and I raised my head, trying not to let the tears flow, but the tears still flowed down uncontrollably.

Yu Xia took a deep breath, his heart must be like mine, full of turmoil.However, there are some things we cannot say.

He stretched out his hand, paused in mid-air, and finally reached out.He gently wiped the tears from my eyes with his fingers.

"Okay." You smiled at me, "be stronger in the future, okay?"

I nod.I wiped my tears with my hands, and the tears grew more and more.Yu Xia has been quietly waiting for me.

And I finally wiped away my tears.I looked up and smiled at him.

"Promise me you will be happy, okay?" he said.

"You want to be happy too." I said.

He sighed, and then he looked at his parents in the distance, "Mom and Dad may be waiting anxiously."

I was startled, Yu Xia and I have just met each other in such a hurry, are we going to separate again?Will there be a chance to meet in the future?I dare not ask, nor can I ask.I have a lot to say, but I can't say it.He looked at me and could tell he had a lot to say, but neither of us said it.

He lowered his head, his feet began to move, and he was about to leave.

"Is there no separate hug?" I said, I just want to spend more time with him.

He raised his head, smiled, and held out his hand to me, and I rushed over and hugged him tightly.I was too excited, I used too much force, he was thrown hard by me, his body was sideways, and then stabilized again.

"Yu Xia." I could hear our mutual heartbeats, "How are you? Tell me, how are you?"

"I'm fine." He said softly.

"I miss you." I said.I thought, I have to tell him, I miss him.Yes, I miss you, Yu Xia, I miss you very much.Every day, I think of you, can you feel it?

"Me too," he said.

"Say it." I said without thinking.

Back in time, I went back to the lost night in Dashishan.Yu Xia said, I love you.I said, me too.He smiled and said it.

My heart was beating violently, and I could feel his breathing becoming short, as he was trying to calm himself down.Then he calmed down, and he said, "I miss you." He said it calmly.

But, Yu Xia, I know, you miss me very much, just like I miss you.My eyes are moist again.I gently wiped it off.Maybe some words are left unsaid, and there will be no chance again.

"Yu Xia, I remember everything we have experienced." I just want him to know that I remember, I remember everything.However, I hate myself, why am I unwilling to speak out and admit my feelings openly?Why, I'm just like this, hiding myself behind a mask, saying those innocuous likes?

We hugged each other so tightly, I don't know how long it took before we let go of each other.

"I wish you happiness." He smiled at me again, then walked towards Mom and Dad.His steps faltered.I can hardly stand still.I hate myself a little, since we already have a life with each other, why do we want to touch his heart again, make him sad, and make myself sad.

But Yu Xia, I just want you to know that my feelings for you, I am true to you.

Yu Xia really has a boyfriend.This incident made me very depressed.After returning from Beijing, I fell into a daze.I really want to stop Yu Xia, but I can't do anything.

And I gradually lost contact with Yu Xia.I put all my energy into my work.The new company has just been established, and I am flying back and forth between the two places. I will bid farewell to this city when everything is ready.

Yu Xia no longer contacted me, and I did not contact Yu Xia too much.It's not that I don't want to contact, but that I can't.Every time I pick up the phone, I put it down in a depressed mood.I don't know how to face him, I don't know how to face his happiness.I even thought, why hasn't he broken up with his boyfriend yet?

When I got out of my busy work, I realized that there was a short message on my mobile phone.It belongs to Yu Xia.I opened it to look, but saw the scene I least wanted to see.

"During the day, thank you for every day you walked with me. I'm going to change my mobile phone number. From now on, we won't be in touch anymore. I wish you happiness and wish me happiness too, okay?"

Why?Why are you not allowed to contact me when you have a boyfriend?Even though we all have our own partners, we are still good friends.

I called him, but he didn't answer.I'm going crazy.Yu Xia, are you really so heartless?I called him again, but he still didn't answer.I actually lost the courage to call again.

An hour later, his call came.

"Daytime." His tone was tired.

"Yu Xia, why didn't you answer the phone? Are you really ignoring me?"

"I was busy just now." This was Yu Xia's usual excuse, but I was powerless to refute it.He continued, "I'm going to change my phone number, and we'll..."

"Why? Why is this?"

He was taken aback for a moment, and he said, "By the day, I have a boyfriend."

"Having a boyfriend doesn't mean ignoring friends."

"If I love someone, I'll always love him," he told me, "so..."

He stopped talking.

"So, you're going to cut off all ties with us, aren't you?"

"Yes." His voice was low.

"Why?" I said, "Even though we have our own lives, we're still friends."

"I hope I can have a pure love without other people's disturbance."

I froze.I wanted to refute, but couldn't.Yu Xia, you want to cut me out of your life completely, is that right?

"Yu Xia, are you going to push me away?"

"My heart can only be given to one person." He seemed to be muttering to himself.

That person is not me.

"You forget your friends after seeing sex like this!" I yelled, my voice was excited, "Yu Xia, have you forgotten our relationship for so many years? I don't believe you won't allow me to contact you, I don't believe you would be so heartless, I do not believe!"

He just ignored my words.He said, "I wish you happiness during the day."

I said loudly: "I don't want to listen to this. Yu Xia, I don't want to see you often, I just want to hear your voice, can't I?"

"Daytime." His voice trembled.

"kindness."

"Promise me that no matter what happens in the future, I hope you will be happy."

"I am not happy."

After being silent for a while, he said, "There is one thing you have to promise me, okay?"

"what's up?"

He paused, as if he had used a lot of strength, "During the day, you have to remember my words. No matter what happened before or in the future, the past is over, let's not be sad, be strong, be happy, Live your life happily, okay? Promise me."

Yes, the past is over, I turned a blind eye to his efforts before, now he has a boyfriend, I can't do anything anymore.However, my heart is so painful.

Yu Xia, if time can be turned back, I must go back to the past, and I will use my greatest strength to hug you tightly.

"Promise me, okay?"

"Okay." The corners of my eyes were wet.Is Yu Xia saying goodbye to me?

"I know, you are very strong." He smiled.

"Can I still contact you?" I was making a last-ditch effort.

He was silent again.

Then, he said softly: "If I don't contact you anymore, will you miss me?"

"Yu Xia, you know, I will miss you. I miss you. I miss you very much." I couldn't control my emotions anymore, I choked up and said, "After you change your phone number, you must tell me, even if you Don't let me call you, I just don't call. But you have to tell your contact information, so that I at least know that we can still be contacted in this world. Okay?"

There was another long silence.He said, "I miss you too, during the day." I thought he had changed his mind, and he said two more words, "Goodbye."

Goodbye, forever.is that so?Yu Xia?The phone hangs up.When I called again, the phone was turned off.

I can no longer contact Yu Xia.

If I know his mobile phone number, I know he is there, even if I don't contact him, I will feel at ease.But now, I cut off the only way of contact with him.Between us, we have experienced something, but it seems that we have never experienced anything.

5. Journey to Find Love (1)

During that time, I often dreamed.I often dream of that night in Dashi Mountain, I was in Yu Xia's arms, and his arms were warm.However, after waking up from the dream, only a sigh remained.

In more dreams, I stand in a desert, in such a desolation, the world is so big, and I, I am alone, just one person.

I went back to my hometown.As she said, Wen Xue followed me to my hometown.We didn't live with Mom and Dad because I didn't want them to notice.We bought a two bedroom home.One master bedroom and one guest bedroom.I usually sleep in the guest bedroom.

Sometimes I feel that I just took advantage of Wen Xue, and Wen Xue, this considerate girl, is the one who saves me every time.

My father and mother kept urging us to get married, but Wen Xue advised them every time: "Uncle and aunt, we are still young, let's play for another two years."

Because of the promotion, my colleagues kept congratulating me, but I refused.The day I was announced as District Manager, I knew I couldn't push it.On that day, my colleagues raised their glasses to Wen Xue and me to celebrate.I drank too much, and Wen Xue drank too much.

For the first time, Wen Xue showed her fragility.Back home, I went back to my room, Wen Xue suddenly hugged me from behind.she cried.She said: "Yu Xia, I love you. I know you don't love me, and I don't mind, but I just want to be able to fall asleep in your arms one day. Is such a request too much? I just want to I want to have one time, we belong to each other, Yu Xia. I only want one time, okay?"

I froze.Wen Xue has always been so strong, but tonight, she is just a fragile girl.

I stopped, and I turned my head, excruciating pain.The same pain was Wen Xue.Two people in pain hug each other and cry.That night, I stayed by Wen Xue's side.

Wen Xue fell asleep.I can't sleep anymore.I went back to my room and sat alone in the dark for a long time.

I haven't been in touch with Yu Xia for two whole months.I miss him more and more.I remembered what Yu Xia said, my heart can only be given to one person.And my heart was given to Yu Xia.But, will he know?

Many times, I have the urge to go to him.However, he already has his own life. He said that he doesn't want me to disturb him.However, I want to know any news about him, even a little bit of news.But he seemed to disappear suddenly, and I couldn't find him again.

I suddenly thought of a person.His colleague, Brother Tie.Maybe he knew about Yu Xia's news.But how to find Brother Tie?Go to Yu Xia's original company?At this time, my mind flashed, and I remembered Brother Tie's website.That gay site.

I get excited right away.Maybe I will find Brother Tie, maybe I can find Yu Xia's trail.Back then, I asked Yu Xia not to log in to the website anymore, but now, I hope that there will be traces of him here.

I turned on my laptop, I opened the website, I typed in my username: "daytime".Back then Yu Xia wanted to use my name as his nickname, but now, I am really logging in.The password is my birthday, 1221.I climbed up smoothly.

The website is in a mess, there is a short explanation on the homepage, the website has been attacked by hackers recently, so the website is being rebuilt, and so on.My heart sank.Even if Yu Xia had logged into this website before, now, there is no trace left here.

I looked at the announcement again, which reminded friends that they could go to the newly-built chat room to chat and put forward planning suggestions for the reconstruction of the website.I clicked on the chat room link and entered a public chat room.

I didn't say anything, I was looking for Brother Tie's speech on the chat page.But after waiting for a long time, I didn't get anything.Exhausted and disappointed, I closed the website.

I decided that when I go to the head office for a meeting again, I must find Brother Tie.However, after finding Brother Tie, what can we do?

A month later, I went to the company headquarters for a meeting.I still live in a room on the west side.Although I am no longer here, the room given to me by the head office has not been taken back.After the meeting, I decided to go to Brother Tie. After thinking about it, I opened the website again, maybe I will meet Brother Tie this time.

The website has been preliminarily built, and the chat room is still there.I entered the chat room.Still didn't speak, just looked, I saw a name: Brother Tie.My heart is about to jump.

Just when I was about to talk to Brother Tie, a small window popped up, and it was Brother Tie who was saying hello.

"You boy, you don't contact me now, why did you go?"

I was taken aback.My current identity is Yu Xia.In this way, Brother Tie was speaking to Yu Xia.I was so excited that I couldn't type a word for a long time.

"Brother Tie." I finally typed these two words and sent them out.Then I started typing again: "I'm Tiantian, I'm Yu Xia's friend."

Before clicking send, Brother Tie sent another message, "Haha, didn't you say that you won't log in to this website?"

I hurriedly typed the sentence just now and clicked send. "I am Tiantian, and I am Yu Xia's friend."

"There is no 300 taels of silver here. I know you are Yu Xia. Your song won an award, and I can't even contact you."

Song?What song is it?I was taken aback.I hurriedly explained: "Brother Tie, I'm not Yu Xia, I'm Yu Xia's friend. My name is Tian Tian,"

I think, the other side may be stunned, we paused for half a minute.A sentence was sent over there: "You said, your name is Tiantian?"

I replied: "Yes." Then I asked him, "Can you tell me, what song are you talking about?"

"I don't know if I can tell you, but since we met, maybe it's fate." He typed out such a thoughtless sentence, and then he asked me, "Where are you?"

I give my address.He smiled, "Do you want to meet?"

I said: "Okay."

He typed out the address: "The sinking bar? Are you going?"

I typed two words: "I'll go."

As I walked into the sunken bar, I took a deep breath.I remembered that day, when Yu Xia proposed to sit at the Sunken Bar, I refused at that time.Now, in order to get news from Yu Xia, I'm here.

I walked into the bar and saw a strong man sitting there, and I immediately recognized that it was Brother Tie.I walked towards him and he smiled at me and pointed to the seat opposite.I sat down.

After ordering a drink, we exchanged glances.

"Your name is Tiantian?"

"Yes."

"Is that your real name?"

"Yes." I have a lot of questions I want to ask him, "I want to take the liberty to ask, do you know about Yu Xia's news? He changed his phone number, do you know his new phone number?"

"Don't you know?" It was his turn to be surprised this time, "I just wanted to ask you."

My heart sank.Yu Xia didn't leave anyone his contact number, is he trying to completely forget the past?

I shook my head.

"What are you going to do?" Brother Tie asked me.

"If you don't know his phone number, I want...to find him." I was a little at a loss, "I don't know if he will blame me?"

"Blame you?" Brother Tie shook his head, "No."

I sighed. "Yu Xia said that he has a boyfriend, and he doesn't want others to bother him. But, I just want to know if he is happy or not."

"He has a boyfriend?" Brother Tie looked at me and sighed, "I want to know, what kind of feelings do you have for Yu Xia?"

I was taken aback.No one has ever asked me such a straightforward question.Me to Yu Xia?What kind of emotion is it?brother?No, I used to avoid Yu Xia's feelings, I always put him in the position of a good friend, but after I lost him, I realized that he is so important to me.

Should I tell Brother Tie?Should I trust a stranger?

what is the relationship?I am no longer afraid of being ridiculed by others, nor afraid of speaking my feelings.Another thing that reassures me is that Brother Tie is our fellow traveler.

I looked at Brother Tie and said firmly: "I love him, I love him very much. When he loved me, I didn't cherish it. When I lost it, I realized how important he is to me." I finally , in front of a stranger, expressed his love for Yu Xia.

Brother Tie smiled. "If he really has a boyfriend, are you going to give it up?"

"I want him to be happy."

"I think that pursuing your own happiness is the right choice. Since you love him, why don't you tell him, why don't you fight for it? Why don't you try? What if he still loves you?"

Yeah, why not try it?Even if he has a boyfriend, I am willing to try hard for Yu Xia.

Yu Xia, I would like to tell you that I love you, I have missed a lot, but now, I only need you.

I nod.I said to Brother Tie: "Thank you, you are right, I want to find him, I want to tell him that I love him. I want to fight for my own happiness."

"Really?" Brother Tie asked.I nod again.

Brother Tie smiled again, "Then let me tell you the truth, Yu Xia may not really have a boyfriend."

"What?" I froze.

"I met him here once, before he went, and I invited him to come in and sit down. You know that?"

I nodded.

"That day, I asked him why he didn't find a boyfriend? He said, he has someone he loves. It's just that he is unrequited love, and his friends don't love him. I asked him why he didn't give up? He said, I love After one person, I will never fall in love with another person again."

Yu Xia, didn't tell me these words between him and Brother Tie that day.

Brother Tie looked at me and said, "I remember very clearly that day he said that my heart can only be given to one person."

I remembered the last phone call with Yu Xia.Yu Xia said, my heart can only be given to one person.I thought he was referring to his boyfriend.But it turned out that from beginning to end, he only loved me.He has never loved another person, never.

My eyes are wet.I wiped my tears with the corner of my shirt.

"But you don't ask me, why do I know you are the one he loves?"

"Yeah, how do you know? Did he tell you?"

"He didn't. I didn't know it before, but when I was in the chat room yesterday, I knew it."

"why?"

"Because of that song."

"What the hell is that song about?"

"After Yu Xia left, we talked on the phone several times. One time he told me that he had recorded a song. He said that he was conflicted. He wanted the song to be heard by his friends, and he wanted his friends Never hear this song."

I didn't speak, just waiting for Brother Tie to continue.

Brother Tie nodded. "I comforted him a few words and let him go with the flow. Not long after that, I suddenly had an idea. I decided to have a community singing competition. I called him and asked him to upload his song to participate in it. contest, he declined.

"After I asked him again, he passed the song to me and told me to participate anonymously. I asked him why, and he said that his friends didn't want him to log on to this website again. He promised his friends I said it was an excuse. He also explained that even if he logs on to this website, he still wants to upload this song anonymously. So that if there is a chance, his friends will hear this song and know about it. The song is written for him. If you don't have a chance, forget it.

"One month later, when the awards were over, the song won the award, and all the other contestants received the award, but he didn't. I knew he wasn't on the website, so I called him, but his phone number was Empty number."

I nod.I think I see the truth of the matter.But what song is that?Questions were written all over my face.Brother Tie looked at me and said, "The name of that song is "I'm Fine During the Day"."

"What?" My heart beat out.I remembered the encounter in Beijing, I asked him how are you?He smiled and said, I'm fine.I have a boyfriend.It turned out that his so-called boyfriend was me.He didn't explain my misunderstanding, he just wanted to make me feel at ease.

"What about that song?" I asked cautiously.

"As you know, my website was hacked, so all the songs are gone."

How lost I am, how depressed I am.But Brother Tie smiled, "But," I cheered up again, "He didn't upload this song by himself, but sent it to me by email and asked me to upload it for him. Recently, my email It hasn't been cleaned up, so this song should still be there." I took a long breath.He said, "Give me your email address, and I'll send it to you later."

"Thank you, Brother Tie." I squeezed Brother Tie's hand tightly.

5. Journey to Find Love (2)

When I got home, I couldn't wait to open my mailbox and refresh it, but I didn't see any new letters.I sat there for a long time, refreshed many times, and finally, Brother Tie's email arrived.The title of the email is: Yu Xia's song.

And I didn't dare to open it.

After a long time, I took a deep breath and opened the mailbox.Attached is a piece of audio titled "I'm Fine During the Day".In the email below, Brother Tie wrote: This is the original copy Yu Xia sent me, and I forwarded it to you.At that time, I heard it once. Maybe I forgot to stop this song when the recording was finished, so it was blank at the end. I edited it and uploaded it to the Internet during the competition.Now I will forward it to you as it is, as a reminder.

I secretly thank Brother Tie for his care.I downloaded the audio and looked at the words "I'm fine during the day", but my thoughts raced again.

I remembered that encounter in Beijing, I asked Yu Xia, how are you?Yu Xia smiled and said to me, I am fine.I stared blankly at the few words, as if Yu Xia was standing beside me, telling me, I'm fine.

I clicked the play button, and Yu Xia's voice sounded slowly.

you ask me how are you

I said I'm fine

I'm fine with a smile on my face

in the eyes of others

i am a happy person

with a smile on my face

look i'm fine during the day

with a smile on my face

In the sun with a smile on my face

just when night falls

lonely embrace me

Missing so deeply, there is nowhere to escape

Reading, listening to music, drinking tea, dancing

Running aimlessly in the street alone

all memories are gone

only you i can't forget

you said we were best friends

I said that's really good

It's good to be your friend

It's good to see you every day

It's just that I'm getting more and more afraid of seeing you

I'm afraid of being so emotional

you are so proud

I'm so tormented

One day we can't even be friends

I love you so much I can only turn around and walk away

Meet you again in the crowd

i am smiling

you ask me how are you

I said I'm fine

I'm fine with a smile on my face

look i'm fine during the day

with a smile on my face

I couldn't hold back my tears anymore, and they flowed down all at once.Yu Xia, wait for me, I want to find you, I want to tell you that my heart is the same as yours.I want to make you smile, from the bottom of your heart.

Yu Xia's singing stopped, as Brother Tie said, maybe he was too emotional, he didn't press the stop button, and the back was blank.I lightly pressed the stop button, but I didn't dare to play it back again.

I think I've made my decision.I want to find Yu Xia, I want to regain our happiness.But what about Wen Xue?I know I'm sorry for Wen Xue, but I can only be sorry for Wen Xue.I think Wen Xue will understand me.

I tossed and turned all night without sleep.The next morning, after I packed my things, I decided to go home first and have a showdown with Wen Xue.

As soon as the door was opened, Wen Xue stood outside the door.

"How did you come?"

"I want to give you a surprise." Wen Xue said with a smile.

"I'm going home, you don't need to come."

"But I want to see you sooner."

Affectionate like Wenxue, Affectionate like Yuxia, and all I give them is hurt.I welcomed Wen Xue in, my face was gloomy, I didn't know how to speak to Yu Xue.

"I……"

"I..." We spoke together.

"What's wrong?" Wen Xue asked me.

"I have something to tell you. What do you want to say?"

Wen Xue looked at me, "Your face is ugly, what's wrong with you?" I lowered my head and fell silent.

"Tell me." Wen Xue said.

I raised my head and said with difficulty: "Wen Xue..."

"kindness?"

"let's break up?"

"What?" Wen Xue was surprised.I know I'm an asshole, but, kind girl, I can only fail you.

"I want to find Yu Xia."

Wen Xue nodded.Although I have never talked about my relationship with Yu Xia, I know that Wen Xue has always known about it.Wen Xue knew about it when Jin Xin asked me if I was gay, but she kept silent.

Her face also turned pale, and I couldn't bear it.

"you……?"

"I'm fine." Wen Xue was strong.She looked at me, "Okay."

I can't believe my ears.Wen Xue is saying okay, is that so?Wen Xue, do you just let me go so easily?

"Just you have to promise me one thing."

"what?"

"If you're happy, I won't bother you. If you're unhappy, let me stay by your side. Okay?"

"Okay." Facing such a kind-hearted her, what can I say, "Thank you."

She could be seen shaking her head slightly.I turned away, I didn't want to get so sentimental between us.

5. Journey to Find Love (3)

I flew to Yu Xia's hometown.I have not been here before.After our high school days were over, Yu Xia's parents returned to their hometown because of poor health.With the name Yu Xia said, I came to this strange city.

Walking towards the street Yu Xia mentioned, only to find that the street has been demolished.The streets are crowded with people, but I don't know where Yu Xia is?I asked everyone, about Yu Xia.I found a hotel, I stayed there, and called the company to renew my leave. I decided not to go home if I didn't find Yu Xia.

During those days, I asked no less than a thousand people. I wandered around the city, hoping to meet Yu Xia or his family.This stay is half a month.

One day, I went to a community to inquire about Yu Xia.The security guard thought for a while: "There is a family named Yu." He raised his head and said, "No."

I have already seen Yu Xia's father. "Uncle." I went up to him and called him.

"Daytime." He was taken aback.

"I'm here to find Yu Xia." I said.

"Oh." His face changed color, but he didn't say anything.I think Yu Xia might have told her family about us.He never expected that I would come to Yu Xia.

"Sit at home." He said.I followed him, and I was about to meet Yu Xia, my heart was about to jump out.I secretly stabilized my mind.

My aunt welcomed me into the room warmly, told me to sit down, poured tea, and fetched fruit, but I couldn't sit down because I was so busy.I said: "Auntie, don't be busy."

She just stood still, but didn't know what to say.Uncle also stood there without speaking.

After a while, she broke the silence: "where's your girlfriend?"

"We broke up." I said.

"Oh." The aunt stopped talking again.

"Where's Yu Xia? Is he not at home?" I asked my aunt.

"Oh." Auntie froze for a moment, then looked at me with an ugly face, "He's not at home."

"Is he out?"

"Yes."

"Where did you go?" I asked casually.

I can see my aunt's embarrassment.Then she said: "Yu Xia told us that he won't bother you, and he doesn't want you to bother him. I hope you can forgive him."

"Auntie, I know he doesn't have a boyfriend, I know, I know everything he does." Auntie still wanted to talk, and I said, "Auntie, I know he is doing it for my own good, and now I understand. I just hope To be able to see him, I want to ask him to forgive me."

I lowered my head, tears were about to flow out.Auntie didn't speak, just stared at me, and her eyes stayed on the lucky charm on my chest.

I touched the lucky charm with my hand: "Auntie, this was given to me by Yu Xia. I know he loves me, and I love him too. I didn't understand before, and I missed a lot, but now I understand. I want to see him, I know he must want to see me too."

The aunt stretched out her hand and touched the lucky charm: "Do you know the meaning of this lucky charm?"

I shook my head.

"This lucky charm is passed down from generation to generation in the Yu family. Each generation of the Yu family passes the lucky charm to their favorite person, and then the person he loves most passes it on to the next generation." Auntie looked at me, "When he gave you the lucky charm, he gave it to the person he loves the most."

I was taken aback, it turned out to be like this.Yu Xia, my dear Yu Xia.

"I see, auntie." When Yu Xia gave me this lucky charm, what kind of affection did he have? He only wanted me to be happy, but he was willing to suffer from lovesickness alone. "Auntie, I know everything. I want to tell him that I love him. We will live together well, I will love him well, and we will be happy. Auntie, do you believe it?"

Auntie just shook her head.I was a little disappointed, "Auntie, don't you believe me?"

"No, I believe it."

"But..." I don't understand.

"Too late." She covered her face with her hands.I saw tears streaming down her cheeks.

I was taken aback for a moment, and there was a bad omen in my heart, and my breathing began to become unfree.I have a bad feeling.There must be something terrible waiting for me.I didn't dare to speak anymore, but I still asked tremblingly. "What's too late?"

The uncle came over, "Yu Xia, we understand what you're thinking. But now...he doesn't want to see you anymore. He hopes that you can all find your own happiness."

"I don't believe it." I also shook my head, and I felt some kind of uneasiness for no reason, and this uneasiness seized my heart.I stood up, walked to my aunt, and started to shake him with my hands: "Auntie, tell me, what happened to Yu Xia?" I remembered how thin Yu Xia was a while ago, and it suddenly popped up in my mind that he threw the pills on the The toilet scene. "Is Yu Xia sick? Is it serious? Tell me, tell me."

Is it because Yu Xia is sick that she wants to stay away from me?I shook my aunt, "You tell me."

Uncle also lowered his head.He sighed, walked to the window, and turned his back to us, but I saw his shoulders shrugged, and his emotional fluctuations deepened my uneasiness.

"Auntie, what's wrong with Yu Xia?" My voice was hoarse.

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