Holding hands can only be happy

Mid-autumn night, when I went to the bathroom, I saw a comrade in the bathroom taking a bath. I remembered that Shun Jun had told me that this comrade also took a bath when he was preparing for the May [-]st war last time. As soon as he put on soap, the emergency call came, and then he was all dressed up. Bubble put on her clothes and ran outside. I couldn't help laughing and said, "How dare you take a bath?" She replied calmly while washing, "Why don't you dare, my sister has practiced it, okay? Besides, I have finished washing the bubbles now. Almost finished washing"

"Sister, you are really good! I heard that you 'hanged' and ran last time? How do you feel?"

"That feeling is not so good. It's like you. It doesn't matter whether it's empty or not." Listening to her teasing, I didn't argue, and walked into the toilet cheerfully, thinking about solving the urgent task first. When I opened the belt, I heard the roaring emergency call, and then I heard the howl of the comrade-in-arms, "Ah... Yutong, I want to kill you, you crow mouth..." Ignoring her, I put on the belt. I ran to the class without using the belt toilet. I was worried about the fact that Shunjun had just removed his backpack and was making his bed. I picked up my hat, belt and rucksack in three steps and ran to Shunjun. The class helped her organize her equipment, helped her pack her rucksack neatly, ran downstairs, and even the on-duty staff organized the queue. When the whole company was ready to set off, Liu Xu and two or three recruits ran out. Xiaoli whispered "This speed is too slow, I really haven't practiced it." We looked at each other in blank dismay, but we had to admit that the more cruel the environment, the more able to hone people's will.

The emergency assembly is very interesting in the army. It is precisely because of its uncertainty and randomness that many interesting and unforgettable stories will happen.Once when we were preparing for war, Shunjun and I wanted to go out for a walk. We had just walked more than 100 meters from the company when we heard a loud and rapid whistle. The whistle from our company?" I stared closely at the direction of the company headquarters, watching the movement there, and suddenly caught a glimpse of the guard at the door of the company waving to us. I ran back and said angrily, "Damn, I really pulled it. Fortunately, I didn't go far." All the way against the downward flow of people, I ran upstairs. When I ran to the class, I saw that Xiaoli and the others had helped us get all the rucksacks Well, I was obviously relieved to see us coming, so I quickly put on my equipment, put on my backpack and ran out.The most important thing in the army is unity, and emergency assembly is also the best way to reflect unity. In the first year, Xiaoli's physical fitness was very poor. Every time he ran, he fell behind a large part of the team out of breath, let alone carrying weight. At that time, Xiaoli Yu was carrying her rucksack in front of her body, and her own rucksack behind her. The combat readiness backpacks were distributed to other comrades in arms, and a few comrades dragged her to run together, so that she would not fall behind. This scene , is something I will never forget.

One day after the festival, I saw Xiaoli eating mooncakes, and asked casually, "Is it delicious? Isn't it hard?" She shook her head with the mooncake in her mouth and said, "I think it's delicious, do you want to try it?" One for each person, one for five kernels, four for each person, I have never eaten mooncakes since I was a child, and the mooncakes were still so hard when I held them, so I gave them all to Xiaoli on the spot, and she accepted them all with a smile.At this moment, I was bewitched by her. I pinched a piece and put it in my mouth. I thought it tasted good. She gave me another one. After I ate it, I suddenly felt that this mooncake is not bad. Why don’t I like it at home? what to eat?

At 11:40 noon, Shun Jun and my comrades stood at the entrance of the corridor chatting without saying a word, waiting for the whistle to blow the meal, because I was on the stairs below Shun Jun, looking up at her.The sun came in from the window behind her, and shone obliquely on her body with a radiant light. Seeing me staring at it, she put her hand on my shoulder, blinked her cold eyes slyly, and asked teasingly, "Small sample!" , what's wrong? I have flowers on my face?"

"No, no, Shunjun, do you know? You are like a god in my heart!" I replied blankly

"I'm not a god, not as good as you think." His eyes darkened, and he said softly, "As long as I'm by your side, I don't want to be a god." Hearing the words that moved me, I suddenly said "Dinner" Reflexively, I took a step outside, and then stepped on the ground, and fell straight down, "Yutong!" With Shunjun's panicked cry, I was already in close contact with the earth once again.

"How are you? Where did you fall? Why are you so careless!" He asked anxiously, frowning and half hugging me

"It's not that you are so charming, oh! I seem to have sprained my foot again." Seeing her worried, I endured the great pain and joked with her in a relaxed tone

"You, uh... can you stand up?" With her support, I lay on the bed bouncing around

"Take a break first, I'll get you the food." Looking at her anxious back, she lamented her uselessness.

The next day, looking at my instep that was swollen like a pig’s hoof, I reluctantly went to the company to ask for leave. When the company commander felt that I fell a little too frequently and couldn’t believe it, I quickly pulled my non-socked foot out of the shoe. Pulled out, red and swollen with bruises, the company commander immediately asked me to go up and have a good rest

It was a blessing in disguise, and I lay in bed for five days, but it was hard for Shun Jun to cook for me every day, help me jump around, and rub my feet at night.

"Shunjun, I will treat you very well in the future." I sincerely looked at Shunjun who was busy

"You are less injured, just treat me well. How many times have you twisted your feet? What if you twist your feet habitually in the future?" Han Mou looked at me softly

"No, I will definitely take good care of you." I patted my chest sincerely

"Well, you must live longer than me, I don't want... I can't accept it..." Listening to her intermittent words, I noticed her gloomy expression, and I hugged her tightly

"Okay, I will take good care of myself, take good care of you, and live longer than you" said in my heart, my love, I hope we can bear all the pain alone.

With almost two months left, we are all counting down the date of discharge. Since we can go out to buy things the day before discharge, we bought casual clothes online, but the company basically does not allow Collecting things from outside, sometimes confiscated, sometimes unpacked and inspected, (Shunjun once bought two short-sleeved T-shirts for couples with a playful heart, one with a dog pattern and the other with a bone, It was confiscated by the company commander as soon as it arrived, and it was not returned to us until we were discharged from the army. At that time, we had completely forgotten that we had bought the clothes) Most of the time we asked the squad leader in the mail room not to take the package back to the company, Shun When the clothes Jun bought arrived, I was on duty in the computer room. I asked other comrades in arms to help me take a look, and then I hurried to the mail room to get them. Because I was in a hurry, I took a small path and stepped on the lawn and passed by, but was seen by the military personnel. When I came back, I threatened to tell our company commander. In a fit of anger, I unplugged his phone line, but in the end the company still found out.The instructor called me to the office to find out what happened. Of course, I would not tell him about the intentional pulling of the telephone line, but I only admitted the fact that I stepped on the lawn. In the end, I was asked to read the inspection in front of Quanlian to prevent unauthorized access to the computer room. reason.I bit the tip of my pen, looked at the manuscript paper in front of me blankly, a pair of catkins caressed my shoulders, and felt the cute girl behind me who was hesitating to speak. I raised my head and smiled at her indifferently. There was a little bit of mist, and slowly spit out the three words "I'm sorry"

"Fool, what does it have to do with you? I am too impulsive." I suppressed my smile, held her hand, and stared into her warm eyes. The once cold star is now like an autumn stream, clear and crystal clear .

One month before I was discharged from the army, our entire company had a physical fitness assessment. I ran down the three kilometers that made me timid at the beginning, and immediately I was sweating profusely and refreshed. The final result also surprised me. I actually ran 16 minutes and 20 seconds, and what surprised me the most was that after I finished running, Xiaoyu ran behind me. I found out later that when Shun Jun and I were living our lives without any worries or scruples, she was ill and very seriously ill. My best comrade-in-arms, when she was most helpless, I was a little I don’t know) With the arrival of 17 minutes and 30 seconds, although Xiaoli is more than ten seconds late, he has already made great progress. Seeing that there are still three or two recruits running behind, we are all excited and proud Looking at each other, they finally let out a sigh of relief. Sure enough, the soldiers led by Old Zhao still haven't trained well!

Time passed day by day, and we greeted the day of discharge with great joy. The bus arrived at 10 o'clock, and Shun Jun packed up early, had breakfast, held hands, and walked through our training ground and computer room for the last time. , these familiar venues no longer have the excitement of being discharged from the army, and the sadness of separation surrounds us. Shun Jun held my hand tightly, feeling her confusion, and I firmly said to her, "We will definitely be together "Looking at her deep eyes and the corners of her stubborn mouth, she told herself silently in her heart that she must give her happiness.

Back in the class, Squad Leader Zhao came towards us with a camera, "Yutong, shall we take a picture together?" Shun Jun felt the reluctance in my heart, nudged me, and said to Squad Leader Zhao, " Let me help you take pictures." The embarrassing atmosphere eased, Squad Leader Zhao hooked my hand with a smile on his face, and seeing Shunjun holding the camera, I forced a smile, and then Squad Leader Zhao pulled me "Yu Tong, whether you still treat me as a master or not, you will always be the best apprentice I have taught", unable to face it anymore, I pulled Shunjun away in a hurry. (Thinking about it now, I was probably afraid of being hurt, and the thorn would always be there, and I would never be able to get over it. Even if I took a small step, I would be bruised all over my body.)

When the train departed, through the window, when I saw all the cadres standing in a row to salute us, my heart was extremely shaken. In the past, we saluted them and they returned the salute. Now that we have discharged our military ranks, we can no longer salute. Seeing the familiar faces gradually disappearing as the train moved, we stood in front of the window for a long time and couldn't get back to our senses. Finally, we ended this trip full of memories but no regrets.

In the car, after a few hours, Shun Jun asked me if I wanted something to eat. The army distributed food on the road the day before, but I thought it would be troublesome, so I only kept instant noodles and eight-treasure porridge, and threw the rest to Xiaoli. Shun Jun put the soaked noodles and eight-treasure porridge in front of me. The shaking in the carriage and the strong smell of smoke made my stomach churn violently when I saw the food. Eat something." Shun Jun was also pale but still coaxed me nicely. Seeing us like this, Xiaoli put the fruit I threw to her in front of me, "Eat some fruit, it will make you feel better." Shun Jun With a sullen face, I peeled a few oranges and stuffed them into my stomach, resisting the desire to vomit, and said nothing all the way, feeling sad.

Take the train that came when we came, and set foot on the way home. Later, we would rather be locked in that iron prison and love each other silently.In the smoky carriage, she nestled quietly in my arms, refusing to leave greedily. During the journey of more than ten hours, we leaned on each other, and we only had each other in our eyes. At this moment, the world is so small.

At 2 o'clock in the morning, the train finally arrived at the station slowly. The familiar scenery and the long-lost air, before I had time to talk to her, my parents saw me. Shun Jun waited alone at the train station for her brother to pick her up. Perhaps from that moment on, the next countless separations were doomed.

Back home where I had been away for two years, lying on my own bed in a daze, my dream was full of Shunjun, I woke up the next day and went to the supermarket with my mother to buy her favorite yogurt, and ate her favorite cake, silly In a daze, using her favorite shower gel, missing her smell, turning her preferences into my habit, no matter what I do, I always have her shadow in my mind, and I always say her name unconsciously in my mouth, Like possessed.

On the phone at the beginning, we all talked about not adapting to the life of leaving the army, and it was even more difficult for her to face the outside world, always saying that she was afraid that one day I would leave with time.I always tell her patiently and repeatedly: "I remember the big house you want, we will realize the future you want together, and I will always be with you forever and ever. Keep your hands here, keep our memories and go on, please believe that I will give you forever, if you pull the tick, you will be doomed to miss you for a lifetime."

In the end, I couldn't match the lingering miss. Shun Jun came to see me on the bus when we were separated for nearly a month. At that moment, my heart was full of emotions. I hugged her quietly and enjoyed the happiness that belonged to us.The next day, I sent her away early, absorbing the only remaining taste in the huge room, as if there was still a girl beside me looking at me stupidly, a week later, I also got on the bus for the first time in my life I went to see her just to hold her hand and walk around casually.How nice it would be if this could last for a lifetime. Whenever we have only the simplest wish left, nothing more, just quietly and foolishly guarding an unspeakable happiness.

It was the first time in my life that I had a room in a hotel, and I was extremely lingering, enjoying this rare time together wantonly, holding her in my arms, staring at the affectionate autumn waves that melted from the cold eyes, the air was peaceful, and only Me and her in this small room.

"Why didn't you want me?" The gentle but gentle tone touched my heart

"I want to wait until everything settles down and have a home with you, where our wedding photos are hung, and then we go to a small church abroad to get married and make my promise to you in front of the cross. At that time, I feel You are qualified, because in my heart you are always like a god that I worship and admire." He kissed her hair lightly and interlocked his fingers.

"But I want to give you the first time" whispered softly as she buried her face in my arms

"Fool, our days are still very long, I'm not in a hurry, what are you in a hurry for?" I smirked, and stroked the bright face that had not yet faded from the red tide, as if applying makeup, the morning glow reflected the snow, it was so beautiful.Seeing her quietly lying on my chest, sleeping peacefully, with a childlike sleeping face, breathing and my heartbeat, dreaming our dreams, and in the dreams I am her whole world.I dreamed in my mind that there would be a day when we fell asleep hugging each other every night, and she was telling her miss in my arms, there would be a day when we held hands without tears and lived every day relying on each other.Only to find that missing is not the distance of turning around, but thinking about it even if we are face to face.

On January 1st, I had a dream. After a long time in the dream, I went to find Shun Jun, but she told me that she had someone she liked. Looking at the still picturesque eyebrows, I just stood there like that. with.Later, I thought about that dream repeatedly, and secretly made a decision: whether she loves me or not, I will always love her and guard her.I never knew that love can last for a long time, until I forget my name. Even though I know that there is a road of no return, I walk without hesitation.

On February 2, Shun Jun called me anxiously and said that she had a dream, that she came to me behind her parents' backs, but I ignored her and didn't want her anymore.Carefully comforting with a soft voice, I am also anxious, afraid that each of these dreams may be some kind of symptom.

Dreaming about each other countless times, waking up is really empty, whether it is in the dream or outside the dream, or when waking up from the dream, whether such silent persistence will pass through the fingers like sand grains.Love is the closeness of two hearts, caring for each other, cuddling and taking care of each other. Missing is the distance between turning around. In the blink of an eye, hundreds of millions of light years have passed.She yearned for freedom, but being restrained and the reality of life made the woman with cold eyebrows and eyes just want to be a little woman in my arms.She gives everything silently, but she doesn't force her. Her preferences change with me, and she is very good at educating people.

She said that if I want to be strong in the future, she will be the little woman behind me, and if I am weak, she will block the wind and rain in front of me

She said I'm her patron saint

She said, I've changed, I've become understanding and tolerant

I said, measure the time by days, try to multiply by a lifetime

I said, she's changed, she's become more mature, she's more sensual

Even thousands of miles apart, we listen to the same radio station

Even a small joy, we will be happy, happy, because we are together

In this impetuous world, the concrete has covered the entire area, and only she can take me to find the clouds when the clouds rise and disappear in peace.Good morning, good night, sunrise, sunset every day, because of her, all these will exist.Carrying full of thoughts, saying I love you every day is not enough to say.This year, our tacit understanding has become incredible, even if we are separated by two places, we can perceive everything about each other.

I worked hard to adapt to social life, and suddenly realized that I had to take on my responsibilities and become stronger, so that I could be with her, sorted out my thoughts, and roughly made a plan for myself.There are three main things that must be completed this year. First, get a driver's license, second, a diploma, and last but not least, the company's recruitment exam.

After putting in practice, I called my best friend Xiao Xiao the next day. She is my classmate in junior high school and has never lost contact with her. People who are separated from each other understand each other and are like confidants like left and right hands.

"I'm going to take the driver's license test, how about you? Do you want to go together?" I couldn't wait to get into the topic

"Okay, but it's useless for me to take the test, and I'm not going to drive"

"Ah? Then you can go with me! It would be nice to have one more skill!" I urged her excitedly.

"Okay, okay, what else can I say after you have said that? But I have been working shifts recently, maybe not so fast"

"The time is up to you, anyway, I'm not going to work now, so I'll contact you then." Knowing that she had agreed, she felt relieved

When I was practicing the car one day, I tentatively asked Xiao Xiao, hesitatingly said, "If you say, I like a girl, what would you do?"

"Ah? Really or not?" She was obviously taken aback by me.

"Um"

"I know there are people like this, and I respect all kinds of feelings, but I hope you are not, who is that person?" I held my breath and watched her ponder for a while, but what I got was questioning words

"Former Army"

"Did you get your feelings wrong? Or did you not distinguish between liking and love at all?"

"Maybe" Hearing the euphemistic rejection in her words, I no longer want to continue this topic

"I think you still have to think about it, you know it's wrong to do this? I'm doing it for your own good!" Only then did I realize that even my best friend couldn't accept such a relationship, so what should I do next? Walk?In fact, none of us are wrong, it’s just that God made a joke. There is still a long way to go, and we cherish every step we take.

During a chat, Shun Jun told me on the phone, "When those new recruits became second-year soldiers, they forced the next batch of soldiers to commit suicide by jumping off the building." I lamented, "It's actually predictable. Staying in the army is like a frog in a well." , the life is too narrow, every day besides training is a life of intrigue, maybe this is also a kind of fun, the only thing I am lucky is that our group did not stay in the company, otherwise it would be very miserable to fight alone!"