I still don't want to go to school today

"Are you going to cut your hair? Actually, there is an electric razor at home..."

"I want to go out." Fu Luojia repeated.

"Your father said—"

"Then go tell him!"

He knew in his heart that he shouldn't have said that.But "clear" may be considered progress.

"Let's take the medicine first, shall we..."

After he couldn't keep the medicine by himself, he dropped the table once, and then he was tacitly allowed to increase the dose-at first they regarded this behavior as a kind of disease.But he just wanted to be quiet for longer.

They soon discovered that this was actually beneficial to both parties.

It didn't take long for Dad to rush back. "Maybe it's his working time now" thought in a hurry, but it was difficult to stir up waves in Fu Luojia's heart.

He's thankful he doesn't feel awkward now—no matter how awkward Dad looks when he's talking to him.

Although it is unnatural, it is indeed fulfilling its obligations with a single eye.This attitude was more or less familiar, but he was too lazy to explore the source of the familiarity.

It has been more than a year, and the changes here are minimal.Advertisements of various remedial classes in the corridor are plastered on the entire wall, and there are students going up and down during it. A middle school teacher lives on the upper floors of this building and gives remedial classes at his home.

"If the situation is still not good, it is necessary to suspend school." Dad's eyes stayed on those advertisements for a while. "The key is to have a positive attitude...don't allow yourself to indulge in those sick emotions and relationships."

Dad didn't ask much about where to get his hair cut.No need to drive, just turn a corner on foot, there is a small barber shop in the alley behind the Industrial and Commercial Bank of the street.Because of the location and the overly plain decoration style, it is very deserted here, but the advantage is that there is only one clerk, and he is also a speech impediment - Dad usually does not call people "dumb", just like mental illness is "cognitive disorder" to him "Same.

His stubbled hair fell down and scattered around his feet in silence, and finally the razor was slowly scraped against his scalp, leaving only extremely short stubble.

His initial request was "shaved".Dad objected, and finally backed down to "short cut".

While cleaning, he thought for a while about how to do psychological hints so that the mute could point the nozzle at his mouth and nose, and flood him with a large amount of water until he died.

He took out his hat and put it on when he left the shop, and the temperature was more suitable now—the sweat from wearing a hat when his hair was longer before could wet the inner lining of the hat.

This hat can make Dad nervous all the time, and he has nothing to say: "Um...has classmate Xu contacted you?"

Fu Luojia looked up at him. "...Why did he contact me? What did you tell him that you don't know?"

"I remember telling you that your current situation is causing a lot of stress to others..."

"So you made it?"

"What I'm saying is, you have to pay attention to your own attitude... How can this kind of thing be solved by unilaterally giving up?"

The implication is that he thinks that side has been persuaded.

Fu Luojia held his breath for a moment and let out a steady breath. "That's good."

Xu Zhibian has a cleanliness freak.

It was only when I came back from the outside that I realized how quiet the house was-almost dead silence.This should have something to do with him, any sound has a chance of making him lose control of his emotions.

Because of the presence of the baby, he would usually be wheeled into the room where Grandpa used to be.All the sharp corners of the furniture in that room were wrapped in Styrofoam, as were the walls.

He heard the baby's loud cry through a door, and thought briefly about why Aunt Lin didn't leave with the baby—she has more than three real estate properties in Linshi.But she didn't.

She lives as usual.Emotional, easy-going yet serious.The attitude towards Luo Jia is the same as usual, but there is a little more concern, as if he just has a little cold.

— She is actually quite a special person.Fu Luojia couldn't help but began to recall the slightly funny marriage between her father and her.

Aunt Lin has been chasing Dad for many years.It started before Dad and Mom divorced - she was young and rich, and time and money were no object.

He didn't know whether her father had explicitly rejected her many times. In short, she paid for the divorce compensation his mother asked for and grandpa's funeral expenses.She also made sure that Dad would be able to live a much better life afterward than he ever wanted.

Maybe she also pays a large part of his mother's current medical expenses-it's like an addiction for her to be a good person.

Dad once told her that he had a mentally disabled father and an extreme wife.Her response was: But I love you.

This is the message he saw on his father's mobile phone before.

Love - and her money - still solves part of the problem.At least they really got over the obstacles to being together.If there were no external factors such as Fu Luojia and his mother, their life might have been perfect.

He thought and thought, then sat up from the floor.

He didn't think he should have dropped out of school.Taking a break from school means spending a long year in these places, watching Dad and Aunt Lin endlessly love and cherish family harmony, and watching his mother cry endlessly and be alone.Although most of Dad's words are perfunctory, there is nothing wrong with one sentence.

——After finishing high school, leave here, and you will be free.

Set others free, set yourself free.Even if it is freedom on the level of death.

After a while he knocked on the door, "...I want to come out."

She was the one who opened the door every time, and every time she said, "Jia Jia, this door won't lock."

……

Breakfast is porridge and boiled eggs.For the first time, Fu Luojia didn't peel the eggs to pieces like before, pick out the yolks and poke them into pieces before throwing them away.

The other person at the dinner table was Lin Guoren, whose first reaction to this change was shock.

"Jiajia... brother, are you in a good mood today?"

"Is today Saturday?"

"Yes……"

"...Are you going to basketball class soon?"

Lin really got excited. "Yes! Brother, do you want to play basketball too? The weather is pretty good today—"

"Where?"

"On the playground of No. [-] Middle School. Our coach is the physical education teacher there, so handsome."

He nodded.Lin Guoran eagerly turned to look for Aunt Lin: "Mom!"

"Brother wants to play basketball with me!"

"It's good." Aunt Lin's voice came from the kitchen, with a smile.

"Bullshit."

The atmosphere suddenly fell silent again.

Dad coughed twice to break the deadlock. "Have you finished eating? Your mother will take you there later."

"It's okay for my brother to send it off," Aunt Lin walked over while wiping her hands, "But what do you say?"

"I also think..." Lin Ruoran said in a low voice.

"He's all the way—"

"Jia Jia is fine. He could have been fine," Aunt Lin said, "Why didn't you give him this chance?"

Fu Luojia lowered his eyes, without emotion: "I can control it."

Because of the sentence "you have to take care of each other", Lin Guoren held his arm tightly all the way.At any rate, he also attended No. [-] Middle School for a year, but suddenly he couldn't remember the way. Every turn was made by Lin Guoren who dragged him around.

At a certain intersection, he turned his head inadvertently, and happened to see Aunt Lin and Dad stepping up the steps in a little panic and hiding in the nearby shop.

After turning back, his face was as usual, Lin really didn't understand why, so he raised his head and smiled brightly at him.

Said he was going to play basketball, but he had no intention of getting up as soon as he sat down on the sidelines.There are quite a few parents watching their children go to class, and he is not very obtrusive in it.The difference is that he doesn't get nervous—parents can't help but get up when their kids stumble and fall.

The physical education teacher was very young, and he was very generous when surrounded by so many people, without showing any timidity.If a student falls down, he will rush over immediately before the parents stand up. After checking that there is no serious problem, he claps his hands to encourage him to stand up.

Fu Luojia also saw that Lin was really likable and had a very close relationship with that teacher.When they were talking and laughing together, Lin really raised his finger to Fu Luojia, and the teacher followed him.

Then a basketball was thrown and landed at his feet. "Go one?"

He stood up slowly while thinking about how a normal person would respond, picked up the basketball and walked to the three-point line.

Actually should dribble.It's so weird to walk over with a hug.

He raised the brim of his hat, tried to concentrate, and found that he could barely do it.Then he raised his arm on tiptoe and threw the ball casually.

The ball briefly covered a small piece of sunlight on the plastic floor, knocked the rim, and got out of the net pocket.

The small piece of sunlight and the basketball fell to the ground at the same time, and bounced high again.