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On the first day of work, I was inevitably a little nervous, but I was not at a loss. The company started work at 05:30 and left at 45:[-]. When I arrived at the company at [-]:[-], the lady at the front desk was sitting and having breakfast, and saw my calm face. , asked: "Are you here to join the job?"

I smiled and said "yes"

"What position?"

"finance"

"Oh, sit in the conference room, they didn't come so early"

I nodded, and found a random seat in the conference room next to me, didn't I come so early?I raised my hand to look at my watch, it was almost [-]:[-], is she sure it's still early?

It wasn't until 40:45 that the financial manager Lu Qin came to the meeting room to find me. She should be in her 26s, and she is in good condition. I don't know if she is in her early 30s or [-], but it's none of my business. , she took me to the financial office and introduced me to a colleague from the financial department, Liu Qingqing, another general ledger accountant, who is the same age as me, has a two-year-old daughter, and the cashier Zhu Jun, [-] years old, came to work here after graduating from university Yes, Wei Na, an accounting assistant, is also in her [-]s. I heard that her husband is very rich. She finds a job to pass the time and earn some pocket money.

After introducing my colleagues, Manager Lu introduced me to my specific work content and general direction. I listened to them one by one and dared not neglect. To handle the entry procedures for me, the HR manager found the following HR assistant to do these things for me, so the HR assistant led me to enter fingerprints, apply for a door card, register an account in the company's internal system, and finally gave me an employee handbook, Tell me that the probationary period is three months, and the salary will be [-]% off. If you have any other problems, you can find her again.

I was worried that people in big companies would not be easy to get along with. After a week since I came here, I can indeed vaguely feel the delicate relationship between departments, but fortunately our finance department is very united.

There are probably two reasons for unity. The first is that we must always be consistent with the outside world. The second is that there is a lot of work, and one link is linked to another. Only when everyone finishes working together can they relax together. This is really good.

When I first came in, I was a little dizzy when I saw the box after box of vouchers. There are so many, and this is only for a week. When will it be finished?

Fortunately, Liu Qingqing taught me a lot, and I read some previous accounts myself, and I finally figured out the idea, so after I was almost familiar with them, I specially smoked one night and invited three ladies to dinner , By the way, to understand the situation, as for the financial manager, after all, she is our leader, with her, there are many things that everyone would not say, even if you want to ask, let's talk about it later.

I invited them to a seafood buffet. The price is not cheap, but the food is good and the place is quiet. At this time, I think it is necessary to show some sincerity, not to dig up some secrets, but some seniors have pointed out, Things are always much easier to do.

Before I came, the finance department had always maintained a financial manager, a general ledger accountant, a cashier and a ticket teller. In addition to being responsible for the final review of various expenses, the financial manager also took care of communicating with the project manager and listening to the group finance department. Deploy and complete the management and analysis of various forms and data issued by the group. The general ledger accountant is responsible for making accounts, communicating with the secondary finance, and completing the reimbursement review with the system. matter.

But now, in fact, Liu Qingqing undertakes a lot of data analysis work for the financial manager, and has to finish the accounts. Why, because Lu Qin is the cousin of the boss who is in charge of this area, and the background is hard, of course life is easy , who dares to sue her, unless she doesn't want to do it anymore.

So the current situation is that Liu Qingqing is responsible for the data analysis and all financial processing that a financial manager should do. It is naturally too late to process vouchers and order anything. The cashier makes various payments every day and goes to various banks to get orders, which is naturally nothing In spare time, these matters fall on the ticket tellers, and the ticket tellers have too much work, and the bills are sorted out slowly, so naturally the verification and write-off will be slow, which will affect the second-level finance to get new ones. As long as the new □□ can’t issue tickets and go through the following process, so the finance department is always busy with their feet on the ground. Fortunately, although Lu Qin doesn’t do things, he still helps them fight for benefits. For the sake of money, Everyone just put up with it, it just so happened that this year the boss took on several new projects, and after everyone gathered together, they applied to Manager Lu to add someone, and then I was born.

I am now in charge of all contract-based projects, and the accounts are relatively easy to handle, but the amount is a bit large. Liu Qingqing is in charge of the financial manager's work and fee-based projects. She said she would teach me how to do accounts with the company's internal system, and told me not to worry. , At the beginning, you will feel that the quantity is large, but it will be the same when you are familiar with it. I think so.

This kind of situation is more beneficial to me. I go in to help them share the work. There is no interest problem and let them hide what they know. The faster I get started, the easier it is for them, although they are tired. A little bit, but the salary is also high. Finding a job is the same as finding a partner. There is no such thing as perfect.

I began to devote myself to the work, following Liu Qingqing's guidance and my own past experience, doing it, and it seemed that it was not difficult. I tried to find a project certificate and complete it, and then let Liu Qingqing Qingqing gave me pointers, and just asked and solved while doing it. After the three-month probationary period was over, I had basically digested the work at hand.

Manager Lu brought me a formal contract, and the salary on it was higher than when I first talked about it. I glanced at it lightly and said, "Thank you, Manager Lu."

She patted me and said, "Good job"

Back in the office, all three women rushed over: "How much?"

I knew they were asking me about my salary. All my salary was paid by the finance department. They would see it sooner or later. They are already very familiar with each other, so I invite them to have another meal. First, I want to thank them for teaching me a lot in the past few months. Second, I have spent a lot of time getting along with them. I am the only boy in it, and I am the latest One of them should be generous.

Xiao Zhu said: "I want to eat steak"

Weiner said: "Japanese Cuisine"

Liu Qingqing scolded them with a smile: "I just know how to eat." Then she came back and said to me: "It should be higher. Didn't you see how our salary is composed?"

I shook my head.

She asked, "What degree do you have?"

"Secondary School"

"No wonder" she said, "Don't say my sister didn't remind you, the salary increase here has nothing to do with your education background. You have to have at least a bachelor's degree in order to get a normal salary increase in the future."

Xiao Zhu said: "Yes, it seems that Manager Lu mentioned it when he interviewed me."

Wei Na said: "Then Xiao Fang will go hang out with one another, and now there are a lot of people in the night."

What they said is very reasonable. I found out when I was looking for a job before. Now some better companies require a bachelor's degree. I, a technical secondary school student, is indeed about to be eliminated by the market.

On the way home, I took a detour to the training center of Yeda University, learned about the preparations for Yeda University, and went home with a bunch of materials. After eating, I expressed my love to my parents. thoughts in mind.

My mother asked me: "It is good to read some books, how many years do you need to study?"

"I am now a technical secondary school diploma, which is equivalent to high school, and it takes five years to go directly to an undergraduate degree"

"Five years, you are 30 this year..."

Yes, I also thought in my heart, I will be 35 years old when I read it, and I have never touched a book after graduation, I don’t know if I can keep up, and I have to go to work during the day.

My dad asked me: "Have you thought about studying and going to work at the same time?"

I said: "I have to go to study, only a technical secondary school diploma is not always a solution"

My dad nodded: "Then read it."

It’s true that you can only study. When you have the opportunity, you can’t be too bad yourself. The undergraduate course is really needed. My age will only rise, not fall. Who told me I didn’t think of it a few years ago.

I missed the normal repeat class when I signed up. Only the sprint class is still recruiting students. I thought about it and waited another year. I can’t afford it now, just sprint. Just work harder. Just reported it.

When I signed up, I was ready and I might not be able to keep up with the class at the beginning, but after the class really started, listening to the teacher's lectures like a book, and the speed of a roller coaster, I still felt a little bit like crying, the teacher in class It’s very affordable, you are a sprint class, and you can’t be as careful as the intensive class, I can only focus on the key points for you, and you can go back and learn the rest.

I raised my forehead, so it's okay to study hard, but I can't even understand how to solve the problem, how to use this skill!

Back home sadly all the way, my mother was sitting in the living room watching TV, saw me coming back, and asked me: "Are you tired, I made red bean and red date soup, and I will serve you a bowl?"

I nodded and went into the room to change clothes.

"How was the class?"

I drank two sips of soup and ate some boiled thick red beans, and then I felt relieved and said: "It takes time to work hard, and there is nothing left to forget."

My mother nodded, touched my head, and looked at me lovingly: "Don't tire yourself out, do what you can"

"I will" I said.

After taking a shower, I took out all the books of the courses and put them on the desk one by one. Chinese, history and geography are still understandable to me now. After all, I can read all the words regardless of my age I understand, the understanding that should be memorized, the understanding that should be understood, it is not too difficult for me to start. The most troublesome thing for me now is English. I am in the third grade of elementary school. As soon as I opened the book, I didn’t know more than I knew. question.

I looked at the math book on the side, well, I give up English, but this math. . .I was so dizzy that I was dizzy, and it was obviously impossible to give up the two subjects. I could only struggle with pain, and finally decided to conquer mathematics. Anyway, the topic was Chinese plus numbers.

After setting the goal, I started a daily battle plan. I went to work during the day, went to class at night, or went home to review. On Saturdays and Sundays, I went to class one day and read books one day. The motivation of the exam, even my father who always thinks that it is okay for a man to suffer a little bit when he is young, knocked on my door, euphemistically expressing that proper rest is also very important. After nearly three months of self-harm review methods, I I was finally admitted to the local University of Finance and Economics, majoring in accounting. I was very happy when I got the notice, and felt that I had finally succeeded. .

My parents were also very happy to know the news. My dad even took us out for a meal. Seeing my dad happily drinking rice wine and eating vegetables in the restaurant, I suddenly realized that the reason is that my parents I have always had high hopes. They hoped that I would be admitted to high school, university, choose a normal major, and have a stable job in the future. It’s just that I was too ignorant, lazy and afraid of suffering. Now think about it, if I wasn't so self-motivated back then, and I should have been able to get into high school, then Li Xiao and I would never know each other. Thinking of this, I was filled with unspeakable melancholy.

The next day, I made a special call to Chen Yuan. I haven't contacted her for a long time, and I don't know if she is doing well. I haven't contacted her for more than half a year. She should be giving birth soon.

Ding Jun answered the call, his voice was brisk, and it seemed that he was really excited to be a father. This kind of joy couldn't be hidden, and he could feel it through the phone: "Fang Can, recently okay?"

"Yes, how about you, is Chen Yuan about to give birth?"

"I gave birth yesterday, half a month prematurely"

"Give birth? A boy or a girl?" Hearing Ding Jun's voice, there was no anxiety at all, and the mother and child were expected to be safe.

"Girl, a fat baby who weighs seven pounds and two taels, I was going to call my friends one by one, but there is no time."

No wonder he was so happy, he had already seen his daughter: "Is Chen Yuan okay, premature delivery doesn't matter?"

"It's okay, it's already been months, she herself, told her not to go to work, she just didn't obey, and ran downstairs to pick up things by herself, and when she came up, she had a stomachache. Fortunately, I was here, and I was almost scared to death by her." Ding Jun Said dumbfoundingly.

"It's fine." I was really happy for them, paused for a while, and said, "Congratulations, I should come and see you."

"Don't take it to heart, Ah Can, by the way, is there something wrong with your call?" Ding Jun asked me.

"It's nothing serious. I was looking for a job some time ago and found that my academic qualifications were not enough, so I signed up for a remedial class and planned to take the night university exam. The results just came out two days ago, and I am ready to experience school life again."

"Congratulations, Ah Can, you are an undergraduate student"

"Hey, what undergraduates? College students are rare these days. There's no way."

"Do you want to talk to Chen Yuan, she seems to be awake"

"No, she should be very tired just after giving birth, let's rest more, we will talk later"

"Fang Can..." Ding Jun hesitated for a while, and then said, "We haven't been in contact with Li Xiao since you left. The things you want us to hand over are still here..."

"Then..." I want to say let's put it away, or throw it away if it takes up space.

Ding Jun continued: "I mean, some things should be looked at from the past. Now that you have taken that step, don't let the people and things in the past affect your life anymore."

I closed my eyes and said "I know, I'm fine now"

Before hanging up the phone, Ding Jun said: "We are friends, remember to keep in touch"

"Okay" I said.

After hanging up the phone, I stood in front of the window for a long time. Looking back on my life after I came back, my state of mind really changed a lot. Afterwards, I was busy with work and preparing for the exam. For a while, I really forgot about Li Xiao. I'm so busy, I don't have time to think about love and love, but now that I'm free, Li's figure still pops up in my mind, Ding Jun will say that, he must have heard the evasion in my words Only then would I speak out to persuade me, I patted my head helplessly, I could only accept the reality with a wry smile, thinking that this is really a sin.

There is still more than a month before the Chinese New Year. The advantage of the property management company is that they are on holiday and work early and late. Most of the security guards come from other provinces and cities. Of course, they have to go home early for the Chinese New Year, and many places do not count until the [-]th day of the first lunar month. After the Chinese New Year, a series of circumstances caused us to take an extra week off, but the wages were still taken, which made me laugh from ear to ear, and it is a happy thing not to go home before the holiday, That is the company's annual meeting. I heard from Liu Qingqing and the others that it goes well every year, with many prizes and lots of gimmicks. After all, the company is big, and the rich are the uncles.

The uncle did not disappoint this year. The hotel is booked in a five-star hotel called Central Asia in the city center. Our company has booked the largest meeting place in it. From the afternoon, the meeting will be held. The heads of various departments will report the year-end performance. Afterwards, it is the highlight of the year, the welcome party, and the dinner is a seafood buffet. They started talking about it a month ago. I listened to what they said so clearly, and I was looking forward to this grand end of the year.

On the morning of the annual meeting, I still had to go to work normally, but obviously everyone’s thoughts had already flown away. The girls in the company were all putting on makeup, and the men were dragged to work as coolies. Moving to the venue, none of these men can escape. In such a huge company, only the finance department is still working hard. Liu Qingqing is checking the data used in the leader's report at night, the collection rate of each project, customer satisfaction, and the collection rate of previous payments. If you make a mistake, this is a big joke. As for the financial manager, so Of course she wouldn't hang out with us on important days, she'd danced and danced with the boss a long time ago.

Because of these data, Liu Qingqing and I didn't even catch up for lunch. The meeting started at 01:30 in the afternoon, and there were two last items left. Fortunately, the checking process went smoothly. After finishing, I called Manager Lu. , Pass all the reports to her, and Liu Qingqing and I have been waiting for our cashier to pack up and go to eat after she confirms.

After we finished eating, the meeting had already started. We were not important people, and the venue was already full of people. We couldn’t tell without the three of us. Just go there early after eating.

"Will it be awkward for us to go in later?" I asked.

Liu Qingqing shook her head, she came from here: "How come, the finance department is late every year, busy, the leader won't pay attention to us, don't worry"

I couldn't help sighing: "Does this happen every year?"

"Yes, we are very busy, and the only one who is not busy is Manager Lu." The cashier said, "I still remember the year I first came, she was still waiting for us to leave together, and then Wei Na came, Manager Lu Just take her to go with her, otherwise the finance department will just look like she's okay, it's too ugly."

"Okay" I complained in my heart, money is really not easy to earn.

It was almost three o'clock when the three of us arrived at the hotel by car after dinner, and we were not in a hurry, we chatted all the way to the elevator to the fifth floor. After the door opened, the three of us were still chatting about interesting things from the previous annual meeting: "Let's go." I pressed the elevator door and asked the two ladies to go out first. I was the last to go. Two staff members came in. The moment I passed by, someone stopped me.

I turned around in doubt, and met the familiar face in my memory. The man was obviously surprised to see me, and asked me happily: "Fang Can, why are you here?"

I opened my mouth and asked, "Zhong Wen, do you work here?"

The last time I met Zhong Wen was at the graduation party. I remember he told me to call him, but I left with Li Xiao as soon as I graduated, and I was always busy with starting a business. In addition, I was not in the same city. All the classmates also cut off contact, and now I can meet him here by chance, and I am naturally very happy in my heart.

There was a meeting above, but my thoughts drifted thousands of miles away. I thought of the little things in the school, Zhong Wen who always slept by the side, Li Xiao who made me fall in love for the first time, the familiar classroom, the huge playground, and the The simple parking shed next to the teaching building, we used to be there every day, but now I think about it, it has been a long time, but I feel that I can’t clearly and miss it when it appears in my mind again.

I couldn't help digging out the information I just saved. We met in a hurry just now. Zhong Wen and I only had time to say hello, exchanged mobile phone numbers, and said that we would contact in the future. Thinking of the four years of getting along at the same table, my heart surged. A warm feeling, a lost friend, I hope we can get along happily in the future.

Because our company has an early holiday, the annual meeting is held earlier. So after the annual meeting, when everyone is still immersed in the fantasies of lottery draws, parties, and holidays, I, an older student, ushered in the first time The final exam, the score of the final exam accounts for 60% of the total score, and 40% is the usual attendance and the comprehensive evaluation of the teacher. My usual attendance rate is 100%. Yes, but I haven’t taken the exam for many years, and I’m inevitably a little nervous. After the annual meeting, I have nothing to do. I even took two days off to study at home. The scope given by the teacher is not too big. The day before the exam, looking at the scope of the exam that I had memorized, I was quite confident.

There are five courses in this semester, which are divided into two days. Three courses are taken on the first day, and two courses are taken on the second day. The exam can be said to be relatively easy, and the two exams on the second day were also performed normally. After the last exam, I walked out of the school with my bag, feeling relaxed.

I took out my mobile phone from my bag, opened it, and saw that Zhong Wen had called me 45 minutes ago. Luckily, I turned my mobile phone to silent mode, otherwise it would be so embarrassing if it rang in the examination room. I smiled slightly. Call him back.

The call was connected immediately, and Zhong Wen said on the other end: "Hey, brother, you can call back, I thought you were fooling me that day"

I was confused: "What are you fooling about?"

The other end laughed: "I thought you didn't want to contact me."

When I heard it, I couldn't laugh or cry: "You didn't offend me, why didn't I contact you, I took the exam in the past two days, and I just finished the exam today. When you called me, I was in the exam and I didn't answer."

"You take the exam? What is the exam?"

"Night Big"

"Huh? Graduate student?"

I was a little short of breath, if I didn't know that Zhong Wen has always been rough, I would have thought this guy was teasing me: "I'm sorry, brother, I read Gao Qiben"

The other end of the phone was stunned for a moment, and then there was a loud laugh: "Okay, okay, I'm sorry, let's not talk about this, when will we come out for dinner?"

"Anytime, you say"

"Then tomorrow, after get off work tomorrow, you come to our restaurant to find me, and I will take you to dinner."

"Row"

After get off work the next day, I rushed directly to the hotel where Zhong Wen worked, and I called him in the lobby. After a while, he came down, patted my shoulder, and said, "Let's go up and talk about it later."

He took me to a small box, we sat down, he smiled and said: "I won't be polite to you, the dishes are all ordered, let's chat while eating."

I smiled and nodded. When I first came here, I was a little confinement, but Zhong Wen’s tone and attitude made me feel very comfortable, as if we hadn’t seen each other for nearly ten years, but only for a week. Gradually, I let go .

I looked at the uniquely decorated private room, and couldn't help but tease him: "Manager Zhong is doing well, a genuine gold collar."

Zhong Wen smiled and shook his head: "What gold collar, it's just a part-time job, and it's still a 24-hour service."

"That's your dedication"

"What kind of business do you respect? This hotel is run by my wife's family. I come here to work. I can't just leave work alone."

When he said this, I felt a little surprised: "Are you married?"

"Please brother, I am 31 years old today, it's normal to get married, okay?"

Indeed, we are both 30 years old, and most of my former classmates must be married, but it is impossible for me and Li Xiao to have a marriage, so I have never thought about getting married. , Only then realized that I may have missed a lot, but what should I do, I can't go back to the past.

"Yeah, I didn't go when you got married. I'll invite you and your wife out for a meal later, and express my apologies and best wishes."

Zhong Wen smiled and agreed, I asked him how he met his wife, Zhong Wen smiled happily, and slowly told me his experience in the past ten years.

Zhong Wen and his wife met in the hospital. His cousin had acute leukemia, and Zhong Wen had a good relationship with his cousin, so he kept going to the hospital to see her. Once after visiting her, he happened to see her wife sitting in the family area Play with those sick children.

"I thought she was a social worker or something. She wasn't wearing a hospital gown, and her face wasn't particularly haggard. I saw her singing with the children there, and thought this girl was really lovely. Later, I found out that she was She is also a patient here, waiting for a bone marrow transplant, but she is still so gentle, accepting the fate that is unfair to her."

"That's why you're so excited." I smiled knowingly.

"That's right." Zhong Wen didn't deny it, he took a puff of cigarette, and continued: "Our family's conditions are actually good, we can't be considered a wealthy family, but it is definitely a well-off family, so I like her, so I naturally pursue her Yes, but I found out later that my family is not at the same level as hers." Having said that, Zhong Wen smiled wryly, "Their family runs a five-star hotel, and she has a brother who is six years older than her. After suffering from this disease, her parents naturally cherish her very much, so it is conceivable to protect her."

But at first, they didn't think there was any problem with it until the woman's parents found out about their daughter's love affair. Their family is too rich, so they always felt that a poor boy like Zhong Wen went there for their family's money. Disdainful, if he didn't really like it, he would probably pat his ass and leave immediately.

It is conceivable that under such circumstances, his love life is not all smooth sailing. Zhong Wen said that he sometimes thinks that he should just give up. The woman is not in good health, and his parents look at him with colored eyes. When my parents said it, they didn't agree, thinking that the most basic thing to find a wife is to be in good health, how can they find a sick man to come back.

But no matter how cruel the facts were, Zhong Wen couldn't lie to his heart. Just when he was hesitating, her wife found a matcher who could give her a bone marrow transplant. Before the operation, her wife told Zhong Wen in front of her family In front of him, he said to Zhong Wen, if my operation is successful, I want to marry you, will you marry me?

A terminally ill girl, before the operation, the greatest wish in her heart was to marry herself, how could Zhong Wen not be moved, facing her wholeheartedly, Zhong Wen knelt down in front of the bed, and solemnly proposed to her.

"Then her parents agreed?" I asked.

Zhong Wen shook his head: "His parents are prejudiced against me. Sometimes as long as some ideas are preconceived, it will be difficult to change later."

Indeed, I nod.

"So I think, in order to avoid unhappiness after marriage, it is more important for me to state my position first."

"How do you show it?"

Zhong Wen smiled mysteriously, and said: "I told her parents to sign a prenuptial agreement, and the property before marriage should be notarized. I'm not interested in her family's money. After marriage, I can support my wife myself."

"Ah?" I didn't expect Zhong Wen to be so direct, and he simply cut off his back road, but it was true. He used to go straight when he was in school. Although he didn't see money as dung, he did. Not a very fussy person.

When he saw my reaction, he laughed: "His parents also had the same expression when they heard me say that."

"What then?"

"Later we got married, safe and sound, very good, my wife is in good health now, I always have hot meals waiting for me when I get home, she is also very good to my parents"

I nodded, longing for the plain and happy life he described.

"Then you have been working here since you got married?"

"No, when I just graduated, I worked as a customs broker in an import and export company. The income was good, but I was a little tired. Later, the financial crisis, our company collapsed, and some employees were laid off here. His parents and his brother called me Come here to work, I'll come"

"It turned out to be like this, not bad not bad"

I suddenly felt very emotional. The little kids who used to be ignorant and ignorant have now stepped out of the society one after another. They have their own experiences and pasts. The good and the bad, as time goes by, all turned into memories In the past, everyone has their own helplessness and compromise, but they have to continue to live every day. Sitting here today and listening to Zhong Wen talk about his experiences over the years, a meal, a few hours, has brought him nearly The joys, sorrows, sorrows and joys of ten years have been talked about all over the place, so my past may be just a sad past in the eyes of others, so for me, there is nothing I can't live with.

"Tell me about you." Zhong Wen looked at me, raised his head slightly, and asked me: "How have you been these years?"

I picked up the chopsticks again, picked up a piece of fish, and asked him, "Which area are you referring to?"

"Come on, what do you think I am referring to? You are not married yet."

I nodded.

Zhong Wen narrowed his eyes and glanced at me, then continued, "I'm not with Li Xiao either."

I sighed and nodded again. I didn't intend to hide the matter between me and Li Xiao from him. It's just that Zhong Wen is not gay. If he doesn't ask about this matter, I won't talk about it. I'm afraid he won't listen. Comfortable, though he never showed it.

"When you just graduated, you ran away from home. Your mother found the school and asked the teacher for the contact information of our classmates. They called one by one, and I also received a call. You... probably didn't leave alone. Bar"

I didn't want to think about those fait accompli things. I concealed the deep guilt in my heart and replied: "I walked with Li Xiao and helped him start a business together."

"Then how did you break up?"

Slowly, I told Zhong Wen everything about me and Li Xiao, and only deleted the part where his wife sent someone to my house to interrogate me. In fact, these things have been hidden in my heart, and it is also a burden for me. , Sometimes I really want to talk to someone, but almost no one around me knows what happened to Li Xiao and me, so now, since Zhong Wen asked, I will tell him everything without hesitation, and Zhong Wen has been listening quietly I just talked about it like this, as if I went back to those past times, and my emotions gradually fluctuated. After I finished all the words, I realized that the deliberate forgetting these days can't change my heart at all. It turns out that I still can't let him go. , But I can't do anything about it, thinking of this, my eyes are red.

Zhong Wen drove me home.

"Don't think about the past when you come back, and keep in touch in the future"

I smiled and nodded.

"How about... let me introduce you to a girlfriend, or a boyfriend"

I was about to open the door and get off the car, but stopped when I heard his words, and looked at him with a wry smile: "I'm very busy now, I have to go to class three times a week, and I have to go to work, how can I fall in love sometimes?"

He thinks about it too: "Then you... look away"

I was really agitated just now, and my eyes are still a little red now, which probably made Zhong Wen think that I would be overwhelmed. In fact, although I really couldn’t let it go, I felt much more comfortable after I said it. Whoever leaves them will truly be unable to live.

"Don't worry, I'm already 30 years old, I can still commit suicide for love"

He smiled knowingly, sighed and drove away.

Zhong Wen and I have become very close since this time. We always meet once or twice a month. Sometimes I call him, sometimes he calls me, and I even treat his wife to dinner a few times. For dinner, he sometimes brings his wife with him when he comes out. His wife's name is Xu Qian. She is not particularly gorgeous, but she has a really good temperament and is easy to get along with. The only disadvantage is that she is not in good health and is weak. She has a weak feeling, but this does not affect others to have a good impression of her. Presumably, the girl who can make Zhong Wen fall in love at first sight must have something special about her.

Sometimes seeing the two of them so close to each other always reminds me of Chen Yuan. She sent me a lot of photos. Her daughter is over one year old and looks very cute. I heard that she can already call her mom and dad.

Seeing the people around me gradually find their focus in life and working hard for it, sometimes I feel lonely and want to find someone to accompany me, but feelings are beyond my control, Zhong Wen Ask me if I want to introduce a friend to me, he said that because of my relationship, he has also paid attention to us people, and gradually understands this group, but I refused, because my parents didn’t know about my situation Second, when it comes to feelings, when things go well, they are as happy as they are, and when they are not, they are painful. The relationship with Li Xiao has consumed all my passion, so even if I am lonely, I don’t want to go through those again. Maybe it will be better in a few years, but at least for now, I don't want emotions to take over my life.

After another year, the weather is very comfortable at the beginning of spring. I wanted to take my parents on a trip. Anyway, they are all retired, and I have plenty of time. As for me, I will take two or three days in the middle of the month when I am not busy. Annual leave is fine, but something happened just as soon as I discussed with my parents where to go.

That night, I was dreaming, and I was awakened by the ringing of my mobile phone. At first, because I was in a deep sleep, I didn’t even notice that the sound was from the mobile phone. The ringing sounded for a long time, then stopped, and then rang again. , I wanted to get out of bed to get my phone, but the ringing stopped, I took the phone over to check, it was Zhong Wen calling, what's the matter?when i see