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At 1:13 in the morning, I quickly pulled him out.

But it rang for a long time and Zhong Wen didn't answer it. It was so late, Zhong Wen couldn't call me for no reason, but now I called back and he didn't answer. I was very worried, but I couldn't figure out what happened What happened, so I had to keep calling.

This time, Zhong Wen answered: "Hello, Zhong Wen, where are you?"

Zhong Wen's voice came from the other end of the phone, and it didn't sound very real. It felt like he was crying: "Fang Can...you, can you come pick me up? I'm too drunk to drive"

"Okay" After hanging up the phone with him, I changed my clothes and took a taxi to the address he gave me.

When I got off the taxi, I saw Zhong Wen's car parked on the side of the road. There was a convenience store nearby. I thought he might have bought wine and drank it in the car. When he was drunk, he remembered that he had to drive back, so he called Me, it's so late, what the hell is going on, he asked me to drive out so late, and still called me in the early morning?

I walked over and saw that no one was sitting in the driver's seat. I knocked on the window, and the rear door opened, revealing Zhong Wen with red eyes. He made room for me so that I could sit in too. A strong smell of alcohol.

"What's wrong with you? Why are you drinking here alone in the middle of the night? Did you argue with your wife?" This is the only reason I can think of.

He rubbed his eyes hard, I doubt he cried.

After a while, Zhong Wen took a deep breath and said, "Qianqian is pregnant."

I looked at him, there was no joy on his face, but only helplessness and grief. I understood in an instant that they had been married for several years but had no children. Because I could not have children myself, Zhong Wen had no children. I also think it's normal, but now it seems that they don't want children, but they probably can't have children. Why, because of his wife's illness.

"Did the doctor say you can't conceive?" I asked him.

Zhong Wen shook his head, and said in an unstable tone: "Although she has been relatively healthy after the operation, the immune function of people who have suffered from this disease is not very good. If she becomes pregnant, the child will absorb a lot of nutrients from her, although it is not absolute. Yes, but pregnancy still has certain risks.”

"Then... can only be destroyed?"

"She didn't tell me at all that her mother fell down some time ago, and she lived in the past to take care of her mother. I just went to see it every day and came back after dinner, so I didn't know at all, and her mother didn't know at all. I only found out when I went to her room to tidy things up, otherwise she would have kept it a secret, it has been four months."

I had no idea, so I continued to ask: "It's been four months, can't it be destroyed?"

"I don't know very well. Her mother said that she can only induce labor, which is very harmful to her body. She may not be able to bear it." Zhong Wen looked at me and said with difficulty: "She is not willing to abort at all, she wants to give birth , It’s useless to persuade anyone, it’s all my fault, it’s all my fault.” He kept repeating this sentence in self-blame, and tears flowed out again.

"I really wanted a child for a while, and my mother urged me several times. She must have seen it, so she would take the risk of getting pregnant. When we got married, we agreed not to have children."

The more Zhong Wen talked, the more excited he became. I was a little at a loss and didn't know how to comfort him. Obviously, this cannot simply be a question of who is right and who is wrong. Children are indeed an important bond that maintains a family. I think, I can imagine Zhong Wen Wen Wen's inner struggle and contradiction can also understand why Xu Qian risked her life to get pregnant. They both love each other and sincerely consider each other, but they are not living in a vacuum. Xu Qian has her Her own worries, rather than saying that she might see Zhong Wen's desire for a child, it is better to say that she has always had this idea, but Zhong Wen's attitude made her finally make up her mind.

Under such circumstances, what else can I say, it is difficult for an honest official to decide on family affairs, not to mention the current situation, the minds of the two parties involved must be in a mess and have no idea.

"Go back first. You didn't come out after arguing with your wife, did you? She's still pregnant. You call her first. I'll accompany you outside to blow some air. I'll drive back when the alcohol is gone." If only I could drive at this time, I couldn't help but sigh.

Zhong Wen leaned on the seat, rubbed his temples with his hands, and said: "No, her parents are with her, Fang Can, I am very contradictory, do you know that I really want a child, and she said she wanted to take a chance?" Dangerous, I'm really... a little bit moved, but I dare not bet that if there is any problem, the life that Qianqian managed to save will really be lost."

I sat beside him and listened to him quietly without opening my mouth.

"I'm ashamed that she is willing to risk her life for me, but I let her do this for my own selfish desires." He shook his head and sighed: "It seems that my love for her is nothing more than that, it's really chilling, huh "

I frowned and said, "You are so contradictory, it means that your heart is still toward her. Who is truly selfless? Zhong Wen, be careful, don't go on the road to death." Just like me and Li Xiao, even if We have already broken up, and I also believe that he has no feelings for me, but after all, these feelings are no match for his desire for revenge, no match for the future, so our feelings can only become sacrifices, and Zhong Wen, he will It's so uncomfortable, in the final analysis, it's because I love Xu Qian.

I sat with Zhong Wen from early morning to dawn. We all fell asleep in the car. If the police didn’t knock on the window, Zhong Wen and I would still be asleep. The police looked at us suspiciously and asked to show our driver’s license , Zhong Wen handed him the driver's license and said, "I'm sorry, I was drunk yesterday and didn't dare to drive home, so I had to stop by the side of the road."

The policeman looked at us, and probably thought we were honest, and the car smelled of alcohol, so he nodded, returned the driver's license to Zhong Wen, and told us to drive away as soon as we were fine, we hurriedly said Okay, the policeman nodded and left.

I asked him, "Are you going home?"

"Go back," he said. After a night, Zhong Wen's mood obviously calmed down a lot. He got out of the car and sat in the front driver's seat: "Send you back first."

"That...it's fine if I don't go to work today, are you sure you can do it alone? I can accompany you, don't be polite to me." Although I think Zhong Zhongwen should be able to handle it well, I still can't help but feel worried. he is worried.

"No need." He shook his head, turned around and smiled at me, and said, "I'm much better now, really, I called you in the middle of the night because I drank too much yesterday." He was so embarrassed.

I smiled: "It's okay, just trouble me, I don't despise you"

We all stayed up all night, and his eyes were bloodshot. I expected how much pressure he would face after returning home. I asked him, "What are you going to do now?"

Zhong Wen shook his head: "I don't know, let's take one step at a time. The child is definitely not wanted. If something happens, it will be too late to regret. First get rid of Qianqian, and then go to get rid of my parents. We can't let Qianqian Be influenced by them again" After saying this, he smiled knowingly, as if he was determined, he turned around and started the car.

Before we broke up with him, I said: "Tell me if you need help, just call me, do you hear me?"

Zhong Wen nodded and said he got it.

When I got home, it was past ten o'clock in the morning. My mother was mopping the floor. She couldn't help teasing me when she saw me coming in: "I thought you ran away from home again."

I took off my shoes and went to take the mop from her hand and said, "How can I, only my mother is good in this world, I don't want to be a grass anymore."

My mother smiled, went to the kitchen to wash her hands, and said, "Have you had breakfast? I made siu mai. Do you want some?"

"Yes, there is soy milk, no, let's have a glass too"

My mother puts a steamer in the kitchen, turns on the gas, takes out the soy milk made in the morning from the refrigerator, pours it into a cup, and heats it in the microwave: "Where are you going? It's almost time for lunch, you don't even have breakfast Can you afford to eat?"

I finished mopping the living room, carried the mop and bucket to the balcony, poured out the sewage, and washed my hands. My mother had already put the soy milk and siu mai on the dining table. I sat down and took a siu mai into my mouth. Li, um, a smell of soy sauce spreads in the mouth, and drinking the slightly hot soy milk is very comfortable.

While eating, I told my mother about Zhong Wen, and she sighed after hearing it, and said: "Every family has a hard-to-recite scripture, this couple has been married for so many years, and no child will really feel that they are missing. It is understandable to have this kind of thinking, from marriage to children, after all, this is an indispensable part of life."

Her words really moved my heart. The siu mai in my mouth seemed to have lost its taste. I glanced at my mother. Don't mention it to my mother, I was really not sure, I put down my chopsticks, thought for a while, and asked: "Mom, I have never been married, are you very anxious?"

My mother looked at me and asked, "Are you in a hurry?"

"I?"

"Of course I'm not in a hurry, I'm afraid you are in a hurry"

"That's it. You, the righteous master, are not in a hurry. Why am I an old lady?"

I suddenly felt dumbfounded, and said: "Mom, you know what I mean, you see, I have no house, no car, no money, no good looks, and finally I don't even have the patience to coax a girl, maybe I can't find it." You're married, if you stay at home and don't get married, what do you think... so what?"

As soon as my mother heard this, she stopped doing it immediately: "What are you talking about? How can you be so bad? In my eyes, my son is not the best, but he can be regarded as above-average. Get married!" This kind of thing depends on fate, and when fate arrives, it will naturally end."

I have unspeakable pain in my heart, and I can't tell her, Mom, I don't have a relationship with women. She probably fainted on the spot.

"I mean, what if, uh, what if, at 40, I still haven't found someone I like?"

In fact, when I first came back, I thought about it. If I must get married in the future, then I will choose the one my mother likes. As long as she can treat my parents well, then I will treat her well, although not necessarily. I fell in love with her, but the two sides treat each other with sincerity, and they can always have a long-term relationship. When they have children, the family of three will have a deeper bond. If you manage every day well, your life will always be comfortable.

But all of this is based on the premise that my parents really want to see me get married. After all, cheating is shameful. I have secrets in my heart, and I always worry about being discovered. I used to think that There are still a few more years to go, so I didn't think about it too much. Now I am 32 years old. I am not too old to say that I am too old, but I have definitely reached the age when I should get married. Opinion, as long as they please, I am willing to do it.

"That can only show that you are too picky. The most important thing in choosing a wife is character." My mother looked at me with a smile: "Why, do you want to get married? Do you want your mother to introduce you?"

"No," I quickly denied, "I'm really afraid that you might be in a hurry. I'm not in a hurry at all. In fact, it doesn't matter if I get married or not."

Seeing that I had finished eating, my mother picked up the empty bowl and walked towards the kitchen: "What are you talking about, don't worry, your parents won't rush you, marriage matters, you can handle it yourself"

That's the end of the topic, let's talk about it in a while, I always feel that if we continue to talk now, I will go on a blind date in two days, safety first, don't make trouble first.

That night, I originally wanted to make a phone call to ask Zhong Wen again, but after thinking about it, I decided to forget it. It would be better not to be in a hurry, so as not to affect his work, so I didn't call.

The next day was Monday, and it was almost the end of the month. The finance department was busy closing accounts and issuing reports. Vouchers, reimbursement forms, etc. piled up like a mountain. By the time the work was over, a week had passed, and it suddenly occurred to me that Zhong Wen didn’t come either. Phone, after thinking about it, I was still not at ease, so I called him.

Zhong Wen picked it up quickly, and his tone sounded normal: "I was just about to call you, when you are free, come to my house for a meal."

"Okay, the matter is resolved?" There is no need to go around in circles between us, I just asked directly.

"Forget it, come here, let's meet and talk"

"Okay" I hung up the phone and thought about it, what does it mean, can I find an ambiguous answer to this matter?unless. . .Unless there is a follow-up to this matter, it is very likely that Xu Qian will convince everyone in the end to let her take a risk and give birth to the child.

My thoughts were affirmed when I saw Xu Qian wearing maternity clothes sitting on the sofa smiling and nodding to me, if

If the child is to be aborted, then she should be in the hospital now, and it can be seen from her expression that she is very happy now. I greeted Xu Qian with a smile, and hoped that their decision was right, and that both Xu Qian and the child were happy. Can be safe.

After dinner, Xu Qian was going to cut fruit, but Zhong Wen and I stopped me. I said I was full, and Zhong Wen told her to have a good rest and not do housework. Xu Qian smiled and said that she didn't feel tired. The doctor It is said that it is good for the fetus to move properly, but even though she said so, but now she is the key protection target, it is better to do less things.

Zhong Wen said that he would take me home and chat for a while on the road. I said yes, we will leave when Xu Qian’s mother arrives. Now Xu Qian will always have someone to accompany her. I am afraid that what will happen to her if no one is with her. Unexpectedly, Xu Qian's mother came half an hour later, and Zhong Wen and I got up and left.

"Or decide to give birth?" I asked when Zhong Wen started the car.

"Yes, she convinced the whole family, and everyone agreed to let her have a try. She will undergo a physical examination next week, and then she will stay in the hospital until she gives birth." Zhong Wen drove the car, with a tone of voice A little sigh and a little compromise.

"Since her parents agree, the danger is not too great, otherwise they would not let their daughter risk her life to have a child," I comforted him.

"I know, maybe there won't be any problems, but if there is a problem, Qianqian may not be able to save her." Zhong Wen took a breath and looked at me sideways, and said, "But I shouldn't think of everything as bad, yes no"

He smiled, but that smile was not much better than crying.

"Come on, like you said, don't think it's all bad"

"No" Zhong Wen choked up and shook his head: "You don't know how much I blame myself now. If Qianqian is fine this time, it's fine. If something happens to her because of giving birth, I really...will feel guilty for the rest of my life"

Young people are always impulsive, and that period of impulsive and ignorant youth is the youth that everyone has. If I were given another chance, I might not follow Li Xiao as desperately as I did back then, but although I would have Different choices, but I don't regret my relationship with Li Xiao.

As for Zhong Wen, he said that the best thing he did in his life was to marry Xu Qian, but if he was given another chance to choose, he might not get married so early, at least he wouldn't marry Xu Qian without thinking about anything. It's over.At that time, I was young and energetic, and I felt that my love was bigger than the sky, and my heart was higher than the sky, so I married Xu Qian because of that impulsiveness. I never thought that marriage is not only for us to be together every day, but also What does it mean? Although the marriage was sweet, as time passed, Xu Qian's illness eventually became a hurdle that she couldn't get past.

Zhong Wen's parents are very conservative people. They think it is normal to get married and have children. There is no woman who does not have children. At first Zhong Wen felt that there was no need to listen to their ideas. After everyone began to have a new generation, Zhong Wen said that his own thoughts were also changing. He really wanted to have a child, but pregnancy was a dangerous thing for Xu Qian. He felt lost in his heart, but he didn't want to. Faced with this feeling of loss, or he refused to admit his loss, but Xu Qian noticed that no woman doesn't want to be a mother, that's in her nature, so the matter has developed to the present.

Zhong Wen said that if he didn't think things so simple when he got married, and thought that marriage was just a matter between the two of them, then he would definitely communicate with his parents first, and even think it through himself first, and it would definitely not be like this now The duplicity caused Xu Qian to bear the pressure, and he himself felt uncomfortable.

"Go on, this is the best response to her efforts." I comforted him, in fact, I thought, so what if he could have considered these things at the beginning, if it wasn't for all these years of experience, the original decision It may not be different, after all, some things are unpredictable.

"Yeah, we have to keep going." Zhong Wen sighed, and smiled at me: "Actually, I called you here because I still need your help, but not now."

"Well, tell me, what's the matter?"

"Qianqian's current situation is fairly stable, but in the last few months, her situation may be uncertain. She cannot do without people by her side, but I have to take care of the company's affairs. I may have to ask you to help me run away. Running errands..."

"No problem, call me anytime" I agreed before he finished speaking.

Zhong Wen was stopped by me in the middle of speaking, and smiled helplessly. He didn't say anything after hearing my answer, but patted me on the shoulder to express his thanks.

In fact, it’s nothing. I have nothing to do except work and class. I’m still happy to help Zhong Wen, especially the way he and Xu Qian get along with each other, which always makes me feel nostalgic.

After that, every other week I would go to Zhong Wen's place to see how he was doing. Sometimes my mother would ask me to bring some food to Xu Qian. Xu Qian called my mother several times, as he said Thank you, Zhong Wen will sit up and sit for a while when Zhong Wen takes me home, and the days have returned to calm, as plain as water, but they are also extremely precious. I asked Zhong Wen if there is anything I need to help, and he said no. I'm still busy, don't be polite if I ask him to do something, he said he won't be polite, so I won't say anything more.

At noon on March 3nd, it happened to be Monday, and it was close to the end of the month. When I was busy making accounts, my phone rang. I took it over and saw that it was Zhong Wenlai’s call. I frowned. Xu Qian should be from the end of this month. Due date, he is calling me now, maybe something happened, I picked up right away.

"Fang Can, Qianqian gave birth to a daughter, weighing 5 catties and 8 taels, mother and daughter are safe and sound." There was excitement in his voice, and his excitement could be felt through the phone.

"Congratulations, you can feel at ease." I also smiled. I wanted to say that I would go to see it after get off work today, but thinking that I am a big man, it is not good to appear in the maternity ward, so I said: "Come in a while Look at you, say hello to Xu Qian for me"

"Ok, yes, by the way, I will send you a wedding egg in two days."

"Okay, see you then"

But for a whole week after this call, I didn't receive a call from Zhong Wen again, so I got carried away with joy, I think.

During dinner at night, my mother asked me: "Have you seen Zhong Wen's daughter, does she look like Zhong Wen or Xu Qian?"

"I don't know. I haven't seen them yet. I don't know if they have been discharged from the hospital. I want to wait until they go home before going to see them."

"How long has it been?" my mother asked.

I calculated: "It seems like more than a week"

"Then I was discharged from the hospital early. Those who had a normal delivery only had to stay for three days, and those who had a caesarean section only had to stay for a week."

"Really, then I'll call in two days to say hello"

"Buy some baby products like diapers," my mother told me.

"Got it" I said.

The next day is Friday, and tomorrow is not going to work. I called Zhong Wen after get off work in the evening. I wanted to visit their house at night, so I called Zhong Wen, but he didn’t answer. Didn’t you hear me? Forget it , call again later.

In less than half an hour, Zhong Wen called back. I just finished eating at a shopping mall near the company and was about to buy a gift for my baby. I answered the phone and said, "You are calling at the right time. , I am choosing a gift for your little princess, is there any designated product?"

"Fang Can..." His voice sounded weak.

"What's wrong with your voice? It sounds like you have no strength. Are you tired of taking care of your children?"

"Well, a little bit, there's been a lot of things lately"

"What's wrong?" I seem to be able to feel the tiredness in his tone. Is there something wrong with the child or maybe Qian?

"Qianqian, she... has been unstable. The child has some congenital jaundice, and she is also under observation. These days, she really takes care of the hospital..."

I opened my mouth and didn't know what to say for a moment: "Let me come and see you, I'll be there in a while"

"No, I have to go to work tomorrow, you come and go, brother knows your heart"

"Okay, I'll be there in a minute," I said.

I took a taxi there, and it was past 07:30 when I arrived. There was no one in the ward area, only a few nurses chatting softly behind the nurse's desk. I went to check Xu Qian's room and walked towards the ward.

Xu Qian's ward is a single room, and from the small window of the door, Zhong Wen could be seen sitting there in a daze, I raised my head and knocked on the door, only then did Zhong Wen turn around and come to open the door for me: "Have you eaten yet? "he asks.

"I've eaten." I noticed some bloodshot eyes in his eyes. It should be because he didn't have a good rest. Xu Qian was sleeping on the bed with an oxygen tube in his nose: "Is it serious?" I asked.

"No, it's okay." Zhong Wen poured me a glass of water and sat down with me on the sofa in the ward: "It's just that her body's immunity has not been very good, so her blood pressure and blood sugar are not up to standard. The wounds don't always grow well, and the child is not healthy. She is under a lot of pressure and can't eat. It's a vicious circle. It will take some time, I think." Zhong Wen looked at Xu Qian, with eyes The pain is beyond words.

At this time, any words of comfort seemed weak, and I didn't want to say those, so I sighed and said, "If you need help, just say, the baby has been born safely, even if there are some twists and turns now, I think it will be fine in the future, take care Get through this part"

Chubun forced a smile and said: "Yeah, I think so too, the doctor told us not to worry too much, but let us spend more time with her during this time, now my parents and her parents plus I take turns to take care of her And the baby, I think there won't be any big problem."

I nodded and handed the things I bought to Zhong Wen: "I don't know what to buy, I just bought a few sets when I saw these little clothes."

Zhong Wen touched these little clothes lightly, with softness in his eyes: "Come here, come, what else do you want to buy?"

"I bought some casually and, I..."

Before he could finish speaking, Zhong Wen's cell phone rang: "Hey... oh well, I haven't finished it yet, the things are in my computer, and I locked them in the office cabinet...I'm afraid it won't work in the next two days. I can't go to the office until next Tuesday at the earliest... well, I'll try my best"

"Let me get it for you, do you want your computer, in the office?" I asked him.

"This..." Zhong Wen looked at me, probably wanted to say sorry at first, but probably felt that he was out of touch again, smiled and said: "I'll give you the key, please help me run it, computer It’s in my closet, help me bring the power supply with me, I can finish the files when Qianqian sleeps.”

I came out of the ward with the key, took a taxi directly to Zhong Wen's hotel, arrived in half an hour, took the elevator upstairs, and went directly to the office, Zhong Wen had obviously greeted the security guard on duty, just got out of the elevator A security guard came up to meet me, took me into Zhong Wen's office, found the computer and power supply from the cabinet, searched in his office, found the computer bag, and took them all away.

As soon as I walked to the door, I saw that three parked taxis were called away. Forget it, wait a little longer. It shouldn’t take long. I took out my phone and checked the time. It was less than 08:30 More than that, it shouldn't be too late.

"Xiao Can..."

Someone grabbed my shoulder, and I looked back blankly. . .Standing in front of him was Li Xiao's pleasantly surprised smile.