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It has been more than three years since I was injured and admitted to the hospital and then I went home. During this period, I have not contacted him once, let alone met him. From the moment I was ready to go home, I I knew that there would be no more results between Li Xiao and I, even if I still love him, but this love cannot be conveyed after all, and as time goes by, Li Xiao's face has gradually blurred, I feel that I am ready Well, I'm ready to let go of the past with him, that relationship, but when Li Xiao appeared in front of me without any preparation, I realized how ridiculous my self-righteous preparation in the past three years was. , my heart was beating so fast, I couldn't even manage my expressions and words properly, I could only stand there stupidly, let him grab my shoulders, and talk about how surprised and happy he was to see me .

Until another strange man came over and called him: "President Li"

I came back to my senses, took half a step back, broke away from his hand, turned around and left, don't say anything polite to me, what politeness, I don't want to have any contact with this person in my life, I don't want to let him My gradually calm heart caused waves again, the state of heartache but unable to change, I feel scared even thinking about it now.

"Mr. Zhang, let's do this today. You don't have to send me off. We'll talk another day." Li Xiao hurriedly said goodbye to the man, and came to chase me: "Wait, Xiaocan"

I didn't want to pay attention to him, so I walked out of the door at a faster pace. A car happened to be coming on the road. I immediately waved and sat on it. Not far away, Li Xiao was running towards me.

The car started, Li Xiao chased after a few steps, but still fell behind, so he could only stop. I hugged the computer in the car, and I couldn't get rid of his figure in my mind.

"Mister! Sir!!! Sir!!!"

The driver in front asked me in a voice that almost collapsed: "Where are you going? Tell me the address!"

"Yes... I'm sorry" I quickly withdrew my thoughts, reported the address of the hospital to him, coughed twice in the helpless eyes of the driver, and looked out the window.

The scenery on the side of the road passed by me quickly, only in my eyes but unable to enter my heart, and the person in my heart is now back to find me, but too much past makes me unable to face him calmly, his Is it done?Maybe it's over, otherwise he won't appear here, but so what, that's his business, his life has nothing to do with me.

I handed the computer to Zhong Wen, chatted with him for a few more words, and then came out. I wanted to ask him about his recent situation, but now I really don't have that mood.

"What's wrong with you?" Zhong Wen looked at me and asked.

"It's nothing, call me anytime if you need anything." I patted him on the shoulder: "Let's go, come back in two days"

After saying goodbye to Zhong Wen, I almost walked out of the hospital, my mind was very messed up, I should go home quickly, I thought, go back, take a shower and go to bed early, and stop thinking about what I have and what I don’t have.

As soon as I walked to the entrance of the hospital, I saw Li Xiao standing there. He actually followed all the way here. It was too late to turn around now, and I didn't want him to see that I still cared about him, so I bit the bullet and treated him like air walked over.

"Let's talk" He took my arm as I passed him.

"Let go" I looked at him with an indifferent attitude.

He was obviously taken aback. I have never treated him with such an attitude. Even when we quarreled the most, all I showed was sadness and helplessness. He could clearly find my feelings for him from my attitude. Feelings, but now I have taken back all those feelings, even if my heart does not approve, but I will not let it affect my behavior, from the moment I go home, I have recognized the relationship between us ending.

I broke away from his hand and continued walking, and he caught up and said, "Wait"

"Go away" when his hand was about to touch me again, I slapped it off without hesitation.

He frowned, and said helplessly, "It's been so long, why can't you calm down, do you have to be so sharp?"

My anger came up in an instant: "Fuck your mother! I am so sharp, what's wrong, don't look at it if you don't like it, just get out of here! Whoever wants to talk to you, we have nothing to talk about! We have nothing to talk about in this life! They have nothing to talk about!"

My sudden outburst of anger seemed to affect Li Xiao as well, but he didn't attack, he just said: "Forget it, I don't care about it with you, if I don't talk about it today, I won't talk about it, I will come back to you in two days, you changed your phone number, give me the number"

I stared at him, almost gritted my teeth and said, "Go away!" My heart was beating fast, there was anger, there was excitement, even my body was trembling slightly uncontrollably, I walked forward quickly, just want to leave quickly here

"If you refuse to come out, I'll go to your house to look for you!" Li Xiao shouted behind him.

fuck you!I thought to myself, and left there without looking back.

"I'm back, have you eaten?" My mother sat in the living room watching TV as usual, waiting for me to come home.

"Eat" I said.

"Xu Qian is okay, has the child seen it?"

"It's...not bad, the child didn't see it" Because I met Li Xiao, my mind was in a mess, I forgot about Zhong Wen's matter, and didn't ask the specific situation. Now my mother asked, so I don't know How to answer.

"Okay, let's go take a shower and go to sleep, I'm going to work tomorrow" Fortunately, my mother didn't notice my discomfort.

"Okay" Normally, I would sit down and chat with my mother for a while, but now I am really not in the mood, and I am afraid that she will hear something, so I stopped talking, took off my coat and went into the room .

After taking a shower and getting on the bed, I kept thinking, will Li Xiao come to my house? I’m not sure about him, probably not, it’s easy to be seen by my parents as suspicious, and when things get serious, it’s only bad for him, not good. He didn't dare to disclose the relationship between me and him, thinking about it, before falling asleep, his thoughts stopped at wondering if he came here, and whether his wife knew about it. .

After a week full of worries, Li Xiao didn't find him. He was relieved and at the same time felt a little bit disappointed. He treated me like that. In front of his so-called business and his dignity, how much can I be worth? As for the money, fortunately, I didn't show any wavering in front of him.

I no longer think about anything, and try to forget about this episode as much as possible.

On Saturday, I went to class as usual. In the schedule of this semester, Saturday is still a whole day, from 45:[-] in the morning to [-]:[-] in the evening, three courses, one Spending the whole day in school is actually a very tiring thing, even more tiring than going to work. When class is over in the evening, I just feel dizzy all over the body. I just want to go back and have a good meal and then wash Take a shower, sit on the bed and play computer for a while, as for homework, wait two days, I am not interested in touching books today.

I don’t know what my mother will cook today. I suddenly want to eat roast duck. I thought about it, took half of it back, and added food to them. I was thinking and walking, but I didn’t notice the person who was looking at me on the road opposite the school gate.

He caught up and patted me on the shoulder from behind. I turned my head and met his gaze.

"Find a place, I'll treat you to dinner, let's talk." Li Xiao smiled slightly, as if we were really friends who hadn't seen each other for many years but missed each other.

The moment I saw him, I felt uncomfortable in my heart. I took half a step back and distanced myself from him. I wanted to turn around and leave like last time, but since he was able to find this place, he must have been with me for a long time. , don’t talk to him once, maybe he will really find my house, I don’t want my parents to know about this, sighed, and said: “Okay, talk”

Hearing that I agreed, Li Xiao seemed very happy and asked me what I would like to eat.

To be honest, I was really tired after a day of class, and I was even more tired when I saw him, and I didn't have an appetite for anything: "Whatever," I said.

Li Xiao took me to a restaurant that eats buffet seafood, because the prices here are high, even at dinner time on weekends, there are not many people here, we chose a secluded place to sit for a while, his mood is obvious Very good, said: "Do you still remember when we first started working, we chose a buffet restaurant for the first time to treat us to dinner, because both of us are big eaters?"

I looked at him, not in the mood to go around in circles with him, and said directly, "Don't you want to talk, you can start now"

Before my butt was hot, I started to get to the point. Li Xiao's face was not very good-looking, but he was not angry, but just looked at me with some resentment: "Do you have to have this attitude?"

I'm not in the mood to fall into his trap and say, "Let's talk, don't waste your time"

Li Xiao acted helplessly, looking straight at me, and after confirming that I would not respond to him, he sighed and said, "I'm sorry, Xiaocan, I think I owe you an apology."

Ha, I snorted coldly in my heart and looked at him on the surface without any reaction.

Li Xiao was obviously not satisfied with my reaction, he frowned unconsciously.

The waiter brought up the menu, and Li Xiao handed me a copy: "Let's order first, what do you want to eat?"

There are people standing on the side, I can't do too much, so I opened the menu, flipped through a few pages, and said: "Whatever"

Li Xiao looked at me, didn't say anything else, opened the menu, and ordered various types of dishes: "Order these first, give me two cups of coffee, thank you"

The food came out in a while, Li Xiao picked up the chopsticks and said, "Eat it, try the taste here."

I didn't want to bully him, so I picked up a piece of beef with my chopsticks and put it in my mouth. Although I was not in a very happy mood, I was still hungry after a day of class and it was dinner time. Eat, the beef tastes good, I kept my eyes on the dishes on the table, put some ice grass, dipped in Thousand Island sauce, and put them in my mouth together.

"You..." Li Xiao looked at me and I could feel it without looking up: "How are you doing?"

I continued to stuff meat into my mouth, not even the corners of my eyes drifting towards him: "Yes, I can't die"

Li Xiao didn't answer immediately, after a while, he said, "I'm already divorced."

With a shake of my hand, a piece of meat missed and fell onto the vegetable salad in front of me. I simply put the meat and vegetables into the bowl.

"I came here specially to find you, my heart, you should understand"

I put down my chopsticks, wiped my mouth with a towel beside me, and then looked straight at him: "Sorry, I don't understand"

"I can understand why you are angry, but Fang Can, you have to know how important that matter is to me, can't you think for me from my perspective, we have not been together for a year or two, Don't you understand my heart, nothing will change me, can't I sit here with you now to explain my attitude towards you?"

I sat opposite him, changed my sitting position, and said blankly: "Say, continue"

Li Xiao's expression can no longer be described in ugly terms, he continued to say almost heartbroken: "Do you know how much it cost me to sit here, Ge Yun refused to divorce me at all, I almost gave up all my benefits That’s why I let my insatiable ex-father-in-law persuade his daughter, do you know how much pressure I’m under to come back to see you sooner, why do you use such an attitude to handle our relationship?”

I sat quietly across from him, and let him vent before starting to finish: "You're wrong, Li Xiao, we don't have any relationship to deal with, you forgot, we broke up after the last conversation Now, as for whether you have divorced or how much you paid to come back, it has nothing to do with me. I just want to tell you now, Li Xiao, I have broken up with you, and no matter what happens, I will never be with you again Compound, thank you for today's dinner, I'm full, goodbye"

"Wait!" Seeing me standing up, Li Xiao hurriedly stood up and held me back. There were not many customers in the restaurant, but there were still waiters looking curiously at me.

"Sit down," he said, "do you want people to see the joke?"

I sneered and broke away from his hand: "I can't control what they think, just like I couldn't control your thoughts before, and now you can't control mine either."

I walked all the way out of the shopping mall, and I don’t know when it started to rain outside. I brought an umbrella in my bag, but now I really want to just walk in the rain, because I’m really in a bad mood. He said he was divorced But so what, in his conception, he has not made any mistakes from the beginning to the end, his lies are packaged in a grandiose manner, everything has his last resort, as long as I have a little bit of resentment, it means that I don’t understand him If I don’t understand him, and don’t think about him from his perspective, then what are my previous patience and concessions? If it wasn’t for my love and reluctance for him, why would I continue to stay in that place? If I can go home, then nothing will happen afterwards. During the half a year of depressing and depressing on the hospital bed, who can really understand my heart!If I really died for no reason at that time, where is he going to find someone now!

"Fang Can!" Li Xiao still chased after him, but I was no longer in the mood to pretend to be with him anymore, I was afraid that if he said any more bullshit, I couldn't resist punching his teeth out.

Li Xiao forcefully pulled my shoulder and forced me to look at him: "Are you so interesting? Why does it always make no sense? Your behavior just shows that you can't forget me at all."

I feel that my own anger has reached its peak, my eyes are red, I don't know whether it is anger or sadness: "Yes, I can't forget you, but so what, I just don't forgive you, I just don't stay with you, Li Xiao, we can't be lovers in this life, we are only suitable for never seeing each other!"

I'm also going all out, some words are really uncomfortable to hold in my heart, why don't you just say it and let everyone break up: "You have your goals, don't I? I even left my own parents and mothers behind for you You go, but what about you, you fall in love behind my back, get married behind my back, I am like a fool, I have to count the money for you after being sold by you; you let me stay there waiting for you, for your ignorance Will the promise be fulfilled, where am I going to lower my bottom line! Don't tell me that you don't know that your wife came to see me, and I was repaired by the person he sent for a whole night, you know what I went through Do you want me to show you the hospital's medical certificate?! If Chen Yuan hadn't found me in time, I really don't know if I can stand here and argue with you normally. I lived in the hospital alone for half a year. My ribs were injured, and I couldn't take care of myself completely, and I didn't receive any calls or text messages from you during this period, Li Xiao, how can I understand you!"

Faced with my nearly out-of-control emotions, Li Xiao froze there, even when I threw his hand away, he didn't respond.

"I lost my ID card, just replace it." I told him in the last word: "You took my ID card at that time, but it didn't stop me from going home. I will keep everything there, just want to give We have one last chance for each other, but obviously I was wrong, and now, Li Xiao, I just want to tell you that I will never be with you again, after so much, I can no longer trust you, and I can't ignore the past The most important thing for me now is my parents, for them, I need a life that can satisfy them, and there is no place for you, Li Xiao, in this life, even as an ordinary friend."

I thought I had said it clearly enough, and he understood me enough that when I left again he didn't catch up.

My heart feels dull for a while, I don't know if it's because of the past that I don't want to think about, or because of the complete farewell this time.

Li Xiao didn't come to see me again for two weeks. I don't know if my words were too decisive to hurt his self-esteem, or he really realized how unfair his original decision was to me, so he was ashamed to come back. These are none of my business anymore. I hold my coffee and look at the drizzle outside the window. Life must go on. The sudden appearance of Li Xiao is just an episode, and I have tried my best to avoid this episode. Too much affects my life.

In a blink of an eye, another month has passed, and Zhong Wen asked me to eat at his house. His wife and children have been discharged from the hospital. He is still a little weak, but his mental state is very good. I heard that the little guy can eat and sleep even more. , I have already weighed several catties. I was happy to hear Zhong Wen's excitement. I have been in a low mood during this time. I am still very happy to go to their house to enjoy the joy.

I brought my mother with me when I went. Zhong Wen said that Xu Qian took care of it specially. I hope my mother can go with me. She said that she really likes to chat with my mother. My mother is also a person who likes to join in the fun, so she took a picture Jihe and I went to visit Zhong Wen's house.

It was almost noon when we arrived at his house. Zhong Wen came down to pick us up. He first greeted my mother: "Hello, Auntie." When he saw the fruit in my hand, he frowned and said, "Come on, why do you still buy it?" Something" said, and took the things in my hand.

"Not much, you can carry it, it's quite heavy"

Zhong Wen could only smile wryly.

"Who is taking care of the baby now?" My mother asked.

"It's my mother-in-law. Qianqian's health is still not very good. It's more convenient to always have my mother by my side. Let's go and sit up."

Zhong Wen invited us up, and his mother-in-law was very enthusiastic: "Come on, come and sit, Qianqian is breastfeeding, I will take the baby out later"

"It's okay, it's okay," my mother said quickly.

"What to drink? Tea or beverage?" Zhong Wen asked me.

"Plain water is fine"

"Okay" he opened the refrigerator and brought me two bottles of mineral water.

"Aren't you going to see your wife?" I said.

"Go, sit down first"

"Go." I unscrewed the bottle cap and drank two sips of water, and handed another bottle of water to the mother who was chatting with Zhong Wen's mother-in-law who was working hard.

After a while, Xu Qian's mother took the child out. The child was very young. She had just finished drinking milk and was sleeping soundly with her eyes closed. My mother took it carefully, held her in her arms and gently coaxed her. There is a lot of love.

The two old people carried the child into Xu Qian's bedroom, and came out after chatting with her for a few words. The two old people looked at the small, soft child, and their love was beyond words.

It is certain that Xu Qian's mother likes this child. This is her grandson, and it was born by her daughter at the risk of her life. It's no wonder if it hurts in my heart, but I didn't expect my mother to behave like this I can't put it down, which makes me almost feel guilty watching from the sidelines.

Zhong Wen stayed with Xu Qian for a while before coming out of the room, looked at me, then at the two old people who could hardly find the north around the baby, and pulled me into the study: "That..."

I sighed: "You can ask whatever you want, why are you hesitating?"

"Does your mother know about you?"

I rubbed my temples: "How could I know, you think she is our age, no matter how advanced she is, I'm afraid she won't be able to accept this."

Zhong Wen nodded, "I think so too. You see, your mother likes children so much, and you are not too young. In two years, she will definitely urge you to get married. What should you do?"

"Nothing to do, finish it"

"what?"

"At that time, let my mother choose, as long as she likes it." After getting married and having children, everything is a foregone conclusion.

"You...can you talk to a woman?"

I was taken aback by what he said, and replied angrily: "Nonsense, I'm not impotent."

Zhong Wen suppressed a smile and hurriedly defended: "No one said you are abnormal, I just read some information on the Internet, some homosexuals don't have feelings for women, and under normal circumstances... that doesn't make it up, of course, it doesn't have to be impossible, It's just that there is no particularly pleasant feeling, are you sure you can live like that? If your wife finds out and stabs it out, won't it be even uglier then?"

I can only be silent again. To be honest, I didn't expect it to be so complicated. Even if Li Xiao and I are together, we are not very indulgent. Sometimes he is busy, and we only do it once a month. We always let things like this happen. Naturally, I have never given much thought to the possibility of married life, but now that Zhong Wenyi said it, in retrospect we are very excited and happy every time, we are greedy for each other's bodies , Familiar with everything about each other, this tacit understanding is not only because of time, but also because we really love each other.

"If you have this idea, I can introduce some women to you, and you can try to get along with them, um... I mean, you can have sex with them, and see if you have any experience in this aspect I feel, wait until you feel that you can pass your own test, and then talk about marriage."

"Are you really... are you a professional pit teammate?" I smiled wryly.

"That can't be helped, who said we are true love?" Zhong Wen also laughed.

"go away"

"Think about it, I'll come to you again after a while, or you can come to me if you have any ideas," Zhong Wen said sincerely at last.

"Okay" I sigh, let me escape for a while longer.

On the way home, my mother kept talking about the baby. She said that she had agreed with Xu Qian's mother that she would knit some sweaters and socks for the baby when she got home.

"Mom..." I thought about my words and asked her tentatively, "Do you want me to get married?"

"Are you dating?" my mother asked.

"Not yet, I just saw that you like the baby so much, I thought you..."

My mother smiled: "Don't you know how much your mother likes children? I was originally a teacher. If I didn't really like children and taught those disobedient little carrots for so many years, your mother would have died of depression a long time ago." Yes, but son, don’t put pressure on you because of these things. Marriage is not a child’s play. Don’t get married just for the sake of getting married. Mom just wants my only son to be happy, understand?”

I felt guilty for a while, and wanted to take the opportunity to tell her that I was actually sick and couldn’t get married, or I could just say that I actually liked men, so I would never get married in my life, but facing this mother who cared for me wholeheartedly, I can't say a word.

When I was thinking about something, the phone rang, because I was walking with my mother, and because of the conversation just now, I was a little uneasy. When I answered the phone, I didn't even look at it: "Hello!"

"...sorry Sorry"

There was some noise on the other end of the phone, but I could still recognize Li Xiao's voice. I glanced at my mother and hung up the phone directly in case she would notice something: "No...no need" I said vaguely, hoping my mother could Think I'm just getting a sales call.

"Xiao Can... I... I'm dying, I regret it so much, I've been thinking these days why I'm so obsessed with revenge, even if I succeed now, so what, I lost my healthy body, It broke your heart, what the hell am I, what am I... what are I doing..."

"What did you say?" I couldn't digest Li Xiao's words at once, and only the phrase 'I'm dying' rang in my mind repeatedly.

Li Xiao's voice was almost choked. He has always been a strong and self-controlled person. This is the first time I heard him speak in this voice. No matter what he said was true or not, I was really scared.

"Where are you?" I changed my indifferent tone before and asked eagerly.

"You're right. I've always only thought about things from my own point of view, and never seriously thought about your feelings. At that time, although I knew that Ge Yun had sent someone to look for you, I never understood the meaning of it out of selfishness. The details..." As he spoke, he sighed with disdain and said, "I'm only busy fighting psychological warfare with Ge Yun, busy pleasing that cunning old father-in-law... No wonder I get sick, this is retribution, Xiaocan , This is my retribution for playing with people's hearts and selfishness."

I felt very uncomfortable when I heard it, so I could only ask him anxiously: "Where are you?! Where are you?!"

My mother was taken aback by the side, but how can I care about her at this time!

I grabbed my hair annoyed, and said to my mother: "Mom, you go back first, I have something to do." Without waiting for my mother to say anything, I ran out: "Li Xiao! Can you understand people's words? Answer me, where the fuck are you now?!"

"...I... don't want to die" Li Xiao sobbed, speaking intermittently, even a little slurred, which worried me to the extreme.

"You're not going to die, Li Xiao, where are you? I'm looking for you, don't you want to talk to me, I'm sorry, I was the one who got agitated last time, and my attitude is not good, where are you? Tell me quickly" He was emotionally unstable, so I had to try to sound a little better to calm him down.

The other end of the phone was getting louder and louder. It seemed that there were a lot of people talking. I couldn’t hear clearly on my side, which made me even more nervous. Just when I was about to persuade Li Xiao again, the phone was cut off suddenly: "Hello, hello!" I almost collapsed on the beeping phone that was already busy, and I called him again, but no one answered.

The only way I can contact him now is the phone, my mind is full of thoughts, I don’t know what to do, I am running aimlessly on the street, and continue to dial the phone while running, no matter what we will do in the future Now I can't stop worrying about Li Xiao, Li Xiao, where are you, I look at the street with people coming and going, and the blue sky above my head, I don't know what to do.

I found a nearby station and sat down. I had no choice but to keep calling and calling and calling, but no one answered the phone. I looked at my watch, and the last time I talked to Li Xiao was over. For ten minutes, I was so anxious that I couldn't do anything, so I could only hold the phone and repeat and repeat.

Suddenly, Li Xiao called. My eyes lit up and I quickly pressed the call button: "Hello, Li Xiao..."

"I'm not, sir, what's your relationship with Mr. Li?"

I was surprised by the strange voice on the other end of the phone, so I didn't have time to think about anything, so I replied: "Friend...friend, I'm his friend"

"Okay," said the voice on the other end: "Mr. Li's mood is not particularly stable now. He just wanted to jump off the roof of Tianchen Building. Fortunately, he was discovered by the security of the building and called the police. I am the policeman in charge of this area. , my surname is Liu, can I trouble you to come to the police station, we will take Mr. Li back to the police station to make a record, and he should be able to leave after that, but I think with his current situation, it is afraid to let him go home alone It's kind of forced, and he's drunk."

"Okay, please give me the address, I will go there now"

After memorizing the address, I hailed a taxi, rushed there in a hurry, and jumped off the building. . .How could it be? Thinking about where Li Xiao might have called me just now, I immediately felt goosebumps all over my body. I couldn't think about it anymore. I want to see him, now, immediately!

This is the first time in my life that I walked into a police station. To be honest, if I were to go into a police station normally, no matter what the reason was, I would always have some resistance in my heart, but now my heart is all about Li Xiao. Just ignore it.

"Who are you looking for?" A young man in police uniform looked around after seeing me go in, and came over to ask me.

"I'm looking for..." I was quite emotional when I answered the phone just now, and I couldn't remember the last name of the police officer at the moment: "Is there a gentleman who tried to commit suicide just now..." I could only ask like this.

"Oh, your surname is Li, right?" He nodded and shouted inside: "Brother Liu, come out and receive me."

Following his gaze, I saw a man in his 30s coming out of the room, and I hurriedly said hello: "Hello, Officer Liu, I am Li Xiao's friend, we just talked on the phone"

"Oh, come here." He took me to the door of another room inside, and handed me a document in his hand: "This is what we found next to Mr. Li. It's the doctor's medical certificate. I think he The reason why I can't think about it for a while is because of this. You go in and talk to him. I will go through the formalities for you. You can leave after you come out and sign. Take him back and take good care of him. This kind of thing can't happen again in the future , the surrounding traffic has been stuck for a while." He patted my shoulder and left.

I opened the medical certificate in my hand and looked at it. Some of the previous medical records were very long, and there were many technical terms that I could not understand very well, but I could still understand the last colonoscopy report. The intestinal endoscopy photos on the website are very clear. Some of the intestines are pink, which is obviously healthy. In some photos, the intestinal wall is covered with white and dark green things, as if the food has been left for a long time. I can imagine how horrifying it must be for Li Xiao to hold the report and watch these things grow in his body.

I stretched out my hand and gently opened the door. Li Xiao was sitting on the small sofa inside, with disheveled hair and a large water stain on the shirt on his chest. My eyes turned red when I saw this, Li Xiao, I sucked Annoyed, I still had a sweater on me, but he was only wearing a shirt. I walked towards him slowly, took off my coat and put it on him.

Feeling the temperature on his body, Li Xiao turned his head to look at me, his expression was full of bewilderment, after watching for a while, he seemed to have just realized, and smiled at me: "Fang Can, it's you"

As soon as he spoke, a strong smell of alcohol wafted out immediately, and I just remembered that Officer Liu said on the phone just now that Li Xiao was drunk, did he go to drink because he was so overwhelmed by the medical certificate? Then because I was drunk, I impulsively wanted to commit suicide. I looked at Li Xiao who was in a mess in front of me. The hand I held was cold and cold, and I felt sore in my throat: "Let's go, where do you live?" ,I'll walk you home"

Li Xiao shook his head and said, "I don't want to go home. I'll be alone when I go back. I don't want to die at home."

I didn't expect Li Xiao to say that, and I almost couldn't control my emotions, so I pursed my lips and smiled at him: "No, I'll go home with you, let's go, go back and take a bath, you smell very bad Heavy"

He heard what I said, stretched out his arm and smelled it himself: "Oh, I vomited, it stinks, stay away from me, don't get the smell on me"

I grabbed his body that was about to back up: "It's okay, just change into clothes, let's go, okay?"

"Fang Can..." He called my name.

"kindness?"

"Sorry...sorry...sorry" he said.

At this moment, seeing him like this, I really don't have any complaints anymore. I want to tell him that as long as he can live healthy and healthy, forget everything in the past. I don't care about it, and I am willing to be with him Get along well, but looking at Li Xiao who is in a daze and keeps apologizing in front of me, I think the only thing I can do now is to give him a warm hug.

"I'm sorry...I'm sorry..." Li Xiao also hugged me tightly, I could feel his tears wet my neck, we hugged each other hard, for a moment only Li Xiao couldn't hold back in the room Suppressed sobbing.

It wasn't until there was a knock on the door that I pushed Li Xiao. He didn't seem to be very willing and refused to let go, so he was half hanging on my shoulder.

It was Police Officer Liu who came in: "Can you come out and sign?" When he came in, his expression was normal, probably because a policeman is used to seeing all kinds of people, and it is not surprising to see us like this.

"Okay, right away." I wiped my tears and helped Li Xiao up from the sofa. He was really drunk, and his calves were trembling when he stood up. I had no choice but to let him hook my shoulders. Let him put his weight on me as much as possible: "Slow down, take your time"

After finally helping Li Xiao out to sign the papers, I was sweating all over. Officer Liu was kind enough to ask me if I would like to help, and I quickly thanked him: "No, no, thank you, Officer Liu, we can leave now. right?"

"Yes, let's go, be careful"

So I helped Li Xiao, who had been in a fugue state, out of the gate of the police station.