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"What! You want to resign?!" Manager Lu stared at me and questioned me: "Why didn't you say earlier, what date is this, and we have signed a contract, you have to resign one month in advance, you I said I was going to leave, where can I ask you to go for you? Who will be responsible for this month?! You are too irresponsible, no, if you want to leave, you have to do it for another month. go again"

Grass mud horse, I greeted all the eighteen generations of her ancestors in my heart, and said politely on the surface: "No way, Manager Lu, I'm really sorry, this is the situation now, the patients at home are waiting for me to go back to take care of them, this month Definitely can’t handle the account. Wait for you to recruit people for the handover. I’ll set aside a day or two to come over and make sure the handover is clear before leaving. As for the other things, I have practical difficulties. I'm sorry." I stood up and bowed to him.

But Manager Lu didn't appreciate it, and turned me down impatiently: "No, you have to do a good job with this month's account. I'm hiring people now, and you'll hand over the job when you're hired, and leave after handing over, otherwise I won't pay this month's salary. It’s for you, and I won’t give you a refund order.”

The smile on my face couldn't be maintained anymore, this dead woman really wants to just leave, if she can take care of things, they can finish things this month even without me: "Okay, it's up to you whether the salary is paid or not." Anyway, I won’t be looking for a job in the past two years. If you don’t want to give the resignation form, don’t give it to me. I have no objection. There are still patients waiting for me at home. I’m leaving today, and you can give it to me when you want to hand over Call, thank you for your understanding, goodbye" After I finished speaking, I turned around and left. There are too many things to consider now, and I really don't want to be distracted by other things.

After I left the company, I called Liu Qingqing again and told her about my current situation. First, we have a better relationship. With her in the company, she can inform me first if Manager Lu makes any moves. Second, Now that I leave like this, it is estimated that my work will fall to her in the end, and she must always think of a countermeasure first, or be mentally prepared to figure out how to accept the move.

Liu Qingqing laughed unabashedly after hearing this, and said: "I see, it's okay, there are many people who have not withdrawn their work orders now, she is nothing more than stuck with your salary, she will definitely transfer you out of social security or something." , if you don’t transfer it, you have to continue to pay it to you, it’s okay, just ignore her, the worst result for you is to lose a month’s salary.”

"It doesn't matter to me. Anyway, I won't be looking for a job in the past one or two years. Now I feel more relieved to hear you say that. I just want to let you know. If I don't pay for this month, someone must do it. I Seeing that she won’t do it, think about how to push it.”

"Don't worry, I have a bigger temper than her now, I only do my own thing, whoever likes to do other things, she doesn't dare to mess with me now, I am the only old employee left, and the next two will not For the account, she is afraid that I will lose face and resign, so don't worry, I have a sense of proportion." Liu Qingqing is so domineering, I don't worry anymore.

"I will contact you about the doctor in the next two days, Fang Can, and come out for dinner later," she finally said.

"Okay, I'll invite you next time I come out, thank you, Sister Qingqing" I smiled.

Liu Qingqing was amused by my words: "Forget it, I'm only a month older than you, sister, sister, I hung up, came out to answer the phone, and still have a lot of work on hand."

After making the phone call, I checked the time, it was okay, it was less than six o’clock, and I planned to buy something to go back for dinner. Now Li Xiao can’t eat greasy food, so I searched the streets while walking, thinking about what to buy When I went back, I bought some vegetarian buns after shopping around. I wanted to buy some porridge at first, but thinking about eating porridge almost every day these days, Li Xiao has a bad appetite, so I should change it.

The steamed buns just out of the cage exude a burst of fragrance. I can smell it through the bag. I think it must taste good. I will take the subway home instead, hoping that these few delicious steamed buns will change Li Xiao’s appetite at night. a little better.

"Li Xiao" I reached out and knocked on the door. I don't have the key to his house yet, so I should get one when I have time.

Could it be that "Li Xiao" fell asleep?I knocked on the door for a while and there was no movement: "Li Xiao" I had to increase the volume, but there was still no response inside, nothing would happen, I was worried for a while, and the force of knocking on the door became stronger.

The phone was vibrating in my pocket, I took it out to see, it was a text message from Li Xiao: "You go, don't come, I'm sorry"

I looked at the text message and felt really angry and funny: "Li Xiao! Open the door! Why are you so crazy!" I slammed the door and wanted to rush in and give him two slaps.

I knocked on the door for a full 10 minutes, but there was no movement inside. One after another, people who came home from work passed by the third floor and saw me standing at the door holding my luggage and knocking on the door. They all looked at me and looked at me. There was another person next door. The old man pressed the fire and came out to persuade me: "Young man, if you knock like this, the dead will wake you up. If you haven't opened the door for so long, there must be no one inside."

I had no choice but to apologize to the old man several times before coaxing him home. It was getting dark, and although I was full of anger, it was impossible for me to just leave like this. I was worried that he would be alone I have no place to go for the past two days, and it is impossible to go home. I rubbed my forehead and sighed, and sat down against a corner of the wall next to the gate of Li Xiao’s house. I don't know how long, I looked up at the sky, only to feel that my body was very tired, and my heart was even more tired.

An hour later, it was completely dark and the temperature began to cool down. I opened my backpack and took a coat from it and put it on. This bastard doesn’t know when the door will open. If I want to stay outside all night, I think I will definitely do it tomorrow. I have a cold, so I really want to go down and buy a cup of hot drink. I used too much physical strength just now, and now I feel very thirsty. I sigh again and take out two buns from the bag. I don’t know how long I will stay outside. I put the buns in my mouth I chewed it slowly and rushed to bring it back, but I still couldn't eat the hot one, which is a pity.

I don’t know how long I’ve been sitting outside, and I feel a chill all over my body. Don’t sleep, don’t sleep. I raised my hand and looked at my watch. It’s almost eleven o’clock, and the temperature obviously started to drop. I rubbed my face vigorously. , I know that if I fall asleep now, I will definitely get sick tomorrow, so I have no choice but to stand up and move around, so that this drowsiness will pass as soon as possible.

After sitting for too long, when I stood up, my legs felt a little numb. I bent down to rub my numb legs, and the sound of the door opening behind me made my heart ache. Then, I saw the door open, Li Xiao, who was pushing a black suitcase, came out, because he was about to turn around to close the door, he didn't notice me standing on the side with green eyes, all my sleepiness was gone at this time, I rushed up and kicked People kicked over with luggage.

Hearing "Ouch", Li Xiao fell down and his luggage fell on his body. Only then did he see clearly that it was me, and his expression of surprise was undoubtedly revealed: "You..."

"Fuck you" I sat in the cold wind for a whole night, at this time I was so angry that I almost exploded, I picked him up and threw him on the sofa, "What's wrong with your brain, I'm sorry you dick I'm sorry, sir." I rolled up my sleeves and decided to teach this stubborn guy a lesson.

"Hey, don't hit, don't hit." Probably because he knew he was wrong, Li Xiao didn't fight back, but just dodged with his head in his arms, looking very embarrassed.

I beat for a long time, I was panting and still couldn't help it, I only heard Li Xiao gasped and said without any confidence: "Stop hitting, if you hit me again, I will fight back."

In fact, I was almost done with the beating, but I still refused to show weakness: "You fight back, fight back, I can't beat you to death!"

"You...you! Let no one sleep!" An angry voice came from the door, and Li Xiao and I looked back, and the old man next door was about to rush in angrily and hit us in pajamas and on crutches: " You still let my old man sleep! I'm not finished with you!"

Li Xiao and I were taken aback, I hurried over to close the door, and apologized through the door: "I'm sorry, old man, we won't make any noise anymore, you should go back and rest, it's so cold at night, you wear It's too little, let's go home."

The old man knocked on the door a few times with his cane, cursed and said a few more words before he left unwillingly, I looked into the cat's eye at the door, and was relieved until I confirmed that the old man would never come out again, and turned back to look , Li Xiao was also listening attentively to the movement, his hair was messed up, his clothes were torn in a mess because of our scuffle just now, seeing him like this made me feel so angry that I couldn't vent it, not only couldn't vent it, I even thought his appearance was ridiculous, and then I laughed out loud with a "cut".

Li Xiao was still staring and listening, but when he heard my laughter, he turned his gaze to me, and smiled wryly, "We are really...boring enough." He rubbed the corner of his mouth that was hurt by me helplessly. Said.

I glared at him: "It's not us, it's you." I opened the door lightly, confirmed that the old man would not come out, then went out and moved my luggage in and put it in the living room, and passed the whole night. . .It was really exhausting, so I walked up to Li Xiao and stretched out my hand.

"Why?" Li Xiao asked.

"Stop packing garlic, where is the key, take it out"

Li Xiao's face was a little embarrassed: "I won't do that again, I'll go get you a key tomorrow."

"Stop talking nonsense, just bring it if you want it, I will match it tomorrow." I shook my hand and said, "Hurry up, bring it"

Li Xiao had no choice but to take out the key from his pocket and give it to me.

I took the key and put it in my pocket, turned around and took off my coat on the sofa: "I don't care about you, I'm going to take a shower first." Then, I took out the change of clothes from my backpack and went into the bathroom.

After taking a shower, I obviously felt much refreshed. I wiped my hair with a towel. I didn’t know where Li Xiao had gone. I went to the bedroom and the kitchen to check. No one was there. I was surprised and went out?I just remembered that when I got up, that person was going to go out with his luggage, so I rushed into the bedroom to see if the suitcase was still there, and at this moment, Li Xiao came in from the balcony.

"What are you doing outside in the middle of the night?" I said angrily.

He was taken aback by what I said, and replied, "I'll go outside to get some fresh air."

"What's wrong?" He asked cautiously seeing my complexion.

"It's okay, I'm going to bed, you hurry to take a shower" I threw the towel on the sofa and walked to the bedroom.

When I was lying on the bed, I still felt my heart pounding. I really can’t blame me for my bad temper. If I found Li Xiao running away again after taking a shower, I would almost feel like jumping upstairs. Fortunately, he is true. , didn't cause any more trouble, there was faint sound of water coming from outside, Li Xiao started to take a bath, and I felt more at ease.

I closed my eyes and rested my mind. I heard the sound of water outside stopped. After a while, I heard the sound of turning off the lights. I lay on the bed without moving. I felt the quilt around me was gently pulled up. Next, I heard his slight sigh.

"Sleep?" he asked.

"No"

"I'm sorry about today's incident. My original intention was that I didn't want you to suffer with me. I just feel that everything about me is messed up after I have this disease. I don't want you to see me like this, and I don't want to give you any more Anything negative, I think too easily, it's my fault"

I opened my eyes, Li Xiao's hand held mine under the quilt.

"No need to apologize, I taught you a lesson just now." I turned my head to look at Li Xiao in the dark, his eyes were still so bright, and when he looked at me, he showed tenderness and apology.

"I told my mother about our affairs and your illness today. I came to your house with my luggage on my back and brought you the steaming steamed buns I just bought, but you shut me out and kept me from Sitting from dawn to dusk, I am almost dizzy by your anger, but no matter how I say it, I shouldn’t beat the patient, I’m sorry, I apologize to you too, we’re both clean.”

"Did you tell your mother? Did she still let you come?" Li Xiao was really surprised.

"Yeah, so don't do such stupid things again in the future, I will always take care of you to the end"

Li Xiao smiled: "You know I didn't mean that"

I pulled the corner of my mouth: "I don't care what you mean, anyway, you should keep your own place in the future"

Li Xiao couldn't help laughing.

A period of silence.

"Li Xiao, how did you overdraw your body so much? Do you remember?" I asked. In my mind, Li Xiao has always been a person who is very good at managing life and managing his own life. He knows what he wants, what to do and what not to do. He has always grasped the bottom line very well. He shouldn't have this disease, and he won't find out until the late stage.

In the night, Li Xiao's face was not very clear. I heard him laughing and sighing, and said, "If I said that I started to regret the day after I moved out, would you believe me?"

We looked at each other, and Li Xiao's eyes were full of sadness: "I really regret it, and I wondered several times, do I really need to persevere? Hard work, but very fulfilling, the future is full of hope, and my attitude towards life is full of enthusiasm, but I have no turning back. I have already obtained a certificate with Ge Yun. She is pregnant with someone else's child. If I divorce him at this time, she will The family will not let me go, and my plan has really been put on the agenda, it seems that if I bear with it, everything will have a good result."

"Greedy is not enough to swallow elephants." Li Xiao said softly, as if he was speaking to me, but also as if he was speaking to himself. His tone was not so much remorse as it was helplessness. This was his own choice. Lu, others persuaded him, but he insisted on going his own way, and only he could experience the various tastes in it.

"Since then I lost my original calmness and became irritable, and Ge Yun, of course she is not a fuel-efficient lamp. She is sure that I dare not ask him for a divorce. Heh, she should think that I am doing it for her family. Qian and Quan just married her. Her arrogance is disgusting. After that, I want to deal with everything quickly, at least to drag the Ge family into the water, so that I can talk to them when I get back. Conditions, if you think too much, the pressure will naturally increase. I remember that at that time, I had to smoke at least two packs of cigarettes a day, and sometimes I had to drink at night, and eating was often a burden for me. Sleeping at night was also a burden, and I often suffered from insomnia. "

Li Xiao leaned over gently, and hugged me into his arms, his movements were so careful and slow: "I often miss you, remember the time we were in school together, and remember how I coaxed you into my hands, so that you have nothing to worry about. Give me your heart on guard, remembering the last two-year agreement, the pain in your eyes, how much I want to come back to you"

In the dark, I looked at Li Xiao's blurred eyes, and felt extremely sore in my heart. I held his face in my hands, and kissed him tenderly, on the forehead, eyes, nose, lips, there were tears dripping down my cheeks, there were tears Overflowing from my eyes: "Li Xiao, let's be together"

I thought, maybe I was wrong in this relationship, I never considered some issues for him from his point of view, the heartache of a broken family, the embarrassment of a dilemma, the decision of riding a tiger, because I have no experience so I can’t stand in his point of view Thinking for him, I thought I could understand his pain and grievances, but I couldn't really show the courage to endure those seemingly hopeless times with him. In the end, I was also afraid of losing In return, after the past few years, when faced with Li Xiao's illness, I began to reflect on it again. The old grievances don't seem to be so hard to let go. Now I only hope that Li Xiao can get through this difficult time. Live well.

"I want you so much, Xiaocan." Li Xiao leaned on my body and kissed my earlobe nostalgicly.

Seeing him close at hand, looking at me with lustful eyes like this, made me feel my whole body recumbent: "That's a good relationship, are you sure you can yin now?" I Hooking his bosom, the lukewarm words just came out of his mouth.

Li Xiao smiled leisurely, and rubbed my body with his body: "What do you think?" His place was already touching me.

With a burst of intense breathing, we kissed each other deeply, each other's hands eagerly tugged on each other's clothes, we have been away from each other for too long, and the eagerness at this moment can be imagined.

"Ah" I whispered, Li Xiao's fingers inserted into my cheek, sure enough, it's impossible to get in without assistance, we were all too excited just now, we forgot about this.

"Is there... taozi?" I asked.

"No, in my current situation, how likely is it that I will prepare that kind of thing?" Li Xiao said sullenly.

"So what?" Or use your hands, I thought.

"Wait, let me think about it. There are creams and shower gels at home. Which one do you like?" He got off my body and asked maliciously.

I lay on the bed sideways with my body chirped and gave him a middle finger: "Do it or not, I'll go to sleep if I don't do it"

Li Xiao made a gesture of surrender, and went out to get things.

"What did you take?" Li Xiao lay down next to me again, with a small cup in his hand, but he couldn't tell what it was.

"olive oil"

"How can you have such a thing?"

"I didn't have a bad stomach before. I heard that eating some can moisten the intestines, so I bought it. I used it twice and it didn't work, so I put it there."

"Damn..." I lay down, I didn't like this thing that was going to be put into my body, but Li Xiao obviously didn't think so, he was more excited than before: "It's just right here, you can also 'eat' some" He slowly Slowly pressed on me, put some oil on his fingers and stretched out his fingers to my back, after a little pain, he came in smoothly, and I felt that the thing he put in front of me was even firmer, I held his bosom and parted the tui to allow him to move more smoothly.

"Xiao Can" he bit my earlobe, and murmured emotionally: "I love you" Then, I felt him enter my body, using himself, it was very painful, but not unbearable, I squeezed Hugging him tightly, raising her head and taking a deep breath, said: "Easy"

This was probably the happiest and most enjoyable time for Li Xiao these days. He ended very quickly. After all, his health is not good now. But in his heart he was extremely satisfied. Before falling asleep, Li Xiao said, "Xiao Can, I want to live and be with you."

"Yes." I hugged him and promised in a low voice, although now I don't even know whether this promise will be fulfilled in the end.

The next day we all stayed in bed. I slept late last night and exercised a lot. My mobile phone was left on, and the ringing sound of the incoming call became the alarm clock to wake us up. I found it on the Internet, and it was Liu Qingqing who called me. The first thing I thought of was the doctor she said that day: "Hello!" I quickly pressed the answer button.

As I thought, she contacted the doctor, he is the attending doctor of the cancer hospital, but he is not a specialist in bowel cancer, but Liu Qingqing said that she has dragged the attending doctor to introduce us, and she said that it should be done anyway. Go see it again, I said ok, I will go, thank you.

I told Li Xiao about Liu Qingqing, I thought he would be disgusted, because we have seen two hospitals before, but the doctor's statement is not much different, I was thinking about how to persuade him, he said: " When? Will you accompany me?"

I was taken aback by his good words, and I didn't need to say anything: "Tomorrow, Liu Qingqing made an appointment for us tomorrow night, and she said that the doctor would take us to find someone after the outpatient clinic."

"Okay." Li Xiao nodded and said nothing more.

I looked up at the clock, it was almost eleven o'clock, and we both slept until noon: "You go and brush your teeth first, and I will change my clothes. Let's go out for breakfast," I said.

Li Xiao went to the bathroom. When I was changing clothes, I suddenly thought of someone. I ran out to make a phone call before I could button up my shirt.

The call went through quickly: "Hey, you finally remembered me, kid. How long has it been since you called me?"

"Zhong Wen" I'm not in the mood to greet him now, so I went straight to the topic: "Li Xiao is back." I briefly talked about Li Xiao's condition, and then asked him: "Xu Qian's health has not been very good, so I think, do you know more experienced doctors here?"

Zhong Wen has been silent on the other side, and I can guess his mood at this time: "Why are you still thinking about him so much, he is not a good thing, and he deserves it when he dies."

"Don't say that" I can only sigh, although I am very grateful to Zhong Wen for fighting for my injustice, but there are many emotional things that are really not humane, and I heard that Li Xiao deserved it when he died, My heart is really sad: "Some things are not all his fault, Zhong Wen, I really don't have time to discuss these things with you now, this time I really have nowhere to go to think of you, help me, okay?"

"You are really..." Zhong Wen said bitterly, "I see, let me ask, just wait for the call."

Li Xiao and I spent a peaceful day, just like returning to the days when we were just out of school. This feeling really makes me miss: "Li Xiao, work hard tomorrow." I caught a piece of fish and cheered him up.

"Come on," he picked up a vegetable and smiled at me, although I knew he must be nervous and apprehensive.

Li Xiao woke up early the next morning. In fact, I still wanted to sleep because we chatted very late yesterday, but since Li Xiao had already woken up, I didn’t feel like going back to sleep. When I opened my eyes, I found that Li Xiao was watching Looking at me: "Morning" I smiled at him.

"Morning, don't you want to sleep for a while?" He said, it seemed that he was in a good mood today, with a smile on his lips.

"Don't sleep anymore, what do you want to eat in the morning?" I touched his face and asked him.

"Whatever, you know I don't have much appetite right now"

"Okay, let's get up, let's go out and have a look after washing up"

It was another refreshing morning, I opened the window, and the cool wind blew in, which made people's minds sober a lot at once, and that feeling was very comfortable. I took a deep breath and looked at the The few passers-by who occasionally pass by downstairs, I really hope that such a peaceful day can always accompany us in the future.

After breakfast, Li Xiao and I went home and cleaned the house briefly. We took off the sheets and put them in the washing machine, and took the quilts out to the balcony to dry. After finishing all this, we found that it was already noon.

"Tired?" I asked him.

"It's okay." He was sitting on the sofa drinking water. After working all morning, I was sweating a little. Not to mention Li Xiao's current body, but his complexion is much better than the previous two days. I think that for sick people Faith and hope are still very important.

At noon we simply ate some noodles. I wanted Li Xiao to go to sleep for a while. He shook his head, so we sat on the sofa and started chatting. We couldn’t stop chatting. In the end, Li Xiao reminded me Me: "Let's go out early, I'm afraid it's not good to go late"

I looked at the clock, it was three o'clock, the time was so fast, so I stood up and said, "Let's go"

When I arrived at the hospital, the outpatient service was not over yet, and there were quite a lot of people in the hospital. I took out the contact information given by Liu Qingqing and called that person first. After 10 minutes, we met the introducer in the hospital lobby, a young male doctor. , so young, I thought to myself.

"Hello, this is Mr. Fang, my surname is Sun." He extended his hand to shake my hand.

"Hello, Dr. Sun" Li Xiao and I looked at each other and shook hands with him politely.

"Come with me, the teacher is still in the clinic, I told him, let's wait in his office first"

It's not that he sees it, I'm half-convinced, it's not that I look down on young doctors, but Li Xiao's illness has been diagnosed by several hospitals, and the chance of a comeback is not high, and the profession of a doctor is indeed that the older you are, the more experienced you are.

Dr. Sun is very enthusiastic. We learned from him that the doctor Liu Qingqing entrusted and the doctor we are going to see now are good friends. They have been friends for decades. I'm looking forward to it, but I'm also a little scared. If even this doctor has the same diagnosis and treatment results as the previous three hospitals, wouldn't Li Xiao really have no hope at all? I peeked at Li Xiao from the corner of my eye, and suddenly felt Shouldn't it be a secret to find out the situation by yourself first?

Li Xiao felt my gaze and patted me on the shoulder. I have already arrived here. It seems useless to say anything now. I can only resign myself to fate. I sighed in my heart and followed Dr. Sun into the office.

"The teacher is very experienced, don't be too nervous." He brought us two bottles of mineral water and sat down opposite us.

"Where are your medical records? Have you brought them? Take them out first. Let me have a look and analyze the situation."

So we handed over the medical records to him, and he read them seriously. I don't know what Li Xiao was thinking, but to be honest, I was very nervous, afraid that he might say something wrong, although the final diagnosis depends on his teacher. How to put it, but if Dr. Sun said something that made Li Xiao sad, I would still feel very uncomfortable.

Fortunately, after reading it, he sorted out the medical records and put them on the table without saying anything.

"The teacher's surname is Yuan. I have been in this hospital for 30 years. I have been with the teacher for only three years. The teacher is very considerate of the patients. I know what the results you most hope for. I think the teacher should be able to help you," he said very Sincere, with a faint smile on his face all the time, Li Xiao and I really believed his words to a certain extent.

Dr. Sun has been with us all the time and told us a lot about Dr. Yuan’s treatment of patients. He said that Dr. Yuan is very responsible and often has no time to go home. His wife is the head nurse and has retired now. , His two sons and daughters are also doctors, he said they are a real family of doctors.

Hearing what he said, I am really looking forward to this old doctor, hoping that he can bring us a glimmer of hope. Li Xiao has been listening quietly by the side, and I know his thoughts must be the same as mine.

Half an hour later, the door of the office opened, and a gray-haired but energetic old man walked in.

"Teacher" Dr. Sun stood up.

"Hello, Dr. Yuan" Li Xiao and I also stood up, we are both juniors, it seemed inappropriate to shake hands with him, so I bowed slightly to him, Li Xiao saw my movements, and also kept up with me unanimous.

Dr. Yuan waved his hand, sat down next to Dr. Sun and said to us, "Sit down, you are welcome." It seems that Dr. Yuan is a very kind person.

Dr. Sun handed the medical records to Dr. Yuan, and he started fiddling with a tea set on the small table in front of him and began to boil water to make tea.

Dr. Yuan didn't waste any time and started looking at the medical records. For a while, there were only the sound of boiling water and flipping papers in the office. I felt my heart and hands start to sweat.

When the water boiled, Dr. Yuan also finished reading the medical records. He turned to Li Xiao and said, "Come on, let me have a look."

He took Li Xiao to a small consulting room next to the office, and took out medical gloves and a stethoscope from the drawer: "You guys wait outside for a while" and then he closed the door.

Soon they came out, Li Xiao was pulling up his trousers, and Dr. Yuan threw off his gloves and washed his hands by the sink.

"How is it?" I asked Li Xiao in a low voice.

He came out and sat next to me and shook his head: "Nothing"

Dr. Yuan also sat back on the sofa and picked up Li Xiao's medical records again. What he will say next is the motivation for me and Li Xiao to go on. I can't imagine that Li Xiao will be desperate if he gives a negative answer. Unable to sit still, both hands were clasped together, sweat from the palms of the palms rubbed onto the backs of the hands.

"Your situation..." Dr. Yuan flipped through the medical records, and spoke with deliberation, my heart came into my throat: "It's not that there is no hope of keeping the gang family, but it's just that you have to bear a relatively large risk. You are young grandchildren." My friend, I don't want to say anything more." He raised his eyes and glanced at Li Xiao: "It depends on your own thoughts."

"Can you tell us more about it, Dr. Yuan?" I asked.

"Of course." Dr. Yuan took out the medical records and began to explain why: "You should have read this colonoscopy report carefully. The tumor he is going to remove is near the Gangmen. It is impossible for the doctor to directly stick to the tumor during the operation. To remove the necrotic intestine, but to leave a quiet distance, this is to completely remove the cancer cells to prevent recurrence or metastasis in the future, the intestine itself has a certain flexibility, just like a rubber band, If the tumor is not large, you can connect the two sections of intestines again after the cut, but you are now in the third stage, and the tumor has grown and almost blocked the intestines, which is why you are now having difficulty defecation and abdominal pain. Several hospitals gave such a diagnosis plan based on the consideration of surgical safety and postoperative survival rate.”

Dr. Sun poured us another cup of tea, and he handed the last cup to Dr. Yuan himself. After taking a few sips, Dr. Yuan put down the cup and continued, "Now, there are two important questions. After the cut is clean, what should you do if it recurs or metastasizes later? Second, because the part you cut off is relatively large, will your body be able to withstand the forced suture? If the sutured wound dehisces during your postoperative recovery period, Then it is very likely that you will die directly due to internal bleeding, and there is no time to rescue it." Dr. Yuan shook his head, and put forward his suggestion very sincerely.

"What's the survival rate?" Li Xiao asked.

"Qicheng, you are in the prime of life, and your body's metabolism is at its peak. It is not impossible to win a gamble, but this only refers to postoperative recovery. It really depends on whether the cancer cells will recur or metastasize." Luckily, I can't figure it out at the moment."

Li Xiao laughed wearily: "Luck..."

"In fact, the man-made gang door does not have as much impact on your life as you imagined. Things are getting better and better. You can..."

"No need." Li Xiao interrupted Dr. Yuan: "According to your plan, I will receive treatment. If there is a problem, I will not come to you."

Dr. Yuan smiled kindly and said, "When you reach my age, you won't care so much about the success rate. The reason why I tell you this is just to tell you that life is precious, don't treat some things that you don't There are prejudices in the things you know, fully understand all what you want to know and what you don’t want to know, and finally make a choice”

"No." Li Xiao shook his head: "I've thought about it for a long time. As you said, Dr. Yuan, life is precious. If you can live, who wants to die, but everyone has their own choice. Thank you very much for following up so sincerely. I say this, and I don't think I'll change my answer"

Listening to their conversation, my heart is depressed. I can understand but can't understand Li Xiao's mood at this time. I know the importance of a healthy body to everyone, but what is more important than life, but I Knowing that I couldn't change Li Xiao's decision in this situation, I didn't say anything, even though I really wanted to pull him out to sit down and talk to Dr. Yuan by myself.

Dr. Yuan smiled helplessly, and said to Dr. Sun: "Why do I fail to persuade patients to treat conservatively every time?"

Dr. Sun smiled: "Because teacher, your persuasion is too unoriented, and the patient's emotions are inherently hesitant. What you say makes people want to let go of Bo Yibo."

"Stinky boy" Dr. Yuan feigned anger, turned his head and said to Li Xiao: "Actually, there is another method, which is a plan proposed by our department in the past two years."

"What?" My heart skipped a beat.

"It is to first intercept a section of the patient's own intestines, put them in a petri dish, grow them to a suitable length, and use them to replace the necrotic parts during surgery, but this method is not suitable for everyone. The degree of health and the length of the necrotic part will affect the final result, and this method requires two operations, and it has already entered cancer