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For stage III patients, their physical indicators often fail to reach the state where they can undergo a second operation, and forced surgery may make them unable to get off the operating table.”

The more I listened, the more I felt that the first plan was not reliable. I turned to look at Li Xiao next to me, but saw him frowning and pursing his lips. I had a bad feeling in my heart. Sure enough, Li Xiao said: "Just press As you said, I will bear any risk at that time, and it has nothing to do with you."

"No! Are you crazy?" I almost jumped up: "How can you treat your own life like this!"

Dr. Sun came to pull me: "Calm down, Mr. Fang, you don't need to make a decision now, do you, teacher?"

Doctor Yuan nodded.

Dr. Sun continued: "You and Mr. Li go back and discuss it first, wait..."

"No, let's do it this way. When can I be admitted to the hospital?" Li Xiao interrupted Dr. Sun and asked Dr. Yuan directly.

"You!" I couldn't bear it anymore, I slammed the door and rushed out, I felt that I really did a stupid thing, I should have come first, what should I do now!

I had nowhere to vent my anger, but I didn't dare to throw Li Xiao in the hospital and go home by myself, so I sat by the flower bed outside the hospital gate and sulked myself. After sitting for about a quarter of an hour, Li Xiao came out. Zai Youzai looked like he was sure that I would not go first, I turned my head and ignored him, seeing him standing beside me, I just didn't stand up.

"Let's go." He sat down next to me and rubbed his shoulders against me: "Go home first, I'm so tired and a little hungry"

I glanced at him, stood up and walked forward, he followed me, and we drove home one after the other.

"What do you want for dinner?" Li Xiao asked after getting off the car.

"You think I still have an appetite?"

He touched his stomach, and said with great aggrievedness: "Forget it, I have no appetite."

I hate his attitude the most, and I don't know where he learned it from. It makes me feel stuck in my chest but I can't say it: "I don't care, you can figure it out"

"I am a patient, what can I want to eat"

"Let's eat the noodles, cook them a little bit badly, and you can digest them easily" I probably really owed him in my previous life, that's why I had to post it myself in such a bad mood, what a shame!

After buying food and returning home, I went to the kitchen to cook noodles and vegetables. Li Xiao was resting in the living room. When I put down the noodles, I heard a sound from the bathroom. I looked around, and Li Xiao who was sitting in the living room was gone. up.

I turned down the heat and knocked on the bathroom door: "Li Xiao?"

"It's okay, I'm going to the toilet, you go cook the noodles, I'll be fine soon"

"Okay, then call me if you have something to do." It was quite normal to hear his voice, since he wanted to be alone, then I wouldn't bother him.

When I finished cooking the noodles and brought them out, Li Xiao hadn't come out of the bathroom yet. I put the noodles on the table, ran to the bathroom and knocked on the door: "Li Xiao," I called him through the door.

There was no response from inside, so I wanted to open the door and go in to have a look, but when I turned the handle, he locked the door from the inside.

"Li Xiao, why did you lock the door?" I asked.

There was still no sound inside, maybe he was fainted inside: "Li Xiao!" I called him loudly, thinking whether to smash the door.

"I'm fine, you go away first." Li Xiao finally spoke.

"What's wrong with you? Let me come in and see," I said.

"I said it's fine! Go away!" Li Xiao's voice was a little higher, but his tone was obviously weak.

I had no choice but to go along with him first, frowning and said: "Well, call me if you have anything to do."

About 15 minutes later, Li Xiao came out. His face was frighteningly pale, and his feet were so sloppy. I went forward to help him, but he pushed him away.

"Is it very uncomfortable?" I asked, his appearance gave me a really bad feeling, and I was afraid that something would happen to him.

He staggered onto the couch, shielding his eyes with his arms.

"Do you want some water?" I sat down beside him: "Or do you want to go into the house and lie down for a while? You don't have any appetite for the cooked noodles now, do you? Forget it, let's put it away for now. What do you want to eat later?" I'll cook for you again" I tried to pull him up from the sofa: "Let's go, I'll help you into the room first"

"Leave me alone! Get out!" He shook off my hand and looked at me gloomyly: "It doesn't make any difference whether I eat or not, or lie down now!

I can understand his panic about the changes in his body now, but he shouldn't get angry like this. Since he has chosen a road full of thorns, he has to walk on his knees. I will definitely accompany him, but he can't be the first give up.

"Then don't eat it!" I stood up and threw the noodles on the table to the ground, the bowl fell to pieces, and the soup spilled everywhere.

Li Xiao looked at me in surprise, and I looked at him too, without hiding my anger.

"Didn't you swear that you would persevere? What's the matter with the current situation?! If you continue like this, let alone the second operation, you will have to play in a week."

He looked at me, the sadness and helplessness in his eyes could no longer be concealed. When I looked at him like this, I felt distressed and angry at the same time: "Who are you showing your temper to?! I don't understand, don't you Do you know your own situation? Now that you have made a decision, you should face it. I asked you if you were not feeling well. Why didn’t you tell me? Don’t you know that you are a patient now? It’s normal to need help from others, right? Well?!"

"Fang Can..." I yelled really loudly, and he was suddenly stunned by my scolding: "I..."

When he was about to continue talking, the phone rang. I took out the phone from my pocket and saw that it was Zhong Wen calling. It should be about the doctor I asked him to contact. I glared at Li Xiao and answered. Called: "Hi"

"Doctor, I've already contacted you. Tomorrow Qianqian happens to be going for a follow-up visit. I'll pick you up then and go to the doctor for a while."

Halfway through our quarrel, it's really inappropriate to talk about it now, but the doctor doesn't just give us a doctor, it's only possible that we make time for him, and it's impossible for him to make time for us, so I thought about it, or First agreed, "How many days tomorrow?"

"After four o'clock in the afternoon, when you arrive, send me your address, and I will pick you up."

"OK" I hung up the phone.

"You contacted the doctor again?" It was Li Xiao who spoke first. He looked at me and his tone softened a lot.

"It's a doctor of Chinese medicine. Do you still remember Zhong Wen? His wife had leukemia before, and she was in poor health after the bone marrow transplant. It was treated by this doctor. They also had a child. The doctor never advised his wife before. I’m pregnant, so I want to take you to see that doctor.” I explained to him, and suddenly thought that since I knew about Li Xiao’s illness, I’ve been dragging him to see different doctors without caring about him. Is the body able to bear it: "If...you don't want to watch it, it's okay, I'll give it to Zhong Wen..."

"No, I will go," he said, "Thank you, Xiaocan, my illness has always worried you so much." He looked at me with regret in his eyes.

I suddenly regretted that I lost my temper just now. He is a patient, and it is normal to have emotions, but I still care about him. I should control myself more. This situation will happen many times in the future. I should think about what to do. Cope with the situation.

"Tomorrow at around four o'clock in the afternoon, Zhong Wen will pick us up. This is the last time. You have to be hospitalized soon after it's over." I took the trash can, threw the spilled noodles into it, and then brought a rag from the kitchen, Wipe off the oil first, and then use the mop to mop the floor.

"Xiao Can, I'm sorry, I was in a bad temper just now"

"I threw the noodles, my temper is not worse than yours." I smiled: "You eat noodles quickly, eat as much as you can"

"Okay." He picked up the chopsticks and began to eat in small bites: "What about you, what do you eat?"

I almost mopped the floor, went to the kitchen and washed my hands: "I'm a normal person, are you still worried that I'm hungry, just wait until I order fried rice, don't worry"

When I was sleeping at night, I still couldn't help asking him: "You have been in the bathroom for so long this afternoon, are you really okay?"

I heard Li Xiao who was lying on the side sigh softly: "I think I should be serious again."

My heart skipped a beat, and I turned to look at him.

"I have been feeling abdominal pain and bloating, and it is difficult to defecate, accompanied by bloody stools"

I sat up from the bed and looked at Li Xiao's thin face in the dark. Even in such a dim light, I could still vaguely see his yellow complexion. His life was passing by quietly. Every day, I grabbed the blanket, My heart was sour: "No matter what the result is after seeing Chinese medicine tomorrow, you have to be hospitalized immediately to start treatment. I will call Dr. Sun and he will arrange for you to be admitted to the hospital." I leaned gently on his shoulder, feeling his body I can't imagine how my life will continue if this body becomes icy cold.

The next afternoon, Zhong Wen came to pick us up on time and sat in the car. To be honest, I didn’t have much hope. I had seen several doctors, especially that Dr. Yuan, and I always felt that there would be nothing too much. There is a big difference, but I never thought that sometimes the world is so wonderful, when you no longer expect anything, hope falls on us like this. After the old Chinese doctor diagnosed Li Xiao's pulse and listened to Dr. Yuan's treatment plan, I gave Li Xiao several prescriptions, which are used for now, after the first operation and before the final operation. The results will not be absolutely immediate, but they can properly adjust the damage caused by the cancer to the organs, and the body's conditioning after the first operation. We are preparing for the second operation, but the old Chinese medicine doctor also clearly told us that no matter how effective the medicine is, it can only play a supporting role. To what extent it can be used in the end depends on Li Xiao himself.

This is undoubtedly a strong life-saving straw for the current Li Xiao. Listening to the old Chinese doctor slowly saying this, I instantly have the urge to cry. Li Xiao is saved, and this is nothing to me. important.

I collided with Li Xiao's eyes, and found that he was as excited as me, his eyes were red, I smiled happily at him, and everything was said in silence.

Probably because we were too excited, the old Chinese doctor reminded us that this medicine is overbearing and does not cause small damage to the body. Even if he recovers this time, Li Xiao will have to dance with Chinese medicine for the rest of his life, slowly recuperating the disease caused by cancer. The body was damaged by medicine, and after this serious illness, Li Xiao's body will be much worse than before, unable to work normally, and can only be raised at home.

I saw that when the doctor was talking about these things, Li Xiao listened silently, but kept clenching his hands into fists. He knew he was very sad, but this was already the best result.

"It doesn't matter, it's better than anything else, doctor, don't you think so?" When I said this, I kept looking at Li Xiao, watching him very seriously, Li Xiao, you have to understand my heart.

The corners of his mouth raised a little, he looked at me deeply, sighed and said, "Yes, living...is better than anything else"