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I thought a lot but couldn't figure it out. All I could hear were cries, his, his mother's, and a little bit of my own.

Finally, he was dragged to the door of the house. If he didn't ask for it again, he might... really have no chance.

With my eyes closed and my legs softening, I also knelt down and crawled towards my brother with all my might. I used all my strength to tenaciously resist the person who was dragging me behind me. It was only six or seven feet away, but it seemed like... ...a world away.

I finally reached his hand, touched it and held it in the palm of my hand, crying and begging: "Uncle Zhou, Aunt Zhou, I beg you, please accept me, please? I have no father or mother since I was a child. I was raised and lived with my brother when I grew up. He gave me everything and happiness these years. Now... the dean is dead. I really have nowhere to go. I only have my brother , if I let go first, I will become nothing. I beg you, give him to me, I really... like him, whether you hate me or hit me, as long as you can relieve your anger You can beat me however you want, I just ask you to accept me, I will listen to you in the future, and I will be filial to you together with him..."

In the end, no matter how much you suffer, no matter how much you pray, it will be of no avail.

I was dragged out of the house mercilessly by his father, and the door closed with a bang.

In the dark night, I couldn't see the road ahead, and I couldn't see how I was in a mess. No matter how painful or uncomfortable I was, I couldn't cry out. I stood up from the cold ground and faced the closed road. The door of the room knelt down.

The breath was stuck in my chest, I couldn't breathe out, and I couldn't let it go down. My heart was tight and swollen as if it was tied to death by a rope.Cover your mouth with your hands and never make any noise. If you wake up the neighbors, then we are really finished.

Tears are like river water that has broken its embankment, rushing down his face and covering his hands one after another, and the sound of breaking out from his throat needs to be covered even if he covers it.

The room was very quiet, there was no roaring just now, nor was there any crying, everything seemed to have lost its voice, it was so quiet that people were terrified from the bottom of their hearts.

At the last second when he was dragged out of the door, he still couldn't bear it, so he turned his head and looked at him again, seeing the despair on his face, he was even more frightened.

He must not leave, and he must not be abandoned again, otherwise... it will really kill him, and he will kneel until the end, no matter what the outcome is.

Even if...he let go first for something else, then obey him and won't entangle him any more; if he doesn't let go, then he will never let go, and promise him a stable life.

What time is it now, I don't know at all.

I'm afraid the night is dark and windy, but it's just like this night.

The wind rises and the rain falls, why does the summer in the north also rain at night like the south?

There was rain and tears flowing down, all over his face.The rain was too heavy and the wind was blowing too hard. I was thoroughly drenched inside and out with three blows and two blows, and nothing was dry.

I knelt outside the door for most of the night.

I have always known that he is a dutiful son, but he is not stupid, he will not obey his parents' arrangements in everything.But now, at least at this moment, I really hope that he will be filial and obedient to his parents once.I have been an orphan since I was a child, without the kindness of my parents to raise me, and no one can control me. I can be as crazy as I want, anyway, I come and go all by myself.But he can't, he is the only child in the family, and he has placed too many hopes and expectations on him. He has to support his parents, take into account their parents' kindness, and be worthy of everything given by his parents. He wants to add to the family. Incense is to make parents happy and make their grandchildren happy.

Let him make his own choice. If he chooses to follow the mainstream life, that's okay, as long as he is happy, I really...as long as he is happy.

At this moment, I finally fully understood why he didn't blame Jin Chao, didn't blame him, and didn't hate him.

The kindness of my parents... is greater than the sky... I can't afford it in this life.

When I was abandoned by my parents, I was still young, and I didn't understand family affection at all.I wonder if my parents were reluctant to look at me more at the end?I grew up around the dean in my childhood, and I never realized what it means to be abandoned or lonely, but now this kind of personal experience is so clear and transparent.

I still remember what his mother said at the beginning, "It's God's favor to have such an obedient son for nothing", but it's a pity that it has become like this now.

I have been able to bear all the consequences on my own, but I am still very afraid that he will give up on me and abandon me. I don't want to have no one around me, and I don't want to be alone in the future.

The contradiction between the two that is difficult to choose deep in my heart makes me not know how to face and what to do after dawn.I dare not ask to be forgiven, let alone be accepted.

Although I am the person involved, I have absolutely no way of controlling the direction of the situation.

I stared at the closed door in front of me with despair in my heart.

18.

The faint morning light just started to come out, the rain at night soaked my clothes and wet my eyelashes, the low temperature wrapped me in ice cold, but my heart was burning like charcoal.

"Ka", the door in front of me was finally pulled open from inside, I raised my head and squinted my eyes to look inside.

Uncle Zhou had a sad and angry face, and my brother bowed his head and clenched his hands in a stubborn posture. They were all standing inside the door. Uncle Zhou pointed at me with one hand and himself with the other, and asked in a trembling voice, "Zhou Ping?" Si...you...do you want him? Or...you want...me and your mother?"

"I'm sorry..."

My brother doesn't need to say it too clearly, but we all know that he wants to disobey his parents who gave birth to him, disobey them, and be an unfilial son.

"Get out! You all get out of here!"

Uncle Zhou was so angry that he pushed my brother out of the door with all his strength. My legs were already numb and I couldn’t get up, and my whole body was shaking with cold. I fell on me, I couldn't bear the sudden impact, and I was taken down by him and hit the opposite corner of the wall. I lost consciousness immediately after hitting my head. He instinctively used his hands on the ground to borrow strength, but his palms There were several bloodstains from rubbing against the rough ground.

Kneeling for most of the night, and after such a big impact, I was so dizzy that I couldn't find things, north and south, so I pulled myself together to see that Uncle Zhou was gone by the door.

My brother got up from the ground, put his hands under my armpits, and leaned against the wall trying to help me stand up.I stretched out my hand to stop it, and the voice came out with difficulty, "Brother... I'm all wet, don't touch me, or your clothes will be soaked."

As if he didn't hear it, he still held his hands tightly under my armpits and helped me up. My legs were really numb and I didn't feel anything, let alone trying to use half of my strength.

"An Qing, are you okay?"

Seeing his worry, I forced a smile to reassure him, "I'm fine, but my legs are numb and I have no strength."

"Crack" was the sound of the door being pulled open again.Uncle Zhou threw out something, the suitcases and duffel bags we brought.They rolled on the ground, with water stains and mud on their faces.

Uncle Zhou never looked at me, he just stared at my brother, wanting to poke him to death with his eyes, "Zhou Pingsi, I, Zhou Gongqi, will pretend that I never gave birth to your son. Whether you live or die outside is your business. Ask me about you, I just say that my son has died outside. Don’t say that you are the son of my Zhou Gongqi, you are not worthy! Now you get out with him, as far away as possible, don’t come here to immoral It ruined the reputation of my Zhou family. As long as you keep clean, as long as I still have breath, you will never think of stepping into the gate of my Zhou family again in this lifetime!"

He is the same as me now, an orphan who has neither father nor mother.

It was night and we were on the train home.

I leaned on his shoulder and fell into a drowsy sleep. When I woke up, he handed me a cup of hot water.

"Have a drink."

"it is good."

He reached out to touch my brow and said worriedly, "I still have a fever."

"Take another antipyretic later, it will be fine, when is it now?"

He took out his mobile phone to check the time, and replied to me: "11:42 at night."

I put the cup on the table and leaned my head against the window. The train stopped at this station for a long time. I asked, "Brother, where are you?"

"Huainan area."

I continued to sleep with my eyes closed, the air I exhaled from my nose was hot, and my head was not feeling well because of the fever.

"I'll come as soon as I go." After the train started, he got up and walked out of his seat.

Looking at his back, my heart was blocked for a while, like being stabbed by a knife, and tears flowed out again.

Slowly regain some consciousness and recall our things during the day.

We walked out of the small courtyard of his house and found a slightly secluded place before dawn, and he took out my clean clothes and changed the wet ones for me.

I took a bus from the town to the county seat, then transferred from the county seat to the city, and when I arrived at the city's train station, I waited for him, and he bought a ticket to go home after two o'clock in the afternoon.

I found a restaurant near the station and bought something to fill my stomach.

"Sorry, I can't take you to see my former high school." He felt guilty.

"Nothing, in the future..."

I want to say that there is a chance to come again in the future, but will there be another chance?

We waited in the waiting room for the time to come. I was listless and uncomfortable. I knelt for most of the night, cried bitterly and was exposed to the rain. I rarely get sick and finally fell ill.

After everything was settled, when he came to shake my hand, he finally found out that I had a high fever.To take me to see a doctor, I can't tell, the time is coming, it's just a fever, wait until I get home tomorrow.He told me to wait for him in the waiting room, and then went out to buy medicine for me.

Now is the off-season and long-distance, so there are very few people taking the train at night. There are only more than 20 people scattered in the carriage we are sitting in, and most of them are lying on the seats and sleeping.

He has been out for a long time and has not come back.

I was worried and sent him a message, "Where are you? Are you coming back?"

I kept my mobile phone next to my pillow last night. After I was pushed out of the house, he picked it up and put it in his pocket, and gave it to me again this morning.

"Toilet, there is still a while."

I put my mobile phone in my pocket, closed my eyes and continued to sleep against the car window, listening to the sound of the wheels on the rails, which was the direction to go home.

Still worried about him, I got up and walked towards the toilet. I didn't know which one it was, and I didn't dare to knock on the door rashly. I sent him a message, "Open the door, I'm outside."

The toilet door was opened, I went in and closed the door, hugging him tightly.

"In front of me, don't wrong yourself, cry if you want, I will accompany you." I comforted softly.

The clothes on my shoulders were wet.

"I'm sorry for making you unable to return home, for making your family shattered, and...for making them no longer want you."

Whoever said that "a man does not flick his tears lightly, but a man has gold under his knees", it is just that he has never encountered a heart-wrenching thing that he can't ask for.

People are not grass and trees who can be ruthless, let alone a close relative.

At the beginning, there were silent tears, and slowly a whimper came from his shoulders. At this time, it was useless to say anything, no matter how nice and cured it was, it would not be as good as holding him tightly in his arms and giving him a hug that could relieve him. Put down all the precautions and cry out all the sad warm embrace.

After a long time, he walked away from my shoulder, stood up again, and faced me: "The words my father said hurt your heart, you...don't blame him."

"No, he's doing it for your own good." I stretched out my hand to tighten his crotch, and said, "Brother, I... I'm very conflicted, and I hope you will listen to them, follow their mainstream life, and reunite with them." Get back together, because they are your parents; but the other side is afraid that you really don't want me anymore, and that I will be alone in the future, and I still want to be with you...for the rest of my life. What should I do?"

"It's difficult to have both, I can only ask for what I want most, and there is no overnight feud between father and son. After a while, I will try to talk to them when they calm down. Maybe there is still a chance; but, If I let go, no matter for their sake or for my own reputation, then we really... have no future."

I put him back in my arms, stroked his back, and kissed his temples.

"An Qing...", he called me, I didn't answer him, I just hugged him a little tighter, and he also stretched out his arms to hug me, "Actually, when I was with you back then, I... I'm just worried about you, nothing else. Shangshu is right, I don't think about myself, I should think about you too, so... I... just stay with you because I want to make you feel at ease , At that time, I had no other feelings for you except brotherhood..."

In fact, I also know, after all, at that time he was still sad for the Jin Dynasty, how could he fall in love with me so quickly?Before he finished speaking, I didn't want to interrupt him, so I kept hugging him, waiting for him to speak slowly.

"Later, during the half month of my business trip, you took the initiative to call and send me messages every day, which made me rely on you. It's funny to think about it. You don't know, but I actually count the number of messages you send every day. There are a few messages. If there are fewer messages than the previous day, I will feel uncomfortable and want to be angry with you. When you call, I will take a long time to answer it on purpose to make you anxious. And... After every call, I will look at the call time and compare it with the last time. If it is longer, I will be inexplicably happy, but if it is less, I will be inexplicably disappointed. In fact, I also know that you can’t wait for a day Hold me in your arms, but for some reason, I have been so dependent on you, your phone calls, your messages, and your sweet words for more than ten days. In the dead of night, I just... ok Miss you, I will pick you up when I come back from a business trip, I was really shy when I saw you, I didn’t dare to look at you directly, I finally saw my heart clearly... I found that I already have feelings for you, now ...Now I can't leave you even more, last night I... was so scared, afraid that you would leave..."

It's rare to hear him speak his mind once.

Back home, there were still three days left for his vacation, and we locked ourselves at home, didn't go out, and didn't contact anyone.I tried to forget the family happiness I had a few days ago and what happened that night, but how can I just forget it if I forget it so deeply?

We went to the airport together to refund the return air tickets we bought earlier.

As soon as I got home, someone called him. He went straight into the room and closed the door. I knew it was from his home, so I turned around and walked out of the house, sitting in the corridor in a daze, waiting for him, waiting for his choice.

"An Qing, why are you sitting here?" He helped me stand up.

"Is it your home phone?"

"Well, it's my cousin."

"Oh," we walked home together and sat on the sofa, and I asked him again: "Then what did she say?" I really didn't need to ask.

"That's all, you know."

"Brother, won't they forgive you? They won't forgive me either?...Or...you listen to them, you...go back..." I said this nervously, and didn't dare to continue.

"What? You can't take it anymore? Want to separate from me?" He didn't answer, but asked me with a serious face.

Seeing his face turn sour, he quickly explained: "No... I didn't think that way,... I just can't bear to see you sandwiched between me and your family like this."

"An Qing, if you really can't take it anymore, then we'll separate! I can't bear to see you so unhappy all day long."

"No! Unless you make up your mind to let go, I will never abandon you first!"

"You want me to let go first for my own good, but I also want you to turn around and leave first for your own good, but in fact...we don't want to end, we all want to be together forever, right?"

He came over to hug me and said with difficulty: "We want to continue walking in the restricted area. We have to face not only these, but also a lot. But, I can't turn back, An Qing... I can't let go you."

"I'm sorry, I... I won't say those stupid things again, don't be angry, okay? I will try my best to give you what you want, and give you a stable life."

"An Qing, I... I knew that today would be here, let alone back then, but I don't regret it!"

Such a tender person, such a good love, but why are both of them so distressed that they cried?

The landlord said that the area we live in will be expropriated at the end of this month, and the demolition funds have already been paid. I heard that a university town is going to be built here, and we need to find a house to move out immediately.

I was very busy at the time, so I relieved him and told him not to worry about going to work. I went out to look for a house, and if there was a suitable one, I would take him there to see it.

But it is not so easy to find a suitable house in such a short period of time. Running around temporarily makes us forget about those troublesome things, and the exhaustion of the body temporarily replaces the overload of the heart.

Finally found a place, which is much closer to the east of the city where he works, and not far from the new campus of N University, just opposite to where we live now.

When he came back from work, I immediately took him to see the house. The house was allocated to the employees of the former ironworks factory. It was a little smaller than what we live in now, but the interior decoration looks much newer. The landlord and his wife both belong to the ironworks factory. Retired workers, they said they would go to Shandong to live with their sons, and they planned to sell the house at first, but their sons disagreed.The old couple thought that if the house is empty, it is also empty, and it is easy to get dusty. It is better to rent it out for people to live in, and to save some popularity and fireworks. The rent they open is not expensive, so we will pay it according to our previous rent.

On the day of moving, Shang Shu invited us a moving team from his housekeeping company.In fact, there are not many things, but it is inevitable that I feel a little bit reluctant.

After everything has been moved in the afternoon, my brother will be the host and invite the moving masters to dinner. I originally wanted to invite Shang Shu to come with me, but he has recently gone to Hong Kong.

He said we owed him the meal and he would definitely want to go back.

I am not used to moving to a new place, and he has always been in bed. He couldn’t sleep a few nights ago. I hugged him and stayed with him. I chatted with him whenever I thought of it, often until two or three o’clock in the morning. , he finally couldn't resist the drowsiness, and fell asleep for three or four hours in a daze.The next morning I got up to make breakfast and went to work, but I didn’t get up until the sun was up and I made up for the sleepiness of the night before.

19.

I was still dreaming that day, and I was woken up by the phone call. I dreamed of something, but I couldn't remember it when I woke up.I touched the phone to see the caller ID, and it was the head teacher calling again.

She first jokingly asked me if I still need an admission letter?In fact, she notified me a few days ago and told me to go to school to get the notice, but I was always too busy to find a house and move.

I knew she wouldn't call me again because of this, so I asked her what's the matter?

She just put away the joke, and said with the usual head teacher's attitude that there was something urgent, and a woman found her through the school.But in fact, that person was looking for me, so I had to go to the school to find out what was going on.

I asked who is that person?Ban Lao said that the person said that he was going to see me, so she can determine whether it is someone from me or not.The more I thought about it, the more confused I became, and I couldn't figure out who was looking for me.

When he was about to hang up, Mr. Ban started joking again and said, "Did your mother-in-law come here?"

Hearing what she said, I thought happily in my heart: "How can there be such an unscrupulous head teacher."

I hurried to Ban Lao's office.

In addition to Mr. Ban, there is indeed another woman with fair skin, exquisite facial features, and well-maintained skin. She looks in her early thirties, and her real age cannot be seen.I thought: "What kind of eyes does Mr. Ban have? Is there such a young mother-in-law?"

Ban Lao and I looked at each other two by two, and I was going to joke with her that she really couldn't stop worrying.Unexpectedly, that woman had already walked towards me.

"What's your... name?" she asked.

I looked at Mr. Ban suspiciously again, and Mr. Ban also had a suspicious expression on his face. I thought to myself, "Didn't Mr. Ban tell you everything?"

But still politely returned: "He Anqing."

"Are you 18 this year?" She asked again.

"Ah."

"Are you born on XX, XX, XXXX in the lunar calendar?" She asked again, as if she couldn't hold back her tears.

When I saw her crying, I recalled the sadness I had been suppressing in my heart recently, and quickly persuaded her, "What's wrong with you?"

It's okay if I don't ask, but when I asked, she burst into tears and cried, "I..."

Mr. Ban hurriedly helped her to sit on the chair she was sitting on just now, comforted her and said, "Comrade, if you have anything to do, just say it with confidence. You want me to contact He Anqing for you, not to talk to him. Do you want to say something? How can you talk when you patronize and cry? Don’t you think so?”

Mr. Ban also pushed a chair over and said to me, "Sit down first and wait slowly until she calms down."

I do what I say.

After a long time, the woman calmed down from crying, and said with a choked voice: "I saw an article in the newspaper last month, and your information was left under it. I don't know who I am looking for. Is it you, because the person I am looking for has the same pronunciation as your name, only one word difference. I have been struggling whether to come to you, afraid of finding the wrong person, but I still can’t help it I just came, found Teacher Pu and asked your birthday information, and then asked her to contact you."

"Then the person you are looking for is also called Heanqing"

"Not only the names are the same, but even the birthdays are the same. I thought it would be right. Let you come here. There are some things I want to clarify with you and understand." She finally wiped away her tears and asked me again: "You Have you ever used this name?" She wrote the three words "He Anqing" on the paper.

My forehead ached from shock. I had seen this handwriting before. Although it had become blurred on the yellowed paper, I could still clearly see the strokes and the edges and corners that were habitually drawn.

"Are you...?"

You don't need to ask, she probably already understood it just by looking at my facial expression.

"I am your biological mother, I am your mother, the person who gave birth to you but only hugged you for three days." She couldn't control herself at all, she stood up and hugged me in her arms.

It's over, I was shocked by this sudden news and my head went blank.

"An Qing, my child, I'm sorry for you, I'm sorry..." She cried so hard that she really felt deeply guilty for abandoning me back then.

In the whole office, nothing else could be heard except her crying, and I felt nothing but surprise and shock at the news.

I was stuffed in her chest and couldn't breathe. I wanted to push her away a little, but she was holding me too hard, and I couldn't push her away. Fortunately, Ban Lao came to help and pulled her back. On the chair, she tried her best to comfort the weeping man with all her life's words of comfort.

Watching her cry bitterly for another period of silence, Mr. Ban handed me some tissues, and then gave me a wink to pass them to the crying person.

I walked over and handed it to her, not knowing what to say, and falteringly persuaded: "Uh... well, don't blame yourself too much, don't be sad, I... don't blame you, really. Just... I just want...can you tell me why...why...don't...me?" It's just a few words, but it took me so much effort to say it.

It took a long time before her mood calmed down again, and she talked about those things in the past.

"When I went to Shanxi to go to university, I met your biological father not long after. I stayed with him for more than a year until he graduated. His job was assigned back to his hometown. He said he would wait for me. He picked me up after I graduated. But after he got home, he stopped contacting me. He would send me a letter after a long time, and gradually lost contact. But at that time, he was already pregnant with you Yes, I was only 20 years old that year. At that time, if you were unmarried and pregnant, if you were found out, the consequences would be very serious. Not only would it ruin your reputation, but the school would also expel me. Your grandparents can’t help it. I applied to the school to take a year off for me, and asked me to quietly give birth to you outside. I just gave birth to you three days ago, and I asked someone to find a family to send you there, but it was only two months. The woman suddenly became pregnant because of you, they were afraid of having you, so... they returned you, we can't keep you, if someone reports that I have a child out of wedlock, your grandfather will be expelled from the unit, and so will I Expelled from school. Therefore, we had no choice but to...abandon you. You are after my surname, and I also took the name. I still liked your biological father very much back then, and I can't forget him, so...I hope you grow up When you grow up, your character will be half like him and like to be quiet, and half like me like to draw. Therefore, I hope you will be "happy to be quiet and happy in Danqing" in the future, so I took the word "An Qing" as your name ...Although I continued to go back to school and had a family and children again, I never forgot that I still had a child living outside, I don't know whether it is life or death, An Qing...An Qing..."

As she spoke, she began to grieve again, "I'm sorry, I really had no choice but to keep you, I really couldn't. I... know, it's too late to say anything now, An Qing , I thought I would never see you again in this lifetime, but unexpectedly, I finally found you."

"Then what are your plans now?" I just asked casually, but it completely made her difficult.

"I..." She stopped talking.

I know the reason for this very well, "Now you have a family, a husband and children at home, if you...recognize me back, you are very clear about the consequences, so...you just You came to me because of guilt, but you didn't intend to take me back."

"An Qing..."

I knew she had her difficulties, so I quickly interrupted her and said, "Don't worry, I won't bother you, and I won't blame you. However, I also hope that you don't disturb my life. You go back and have a good time." Live your life, don't live in self-blame and guilt in the future, and forget what happened today. Because, I never blamed you, nor hated you, every sentence I said is the truth, and every word comes from the heart. "

"An Qing...you don't hate me, why don't you hate me, what child doesn't want to live with his biological parents, An Qing, how did your adoptive parents teach you so well?"

Hearing her talking about adoptive parents, I couldn't help smiling wryly, and said: "You are so confused, whose adoptive parents would tell the child they brought up that they picked him up from the side of the road; if I had adoptive parents, how could it be possible? I still use the name you chose; if I have adoptive parents, how can I know who you are from seeing the three characters "He Anqing" written by you? I have no adoptive parents at all, I am in an orphanage Growing up, I was an orphan since I was a child, an orphan without father and mother, an orphan without mother's love or father's love."

Didn't he say that besides shock and surprise, he didn't have any extra feelings?How can I say that when I was an orphan, and when I was about to be abandoned again, I couldn't help but feel so sad that I shed tears?It seems that too many things have happened recently, so I have to take some free time tomorrow, and I have to go to Xiangshan Temple with my brother to burn incense.

"An...An Qing...you grew up in an orphanage?"

I replied to her with a strong nasal voice: "Yes."

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry...I..."

I walked over, stretched out my hand to comfort her, and comforted her: "Don't be sad. Back then, the dean said, 'There were too many children who abandoned their children at that time, and there was always some helplessness that could not be controlled or expressed.' I understood it all, Really, I don't blame you. On the contrary, I want to thank you."

"An Qing, you don't blame me, but you want to thank me?"

"Of course, thank you for giving birth to me...I am living a very good life now and will be better in the future. Don't be sad."

"You are so sensible, but I... I'm sorry, I can't take you back."

"Oh, it doesn't matter, even if you tie me with a rope to go with you, I won't go. Well, now that the matter is over, I also know how I came to this world, and I also know that I I got such a beautiful name, and I finally know who I have inherited my handsome face. Don’t they all say that my son looks like my mother? It seems that it can’t be wrong.” He said softly, "Don't cry too, don't blame yourself too much, you have to take good care of your own body, I have nothing else to ask for, I am satisfied to see what my mother looks like in this life."

"An Qing...can you call me once? Just once... once, is that okay?"

"This... yes... sorry, I have never barked since I was a child, and... I can't bark."

"No, it's okay, anyway... I'm not worthy."

I couldn't speak, which disappointed her.

"Can I ask you a few questions?" She asked again, but her tone was erratic, she was afraid that I would not answer what she wanted to know.

"Of course." I said yes.

"Why did you change your name to qing? Where did you go to university? And... I... can I meet... the person you like?"

The last question really caught me off guard. I coughed hard to relieve the awkward atmosphere, and then replied: "Uh... I can answer the first two questions, but the latter one, I'm sorry, I made it up at the time, there is no That her existence is purely to mix up points."

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw that Ban Lao was wiping tears with him just now, but now he smiled strangely over there. "The word change was made by the dean. She said that a man should not be as soft and tender as grass. He had to 'live the world in peace and keep it from collapsing', so she changed the word Qing. For university, I filled in the Beijing , going to Beijing."

At this time, I saw the old man's face full of surprise.

After all, I finally pulled her out of her grief and guilt, and coaxed her to go back quickly. Before she left, she took out an envelope from her bag and stuffed it into my hand. I knew what was inside. At least the unit had arrived.” ten thousand".I do need money though, after all my brother spent a lot of money to bring me home, and we moved and re-purchased some small furniture, so we are already struggling.However, since I have planned not to have anything to do with her, I definitely can't ask for her money, and I politely refused.

After pushing back and forth several times, she took it back, wiped her tears, turned around and walked out, I followed behind her, and when she reached the corner of the stairs, I called her again: "Wait, I... I just want to say thank you for giving birth to me."

I went back to Ban Lao's office, and she gave me the admission letter from N University, and handed me an ordinary envelope by the way, Ban Lao said: "You have to accept this, this is an award from the school."

I took it over to thank her, and she asked curiously, "How did you lie to her that you were going to the capital to go to college?"

"Do you want to tell the truth? I really want to tell her that I stay in the local area, and there may be a day when there will be a "chaos". ' days are my favorite."

When I go home, I can buy some green vegetables and cook them for someone. It is also good to add some vitamins to him.

I suddenly fell in love with the word "Qing", it sounds so nice and beautiful - I like to be quiet, and I like Danqing.

The haze in my heart was also swept away.

20.

At night, holding my sweetheart in my arms, chatting nonsense with no reason or theme, I realized that there was something I didn't show him, so I turned over and got up, took out the notice from the desk drawer, and placed it in front of him.Open the envelope of the notification letter, take out the contents and hand them to him one by one, and say with a smile: "Look at this, hehehe~ The school gave me an award, and I'm your junior, you Ah, take care of me more."

Then she lay back down again, hugged him and started talking about something.

When it came to the topic of university, I decided to tell him about today's events.

"Brother, I didn't realize until now that there is a reason for my good grades in school. It's not just because of your good tutoring. The most important thing is the internal factor - genetic inheritance."

"What do you mean?" He turned to me and asked.

I just told him all about what happened during the day.

"Really, I don't blame her. I don't feel anything other than thanking her for giving birth to me. It doesn't matter anyway. She has her family now, she has her life, and if she really takes me back , not only I will be angry, but her happiness will also be gone, why bother." I lowered my head, rubbed the tip of my nose against his cheek, and said softly, "I don't want anything, you are enough."

"How many idiots are there in this world?"

"The two of us are one of them."

"It seems that your mother is really a talented and gentle and beautiful woman. 'Happy to be quiet, happy in Danqing' is such a beautiful name."

"It's a pity that I can't write the five characters of 'Five Tones' except for 'Gongshangjiao Zhengyu', let alone the attainments in Danqing. "Keep loyalty according to history" can be appropriate for me. However, I still like the name changed by the dean, so that I can do..." I held his face, and after lightly touching his lips with my lips , Said: "I can do 'promise you a lifetime of stability, and give you a lifetime of love'."

He avoided my kissing lips, and said shyly: "I remember when the dean said that she changed the word 'Qing' in your name to the current 'Qing' because she wanted you to 'live in the world safely and keep you safe'." "I must live in the collapse", it is estimated that she indirectly took the meaning of Du Zimei's "An De Guang Mansion with thousands of rooms, a shelter for the poor and happy people in the world, and the wind and rain are unmoved as a mountain". It seems that the dean and Mr. Zimei have the same heart for the world. Love the common people."

"Without her great love for the common people, how could there be He Anqing today?" Thinking of the dean, I feel a little uncomfortable. What happened recently is really difficult to control, and I can't help feeling a little sentimental.

Changing the subject, I talked about my going to college soon.Because I am an orphan, the tuition fees from elementary school to high school are all free, and I still have a stipend for the three years of high school.As for the university, you need to issue an orphan certificate, and you can take it to the school when you register, and a part of the tuition fee can be reduced.

In fact, I don’t want to talk about this topic. After all, when I go to college, I have to pay part of it myself. I gave him all the money the school rewarded me, because I want him to use it for our living expenses. Now we I think the days are really stretched.It was really hard for me to speak to him, and I thought about going back to the orphanage to find the new dean to help me find a way.

He knows me too well, I deliberately avoid things that I don't talk about