Just give birth to pickles

Li Feng's posture holding the phone was a little stiff, his eyes slightly skipped the calendar, and after searching for a while, he fixed on a certain date, and drew a blurred circle with his eyes.On May [-]nd, an ordinary day during the May Day holiday, he might encounter traffic jams when he went out, but he had to go out.

It was not the first time that the squad leader called. The high school reunion that he had been absent for three times seemed to be sending him the most sincere invitation.The meeting place is a tea house, the air is not very good, the sound of mahjong collision is higher than human voice.Li Feng arrived a bit late, missed lunch, and missed the opportunity to join the mahjong and poker tables, so he sat on the sofa with a few female classmates and drank a glass of bland lemonade that hadn't even melted the rock sugar.

Besides embarrassment is embarrassment.

The embarrassment settled down to the end, and the chat turned into nonsense without focus, without even warmth.Their indistinct gaze and the deliberate physical distance are like a collective cold and violent attack.

Chen Cheng was pushed out from the mahjong table in the corner. Those people would rather have three missing one than let him come out, as if he had to.Chen Cheng walked up to Li Feng and said to him, "Shall we go out and have a chat?"

"Let's talk here." Li Feng smiled and patted the place beside him.

Chen Cheng sat down, Li Feng saw the silver ring on his ring finger.Chen Cheng bumped him with his shoulder, and then said: "I have been married for four years, and I have not been able to contact you before. Otherwise, I must toast you at the banquet."

"Why are you speaking so solemnly?" Li Feng touched his nose with a smile, and then felt a lightness around him. Several students around stood up and walked to the mahjong table to look at it seriously.

Everyone present, including everyone in Class 2004 of Grade [-] who was not present, knew that Li Feng once liked Chen Cheng.One-sided, same-sex liking, which makes many people quite at a loss.After graduating from high school, Li Feng cut off contact with everyone. If the monitor hadn't persevered in questioning Li Feng's family, maybe they would never see Li Feng again.

Most people feel that this matter should have an end.

Chen Cheng clenched his hands tightly, and lowered his head unnaturally: "Li Feng, I'm sorry for what happened before, and my attitude towards you at that time."

"I don't blame you." Li Feng said, "I never blamed you."

Even at that time when Chen Cheng beat Li Feng to the ground, knelt down and punched Li Feng in the face, Li Feng didn't feel any resentment.He was just a little sad when Chen Cheng begged him to return to normal and stop saying anything about loving him.

Chen Cheng didn't believe that Li Feng was relieved. If he didn't hate anyone, he wouldn't forcibly cut off contact with everyone, and he wouldn't repeatedly ask his parents not to tell others his contact information.But he is not that stupid, and he will not ask the question like a stunned young man like he did when he was young, and he will not give up until he gets the answer. Anyway, now that Li Feng has arrived, this is the most important thing.After a moment of silence, Chen Cheng asked, "Li Feng, do you know where Zhang Yang is now?"

"He moved to England for a long time, and the whole family went there together." Li Feng's eyes darkened, he took a sip of water, and his voice was weak.

Chen Cheng patted Li Feng on the shoulder like a buddy, and continued to ask: "What does he do there, is he married?"

Li Feng looked at Chen Cheng, looked at his blue chin and nasolabial folds, he tried to change the subject, but his mind automatically answered: "I don't know, the only contact we have now is a greeting card he will send back in the New Year .”

Such an answer made him feel extremely uncomfortable, and he hadn't thought of Zhang Yang for a long time.He won't take the initiative to think of him, but he knows that if it is at a class reunion, someone will definitely ask, and this is what he tries to avoid.Li Feng and Zhang Yang have been together since they were young. From playing in open crotch pants to growing up, this kind of friendship can easily evolve into a family relationship. No one would have thought that they would develop into such a strange state.

Li Feng turned his face sideways and slowly closed his eyes, he knew he was losing his composure.

Ten years ago, when Zhang Yang first learned that Li Feng had someone he liked, he acted happier than Li Feng.Li Feng wrote a love letter to Chen Cheng. While he disliked Li Feng's hypocrisy, he stretched his neck to read the letter paper.

Li Feng covered the letter with his hands uncomfortably, Zhang Yang was a little upset, they had always had a direct relationship, the secrets were either buried without trace, or they were generous and honest without any grievances.Zhang Yang lost his temper and went directly to grab it.

He read a few lines, feeling sour, and originally planned to return it to Li Feng directly, but suddenly noticed the name written at the beginning of the letter.Zhang Yang's head froze, he flipped the letter paper over and over, but in fact his eyes were out of focus a long time ago, and his movements were just meaningless with anxiety.When he raised his head again, he saw Li Feng's eyes.

He understood clearly.

He knew Li Feng well, and he could see the expression of putting everything on the line.He knew that Li Feng was going to confess to him, but what was the content of his confession?Zhang Yang rejected this matter almost subconsciously.He told Li Feng not to speak.Li Feng stood up from the stool, leaning on the table firmly trying to break the matter.

Li Feng said: "I really like Chen Cheng..."

Zhang Yang patted the letter paper on the table, and the letter paper was spread lightly on the back of Li Feng's hand.Zhang Yang said viciously: "I told you to fucking stop talking!"

"But you're my fucking friend!" Li Feng was in a stalemate with him unwilling to admit defeat.

Zhang Yang's tone softened, and he said in a statement tone that was almost talking to himself: "You like men."

Li Feng nodded, he was a little incoherent: "It doesn't matter what other people think, you are my best friend..." He had to open his mouth to breathe through his mouth because of suffocation.

"I see," he said.

After that, Li Feng never saw him again.There was only a few weeks between when I heard that he was hospitalized and when I heard that he went abroad.Li Feng thought desperately at the time... Zhang Yang couldn't be seriously ill, right?This was undoubtedly worse news than Chen Cheng's rejection of him. He searched for news everywhere and spent a long time in a daze.

In the end, he received a New Year's card from Zhang Yang, with four words, Happy New Year.There is also a string of phone numbers in the lower right corner.

Of course Zhang Yang didn't get sick, his father was transferred to England, and the whole family moved there together.He didn't say goodbye to him.

Li Feng knew that Zhang Yang found him disgusting.We've been friends for so many years, and we've been together so many summers with no clothes on.It was understandable that he felt nauseous, nauseated.So even with the phone, he chose not to contact him anymore.

Seeing that he didn't answer, Chen Cheng sighed: "At that time, I fought with him, and both of them were sent to the hospital. Now I want to come..."

"Why did you fight?" Zhang Yang didn't seem to know him well.

"For you." Chen Cheng said, "the afternoon I beat you up, he came to me and overturned my desk. He asked me to apologize to you...I promised him that You apologized, I didn't expect it to be so many years late."

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May [-]rd, the last day of the May Day holiday.Li Feng dialed the string of numbers left by Zhang Yang on the greeting card.

They exchanged simple greetings, as if they were strangers who had never met.

At the end of the talk, Li Feng said: "Thank you, you are still protecting me in that situation."

"No matter what the situation is, I will stand by your side."

"Then why didn't you take the initiative to contact me for so many years? Are you still angry because I'm gay?"

"What I can't get over is that you like a guy, but that guy isn't me."

When Zhang Yang fell in love with Li Feng, he sometimes imagined that if he were a woman, Li Feng might be with him.The reason is obvious, they share the same interests, grew up together, and have such a good relationship.He lived with this assumption for many years, until at last he found that imagination was a deadly form of self-deception.

On the other end, Li Feng held the phone tightly and said, "I miss you."

The author has something to say:

tobunny

A very ordinary, simple story.

The 23rd has passed, and the birthday congratulations are a bit late, but I still wish you a happy birthday W.