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everything is meaningless

all i have to do is two things

deceive

and find the right opportunity to die

Although I am nothing, and no one will miss me after death, I still have to die.

Even if I can't kill myself with other people's hands, I will kill myself when the right opportunity comes.

He was coaxed and lied to, and was beaten a few times by the angry King of Heroes, and suffered some injuries before he got 5 bottles of rejuvenating medicine.

This is far from enough, but there is no way to get more, otherwise, Gilgamesh will definitely kill me on the spot.

that's not okay

It would be too early for me to die now.

"These are enough." So I handed the medicine to the incubator for safekeeping, and forced a smile, "Thank you, King of Heroes."

He sneered coldly and disdainfully, and then disappeared.

let him go

I never thought of borrowing him for anything.

"In short, Berserker's master and servant don't need to worry too much. After Matou Kariya handles his family affairs, Mr. Tohsaka, you can ask him to use the command spell to make Berserker exit."

"Then there is Lancer's master and slave. I will go to their stronghold to find them tonight, and I will take care of their affairs by the daytime of the sixth day at the latest."

"Assassin's master is probably about to die due to the exhaustion of vitality, so there is no need to worry about this group."

"After that, there will be Saber and Rider's master and slave. Rider's master is Mr. Kenneth's student. I will find time to communicate with him. If I can't make them leave the scene, I will try my best to persuade them to leave Fuyuki, and it is best to return to the Clock Tower .”

"Actually, according to my thinking, the Saber group is the most difficult one to solve."

"Let's not mention that cyborg, Mrs. Irisviel, is essentially the container of the Holy Grail. The master of Saber alone, the man named Emiya Kiritsugu, who is good at modern technological weapons, may be very powerful to Tohsaka. Sir, your old-fashioned and stubborn magic family has caused a lot of trouble, and coupled with the Knight King who is determined to use the Holy Grail to restore the country, I am afraid that this battle will not be easy for us to win."

"However, as long as there is that piece of information, as long as you tell him "The Holy Grail has been polluted, it will fulfill people's wishes in a completely distorted form", no matter how much Emiya Kiritsugu wants to win, he will For the justice in my heart, I ordered Saber to destroy the Holy Grail."

"In other words, as long as everything is done according to my ideas, we will win this battle."

"As for the unstoppable coming of the Holy Grail, and the "evil" that can destroy Fuyuki in an instant, I will leave this matter to the incubator."

"After all, devouring and then utilizing energy is what it is good at."

After explaining everything, I was ready to get up and go back to the house.

Two small hands grabbed my skirt, two immature little girls looked up at me, one looked flustered, the other was expressionless

Finally, Rin spoke first.

"Sister Huo" she rarely called me so obediently, "Didn't you agree to tell us a story when you brought Sakura back?"

Sakura tightly gripped the hem of my skirt.

I was silent for a while, then opened their hands, squatted down, and smiled softly at them

"I'm sorry, Rin, and Sakura. There are too many things, next time, please forgive me, okay?"

"Can't we just talk about today?" Rin looked like he was about to cry. "Sakura and I can wait for you in your room, no matter how late your work is, we will wait for you. So, that story , can you say it today?"

I don't know if these two children are aware of something, but I can't promise.

I can only push them away: "Sorry, forgive me."

I hurriedly turned and ran away, not daring to look at them again.

I am really an incompetent and despicable adult.

I locked the door, squatted on the ground, and covered my face in sadness.

Actually, I don't want to die either.

Who doesn't want to live well?

However, my fate tells me that I absolutely cannot survive.

I must die.

But why, am I so sad?

I want to cry

I want to cry

I want to cry

[A long time ago, in a small remote town, on a cold winter night, a child was born.

Her mother was extremely tired, but she still tried to open her eyes, wanting to take a look at her daughter who was born before the full moon.

It was her daughter, a piece of flesh that had fallen from her body.

She was a tiny one, just popped out of the belly, desperately trying to come to this world to live, and she was still dirty.

But how lovely she is.

The small one did not eat enough nutrition in the womb, and it is still born before term.

She was so good in the womb, she didn't move much, it never made her sad.

but

Why doesn't she cry?

Every baby will cry when it comes into this world

How can she not cry?

Mom with tears in her eyes struggling to ask the doctor

"Doctor" mother asked, "My baby, my baby, why doesn't she cry?"

"Did mother's body hurt her, and she was too tired to cry?"

"Doctor, talk to me, why isn't my baby crying?"

doctor look away

"My condolences, your child, you are not breathing."

mother crying loudly

"Why is she not breathing? A few hours ago, she was still moving and playing with me in my stomach. How could she not be breathing?"

"My child, my baby" she was about to collapse, "Why is she not breathing? Please save her!"

I don't know if he heard his mother's cry, but the child moved his head, struggled, and finally let out a thin cry like a kitten.

"My boy! My boy!"

The child survived in the end

however

When she grew up, she regretted

The tragedy of her life began with this cry. 】