mortal death

"You are not the end of love, but the driving force of love. I dedicate this love to the flowers on the roadside, to the bright sunlight flickering in the glass, to the red dome of the church. Because of you, I fell in love This world." - Hermann Hesse? "Song of Ticino"

National Day is worthy of being National Day, but Yuda is also worthy of being Yuda. During the holidays, there are no extra seats in the library.

I spent three days in the library, during which Lin Haoran ran especially diligently.

I said, even though we are together, there is no need to get tired of being together every day like boys and girls, after all, they are all boys.

After hearing what I said, Lin Haoran felt aggrieved and embarrassed.

He accused me: "Why can't you treat all love equally?"

I said, "I don't have one."

Lin Haoran pointed at my chin: "You said not to fall in love with men and women."

I said: "If I discriminate, I can't be with you."

Lin Haoran said again: "Then you are treating them differently."

Before I answered, Lin Haoran added it himself: "It's over, I fell out of favor, I fell out of favor, I fell out of favor before I even started to be favored."

I said: "Then be good, wash up tonight and wait for me on the bed."

Lin Haoran was so choked by me that he couldn't speak, he said: "You have changed. You were not like this before."

I said, "Isn't that what?"

Lin Haoran couldn't tell why, but he changed his way again, leaned into my ear, and whispered, "Then I'll wait for you at night."

I nodded indifferently.

In fact, I was very upset.

His few words reorganized in my mind.Swap the order, it sounds harsh.

Although I said that I don't discriminate against any gender in love, I have also said that I am polysexual, but I know that I don't feel it now, yes, to everyone.I did some research and thought I might be asexual.

But when I determined that I was prone to depression, I realized that one of the characteristics of this disease is decreased sex/desire.

I figured it out.

So that's what I said to Lin Haoran.

I know that love must have sex.

But when I faced Lin Haoran, I couldn't say anything.I couldn't ignore his love.

Unexpectedly, Lin Haoran really came to see me at night.From the moment he entered the door, I smelled the smell of premeditation, which should be the aroma of red roses.

Lin Haoran stood in front of me, I looked at his face carefully, and found that his eyebrows seemed to be a little more protruding than ordinary people, and the eyebrows were naturally peaked, so they were a little more heroic.

Lin Haoran put his schoolbag on my desk and turned around.

I looked at him blankly and said, "You are really here."

Lin Haoran frowned, his eyes widened, and I felt that his eyes were also very beautiful, but in fact his eyes were just ordinary eyes.

I involuntarily stretched out my hand to touch the corner of his brow.

Before touching it, Lin Haoran held his hand.

In the next second, his breath was overwhelming, a kiss with the smell of roses.

I don't know why I think of roses, maybe it's because I've seen that the flower language of roses is affectionate love.

My heart was beating wildly, but there was no sound on my face.

I could feel his love on his lips.The tip of his tongue slid across my lips, biting my lower lip lightly, I could feel his arms around my shoulders, one hand slid down to my waist, and gently rested on my waist.

There was a tingling sensation on the lower lip.I looked up at him, and suddenly fell into his eyes, dark and dark eyes.

He left my lips, but the ambiguous breath did not weaken at all.

I heard his deep voice: "Open your mouth."

Like a person seduced by a goblin, I opened my mouth following his words.

He looked down again, and our eyes were so close that I could barely see his face.

His kiss landed on the corner of my eye, and I blinked almost reflexively.

His voice came over slowly like a cello: "Aren't you closing your eyes?"

I then closed my eyes.

"Just relax, I feel like I'm kissing a dead man."

I don't know if this sentence is comforting me, but I became more nervous after hearing it, and I opened my mouth and said, "Lin Haoran, I don't seem to feel anything..." After I finished speaking, I quietly opened one eye to look at him , I can see the corners of his slightly raised mouth.

I was afraid that he would be angry, so I added: "It's not that I don't feel for you, my heart is beating very fast, but my body doesn't respond at all." After I finished speaking, I opened my eyes again, I really wanted to see what Lin Haoran was doing reacted.

Lin Haoran was stunned for a second, then raised his eyebrows and asked me: "You don't believe me?"

I shook my head, feeling his arms tightened even more.The hand that was originally on the shoulder moved up and pressed the back of my head.

I rushed towards him under force, and this time I didn't forget to close my eyes.

I also put my arms around him.His shoulders are broad.

I feel that he is sucking/sucking my lips, I am almost indulging in his gentle kiss, and imitating his way to find his lips.The tip of the two lips met, they were startled at first, and then slowly began to accept each other, the tip of his tongue rolled over, there was no grass growing here, but under its nourishment, the place was full of fragrance.

This kiss lasted for a while, I bit Lin Haoran's lips, and he left in pain.

After a while of breathing, I saw what kind of state the two of us were in: the shoulders of his clothes had been crumpled into pleats by me.

Lin Haoran let go of my waist, only to realize that I was being lifted up by him at some point.

I wiped the corners of my mouth and moved a little away from Lin Haoran.

I think he has the potential to be a kissing maniac.

Lin Haoran leaned over again, I thought he wanted to kiss again, so I immediately covered my mouth.

But Lin Haoran just gently touched my cheek with his hand and said, "Let's go to the movies together tomorrow."

What can I say?

I just nodded.

When I went to sleep at night, my heartbeat was still very abnormal, "thump bang bang—" strong and firm, I haven't heard my own heartbeat at night for a long time.

Such passionate heartbeats.

The corner of the mouth seemed to still have the temperature of Lin Haoran, and the smell of roses.

I don't dislike his kisses - I even kind of like them.I can feel that I am gradually becoming active in the process of passive acceptance.

I mutter to myself in the dark night, the night has become my best curtain, I can hear the pleasant sound of the curtain being blown by the wind, accompanied by my heartbeat, I slowly hear clearly, I am chanting There are always only three words: Lin, Hao, Ran.

These three words are like a petal falling on top of fine wine, like a sweet cream cake, like a butterfly lingering in the flowers, they touch my heart one after another, blending sound and color, and finally turned into a song Call it your favorite tune.

Like, I like him.

I suddenly felt that everything became clear, and the gloomy cello was suddenly broken by the jumping drums, replaced by a bright rhythm.

In an instant, tens of thousands of butterflies fluttered and flew.