[Bei Tang] Poison

silent.At first he would hug me and talk to himself, but later he just hugged me tightly, grabbed my hand, and stared at me.

A look is a whole day.

I asked him to get something to eat, but he actually went out and pretended to eat and came back.I became more and more manic.I didn't want him to look like he was waiting to die. I asked him if he wanted me to guard his body after he died.

He just came to his senses and started looking for something to eat again.Also started talking to me.

I just said that you beggars are not very smart, and you really can't turn around.

The walls had been written all over from those first days, and we couldn't communicate anymore.He said it was not safe outside, and he would not let me go out, and he rarely went out himself.

But it doesn't matter, watching him talking to himself, or watching him nagging at me, is enough to last many days.

He often talks to me, and his eyes become bright. I don't know what he is talking about.Just looking at his excited look, I find it very interesting.

If it can continue like this, it's not bad.I can't ask for more.I am not qualified for that.

But I always feel that it shouldn't be. Although I am extremely willing to be with him like this, I am already dead.

Thinking about it now, probably the medicine Tianyi taught me was for refining poisonous people, and I don't know why my physique is special, so I was made like this.

Ordinary poisonous people can still make strange noises and know pain, but they don't have the memory of the past.I, on the contrary, have no senses of any kind, but retain all memories.

Being too quiet can also make people feel restless. I can only look at Gu Zhuo to calm down.

And with it comes an increasingly inescapable sense of guilt.

He's alive and well, and he shouldn't be wasting his time on me.I really wanted to ask him where Yin Ting and the others were, but I was afraid that he would be unhappy.Obviously he took me alone, I can easily think of other people's thoughts.

I'm dead, I should be buried.

Instead of being a poisonous person and dragging him down like now.

But I can't let him kill me again, I dare not say, and he will never agree.

Only by myself.

It was only the first day that he took away the dagger that was left on me.There is only one bed, one low table, and two stools in the room.

I racked my brains and couldn't think of any way to successfully kill myself under such barren conditions.

Probably because I was too involved in thinking, he often looked at me with a frown, and when I was looking around, he suddenly hugged me, pressed him on the bed, and then bowed his head to kiss me.

But I can't feel anything.

Can't feel anything.

I reached out to touch his forehead, but there was no touch.I miss his breath in the past, his smell, the vigorous vitality on his body when he was sweating profusely.

He is warm.It must be now.

And I have changed from slightly cold body temperature to ice cold.

I didn't think he'd feel that comfortable kissing me, but he was kissing me without looking at me.Same as before.I couldn't bear to avoid him.

Although I can't feel anything.

I grew more and more afraid of the time after dark because I didn't have to sleep anymore.

The world, which was already colorless, turned into complete darkness without light. In addition, I have no sense of smell, hearing, or touch. I just feel that the night is too long.

It's too hard to get through.

But I dare not move, Gu Zhuo always sleeps with me in his arms, I can't move, he will wake up if I move.

Originally, he was not in good spirits. If he lacked sleep, he would only get sick more easily.

But this is already June, and the sun is less in the mountains, and the sun sets early, so the night is too long for me.

Only when the faint light appeared slightly in the early morning, I desperately opened my eyes wide to see Gu Zhuo's outline gradually distinguishable, would I breathe a sigh of relief.

丐

I threw away listening to the wind and snow.

I didn't feel any discomfort on my body, maybe because it had no effect on Ye Ling when it was stuck.Every time I saw those two silver needles, I felt an indescribable resentment.

I can't wait to go out immediately, take everyone in Junshan, and kill Tianyi Sect.If it wasn't for them, maybe I would have cured Ye Ling by listening to the wind and snow.

I ended up just throwing them away too.

I can't go out, Du Ming and Ting Ting must think I'm crazy, they will let me kill Ye Ling.Because a few days ago, I suddenly felt a little stiff in my limbs, maybe it was infected with corpse poison.

I didn't let Yeling know.

He couldn't hear or see anyway, so I hugged him so that his face was facing the wall when I slept at night, and then I sneaked out to look for herbs in the mountains.

I know he must not dare to move.He will be afraid of waking me up, because he has always been used to me like this.

In order not to be discovered by Du Ming and the others, I boiled medicine next to the water and drank it every night, and then worked hard to clean up the surrounding area.It makes me sleep less every day.

Fortunately, when I was in Wanhua and was taken by Du Ming for treatment, I read their medical books when I was free, because my mother was infected with corpse poison and disappeared. I still had a glimmer of hope and carefully read how to remove Corpse poison.

It can be used on myself, God is not too cruel to me.

I can't die.

I once thought to myself, maybe let Yeling bite me and turn me into a poisonous person, but I can't.

Not to mention that he won't agree, if both of us become poisonous people, we will only be discovered and killed in the end.Maybe there is no chance of being buried in a grave.

I can only live like this, I have to protect him.

In the past few days, I have completely adapted to the smell of corpses on his body. At first, I still wanted to vomit in a physiological reaction. Fortunately, he couldn't hear or smell, so I pretended to have nothing on the surface and fooled it.

In fact, he is quite cute now.

What I said, he just looked at me blankly, feeling like a small animal.

Later he learned to smile at me.

I touched his face and felt that it was much stiffer than before, and so was his body.

Sure enough, becoming a poisonous person is different from before. He also woke up after dying. I silently thought that his body is in a corpse state now.

He had some trouble laughing, and it got annoying after trying a lot.

But seeing me talking to him, I still can't help moving the corners of my mouth.

In fact, he just pursed his lips together.

He has never made such an expression before, but it is very interesting to watch it now.There is a feeling of being wronged and cute.So I went over and kissed him.

He always turned his head back slightly to hide, but he just habitually hid halfway and then stopped, and then turned his head back to look at me kissing him.

Today I still hug him from behind and let him lie down against the wall.

About two quarters of an hour later, I slowly withdrew my hand around his waist, backed away a little, and then got up to go to the mountains.Before I walked two steps away, I heard a crackling sound on the bed, which scared me so much that I stopped and didn't dare to move.

After a long time, I heard a familiar voice: ... Zhuo.

I was stupid, I stepped forward two steps, touched his hand in the dark, and immediately hugged him in my arms.I was so excited that I couldn't speak: can you speak?You, talk about it again.

But I remembered that he couldn't hear, and I was discouraged again.

His cold hand touched my face, and I heard his familiar voice that I haven't heard for a long time, with a slightly changed tone after not speaking for a long time, he was saying my name.

I hugged him tightly.

I said: I am here.

I knew he couldn't hear it, but I answered him over and over again: I am here.

I used to despair, I thought I would never see him again.But God gave me a chance, even though he became a poisonous person, even though he lost his temperature, I still saw him.

I also used to think that I was content, as long as I saw him, I thought I would never hear his voice again.But I heard it anyway.

In the wet and cold summer wind in June in Heilongma, in this dark night without a ray of light.

I heard him say my name over and over again.

If I have an afterlife, I would like to kowtow and kowtow to death in front of the Buddha, to thank God for treating me so kindly.

唐

In the end, I felt that maybe I had a mutation and became Nata.I thought a little foolishly, if I could go to Shuyan, maybe I could live a normal life if I joined the Nata tribe.

But... I joined the Nata tribe, the Jianghu must not tolerate me and Gu Zhuo together.

It doesn't matter, I still prefer to be with Gu Zhuo just like this.

The five senses are slowly recovering.The touch on my body was very slight, but it was only thanks to the darkness and quietness of the night that I realized that Gu Zhuo got up to leave.

I was scared at the time, I didn't know where he was going.

I thought he didn't want me anymore.So I was so scared that I cried and called him, but he came back and hugged me.I was very sad at the time, I thought he was really going to sneak away.I cry but have no tears.Probably this is the first time I cry after.The last time was when the master died.

However, there were no tears. After all, I was dead, and there were no tears to shed.

Crying and crying and finally fell asleep.

When I woke up, I realized that I could sleep, and I slept very comfortably.When I woke up, I saw Gu Zhuo staring at me, his eyes were red.

I was startled and asked him what was wrong.Then I heard him say he didn't sleep all night.It took me a while to realize that my hearing had also recovered.

I hurriedly told him that it was like asking for credit, but he looked at me complaining: You were talking in your sleep last night!Always call me, if you call me, I will say yes, if you call me, I will say yes, otherwise why do you think I am not sleeping!

I'm a little embarrassed: this...