[Bei Tang] Poison

I haven't talked in my sleep for many years. You can ignore it, but why don't you sleep with me in the middle of the night?

He looked at me sadly: ...not because I want to hear you talk.

I was dumb, thought for a while, then rolled into his arms, and I said: "Then go to sleep now, I don't seem to have slept enough anyway."

He was not polite, immediately hugged me tightly, and threatened me: If you dare to talk in your sleep, try and see if I don't punish you.

I think this situation is a bit strange. When he became so fierce, I can't figure it out.I couldn't figure it out, so I just fell asleep.

Woke up again in the middle of the night, and this time there was an extra oil lamp in the room that was burning weakly.

As soon as he entered the room after eating, he happily took a towel to wipe my face and hands, and even helped me comb my hair.

I wonder: where is this going to play?

He: It’s not easy to go out during the day. It’s troublesome to be seen. It’s hot in the daytime in June, so we go out to play in the mountains at night.

Me: Will there be wolves, insects, tigers and leopards?

He: You have poisonous evil spirits on your body, they dare not come.

I immediately looked back at him: what about you?

Him: I'll just follow you.

Me: I mean, since I have poisonous evil spirit in me, wouldn't you be affected? !

He blinked and avoided my gaze: I'm fine...

I dragged him over: You can't be fine, tell me honestly, is there any discomfort in your body?

He still turned his face away: I said it's okay...

I was in a hurry: Gu Zhuo!you!

He waved my hand away: I said nothing! !

I was stunned.

He was also stunned, and then he took a step back.

So silent.

Finally he said: You...you better not go out tonight, you are not familiar with the outside situation, so don't run around.

I subconsciously asked him: what about you?

He still doesn't look at me: I'll be alone for a while.

I said: good.

He hesitated for a moment, but moved away and went out. I heard the sound of him moving a heavy object to block the door.

He stood at the door for a long time.

Then, he left.

I turned off the light and sat there for a long time, but he didn't come back.

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After cooking the herbs and drinking them, I went back immediately. I ran back to the tree house but dared not go up.

I actually yelled at him.

Really guilty, there is no way.If he knew that I ran out to cook medicine every night, he would definitely think about how to leave me again.This guy has ten thousand tricks, he can trick me into tricks, and let me fall into his tricks.So I had no choice but to not tell him.

Sit under the treehouse until dawn.

I feel a little sad, there are things I can't tell him, and there are things he doesn't want to tell me.We've gotten to this point, and there's nothing I can do about it.

After removing the heavy objects blocking the door, I walked in lightly, but he was still lying on the bed with his back to me, without moving.

Probably still angry, I thought so, and got entangled.

I'm afraid I won't be able to fool him this time, but I really don't want to tell him the truth, so should I apologize, or should I just hug him and kiss him and go crazy with alcohol?

Sitting on the edge of the bed, before I could figure out how to speak, he turned around.

Seeing his tired face, I realized that he probably didn't sleep at all last night, but had been waiting for me to come back.My heart was immediately filled with guilt.

Before he could speak, he put his arms around me.

I hug him too.

But he said first: I'm sorry.

I'm stupid: No, no, it's my fault, I shouldn't get angry at you.

He didn't say anything, but let me go.He looked at me calmly, and I wondered if I could almost get this out of the way with a kiss, and he spoke again.

He said: Let's separate.

I was really stupid: what nonsense are you talking about! ...No, are you really angry?My fault, I was wrong, okay, I shouldn't have yelled at you, don't be angry with me...

He sat up and looked at me with lifeless eyes.

I think I'm a little scared, and I immediately think about whether I have done anything else that would make him angry...

He said: "I found out today that I've got my sense of smell back.

I don't get it: so...?

He: You are like this, and I stayed here for half a month with this kind of me?

I still don't understand, I nodded.

He closed his eyes and bowed his head, looking indescribably sad.

I still don't understand what he meant. My head is full of what he said just now that he wants to separate from me. I think I really can't bear it.

It was hard for me to be with him again, and it was hard for me to let go of all the unhappiness in the past. Even God helped us, making him a poisonous person instead of a corpse that didn't know anything.

Even gave him back all his senses so he could talk again.It turned out that he said he wanted to separate from me?

Play me for fun?

I slammed my fist on the bed and made a loud bang.

He was startled by me and looked at me blankly.

I said: You want to separate again?Okay, compared to the previous kind of leaving without saying goodbye, it is still an improvement, at least you know you want to tell me.

He opened his mouth, wanting to stop talking.

I said: You also know what your situation is now, explain why you are leaving, if you don’t understand, don’t even think about it!

He finally stopped hiding and looked at me with endless sadness in his eyes, which made my heart ache.Just now I was angrily thinking about what kind of trouble he was making, but now I panicked. Could it be some unexpected situation? !

He said: I can smell the stench of corpses in this room.

Dead body stinks, I actually forgot.

He said: It all comes from me, this smell.

I can't answer him.

He said: I didn't have a sense of smell before. Although I knew that I had become a poisonous person, I forgot that poisonous people have such a rancid smell.

I can't deny him.

He said: Why do you still think that I am still alive, why do you still kiss me and hug me?You... don't you feel sick?

Me: I don't think so.

His expression was the saddest I've ever seen.If he was still alive, he must have cried at this moment.

Him: But I think it's disgusting.

Me: I don't think so.

He finally yelled at me: I can't stand this, the smell of rotting corpses, I can't stand me being like this and you can still be the same as before!I can't stand it!Why can you bear it? !Are you stupid? !

The expression on his face was unspeakable anger and sadness: I think I am disgusting!I think I'm sick of being held by you!I feel like I was kissed by you, I wish I could die!

His body was trembling: If only I hadn't woken up, if only I... really died.

He looked at me: I shouldn't have gone to the Five Poisons, I should go back to the castle honestly, and just die in the castle honestly.

He covered his eyes: let's separate, I beg you.

I was a little dazed, and after sniffing hard, I realized that the smell of corpses in the air was really strong.

Staying with him like this every day, I can't even smell the smell of corpses anymore, it's really amazing.Is my nose broken too?Thinking of this, I reached out to touch my nose.

I closed the door and pulled back the vines that had been blocking the windows, and the room was brighter again.

I used a table to top the door.

I walked back to the bed, took off my shoes and sat on the bed, seeing that he was still looking at me sadly.

He stretched out his hand and pulled him down forcibly. When he was hugged in his arms, he struggled in a rare way. He was about to get up, and he shouted, "Enough is enough! Why don't you feel sick!"

I'm not happy anymore.

Pressing him hard, pressing against him, first kissed fiercely for a while.

He hides, but unfortunately he can't hide, haha.

I finished the kiss with satisfaction, looked at his almost collapsed expression, and talked to him in his ear.

I said: because I love you.

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I regretted that I should have lied to him. At that time, I felt that I was going to die. I hadn't seen him for a long time. I felt that it was too hard to bear to die alone in a place he didn't know.

I also sincerely regret liking him. If I didn't have someone I like, I probably wouldn't suffer like this.

And now, I only regret that I didn't just stay in the castle and wait to die.

I underestimated the extent of Gu Zhuo's madness.

He is bored.

He tugged at the hem of the soft jacket, smiled, and gently tied me up.Then he warned me blankly, if I said that I wanted to separate again, he would come to kiss me and have sex with me.

I was really angry this time, so I lay down with my back to him and kept silent.

However, the strong stench of corpses spreading in the room couldn't be avoided no matter what, it was stinging me every moment, telling me the cruel reality.

I don't want him to die.

And I have corpse poison on me.

What he did was tantamount to drinking poison to quench thirst.

I know he is reluctant to part with me, but it doesn't mean that I can continue to enjoy his kindness to me with peace of mind.Every moment with him was killing him.What's the difference between this and me killing him with my own hands?

For the past two days, he still blocked the door every night. I don't know where he went. I didn't talk to him again, but he was determined not to listen to me, so he just fought coldly for a few days.

In the end he couldn't bear it anymore, went out for a while in the evening, and came back to shake me awake, holding a bowl of decoction in his hand: I have always taken medicine.

I looked at his face, still a little haggard, I remembered that since I became conscious, he would go out quietly every night in the middle of the night.

He still pretended that I didn't know, but I thought he was used to getting up at night, and he always just fell asleep in a daze.Thinking back to the half month when I was unconscious, he must have taken the medicine for a long time.

I really don't know what to say.

I am very depressed.

I always think of him as a person who is easy to get hotheaded and ignore the consequences, but I don't know how much thought and preparation he has made.

I wanted to hug him, but couldn't reach out.I