[Bei Tang] Poison

With a deadly poison on him, I couldn't allow myself to touch him.But he kept looking at me, his eyes clearly accusing me of abandoning him for my behavior.

I could only look at him and tell him: We can't do this.

His expression immediately turned cold: You must be so angry with me, don't you?

Me: I'm not trying to anger you, I can't accept that I killed you, do you understand?

He became angry: How could I die if I was taking medicine?I'm fine!

There is no mirror in this room, otherwise I would really like to show him how haggard he looks now, as if recovering from a serious illness.

I said: You have a bad complexion and you understand that you are not feeling well. Why do you deceive yourself like this?

He stopped talking and looked at me blankly.

Probably in his opinion, everything he did was for me, in order to be with me, but I said to separate.

It's like living up to his hard work.

He stood there, staring at me for a while, still not speaking.I thought about persuading him that he would understand after all, even if I said we wanted to separate, it didn't mean that we would never get in touch with each other.

I told him: I thought about it, in a situation like mine, it is better to go to Nata, after all, Tang Shuyan is also a member of our Tang Sect, although... although she may not have a good temper now...

He interrupted me: Have you figured out where to go?

My train of thought was interrupted by him, I was slightly startled, and nodded: Well, Nata should be safer after all...

I saw that he was still holding the medicine bowl, so I said: "Drink your medicine quickly, the medicine is cold and hurts your body...

Before he finished speaking, he turned around and slammed the medicine bowl in his hand into the corner of the room, splashing the medicine juice, and he just turned his back to me without saying a word.

I heard his heavy breathing.

He cried.

丐

He never said a word to me again.

He forbade me to stay in the same room with him again.

Opposite the tree house is an abandoned wooden cabin of a hunter, which is not as secluded as the tree house.I sat in front of the house, staring at the barely visible window of the treehouse, but I couldn't see him once all day long.

He said that day that the most important thing that poisonous people have in common with ordinary people is that they can be killed.He said if I didn't go, he would kill himself.

Thinking about it carefully, I am a very incompetent person.

Our gang of beggars has always said one thing, one thing, and another thing.

If you really care about it, I really can't say enough about him.

I just know that I don't want to leave him, even if what he said makes sense.

I can't stand not seeing him.

Probably I have never liked anyone, I care too much about him.In the past, Yin Ting also told me that between Yeling and I, it happened to be the first time we talked about feelings.

That's why it's so vulnerable.

I sneaked to the tree house the first night, but he found me, and I had to run away.That's right, after all, he is a former killer, so it's really hard not to be discovered by him.

But I couldn't help but want to see him.

So I hung around under the tree house all day every day. I didn't even want to go back to sleep in the wooden house. I slept next to his door every night.I want to see him, but I dare not. If I go, he will be angry.

Eventually he couldn't stand me getting so sick of it, and he opened the door and stared at me while I crouched under the treehouse.

I showed him a look of grievance.

Unexpectedly, he immediately asked: Have you taken any medicine these days?

Omg, I forgot.

Seeing my embarrassed expression, he just stared at me like that, which made me feel guilty.I immediately said: If you see me, I will go to drink medicine immediately.

His expression was even more displeased: Are you threatening me?

How dare I, the conscience of heaven and earth.I said it very sincerely: I just want to see you.

He was so angry that his eyebrows were wrinkled: no.

I'm also angry: If it doesn't work, then I won't drink it!

He stopped talking.

I'm really angry, he's always being so unreasonable these days.I don't know why, but I get angry easily.

I obviously have been taking medicine all the time, and I have no physical problems. The signs of poisoning that were stiff in my limbs at the beginning are gone, and my spirit is still good, and I don’t feel weak or sleepy.

I am fine!

But he always treats me as a child, as if I never have a brain in doing things, he treats me as a nonsense.

He looked at me for a long time, and finally said: If you don't take the medicine, you will never see me again in this life.

Then slam the door hard.

I don't know what to say, I can't communicate with him.

I wasted so much effort and thought of countermeasures, and I was afraid that he would find out and worry about me. I went out in the middle of the night to gather herbs and decoct medicines in the mountains, and I often had to avoid poisonous snakes and beasts that suddenly appeared.

I would risk everything just to be by his side.

He treats me like this?

Let go?

Not even a chance to plead.

What on earth am I working so hard for? !Yes, I just cling to him because I'm sick in my head!It's because I'm sick in my head that I treat him so well!What about him?What did he take my sincerity for?

He just thinks I'm fooling around.

I feel tired and overwhelmed.I used to be very firm, and I felt that he was sincere to me, so I liked to follow him and cling to him.

But I never thought about what he liked about me.

I'm just a mediocre person.

And whenever he encounters any problem, he always leaves me far away like this.

You said you didn't want to drag me down, but actually?Does he want to take these opportunities to really separate from me?

He's always like this so I'm tired.

I am also afraid.

I don't know if it's right to stick with it any longer.

I'm afraid it's just wishful thinking on my part.But I like him.I don't know why, but I just like him.I like it so much that I can't see others, and I don't care what kind of person I am in the eyes of others.

There is only him in my world.

I am like a vine tightly wrapped around his tree, wrapped around his roots buried in the soil, I want to share his life.

If he didn't exist, I would just fall to the ground alone.

Slowly wither and die.

Everything I do is for the three words "Tang Yeling".

唐

I want to die immediately.

This is the eighth day of regaining consciousness. Yesterday, because of anger, he kicked Gu Zhuo out.

Good thing I got him out, otherwise he would be dead by now.

I gradually feel hungry.When you see him, you will feel a pain in your stomach, accompanied by a slight twitching sensation, and saliva will secrete from your mouth.

The roots of the teeth are sour.

Fortunately, I can still control my hands and feet.

I really never thought that one day I would become like this.This kind of situation was only seen when I went to Fenghua Valley with my master when I was young. There is a valley next to Pingding Village, and there are also people from Tianyi Sect.

They took a corpse with them.It is said that the corpse will eat human flesh and drink human blood.

Same as me now.

I have to go quickly, and Nata can't tolerate me like this. The difference between me and Nata is already very big, and they can't help me.Fortunately, Gu Zhuo was angry before, so I didn't go to become Nata.Otherwise, I might have been killed by now.

I mean, with Gu Zhuo, if I die in the hands of Nata, he will definitely turn the world upside down.

I need to take care of my life by myself, and I also need to hide it from Gu Zhuo.

I really don't know when I angered God, and I have to hide everything from Gu Zhuo, but I know that what he is most displeased with is that I have something to hide from him.

I am very depressed.

Probably the saddest thing in this world is that you have a lover who is more important than life, but you have to die.

This house has only one small window and one door, but Gu Zhuo would squat in front of the wooden house opposite every day until late at night.I stood at the door every night, and when he closed the door and went back to sleep, I planned to slip away, but I never heard the sound of him closing the door.

The first day when I came out lightly, I saw him at the door, looking like he was about to open the door to come in.

He panicked when he saw me.

I immediately realized that he wanted to visit me secretly, so I lost my temper and scolded him.

I've never been so mean to him.

He was flustered and guilty, and I was more guilty than him.He left silently and dejectedly, and I felt more uncomfortable than him.

But I know he won't stop there, I'm afraid he'll always be waiting at the door.I'm afraid he finds out that I'm leaving.I waited every night to hear the sound of his closing the door, but I couldn't wait.

That's how we spend it.

But I feel that I don't have much time, and the hunger in my stomach is getting stronger and stronger. I'm afraid I won't be able to bear it when I see him again.

He was probably within forty feet of me, and all I could do was stand here, thinking about him helplessly.Thinking of him over and over again, thinking of our only little past.

But it is the past that can no longer be had.

I tried to solve my hunger in other ways. At first, I tried to eat the green vines in front of the window, but found that I couldn't swallow it, and I was still hungry after I forcibly ate it.

Then I tried to use my claws to knock down the birds that occasionally flew by. Although I resisted a bit, I still swallowed them alive. Maybe the corpse general likes this kind of bloody feeling.It's a pity that it still didn't work. Instead, I was so disgusted that I retched for a long time.

Perhaps the corpse general is only interested in the flesh and blood of the living, I thought feebly.

I started to search around the house, but I don't know where Gu Zhuo left my Qing.

I need to get this shit out of my life fast.I can't wait until the next time I see Gu Zhuo, and then I can't help but pounce on him to eat his flesh and drink his blood.

I couldn't find it, so I dropped a low stool, smashed the wood apart, and took a sharper one to use as a dagger, which was okay.

Can't wait any longer.

丐

I have seriously thought about it.

I think no matter what he becomes, I like him.

I like him.

I love him.

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