[Bei Tang] Poison

I am willing to be afraid of being killed by him.

His tongue was licking and sucking on my neck, cold and sticky.I remembered that I did the same to him that day, and I thought he must have been very sad at that time, I couldn't imagine his mood at that time.

Can't even imagine it now.

He gnawed my flesh and blood in his mouth, but cried again, struggled in pain, and bit me again.

I always make him sad.As now, I made him sad again.

The place where he had bitten was bitterly cold, and then spread throughout the body.

I have been poisoned.

It's too bad, it's useless to take medicine like this, but anyway, it's better to decoct medicine later.

After all, I want to stay with him longer.

But I gradually lost my strength, and finally he raised his head slowly, and I saw blood on his lips and face, which reminded me of when he came to Luoyang to save me, when he cried very sadly.

Du Ming said that he cried because he felt sorry for me.

The little memory we have, I have been familiar with it over and over again to the extent that I can remember the circuit of every palm print.

We only have this memory.

I wiped his mouth with my remaining strength.He stared at me blankly, he must be full, but he was a little cute.

I suddenly thought, maybe he didn't want me to see him because he knew he would become what he is now.

I am not happy.

But there is no way, if I follow my logic, maybe I will bleed him every day, and if I don’t have enough to eat, I can cut the meat and give it to him.He must disagree.

I called him: Yeling?

He stared at me in a daze, before he raised his hand and wiped his lips.He saw the blood on his hands and the mess on my body.He opened his mouth, and big tears rolled down.

I wanted to hug him from the beginning, but the poison had already begun to take hold.

I only had enough strength to raise my hand slightly and tug at the corner of his clothes.

Poisonous tears, this is the first time I have seen it.What an asshole I am, how sad I am, how can I make him, who is already a poisonous person, shed tears.

I regret it to death.

I deserved to be scolded by him and disgusted by him, I deserved to miss him and still not be able to see him, I really didn't go out with my brain, I should have listened to him in the first place.

Otherwise, it may not necessarily fall into the current situation.

There was a loud noise in his room just now, and I rushed in without even thinking about it. The ground was full of wood chips, some were long and sharp, probably it was his countermeasure.

His strategy is to let him die and I live.

He always does.

He left all the good things to me, death is also his, sadness is also his, and being sad alone is also his.

How can I not be angry.

I just want to be with him, and nothing is enough.

But the fact is often that he is sad, or I make him sad, he is sad, he cries, and I can do nothing.

For the first time, I felt unworthy.

He is so good, he gives me all the good things, and I will only make him sad in different ways.

I do not deserve.

唐

He's in a little better spirits.Very uncle directed me to move him to the bed, and then looked at me very unclely, I had to consciously roll into his arms.

He hugged me very tightly.

His chin rested on my forehead, and I saw the bite marks on his neck, which were dark red and horrifying, and a piece of bone was exposed on his shoulder that I gnawed.

I feel like I'm going to be driven crazy by him, or by myself, sooner or later.

He hugged me, lay on his side, and buried his head in my neck.His voice was muffled: I'm sorry.

I just feel like I can hardly think anymore.

There is probably only the word "Gu Zhuo" in this world, which often makes me gnash my teeth. How many times he has ruined my plans is almost innumerable.

When teasing him, he took it seriously, but when talking to him seriously, he thought I was farting.

After thinking about it wildly, I still feel that the castle owner did a really good job of cheating their beggar gang back then, which won my heart.Now I can't wait to push him on the bed and give him a few slaps.

Gua Waha prodded.

Thinking of this, I was about to get up and beat him, but when I turned around, I saw him looking at me with his arms on his pillow.

Eyes focused and gentle.

... I silently turned my head and lay back.

I still want to beat him up.

Suddenly he said: How likely do you think I will become a poisonous person?

I was taken aback.

I have thought about this question a long time ago, but I thought that once an ordinary person is bitten by a poisonous person, he will inevitably become a poisonous person, because the situation of Luo Dao and Fenghuagu has always been like this.As soon as he said it, I suddenly felt scared, what if he didn't become a poisonous person, but he always thought that he had only a dead end.

I looked at him silently, not knowing how to answer.If he didn't become a poisonous person, if he didn't wake up again, he couldn't look at me and talk to me like this, if he was going to become a cold corpse.

I am afraid.

He leaned over, lay on top of me, grabbed my wrist and stared at me, I could feel the heat from his body draining away bit by bit.

He stared at me with a low voice: I have always wanted to say a lot to you.

I stared at him too, his eyes were dark and bright, and there was only my shadow in them.I watched in rapt attention, and slowly replied to him: Then why don't you talk about it on weekdays?

Him: Too late.I'm always too late.

Me: You say it now, it’s always too late.

He laughed, and he said: Let me think about it, where to start.

He laughed very tiredly, but he couldn't hide his gentleness. He just told me slowly about the past, rubbing his cold fingers against my ears and touching my face from time to time.

My head was so messed up that I could hardly listen to what he had to say.

I just couldn't stop thinking, if he really died, if he didn't become a poisonous person.

I can not let it go.

He was still talking, "I prepared a gift for your birthday, but unfortunately I was fooled by Ting Ting..."

I said: Why do you want to die in front of me?

He looked at me.

I said: Why do you want me to watch you die?

He bowed his head and kissed me, and I avoided it.

I said: Why do you...

He bit my shoulder and licked the poison coming out of my body, with obsessive satisfaction in his eyes.

He said: If I die, are you dead or alive?

He said: You can die yourself and let me live alone, but I can't.

He said: I am dead, I wish you could die with me.

He touched my lips and smiled proudly: I will not leave you to others.

丐

I'm not great at all, don't think too well of me.

I am not a nice person.

I just looked at him like this, looking at him reluctantly, wondering if he would still be alive like this if I died.

Yes, I'm a scumbag.

I'm shameless, I'm mean, I just don't want to give him up to someone else.So I hugged him tightly, kissed him, and told him over and over again that I love him, and I want him to have no way to stay in this world after I die.

What I'm most afraid of is that he becomes someone else's.

Even if he is a poisonous person now, don't tell me that no one will like him and accept him like this.

Yes, I am being unreasonable.

I want him to still be mine after I die.

I hugged him, stuck it in his ear and told him over and over again: If you dare to like others, I will come back to you after I die.

I said: Do you know how much I love you?Whoever you dare to like, I will turn into a ghost and kill him.

I pinched his chin and made him look at me: whether you are dead or alive, you are mine, and even if I die, you are still mine.

I said: If I don't wake up...

He interrupted me: How dare you?

I laughed: I dare not, I am reluctant.

I leaned over to kiss him, my hand on his body, inch by inch, stroking his skin.

It was colder than before when his body was cold, and the temperature was very weak. In the hot and humid environment of Heilong at the end of June, he felt very comfortable to the touch.

I said: I dare not.

I turned on his lips: every inch of your body is mine, how dare I not wake up?

He still had a cold voice: If you dare not wake up, I dare to like others, and I will not die with you, let you wait alone... He was lying on his back, letting me mess around, but his voice was trembling.

I was dumbfounded, leaning on top of him to look at him: I dare you to be so angry with me before, was it all just pretending?

He stared at me for a long time, and suddenly a tear fell from the corner of his eye, which passed through his skin and wet his hair, and then disappeared.He still tried to be brave, and said to me with a slightly choked voice: If you dare...

I hugged him tightly: I dare not.

He: ... We have agreed in the past, you wait for me, I will come soon.

Me: OK, I'll wait for you.

Him: If you don't wait for me...

Me: I don't wait who are you waiting for?You are the only one I can wait for. I am waiting for you. If you don't come, I won't leave.

He cried very subduedly, probably because the poisonous man didn't have to breathe, only tears flowed out continuously.Tears without temperature.He said: No, you still have to wake up.

I'm good.

Him: You are not allowed to die.

I'm good.

Him: You are very annoying, you know that.

I know.

Him: It's all your fault.

Me: It's all my fault.

He glared at me.

He said: You shut up.

I laughed: Then let me say the last sentence, I will wait for you in the apricot forest in Xuanyuan Terrace.A few days ago, I dug out my jars of peach blossom wine that had been buried for 11 years, so this year is No. 12.

I hugged him tightly and looked at him: You haven't had a cup of wine with me yet.

唐

I asked him to look at me, but he closed his eyes, saying it was too scary to scare me.He murmured, not knowing what he was talking about, and then his voice became smaller and weaker.

I curled up in his arms, and I felt like my whole body was shaking.

I am afraid.

I've never been so scared.

I use the little warmth left on my body to try to warm