scorching cold

Tao Zhuo froze on the spot for a long time, a big car drove past on the road ahead with a "woo", and then he took a step back with a red head and a flushed face, as if he had been woken up.

But it didn't work, Li Suihan still clutched his wrist, not letting him move.

"You," Tao Zhuo stared at Li Suihan, his tone raised, his voice sounded like he was being stepped on, he cleared his throat, and glared at Li Suihan again, "Do you not understand what I'm talking about at all?" ah!"

"I understand what you mean, Tao Zhuo," Li Suihan frowned slightly, with complicated emotions in his eyes, "but there are some things that I don't know how to explain to you..."

"Then you still say that I kissed you secretly?" Tao Zhuo threw his arm back.

"Oh," Li Suihan raised his brows immediately, holding Tao Zhuo tightly, like two bored children, "Don't you have any?"

"No!" Tao Zhuo almost jumped up, very angry, "Which time did you say that?!"

Li Suihan looked at him for a while, couldn't help curling the corner of his mouth and laughing.

If Tao Zhuo's life trajectory up to his current position is flattened out and made into a long ruler with time as the scale, then from junior high school to adolescence, high school, university, his most presumptuous and self-indulgent years, every stage is different. There are traces left by Li Suihan, who played different roles and kept coming and going in Tao Zhuo's youth.

And if it is divided by events, Tao Zhuo was most impressed by two things after meeting Li Suihan again in his freshman year and his sophomore and junior years——

The first thing is that An Yi and Wen Ye, two living gays, have confirmed their love relationship. Tao Zhuo, as a complete witness, watched them change from being ambiguous in secret to shameless on the surface. .

The second thing is that Li Suihan graduated from graduate school, but he did not leave the school. The house he lived in before was withdrawn, and he rented a small building near the school again. Under the guidance of Wen Ye and a few friends, he is gradually preparing for independence.

"Meimei is quite honest," Tao Zhuo and An Yi murmured to the head of the department in private, "I didn't say that Li Suihan was being held back to give her a few more years of work."

"It's okay to divide people. Li Suihan is not a part-time worker, so it is impossible to follow her all the time." An Yi said, "If she brings Li Suihan out, the market will be so big, and everyone will be hooked with everyone. No loss."

"Besides, Li Suihan and the others have done a lot of work for her in the past three years," An Yi curled her lips again, "She is, after all, 'the master leads the door'."

Then he changed the subject, and started asking Tao Zhuo what he planned to do after graduation, whether he would pursue a major, and asked him if he was single until now, didn't he want to have a relationship?

Tao Zhuo couldn't answer the first question, just like when he was preparing to turn into an art student in high school, his goal and fighting spirit could only be a short distance, and he never had a big ambition.

Tao Zhen also graduated two years ago. Tao Zhuo watched Tao Zhen run around at home, watched Li Suihan steadily arrange his own rhythm at school, and was inspired occasionally—it was just a moment. After half a day of class, he and An Yi went back to the dormitory for a lie down, the bed was still the most comfortable in the whole world.

As for the issue of falling in love, Tao Zhuo started to feel at a loss from the pure "don't want to talk, not interested" in his freshman year.

He found that he was really not interested, not because he hadn't met any interested girls, but because he seemed to have no interest in the whole group of girls.

Tao Zhuo spent a whole class on ancient prose appreciation thinking. He rested his cheeks and looked at the couples in the classroom. Looking at the girls giggling together, aren’t they youthful and beautiful?

pretty good.

Do you want to know and develop?

No.

Which teenager doesn't think about spring, and he can barely use it in high school. A boy who comes late to his senses can feel at ease, and he is still like this halfway through college. There must be problems with his body and mind.

Tao Zhuo must have thought about whether he is also gay?

As Qi Ya said, "infected"?

After years of being with An Yi and the others, his consciousness and ideas are quietly changing. Sometimes he feels that being gay is not a big problem. It is indeed much more comfortable with men than with girls, and no one Because being gay is missing arms and legs.

But who is he going to love?

This question pointed to a certain person's name from afar, Tao Zhuo instinctively refused to think about it, and hastily pressed it to the bottom of his heart.

"Dating love is not as satisfying as online dating, is it?" He prevaricates An Yi, "I can't finish my leisurely mind when I talk all the time."

"You just follow your heart." An Yi smiled, "It's a good pairing with Li Suihan, I think he's panicking for him all day by himself, hey Wen Ye told me that he went to see him that morning , Li Suihan just woke up, and his crotch is bulging, and you and your male god are shaking hands..."

"Get out of here!" Tao Zhuo was so deaf, he wrapped An Yi into the pillow.

Although Tao Zhuo began to be confused about his persistence and not wanting to fall in love, he felt that after Li Suihan broke up with Li Yang, such a person was very good.

This idea is selfish as hell, he doesn't want to analyze the psychology of "not being nice to others", so he can only force himself to explain in secret: this is convenient for them not wanting to go to school or go home, but also want a place to relax and relax When he was standing, he could go to Li Suihan's small building anytime and anywhere.

"Li Suihan is a person who is very interested in life and pays great attention to the quality of life." Wen Ye once commented on Li Suihan, "referred to as Guimao."

Tao Zhuo used to be able to sense the quality of life from Li Suihan's clothes.

But after he was able to go in and out of Li Suihan's private space from time to time, he realized how appropriate the word "turtle hair" was.

Li Suihan's house is rented near the school, firstly because it is convenient and secondly because it is cheap.When Tao Zhuo went there for the first time, he thought to himself that the rented houses near the school did not know what it would be like to be hounded by groups of students.

Unexpectedly, the environment after entering the door is very good, the orientation is good, and the decoration is also fashionable. The first floor is spacious and bright, with all kinds of furniture and electrical appliances, TV, bathroom and kitchen are also tidy, and there are green plants on the balcony.

"Sit casually, I'm not clean." Li Suihan took out a pack of disposable slippers and handed them out. "There's something to drink in the refrigerator, hang your coat in the closet, and order takeaway when you're hungry. Whoever finishes eating will clean up the trash. Pee on the toilet seat."

"I'm fine." Tao Zhuo solemnly declared while holding up a disposable slipper.

"It's okay, if you accidentally urinate and wipe it off secretly, I won't know." Li Suihan smiled and flicked his face.

In addition to keeping the house clean and bright, Li Suihan's bed sheets, quilts, towels, etc. are all high-quality goods, and they look good, making him feel comfortable after seeing them.

"This is already a home." Tao Zhuo said to Wen Ye when he returned.

"His own house is much more exaggerated than this small building," Yuan Ye said, "There are no pleats on the sofa blanket, and it makes people afraid to go to it."

Tao Zhuo always forgets that Li Suihan's home is in Jinshi, not only his own home, but also left a complete house for his eldest grandson when his grandfather passed away.

"That's right, why doesn't he go home to live?" An Yi asked, "No matter how hard it is to rent a house, it can't compare to being at home."

"He's a bit unhappy with his family." Wen Ye didn't say much else, he just said concisely, "The old couple are more traditional."

An Yi understood it as soon as he heard it, and Tao Zhuo could probably guess it, probably because of the unhappiness caused by coming out of the closet at that time.

The family atmosphere of Tao Zhuo's family made him wonder what parents could do to make things difficult for their children. The parents were so angry that they just waited for the children to subdue them.

He didn't worry much about Li Suihan's relationship with his family, and his mind went straight to the other direction—Li Yang went back to get his things half a year after breaking up with Li Suihan, and Li Suihan asked him to leave the key, they must be living together For a long time, there was no day or night.

Later, when he went to Li Suihan's small building, whether Tao Zhuo went to open the refrigerator to get drinks, play games with An Yi on the sofa, or go to the bathroom to lift the toilet seat to pee, he would always think of Li Yang and Li Suihan living together.

He looked down at the disposable slippers on his feet. The two big big toes were turned up, pushing up the thin upper with two small bumps.

Li Yang must have his own slippers in Li Suihan's rented house.

Tao Zhuo pouted secretly.

Maybe it's still a sweet couple's style.

The first time Tao Zhuo stayed at Li Suihan's place was New Year's Day in the last semester of his junior year.

Mom and Dad are nothing but this, Tao Zhen went to celebrate the New Year with Tao Qiwei, Wen Ye and An Yi didn't book a room, and Tao Zhuo made fun of him and beat him up as a partner, and finally the three of them went to the supermarket to buy a bunch of ball dumplings, meat and vegetables, and went to Li Suihan had hot pot there.

"You guys robbed the supermarket, right?" Li Suihan was speechless looking at a table of materials, "You can eat until February [-]."

"It's not good until the dragon looks up." Wen Ye sat down on the sofa carelessly, turned on the TV and played games, "I'm exhausted, my wife is here to choose a character."

"Who washes the vegetables?" Li Suihan asked them, leaning against the wall with his arms crossed, as he had a headache.

The three pretended to be deaf, yelling and grabbing the handle.

"Okay, then who will wash the dishes?" Li Suihan asked again.

Tao Zhuo immediately stood up, pushed An Yi down, kicked him, and said enthusiastically to Li Suihan, "Let's go, let's go wash the vegetables!"

Even Tao Zhuo, who has countless good memories, felt warm and comfortable to him that night.

In the living room, Wen Ye and An Yi were chattering and chattering, and in the kitchen he and Li Suihan were also chatting and laughing, loading dishes and washing vegetables, the sound of running water mixed with the sound of boiling at the bottom of the pot, the window was covered with a thin The mist, and the fine snow like salt grains falling outside.

"Your equipment is too complete." Tao Zhuo messily washed a basket of mushrooms, and then grabbed the apron tied around Li Suihan's waist, "Can you cook?"

"Only one kind." Li Suihan slapped his hands away, washed a small cucumber for Tao Zhuo and asked him to eat next to him, and brought his share over to wash.

"What?" Tao Zhuo took the little cucumber, wanting to make an evil joke, but he was inexplicably embarrassed to open his mouth when facing Li Suihan, so he could only eat it honestly.

"Claypot rice." Li Suihan said.

"Oh, it's really rice?" Tao Zhuo smiled.

"Ah, what do you think?" Li Suihan's sweater cuffs were rolled up to his forearms, and he looked warm and tidy. He was washing potatoes with drooping eyes and arguing with Tao Zhuo. Chef?"

Tao Zhuo himself doesn’t even know claypot rice, but Li Suihan has always had an unreasonable sense of omnipotence in his heart. He knows that there are things he can’t know, and it’s not that he has never touched “can’t” at all, but it seems to have tried a circle , In the end, I only mastered a half-cooked claypot rice. The method is hard to say, easy and troublesome, so I think he is very cute.

"Not really," Tao Zhuo eagerly asked, "Then what can you do now?"

"Come here uninvited and want to order food? It's such a good thing." Li Suihan teased him.

Tao Zhuo conveniently put a half-eaten cucumber on Li Suihan's mouth, "Here, I'll let you eat it, it's so crispy."

Tao Zhuo knew that this move was wrong almost as soon as he stretched out his hand, at least in front of a gay, single and handsome gay, it seemed special, special with ulterior motives.

Maybe there is really a little bit of trouble...

Realizing this, Tao Zhuo's scalp went numb in an instant, and he almost relived the painting book incident back then.

Li Suihan was almost smacked in the face by him, stepped back slightly, followed the cucumber and saw Tao Zhuo's face, the corners of his mouth curled into a smile that was not a smile, he looked away and said nothing.

Tao Zhuo curled up his toes, staring at the cucumber, he just wanted to die.

There are marks from his bite on it!One of the teeth seems to be a little crooked!

"There's a casserole in the cabinet under there, take it out." Li Suihan didn't pick up the cucumber stubble, he turned on the faucet, drained a pot of vegetables, and just pointed without looking at it.

"Oh, good." Tao Zhuo hurriedly stuffed the cucumber back into his mouth and chewed it a few times, not daring to talk any more, squatting in front of the cabinet with red ears to take out the pot.