Continuation of "Gone with the Wind"

Chapter 40 Accident

"I love him, and it has nothing to do with him." Scarlett had never heard the original sentence of Goethe, but at this moment she came up with such a sentence without a teacher, and her heart was finally relaxed, although it was accompanied by other things that could not be ignored. "He doesn't love me, but he has everything to do with me. God, please, I know I'm not worthy, but without his love, my soul is gone. What should I do?" She still didn't Resisting the pain of unrequited love for Rhett, she must admit that deep down, what she longs for most is still the love from Rhett.She can love him, can accept his not loving her and his punishment for her, but she cannot accept Rhett's cold silence, even though this silence is also a kind of punishment.It hadn't occurred to her that what she was afraid of was not the silence, but the lack of understanding of Rhett all along.It didn't matter if she didn't love him before; now she fell in love with him, but he closed his heart and wouldn't let her in.She had never wanted to know a person more strongly than herself, someone like herself but different, and this person did not let her know herself, and this was the source of her pain.

"I have to get to know Rhett as he knows me." She made up her mind. "I have to find out what he thinks, why he loves me, why he doesn't love me, how can I make him Understand me now, understand my love for him, how, how can he fall in love with me again." This last thing is the hardest, and it is also the ultimate goal of her doing the above things, she doesn't know what to do, But there must be a way.

You can't always stay in the house and dream, you have to take practical actions.Scarlett called the servants in to clear the table, and walked out of the dining room herself.She found Jack standing at the door, his expression returning to the respect she had when she first saw him, which made her uncomfortable.She asked what you were doing here, and Jack whispered that he wanted to go out and buy some new storybooks for the children, but none of the servants seemed to be able to get away, so he wanted to go by himself.Scarlett was startled when she heard what he said, and she resolutely disagreed with a child going out alone, what to do in case of danger, Jack saw that the time was ripe, and said that if you are not at ease, Paul is willing to go with me.Seeing that Scarlett was a little shaken, he said again, it’s okay, I know the way, and I used my own money, besides, aren’t you always worried about Paul getting into trouble at Tara, now he’s going outside, and I’m following, nothing will happen.Scarlett reluctantly agreed with him to go, and told him to go and come back quickly.Seeing the back of Jack and Paul leaving, Scarlett wondered why the relationship between the two of them became so close overnight, but she was also happy for them. Paul had a friend, so she would not feel that she owed him.

But they still didn't come back when even Rhett came back at noon, and Scarlett began to worry about them.She ordered the servants to look for them, but no one knew where they went, and she only remembered which direction they went.When Rhett found out, he called her an idiot and didn't even know where the child was going. She didn't bother to refute, so she went out to look for it herself, and Rhett took the initiative to follow.With little memory, Scarlett only searched halfway, and there was no sign of a child, so she had to ask Rhett for help.Rhett asked her to think again, and when he really couldn't find any clues, he was not in a hurry, but showed his unique calmness, and asked her carefully where there was a bookstore nearby, but Scarlett didn't have any impression.Rhett patiently asked her whether they went to buy books or went out to play. Scarlett carefully recalled the scene of Jack talking to her in the morning, and said that they should have gone to buy books. Rhett finally couldn't help it, saying that you Scarlett was speechless as to what she knew.Seeing her anxious and aggrieved face, Rhett did not mock her anymore, but sighed, saying that he should go back first, and that he could only call the police.Scarlett had no choice but to agree.On their way back, they saw Abby running towards them in a hurry, saying out of breath that Jack and Paul were back, Scarlett breathed a sigh of relief just after hearing this sentence, and her tense nerves suddenly relaxed She fell down, which made her almost fall to the ground, but she still controlled herself, lifted the hem of her skirt and ran back quickly.In addition to the feeling that a stone has finally landed in her heart, she is more dissatisfied and angry with the two children. At this moment, she has completely become a strict mother whose heart was broken by a naughty child. Beat them hard enough to let it out with their cries.But when she really returned to Tara, she saw Paul lying on the bed with bandages on his feet and Jack standing beside him with a face full of remorse. To cloud nine.She eagerly asked them what happened. Paul seemed to want to stop Jack, but Jack still said it. He said it was his own fault. On the most dangerous mountain road, I was holding too many books in my hand on the way, and one accidentally fell from the top. Fortunately, Paul didn’t have many books in his hand, so he gave him a hand, and he was fine. He fell down by himself.After finishing speaking, he lowered his head, waiting for Scarlett's punishment.Paul bluntly said that he fell down without paying attention, and it had nothing to do with Jack, so he begged Scarlett not to punish Jack.Scarlett looked at the two petty criminals who were protecting each other, sighed helplessly, waved her hand and said that nothing serious happened, and don't run around anymore. Both of them hurriedly agreed, and Scarlett finally breathed a sigh of relief. , feeling hungry, and was about to go to the restaurant for dinner, Rhett, who came back after her, suddenly remembered a question that Scarlett had ignored before, and he made Scarlett stop with one sentence: "Since Paul fell and injured, are you How did you come back, did you carry him back? Can you move him, Jack?"

At this time, Jack showed a look of sudden realization as if he had just remembered something, and he said eagerly: "Oh, don't tell me, I almost forgot, there were no people on that road, but we were lucky at that time, and there was a carriage Just passing by, the driver and the owner of the carriage were kind, and they sent us back. We asked them to come in, but they refused, and they didn't say their names. They sent us to the road not far from Tara and left. .By the way, it was the owner of the carriage who bandaged Paul on the road. He is very skillful, like a doctor."

"Really? Then your luck is really good." Rhett's face suddenly became heavy, "But have you ever thought about why a carriage just passed by on a road that few people travel?"

"Don't you believe me?" Jack's expression was surprised, "I'm telling the truth. But I also find it strange that the carriage looks very broken, not the type suitable for long-distance travel, but it still chooses And I don’t know why the inside is tightly covered, and the seats left for people are very small, so I don’t know what’s hidden inside.” His expression also changed because of this problem that he only discovered now. Fortunately turned into fear.

"Okay, no matter what the carriage is here for, it's fine as long as they send you two back. Let's go eat first, and we'll talk later if you have anything to say." Scarlett also felt that this matter was a bit strange at first, but she Without thinking too much, she clearly distinguishes which is more important, a hungry stomach or a mind full of doubts.Rhett got up and left. Scarlett didn't dare approach him with a serious look, so she had to keep a certain distance from him and entered the dining room.The meal was not pleasant, her stomach was active, but her mind was not to be outdone, and in the end she stopped eating half hungry, and the problem was not clear.She's good at one thing at a time, but she's hard-pressed when two things come together, and they're in different spheres.Rhett's situation was not much better than hers, and the knife and fork in front of him had hardly been touched.The two eyebrows were tightly locked together like a fight, and she didn't know when she could let go.She knew he was thinking about it too, but she couldn't help him share it because she knew he didn't want her to share it.

After a meal, Rhett walked out as usual, but this time his pace was much faster than usual, as if rushing to complete some urgent task.He didn't come back until it was completely dark, but Scarlett didn't smell the alcohol on him, which meant that he didn't drink. Why was his suit dirty? Didn't he always value his clothes? What did he do? ?Facing Scarlett's questioning eyes, Rhett didn't even have a mocking response. He went straight to the sofa in the living room and sat down, frowning again.Jack was reading a newly bought storybook to the children, and stopped when he saw his pensive look, but Rhett waved his hand, signaling him to ignore himself and continue reading his story.Jack hesitated, but read on anyway.His voice became more excited than before, because he seemed to be reciting a poem:

"He watched this group of young people gradually merge into the golden glow of the setting sun, like a group of moving golden statues. How much they resembled himself back then. At this moment, a book he wrote when he was a teenager suddenly popped into his mind. A poem called "Three Crowns," he said involuntarily.

Worldly diadem, I despise it as the dust beneath my feet,

It is heavy, and the best is but a void;

But now I gladly welcome a crown of thorns,

Although the sting is painful, the taste is mainly sweet;

I saw the crown of glory presented before me,

It is blissful and eternal.

He thought: 'Now how can I give up the 'crown of thorns' to pursue the 'crown of the world'.I should go back and wear the crown of thorns until the day I die. '