dreamer

After taking a shower, Wei Xi returned to her room.

He hasn't lived here for a long time since he moved out.

The layout of the room has not changed, and everything is still placed in the original corner. It seems that since he left, no one must have entered this room.

It's just that Wei Xi didn't notice that a room where no one would ever come in, where there was never a speck of dust, no one noticed the corners and corners, why was it so clean.

What happened before will still trouble Wei Xi.

Even though the sad feeling in the old house has passed, when I think about it again, I still feel lingering fear.

Wei Xi clutched her chest subconsciously, her heartbeat was very steady, but she still couldn't forget that familiar figure in her mind for a long time.

Who is that boy in the white shirt?

Why does the face that can't be seen clearly make him feel that he knows him, and even feels that he is connected with him.

And that strange man, why did he feel so afraid of him?

Numerous questions bothered Wei Xi, but for some reason, whenever she should go with the flow and try hard to think about it, she pushed the question to the back of her mind like inertia.

It seems that there is an invisible force somewhere, which taught Wei Xi to escape.

Wei Xi lay down in front of the desk for a while, then sat up, opened the drawer and took out a small box.

There are all kinds of small toys inside, there are all kinds of notes, there are transparent sugar papers spread out into stacks, and there are leaves sandwiched between the papers, all of which were given to him by Ji Changsidong. Reminds him of his past.Ji Changsi...

Wei Xi lay on the bed with the box in her arms, and smelled the faint fragrance from the pillow, as if it was newly replaced, with a very clean smell, very much like Ji Changsi, and it also washed away the exhaustion all over her body.

He really misses him. From yesterday to now, he really has a lot to say to him.

After an unknown amount of time, Wei Xi on the bed had already fallen asleep, and the bedroom door was gently pushed open.

Mother Wei came in quietly, and seeing Wei Xi curled up on the bed like a kitten, holding a box in her arms, she looked so pitiful and cute, and instantly softened Mother Wei's eyebrows, she couldn't help silently The corners of the lips are bent.

How old is he, still like a child.

Wei's mother just sat down on the side of the bed silently, looked at Wei Xi who was sleeping soundly, and couldn't help but gently touched her son's eyebrows.

Here is where she looks the most like her.

How long has it been since he took a good look at his son like this?

Since his son moved out, there has been no such opportunity.

Speaking of which, should I also thank Ji Ziyang who was driven away by me, my son's playmate when he was young, if it weren't for him, maybe she and her son are still living in peace with each other, and there is no intersection throughout the year.

In fact, it's not that she is cruel. A child who doesn't want her can always be by his side. It's not that she doesn't like this son, and it's not that she doesn't love him.

It's just that she felt that after so many things happened, she was no longer qualified to be a mother.

Wei Jiale became what she is now, it was all caused by her, she didn't respond in time when she felt something was wrong, and she didn't understand her son's mood well, it was all due to her negligence as a mother.

Later, because of a mental breakdown, he couldn't find a way to vent his emotions, so while giving up on himself, he let his poor enough son continue to bear all this.

Her son has always been the most innocent, but he insisted on becoming the most unfortunate person, it was all her fault.

That's why you should keep him as far away from you as possible. Think about it carefully, it's because of being by her side that so much misfortune befalls him, isn't it?

If she doesn't have the ability to protect him, then it's better to let him protect himself, at least don't become his entanglement.

In fact, when Wei Jiale was a child, he seemed to be a very healthy child physically and mentally, smiling everywhere he went, and was very close to his mother.When I was in kindergarten, every time my mother came late, Wei Jiale would hold the hem of his clothes and secretly wipe away his tears in fear. When he saw his mother coming, he hugged his mother in tears. Even after meeting Ji Ziyang, this situation It never got better either.

At that time, Wei Jiale's mother always thought that the child was just letting her go, like a little girl with a weak personality.

After a long time, Wei's mother realized when she reflected on herself. In fact, Wei Jiale might not have a weak personality. Although he was still young at the time, he didn't understand everything. His father didn't want him anymore. He was afraid His mother doesn't want him, does she?

It's just that she understood it too late.

Children in single-parent families are always different. No matter how much care Mother Wei has given Wei Jiale, in some emotional aspects, they are always missing.

Wei Jiale is very powerful. Compared with children of the same age, he grows up very quickly.Because he knows that he is different from others, he is the only man in the family, he is the only one who can take care of his mother and himself.

So after getting sensible, Wei Jiale would smile wherever he went, he didn't want anyone to feel the uneasiness in his bones, he didn't want anyone to feel that he was not as happy as other people's children, more importantly, he didn't want Let his mom worry about him.

Mother is very hard, mother is not easy, the education he has received since he was a child has told him so, and he knows it all.

But most importantly, he was afraid that his mother would not want him, so he had to behave better, he wanted to be a child that his mother liked.

It's just that occasionally he behaves badly. Occasionally, when he sees a strange uncle visiting the house, he will always throw things and lose his temper.When the adults are bothered, my mother will cry alone.

That appearance really scared Wei Jiale, the tears of adults are always very stressful for children.

So Wei Jiale learned to be silent and to suppress.

Even if he really feels disgusting, disgusting, and even can't help retching into the toilet, he won't say anything.

Later, Wei Jiale met Ji Ziyang, a boy who looked about his age, that guy seemed to be the same as him, only his mother would always pick him up, maybe it was someone who could understand him.

Mother Wei sighed, helped Wei Xi cover the quilt, and then carefully put away the box that Wei Xi was holding in her arms and put it on the table.

This reminded her of a long, long time ago, when Wei Xi was still called Wei Jiale, she often fell asleep holding a letter paper full of densely packed small characters like this.

Alas, those days will never come back.

Wei Jiale really likes Ji Ziyang.

Even though later he knew that Ji Ziyang's situation was still different from his, but those were not important anymore.Because Ji Ziyang told him that he was different.

So in Wei Jiale's heart, Ji Ziyang is also different.

Maybe others can't see it, but Mother Wei knows very well that in her son's heart, the child who always comes to visit is very important.

Because Wei Jiale only showed such a sincere and bright smile when facing Ji Ziyang.

Compared with the smile that usually hangs on his face, that smile is a world of difference.

But it seems that in a certain sense, her son's fate is similar to hers, and she is not good at keeping people she cares about.

She couldn't keep her lover, and his son couldn't keep his cherished little friend.

Wei Jiale has never been a child who believes in eternity, other people's children like to listen to stories told by adults, but Wei Jiale doesn't even bother to read the storybooks, because every happy ending in those fairy tales seems to him is nothingness.

It's not that I don't yearn for it, nor that I don't believe that there is such beauty in this world.

It's just that Wei Jiale didn't think he had that kind of fate, that he could get that kind of happiness.

Ji Ziyang once made a serious oath to him. When he heard about Wei Jiale's life experience, the young man said with certainty that I would never want you.

What Ji Ziyang said was so serious, but he didn't know that in Wei Jiale's eyes, he was so naive and ridiculous at that time.

Why swear to him, why promise him forever.

Obviously they are still so young, and obviously no one can tell what will happen in the future, why would they say such overreaching words?

However, Wei Jiale still decided to believe in Ji Ziyang, even though he knew he shouldn't believe it, but who made him Ji Ziyang.

Turns out he was wrong, and the guy who would never want him was about to leave him as soon as he turned around.

Wei Jiale wasn't surprised by this at all. He already knew that there were things in this world that human beings couldn't contend with. He was mentally prepared, but he still felt heartache.

But Ji Ziyang, who had originally broken his promise, did not feel sorry for his departure, and even gave Wei Jiale another promise.

He told him that he would definitely come back for him.

At that time, Wei Jiale was almost amused to laugh, but looking at the sunset in the sky, his eyes were moist.

He still chose to believe him.

Wei Jiale waits for Ji Ziyang to come back every day.

In this place that carries all the past of two people, one person repeats everything that two people did when they were together, and one person walks every path that two people walked when they were together.

He knew that it would be a long time before he came back, maybe so long that they all grew up, maybe so long that he even forgot what he looked like.

But he still waits every day.

But he was wrong again.

Wei Jiale couldn't remember when Ji Ziyang didn't spread any more news.

There are no signs of such a thing. The reply to the letter is getting slower and slower, and the number of words is getting smaller and smaller. Even the content of the reply has nothing to do with the last letter. Has he really read what he wrote?

Wei Jiale's winter came when there was no reply to the sent letter.

He was wearing a thick winter coat alone, looking at the river covered with a layer of thin ice, the herring swimming towards the bottom of the river was alone.

He never wrote to Ji Ziyang again, took the initiative to contact him, why did he continue to do such unnecessary things?

It's really hard to live alone.

The fish that used to cuddle with him disappeared, and finally he was the only one left in the cold river bottom.

He should have known that things like forever and promises can only be used for things that are unrealistic.

But he chose to believe in a person, and he gave that person the opportunity to betray him.

This is his own fault.

Wei Jiale won't laugh anymore.

Although Mother Wei didn't know these undetectable details, she knew that her son's smile disappeared together with the boy who left.

She knew that Wei Jiale was still young, and might not be able to quickly digest the sadness of parting from his friends.

And the time was too late, when she met the man she thought she could trust her for life, she quickly decided to remarry, and brought that man to Wei Jiale.

Little did they know, such a decision was just another reason for Wei Jiale to almost collapse.

His mother doesn't want him anymore.

Since when did Wei Jiale become abnormal?

The decline in grades, the sudden change in personality, the teacher approached her many times, but she attributed everything to the rebellious period.

It was the rebellious Wei Jiale who was dissatisfied with her second marriage. This seemed to be a natural phenomenon. At that time, Wei's mother simply thought that as long as a new life started, Wei Jiale would accept it sooner or later.

The only thing that made people feel a little abnormal was Wei Jiale's strange behavior.

The lively child became taciturn, how many times did he hear Wei Jiale whispering to someone?

In fact, this kind of situation is not common, just once or twice, but it is enough to impress and frighten Mother Wei.

On a peaceful afternoon, Mother Wei passed by Wei Jiale's room with the clothes she had just brought in, when she suddenly heard a faint chuckle.

"...Are you looking for me again?"

Faintly hearing these words, Mother Wei thought it was the sound of her footsteps that attracted Wei Jiale's question to her, but just as she was about to open the door to enter, she saw Wei Jiale lying on the bed through the crack of the door , like in a dream.

Maybe it was really falling asleep, it was a raving in a dream.

"You are so uncute, you can only cry, but I want to laugh..."

"If you are always with me like this, mom will dislike me even more..."

"You should leave me, I don't like you like this, I don't want to be so sad, I don't want to be so hurt, I don't want you..."

But in the middle of the night when he heard the door open, Wei Jiale was the only one in the empty room, sitting alone on the ground, raising his confused eyes to look at her, but it seemed like he couldn't see her at all.

"Lele?"

Wei Jiale looked at Mother Wei blankly, shook his head constantly, and whispered in this almost pitiful tone, "I'm not Lele...I'm not..."

Wei's mother froze, and a creepy feeling came from her heart. She couldn't believe that this feeling was given to her by her son.

"Lele, you, what's wrong with you?"

However, when she touched Wei Jiale, Wei Jiale closed his eyes and passed out.

Wei's mother once thought that Wei Jiale had run into something evil.