Chen Mufengchun

Why did I fall in love with Cheng Yan?Later, Chen Shuyu also asked herself this question.

This question was answered as he grew older.

why?

Probably because Cheng Yan appeared at the right time, but whenever he appeared too early or too late, Chen Shuyu was sure that she would not have the love for him that she always thought was fucking.

Because it was too early, he was focused on Chen Shuyue, and he didn't have the time to think about those things that were not there, including the love that people praised endlessly; The heart will also become hot because of someone.

But Cheng Yan appeared at the time when Chen Shuyu was the most penniless and desperate, wishing that even death would be a luxury. Even though the initial relationship between the two of them was improper, Cheng Yan's appearance in Chen Shuyu's heart was still like a god descending Same.

This is not an exaggeration. Although Chen Shuyu felt that such a description was a bit disgusting, he couldn't think of a better description other than this.

Cheng Yan is ten years older than Chen Shuyu. He has enough life experience and material foundation to help Chen Shuyu get out of the predicament in his life. Therefore, Cheng Yan played three roles in Chen Shuyu's life. He is a lover, a brother, and a little bit. Like a father, even if the two of them got along for just over a year.

Later, Chen Shuyu also thought about it, maybe what he experienced before was just because all the luck in his life was used to meet Cheng Yan.

The life with Cheng Yan is the best memory of Chen Shuyu's life.

The death of her father and the disappearance of Chen Shuyue seemed to have broken the shackles that Chen Shuyu had been wearing all along, although Chen Shuyu knew that she was heartless.

After Chen Shuyu started making dinner for Cheng Yan, he found that dinner alone was not enough, because Cheng Yan's stomach was not good, and the takeaway outside was not to his liking, so he was always fooling around when eating at noon, eating very little, and eating again after returning home at night There are a little too much, so the stomach can't stand it even more.

Chen Shuyu was distressed. He wanted to deliver lunch to Cheng Yan, but he was embarrassed to say that he was afraid that Cheng Yan would feel that he was shameless, since the two had that kind of relationship.In fact, Cheng Yan is already very good to himself, but perhaps because of the shadow of his childhood, Chen Shuyu always cares about gains and losses when showing favor to others, and always feels unreal.

Perhaps it was not for nothing that he ate more food than Chen Shuyu for ten years, or maybe Cheng Yan really took Chen Shuyu to heart, and he actually saw Chen Shuyu's worry.

After dinner that night, the two of them sat on the sofa and watched TV while digesting food. Cheng Yan asked suddenly, "You are fine at home, do you want to go out and do something?"I thought you might not have time, so I didn't ask.

Chen Shuyu said, what are you doing?

Cheng Yan said, do something you want to do, is there anything you want to do?

Chen Shuyu didn't talk about this with Cheng Yan before because he was afraid that Cheng Yan would not let him go, and he was still strictly adhering to the relationship between the two of them "selling and whoring", but now that Cheng Yan has mentioned this, he thinks otherwise Just tell him that I want to learn how to cook, so there is some reason to deliver food to him, it can be said that I want him to help me try the dishes.

After Chen Shuyu finished speaking, Cheng Yan seemed to be waiting for him to say this, and said, then go to a friend of mine, he has a private kitchen, not far from my company, and he is there himself As a chef, learn how to cook with him after you go, and I will talk to him tomorrow.Then he put his arms around Chen Shuyu's waist and said again, so that I can also eat your cooking at noon.

Chen Shuyu's heart burned when he said it, and a one-man show that had been rehearsed for an unknown amount of time in his heart was perfectly brought to an end by Cheng Yan's few words.

The owner of that private kitchen is a very nice person. I don't know what Cheng Yan said to him, but he took good care of Chen Shuyu anyway.

Chen Shuyu originally thought that if she went, she would be looked down upon by others. After all, she was entrusted with her relationship, and she entrusted her relationship with her male lover.Unexpectedly, the boss really treated him as a student, teaching him how to cook, and even when he was busy at noon, he even gave him a holiday and asked him to deliver meals to Cheng Yan.

Chen Shuyu already had some background in cooking, plus he was serious and eager to learn, and he really learned well. Now he can set up a kitchen with Fatty Liu when Chen Ji is short of people, all thanks to what he learned at that time craft.

Later, Chen Shuyu was a little bit apologetic, because noon was the busiest time in the store, but he still had to ask for leave, so he forced Cheng Yan to go to the store for lunch at noon.

Cheng Yan asked him, I went, will you come out to eat with me?

Chen Shuyu said, I was too busy to deliver meals to you, even if you came to the store, I didn't have time to accompany you.

Cheng Yan teased him and said, but I only eat the dishes you cook, but when the dishes come out of the kitchen, how do I know if you cooked them?

Chen Shuyu said, then I will put a flower carved from carrots on the side of the dish I cooked, so you will know if I made it, and that will be my exclusive mark.

Cheng Yan said, okay, just like those heroes in the novel, I will find you based on it.

It's just a joke, but Chen Shuyu always put a carrot flower on the side of the plate every time he cooks, regardless of whether it is inappropriate or inappropriate.

Chen Shuyu learned how to cook as he wished, but he was still worried about gains and losses. Maybe he hid this too well and Cheng Yan didn't find out.But this is like a bomb. Two people who love each other need each other's wholeheartedness. If one person is blindly moving forward while the other is blindly retreating, then the two cannot get together. They will separate sooner or later. matter.

Chen Shuyu's bomb exploded in the ninth month when the two were together. At that time, he had just finished the Spring Festival and Lantern Festival alone, and the feeling of not belonging was at its peak.

That night, Cheng Yan was sent home by his assistant. He was a little drunk. He just opened the door, and regardless of the assistant was still there, he hugged Chen Shuyu and kept calling "Daughter-in-law" while messing around on his neck. dear.

Chen Shuyu was blushed by Cheng Yan's trouble. He found that the assistant looked at him when Cheng Yan called him for the first time. Chen Shuyu couldn't tell what it was. He felt that the assistant was despising him as if he had a paranoid , looking down on him, feeling disgusted by him.

After the assistant left, Chen Shuyu half-hugged Cheng Yan and half-dragged him to the bed. Cheng Yan seemed a little sober from the wine, and insisted on having sex with him while Chen Shuyu was wiping his face with a hot towel.The two of them haven't done anything since Cheng Yan came home before him for almost a month. Chen Shuyu missed him a little before, but now he doesn't want to do it.

During the struggle, Cheng Yan said something, didn't you like doing it before, why can't you do it today?

Chen Shuyu didn't know what Cheng Yan was thinking when he said this sentence, but this sentence seemed to touch some sensitive nerve in him, Chen Shuyu automatically replaced Cheng Yan's words in his heart with "I've already spent money, you have to Lay down naked and let me go."

The fire twist of the bomb finally burned to the end, only a few millimeters remained.

Chen Shuyu said, yes, I liked it very much before, but this matter has to be done on your own terms, and I have to have a holiday even if I sell it, Mr. Cheng.

Chen Shuyu was very calm when he spoke, but his undulating chest still betrayed him.

Cheng Yan seemed to be taken aback by Chen Shuyu's words. He got up from Chen Shuyu, staggered back to the closet far away from the bed, and after he stood firmly on the closet, Cheng Yan said, Chen Shuyu, you just said you were coming out selling?

Chen Shuyu was caught in the emotions he wove for a while and couldn't extricate himself, he said, didn't he?

Cheng Yan said, I never thought about you that much, nor did I think that you would think about our relationship that way.

Chen Shuyu lowered his head on the bed, and didn't answer Cheng Yan's words. He didn't dare to speak, because he was afraid that Cheng Yan would find out that he was crying if he spoke.

He didn't know why he became so crying after meeting Cheng Yan, obviously crying is the most useless thing in the world, when he was young, he couldn't get back to his father's embrace once, and when he grew up, he couldn't get back to Cheng Yan again. Yan, he and Cheng Yan should be ending this time.He was still the street gangster who only went to junior high school, wandering around, without a home, no one asked him if he was hungry, no one asked him if he was cold, all he had was people's eyes and indifference.

Cheng Yan didn't seem to notice Chen Shuyu's strangeness, he continued, then let's make it clear today, and then you decide whether to leave or stay, it's better for you to think about our relationship than to think that being by my side is torment. Separate and be comfortable on your own.

Chen Shuyu wants to say that I am not uncomfortable at all, I am not suffering by your side, the days with you are the most comfortable days in my life.But his throat seemed to be choked, and he couldn't say a word, and he didn't even have the strength to shake his head.

Cheng Yan said, the first time I saw you was at the bar, and I noticed you when you walked over with a drink that day, with big eyes and a pointed chin.It's funny, I found out I was gay when I was 17, but I never thought about finding a partner for so many years, I didn't feel any good-looking people in front of me, I didn't think it was interesting, I gave all of myself All my energy is spent on study and work.

He laughed at himself and continued, “My friends who know my sexual orientation say that I am frigid, but when you walked towards me that day, I was a little nervous. I have been in school for 18 years, and the teacher told me that I am very knowledgeable.” , but no one told me how to strike up a conversation with someone I fell in love with at first sight.

When Chen Shuyu heard this, she blinked, and the tears in her eyes suddenly fell, forming a circle on the bed sheet.

Cheng Yan didn't seem to notice, he continued, I watched you put the wine on the table for us in a hurry, and then spilled the wine on me, I didn't dare to say a word to you except that it didn't matter.After you left, I have been regretting it. I dared to sign a contract no matter how much money I was in the company, but now I dare not even say a word. I will regret it in the future.Later that night, the friend I drank with was hospitalized due to alcohol poisoning, and I met you again when I went to the hospital to see him, and then I said to myself, Cheng Yan, this is fucking fate, if you can’t catch up with him, you are idiot.

Chen Shuyu didn't listen to Cheng Yan's swear words, and suddenly he wanted to laugh when he heard him say that, but in the end, he laughed ugly, and he laughed with snot bubbles.

Cheng Yan finally stopped pretending not to see, he walked over and wiped Chen Shuyu's face with a tissue, then hugged him in his arms and said, okay, don't be angry, and talk to her husband, what's wrong today?

Chen Shuyu felt that the bomb that was about to explode was extinguished by Cheng Yan.

He didn't answer Cheng Yan's question, but said, keep talking.

Cheng Yan asked, do you believe what I say?

Chen Shuyu still didn't answer, he thought, as long as it is what you say, I will believe it.

Cheng Yan didn't care that Chen Shuyu didn't speak, and continued, in order to inquire about your news, and to create the conditions for "encountering" with you, I always went to the hospital to see my friend at that time, making him think I was attracted to you. He's gone, and every time I go, he kicks me out.Later, after I found out about you, I thought I had no time to chase you slowly, but I didn't know what to do. My friend who was hospitalized thought of a way for me, and then I was in the garden There's a business card for you.

Then he gritted his teeth and said, I later found out that his method was read from a brain-damaged novel called "The Domineering President Falls in Love with Me". He was just fucking playing with me, but I took it seriously .

Cheng Yan smiled again and said, but the result is not too bad, at least you are in my arms now.So now can you tell me what's going on?

Chen Shuyu said, you never said these things to me.

Cheng Yan said, because it was too nasty.

Chen Shuyu said, what did you say today?

Cheng Yan said, if I don't talk about it, my wife will leave, and who will I talk to then.

Chen Shuyu said, what would you do if I said that I was with you because of money?

After he finished speaking, he felt a little regretful. After all, the two of them talked for a long time. The atmosphere went from the tense moment at the beginning to the pink bubbles everywhere now. It didn't involve the reason why the two were together in the first place, and what he said just now should be to put those The pink bubbles all burst.

Cheng Yan said, maybe you were at first, but you are not now, and you are not that kind of person.

Chen Shuyu wanted to laugh a little, he thought that the luck of his life might have been used to meet Cheng Yan, he asked, how do you know, you are not me?

Cheng Yan said, it’s not for nothing that I ate more food than you for ten years, if I don’t know how to see how people run a company and how to support so many people.

Chen Shuyu was a little serious, he said, what if it is?

Cheng Yan was silent for a while and said, then I will still be with you, everyone will become humble when they love someone, and I am no exception, if you don’t love me but love my money, then I will work hard Make money so you'll still be with me.

Chen Shuyu's heart was burning with what Cheng Yan said, but he was stubborn. When he was supposed to be talking to each other, he said, I am sad to celebrate the New Year alone.

Cheng Yan kissed his forehead and said, let's celebrate the New Year together this year.

He was obviously full of alcohol, but Chen Shuyu felt that this kiss was sweeter than any kiss he had with Cheng Yan before.

A war was rewritten by Cheng Yan into a confession movie, and the bomb that was about to explode was also smashed by him. Chen Shuyu, who thought it would be peaceful from now on, never expected that he would still not be able to live with Cheng Yan. second year.