as yesterday

"You are dreaming."

Liu Ci shook her head, she was still hugging He Yu tightly, but she yelled out these three words.

"I've already left once, and I won't let go even if I die!!"

He Yu twitched the corners of his mouth, "I didn't look for you back then, did you already make plans?"

He Yu still let Liu Ci hug her, her voice was very soft, a bit like rambling, "I know it all, you are so extreme."

Liu Ci's tears were still flowing, "You know what a fart!"

Her tone was quite fierce, but with a crying voice, she was not threatening.

He Yu: "Of course I know you."

She took it for granted, making Liu Ci a little dazed.

He Yu indeed knew Liu Ci better than Liu Ci knew himself.

Her care is silent, and her observation is also impeccable. It is this impeccable perfection that makes Liu Ci gradually improve, and she doesn't even need to take medicine anymore.

The sense of anticipation that disappeared when she was young has come back. She is looking forward to every tomorrow, not only looking forward to He Yu, but also to life.

But He Yu fell behind.

She seemed to run with her, but unknowingly fell behind several laps.

Liu Ci was afraid that she didn't want to run away, and at this moment she suddenly felt the same way, but it made He Yu's rescue of her even more unstoppable.

"He Yu, don't leave me behind."

He Yu: "I just let you leave me, there are people better than me everywhere."

She was hugged by Liu Ci, Liu Ci couldn't see her eyes, she was hidden in the dark, a pessimist who was born.

The brilliance was gone, and the peeled lips made her look even weaker. A person's psychology was crushed, and even if he maintained a superficial appearance, he couldn't last long.

Paper figurines are used as sacrifices.

He Yu felt that she was tied up by the paper that He Fengjun had made little by little. If he died, she would go with him.

"That's not you..."

Liu Ci had a sore throat and a headache, and the sound of the second hand was like hammering, knocking on her forehead again and again, and the bone marrow was retained.

He Yu hummed, "I'm sorry Liu Ci, I let you down."

"shut up."

Liu Ci stood up straight, and put her hands from He Yu's waist to the other's shoulders. Considering her height, this was a bit difficult, but it forced He Yu to bow her head.

"I'm disappointed," Liu Ci was very quiet in front of people. She looked very temperamental and self-cultivated, and could answer sharp questions deftly. At this time, she was not irritable like her. Her whole body trembled, but she pressed hard on He Yu's body, "I like you, I am not disappointed or expected, I like everything about you."

He Yu licked his lips, and his tongue hurt a little, "Your behavior made the domestic violence more rampant. My mother was like this at the beginning. Forgive that man, and then again and again, never ending."

In the summer when I was 15 years old, in the late night with light and shadows floating, the night wind blew the mosquito net, and also blew away Liu Ci's superficial cognition of He Yu's family.

He Yuliuci from that night is still remembered to this day. At that time, He Yu hadn’t grown up so well to hide it. Her sadness in the watery night was like a lake surface wrinkled by the wind, layer upon layer, rolling up Liuci’s waves.

There was nothing they could do back then.

But so far they are still helpless.

He Yu raised her hand, her hand was still wounded, and it looked darker after applying the medicine, as if it had been painted on.

"If I rushed out and stood beside my mother again and again, instead of blaming her why she didn't get a divorce afterwards, it would be fine."

She didn't dare, and she was also afraid, because the kind of beating was too painful, so painful that every night before self-study, the sun was exercising and running laps, so she couldn't fall behind and would be discovered.

The subconscious feels that this is ashamed to say, even if others know it well.

For that little face.

"You have worked harder than He Yu."

Liu Ci looked at her, in the dim light, she pulled He Yu to her side, there was a thin line between darkness and light, she said it was not your fault.

He Yu turned his face away and sighed.

"How can you be the same as your father? You just have too much sense of responsibility, much more than others, and you have too high demands on yourself."

Liu Ci said word by word, the pinch mark on her neck when He Yu looked away made Liu Ci feel even more distressed.

Just imagining He Yu fighting with others made her feel sad.

When she was young, she often saw He Yu fighting with boys. She couldn't fight at first, but after fighting a lot, she knew how to win. During the fight, the gang called her male or female, and after being beaten, they said He Yu was crazy .

Liu Ci also hated herself, she couldn't help anything, she could only run to find the teacher, but in the end it was He Yu who was scolded.

"You are a girl, how can you fight with others?"

Liu Ci said at the time: "But if you don't fight back, you will be thrown with stones."

The teacher turned his face away, frowned and scolded her: "You won't tell the teacher."

Adults seem to have forgotten the rules of children after they become complete adults. The most despised thing among children is to sue the teacher and be isolated.

Liu Ci is an isolated child. She is good friends with the bad girl who always fights with others.

So no one was friends with them at the beginning, and they naturally became tablemates, and they only had each other.

"I just realized that you are so good at talking."

He Yu smiled, her hands clenched into fists, and then let go, "I'm serious, Liu Ci, you don't want to live with me anymore, you move out, or I move to your house, we have to keep a distance .”

"do not want!"

Liu Ci took her hand, "Will you hit me? Are you willing to hit me?"

He Yu looked at her steadfastly, Liu Ci's eyes were filled with tears, and looked shiny. This person's facial features are very small, and she is obviously cute, but no one has ever praised her, because she is too cold and a little Inexplicably noble.

"I do not know."

He Yu reached out and wiped away the tears from the corners of Liu Ci's eyes, "I don't even know whether I am me or not."

"I don't want to lie to you. I felt great when I beat that man to the ground." She wiped Liu Ci's tears with her hand and was about to withdraw it. Liu Ci grabbed her and pressed it on her face, turning into a A stroking movement, "This is terrible, I can't control myself, when the beer bottle opened the person's head, my mind went blank, and when the people from the police station came, all I could think of was He Fengjun. Beer bottles smashing, crackling, my mother screaming, his roaring."

"At that moment, I felt that I was him."

He Yu closed her eyes, the warmth of her palm made her nostalgic, but she hated herself from the bottom of her heart.

She has worked hard for many years to become a person that others like, but she finds that she can't like herself.

"I don't believe you will hit me," Shen Sijun's beating back then filled Liu Ci with courage, and she looked at He Yu, "You just love me."

He Yu opened his mouth, and it took a long time before he hummed.

"It is precisely because of this that I let you leave me, at least, let me be alone for a few days."

Liu Ci: "You have to promise that you will be with me forever."

Her hand grabbed He Yu's hand, back and forth, and finally turned into a handshake. It was rare that He Yu's hand was not so hot, but Liu Ci's was even hotter. Her physique was much better than before.

He Yu took her to the gym, fixed classes, and a healthy routine. The two of them were getting better together, but something went wrong.

"Liu Ci."

He Yu's ending sounded sad, "You are so greedy."

Liu Ci: "I'm only greedy for you."

He Yu closed his eyes, "I tried my best."

Liu Ci: "You have to work hard."

He Yu laughed, "Leave me alone, at least tonight."

Liu Ci said yes.

The house Liu Ci bought by herself has been decorated long ago, and all the furniture is ready. She took the quilt away, and He Yu helped her carry it. No one said a word.

In the end, He Yu said good night, "I want to sleep well."

Liu Ci hummed, and took a deep look at her.

When the door was closed, she burst into tears.

After holding back for too long, He Yu was also crying. She was sitting on the floor of her room, shaking from crying.

They are not young, and they have never cried like this when they were young, but they broke out at this age.

Growing up has given them too many benefits, but they have been losing them, even if they believe that tomorrow will be better.

Liu Ci couldn't fall asleep after crying, she simply sat at the desk staring at the white paper in a daze, and finally started to write in a mess, she was diverting her attention.

He Yu threw herself on the bed, her wound ached, her bones ached, maybe her soul also ached, she thought aimlessly, but she always remembered the past.

The family she couldn't get rid of.

She wanted to die, this idea first came to her when she was 15 years old, when Hong Lanwen was injured by He Fengjun again, and He Yu applied medicine to her.

She smashed the medicinal wine on the ground, with a crisp sound, the smell permeated the room, and she shouted: "I'll just kill him!!"

Hong Lanwen clicked his tongue, and went to sweep the floor before putting on all his clothes. He looked at the medicinal wine distressedly, and put back as much as he could.

She didn't take He Yu's words seriously at all.

At that time, He Yu thought, tonight, just tonight, when he comes back, I will kill him, and then I will die myself, so that my mother will not have me as a troublemaker, and it will be better to marry.

But He Fengjun didn't come back that day, so this idea was also suppressed.

She floated up and was suppressed countless times, repeatedly, cutting her nerve, and finally crushed into powder and melted in the blood.

The second time it appeared was when Lian Xiaoli kissed her. At that time, she was the busiest time. When she was free, she worked around and took jobs. Yawning when turning his back, Lian Xiaoli said he loved her.

She wanted to say that you love me and let me go.

But Lian Xiaoli was also at a critical point, she didn't say that, she refused, and drew a line of boundaries little by little, but it didn't help.

If Xie Yongyan hadn't been jumping up and down in front of her all day, telling her that senior sister, you are too kind and reminding her that she is better, she might really not be able to hold on.Amidst the rumbling of the subway, I kept my head down to calculate how much money I had left, scrambling for work in the part-time job group, and carefully asked if the final payment could be made faster when submitting the manuscript.

These two financial constraints hit her body, but she couldn't see half of it on the outside.

Everyone said that He Yu was so sunny, she was so energetic.

No one saw the pain behind her, all the pressure almost buried her alive, and that thin air turned out to be the yearning for Liu Ci and the longing for the reunion.

She still has hope.

Although in the middle of the night when I was riding a shared bicycle back halfway, the tire flattened and I almost collapsed to the point of jumping into the river.

The third time, this time.

In the torrential rain, she looked up at the tall buildings in the distance, her home.

Liu Ci is inside, she is waiting for her to go back.

But she is so tired, she doesn't want to go back, is there any way to get rid of it completely?

Fragments of beer bottles, she picked them up, the little girl watching her as she bent over.

That look made He Yu feel familiar.

Look at the hatred of the man who fell on the ground, look at my own vigilance and eagerness to get closer.

Even though the alley was extremely dark, it didn't affect He Yu's judgment.

"Sister, are you crying?"

the child asked.

He Yu heard the siren sound from far to near, and reached out to touch the water marks on his face, not sure if it was rain, tears or blood.

She said, "Aren't you crying too?"

作者有话要说：感谢在2019-12-2421:59:43~2019-12-2720:07:55期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who cast the rocket launcher: Jiang Lansheng 1;

Thanks to the little angel who threw the landmine: Ansheng, Duck, 1 Laoshan Coke;

感谢灌溉营养液的小天使：暮色系30瓶；崂山可乐20瓶；一模一样的烟火19瓶；巧克力蛋糕、D、做你的猫、潼10瓶；不易5瓶；星野忆、傅菁的圈外女友1瓶；

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!