There is a kind of love that is insincere

The first time I came to the place where Zhuo Luoyin lived, I was still a little surprised.This is a villa area with a beautiful environment, parks, and fountains. Those "tall" things in TV dramas are probably reflected here.I know that Zhuo Luoyin's family is rich, but I always thought he lived in a high-end building, but I didn't think he lived in a villa.

If Zhuo Luoyin is like this, then Yu Yueshui is also like this.He is a son of a rich family, and I am so ordinary, suddenly I feel that I will never reach the same platform as him.I have bad looks, bad family background, and all kinds of things. It seems that I can't show any of them.I originally expected that I could catch up with him as long as I worked harder and harder, but it seemed impossible. Under my understanding, my mood gradually became depressed.

Zhuo Luoyin felt the other party's mood drop suddenly, and seemed to be able to guess what the other party was thinking at this time, "Yuan Yi, I really hate living in this kind of place."

"Why? I think it's pretty good here, and the environment is pretty good."

Zhuo Luoyin approached me and said softly, "Because there are often ghosts here at night."

I was startled, grabbed his hand, and looked around in fear, as if it was really too quiet here.

My teeth chattered, "It's not really haunted, is it? I, I'm afraid of ghosts..."

Zhuo Luoyin just wanted to tease the other party, but he didn't expect the other party to really believe it, so what should he say to the other party?

Zhuo Luoyin put her arms around me and said with a smile, "I lied to you."

I was relieved to hear him say that, and turned my eyes to him again, a little angry and a little uncomfortable.

Seeing the reddish eyes of the other party, Zhuo Luoyin panicked, "Yi, I was just joking, there is really no ghost here."

"Really?" Subconsciously, I was afraid when I heard the word ghost, as if no one had ever made such a joke on me.

He nodded, "Well, there are no ghosts."

He thought that he would not scare the other party again next time. Seeing the other party scared made him feel very uncomfortable.

I stood closer to him, not daring to look around, and followed him silently.In fact, I am afraid of ghosts and still have some shadows in my heart. When I was a child, I was scared when I watched ghost movies, which makes me feel terrified when I watch ghost movies now.

Zhuo Luoyin took me to the bungalow where he lived, took out the key card and opened the door.

I saw the roses growing along the wall in the courtyard, and thought it was so beautiful.But I think Zhuo Luoyin should plant white peonies if he wants to plant flowers, why would he plant roses?

His house is neat and tidy, the hall is bigger than my house, and it is very beautiful.The width of the sofa is estimated to be able to lie on two people.

I moved to the floor-to-ceiling windows, and I could see the blue sky outside. This kind of perspective is very good, but it's a pity that it's not me and him.

"Yuan Yi, what do you think of the environment here?" Zhuo Luoyin came behind me and hugged me.

"Well, it's very comfortable," I said lightly, I like a quieter place, and I would be very happy if I could live here for the rest of my life.

"I felt the same way when I lived here, but..."

He didn't say anything later, which made me think that he told me the fake story of being haunted. It shouldn't be haunted. Zhuo Luoyin told me that it was just a joke, so I shouldn't pay too much attention to it.

"But what?" I asked him, and there was a smile between his brows.

He kissed me, "But there's no one with me."

I froze for a moment, my heart was beating drums, and the pain also came flooding in.

You want to grow old with me, but I want to stay with that person for the rest of my life. Who are we lying to whom?

"What about now?" I blushed and looked at him expectantly, but I was already numb.

"With you, Yuan Yi." He kissed my forehead gently.

I think the person who can be liked by him must be very happy, but I am not blessed to enjoy it.I would rather endure the sadness now, and I don't want luck to patronize me so early, because the person I want is not Zhuo Luoyin.Maybe, I also want to be thankful for meeting Zhuo Luoyin, otherwise how could I have met him?

Zhuo Luoyin pulled me and walked up to the first floor, this place is designed regardless of the room, going up is the bedroom.

I looked at a bed and was stunned for a moment, do you want me to sleep with him this summer vacation?

"Why is there only one bed? Where do I sleep?" I asked nervously, not knowing if I was frightened, but I was terrified.

He laughed and said, "Why do I need so many beds by myself? And if you come here, if you don't sleep with me, where are you going to sleep?"

I yelled, "What! Sleep together!"

He nodded, seeing that the room was too dark, he went to the window and opened the curtains, and the room was brightened.

He turned his head and saw the other party staring at the bed in a daze, feeling helpless, what was the other party thinking?

Zhuo Luoyin came over and held my hand, and said softly, "Yuan Yi, I won't do anything to you until you agree."

"Same, agree to what? What do you want to do?" I looked at him in a daze, not daring to think about it.

He smiled lightly and stroked my cheek lightly, "It's nothing."

I kept silent, and it was impossible to ask him what he meant. I think he and I both understand that some things need to be mentally prepared, and I would never do that kind of thing with him!

He took my suitcase, opened it and hung the clothes in the closet.

I looked at the brand-name clothes in his closet, and then at the shirts I bought for tens of dollars, and suddenly felt that they were of a lower grade.

"Luo Yin, don't your parents live with you?" I asked him, noticing that his hands paused while hanging the clothes.

"They live abroad."

"Then you also lived abroad before?"

"Well, I only came back to study in the first year of high school." Zhuo Luoyin didn't know what the other party was asking these questions for. He actually didn't like people asking more about his family affairs, but if the other party wanted to know him, he would take it without reservation. Tell each other everything.

As long as the other party wants to hear, he can tell the other party everything about him without reservation.

"So, if you were still studying abroad in your freshman year of high school, you and I might never know each other." After I finished speaking, my chest felt heavy, as if something had been shattered.

"That's not possible." Zhuo Luoyin smiled, he thought he was right to come back, it was the best thing to meet the other party, and he didn't let him miss the person he likes.

"Why did you want to come back to study in the first place? Didn't you say that teaching abroad is better than domestic ones?"

I pretended to be casual, looked at Zhuo Luoyin's clothes in the closet, and didn't pay much attention to the expression on his face.

Zhuo Luoyin was silent for a while, I didn't see the gloomy look in his eyes, I only heard him say, "It's pretty good abroad, but I want to live in China."

"But it's far away from your parents, don't you miss them?"

He hesitated, and then replied, "I call them often, and I don't really want to."

"You must have a good relationship with your parents, right? By the way, and your brother?"

The other party's simple words made him uncomfortable, but Zhuo Luoyin did not answer with a smile on his face. His relationship with his mother was not much different from Yu Yueshui's relationship with his mother.

Seeing that Zhuo Luoyin didn't speak, I was a little puzzled, and shook my hand in front of him, "What's wrong with you?"

Zhuo Luoyin sighed softly, "Yuan Yi, in fact, my parents divorced very early, and my relationship with them is not good, and my brother and I haven't met much."

Zhuo Luoyin didn't want to hide it from the other party, he couldn't tell about the affairs of his family, but that's all he could tell the other party.

I was stunned, and looked at him apologetically, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to say that."

"I know."

Seeing that his face was normal, I breathed a sigh of relief, and cursed in my heart that I had nothing to do to find such a topic, but the affairs of his family made me realize one thing, that is, I really don’t know him at all, and I don’t know him at all. I don't know Yuyue Shui.

"Yuan Yi, don't worry about my family's affairs," he looked at me gently, but I felt that he was not so relieved at this moment.

They are all stars, I cannot touch them.

I nodded, trying hard not to remember it, but I knew I cared, and I still cared very much.Sometimes, knowing may be worse than not knowing.

In fact, when I decided to come to Zhuo Luoyin's house, I made up my mind, but when I went to bed at night, I was still very awkward.Listening to the sound of washing water in the bathroom, I felt nervous and apprehensive, feeling like I was going to the execution ground.I know it's okay for men to have sex, but I can't accept it psychologically.I have tried my best to convince myself that I can get close to Zhuo Luoyin, but the physical difficulties are insurmountable.

I once borrowed a plate and saw the entangled bodies of two men on it, some of them were disgusting.Am I even gay?Or is it just me who likes him?I'm very upset, I can't calm my mind, it seems to be in a mess.

I walked to the window and looked at the sky full of stars, feeling a little more confused.Love, why do you give me so much confusion, but you still don't help me answer them one by one?

As soon as Zhuo Luoyin came out, she saw the other party standing in front of the window, the scene in the other party's eyes was very bright, but the reality was dim.He put down the towel, walked behind each other and put his arms around him.He felt that the other person was a little stiff when he hugged him. Was he afraid of him?

"Yuan Yi, go to bed."

"Huh? So, so early?" I stammered, I didn't want to go to bed at all, and I was afraid that I would be finished as soon as I went to bed.

He looked at his watch, "It's already eleven o'clock, is it still early?"

"It's very early, I go to bed at two o'clock at home, I will definitely not be able to fall asleep now, and I usually have to watch TV at night to fall asleep, haha..." I muttered, Zhuo Luoyin looked at me with raised eyebrows, I I couldn't speak for a while, I could only laugh dryly.

Zhuo Luoyin rubbed my head, and dragged me to the TV to watch TV programs.The TV programs at this time are quite boring, it is better to sleep.

I hypnotized myself to watch TV attentively, but Zhuo Luoyin's gaze was always on me, making me unable to concentrate.

I turned my head to look at him, but he smiled softly, "Yuan Yi, why don't we watch a movie?"

Zhuo Luoyin is really not interested in TV dramas, he generally doesn't like to watch TV.If the other party wanted to see it, he followed suit, but he didn't want to see the other party, so he just said this.And he would rather watch anti-war movies than watch the emotional drama on TV now, the love entanglement between a woman and a man.

I was stunned for a moment, and felt that Zhuo Luoyin's innocent smile really didn't match what he said, maybe it was because I couldn't hear well.

"It's good to watch a movie, so let's watch it."

After I finished speaking, Zhuo Luoyin took a complex look at me, and went to look under the cabinet to look through the dishes. As soon as I patted my chest, he suddenly turned his head and asked, "What type do you want to watch?"

"Uh, if you like watching it, I should like it too," I smiled and didn't look at him.

"Are you sure? I like watching it?"

I froze for a second, then immediately added, "I don't watch romantic action movies."

"..."

I saw Zhuo Luoyin's speechless expression, and I thought I misunderstood him, but his tone of voice made me misunderstand.

"Zuo Luoyin, I didn't mean that, I can see that, but I, I..." I don't know how to weave words, I just feel that my head is so confused.

Zhuo Luoyin smiled helplessly, he turned off the TV, came to squat down in front of me, grabbed my hand rubbing my head, "Yuan Yi, I know what you are afraid of, as I said before, if you don't agree, I will do anything won't do it."

He still wants to have a good image in the other party's heart, and he is concerned about the other party's feelings. If the other party doesn't want it, he will never force it.

Looking at his gentle face, I couldn't help but feel ashamed of my previous thoughts, how could I think of Zhuo Luoyin as that kind of person?

"I'm sorry," I felt that I could only say this, and I am afraid that no other language can express what I feel in my heart.

"Since I don't think too much, let's go to sleep." Zhuo Luoyin pinched my face, stood up, and stretched out her hand to me.

I calmed down, held his hand, and let him lead me to the bedside.

I looked at the big bed, comforted my still beating heart, and climbed up.

Zhuo Luoyin was mostly helpless.He threw off the blanket and fell asleep, while the other person lay on the other side.There was an arm's distance between them. If he wanted to hold the other party in his arms now, the other party would definitely think wildly and even struggle, so he still didn't make any moves yet.

He cherished each other so much, maybe he himself would not have thought that he would think so much for others.

I closed my eyes tightly, then slowly opened them again, hearing that Zhuo Luoyin didn't make any movements behind me, I secretly breathed a sigh of relief.I looked at the opposite wall and counted the little sheep in my heart, but when I counted to a thousand, I was still not sleepy, and I heard Zhuo Luoyin's shallow breathing behind me, turned around slowly, and looked back at him.

Under the moonlight, Zhuo Luoyin's face shone with a layer of light, it was extremely soft, like a Sleeping Beauty, so beautiful, so wonderful.But I can't appreciate his beauty and kindness, and my gaze has already been taken away by another person, and I can never get it back.I wanted to reach out and touch his cheek, but I was afraid he would wake up.He doesn't belong to me, Zhuo Luoyin doesn't belong to me, so don't think about getting both.

Among them, I can only choose one, and I made a decision a long time ago.

So Zhuo Luoyin, I'm sorry, I can't like you who give me warmth.