There is a kind of love that is insincere

I lightly touch Zhuo Luoyin, his skin is very good, like silk, feels good to the touch.In my confusion, Zhuo Luoyin opened his eyes, I was stunned, wondering if I could withdraw my hand.

I forced myself to calm down, "Are you awake?"

He nodded. The other person's movement of turning over was too big. Even if he really fell asleep, he would be woken up.

"The stars outside are nice, hahaha..." I looked at him, smiled dumbly, and silently retracted my hand.

Zhuo Luoyin's hands in the quilt moved slightly, but she didn't make any movements anymore.He wanted to hug each other, but hesitated.

"Yuan Yi, do you really go to bed at two o'clock at night at home?" Zhuo Luoyin saw that the other party was very energetic, and was a little worried about the other party. After all, going to bed late is not good for the body.

"Two o'clock soon, less than two o'clock."

In fact, I can't make it past two o'clock. I used to go to bed at 01:30 at the latest, but now I go to bed at twelve o'clock, but I definitely can't say that I go to bed at twelve o'clock, otherwise Zhuo Luoyin will know that I am lying. .

He frowned, "Your parents don't care about you?" With his back to the light, I couldn't see his expression.

"They came back late, so they went to bed late, like my parents didn't get off work until 10:30, and I had dinner until eleven o'clock, so I must have slept longer. It's impossible to go to bed after eating, right? It's not a pig."

And I leave school early, and I don't want to wait for them to come back, so I don't like to eat dinner, and I don't eat dinner as time goes by.If it wasn't for being with Zhuo Luoyin, he supervised me to eat, I guess I would be hungry at night, of course, I definitely wouldn't tell Zhuo Luoyin these words.

"Is that why you skipped dinner?"

I smiled, "Forget it, but I have a good breakfast."

The other party smiled, but Zhuo Luoyin felt uncomfortable, he thought that if the other party didn't eat breakfast, he would be really skinny.

He suddenly said, "Do you think your parents treat you well?"

I was taken aback, "Of course, at least they raised me this big."

I don't understand why he asked this question, but I won't say bad things about my parents in front of anyone, because they didn't ask for anything from me, and they themselves had a very hard life, and they carried me as a big burden After living for so many years, she can be regarded as a good mother and father.

"If you were born into a rich family like me, would you be happy?" Zhuo Luoyin asked calmly, but I felt a little sad in his words.

"It should be."

It's a pity that I don't have such a good life, I am still an ordinary self.

I don't blame God for letting me be born in a poor family, with ordinary happiness.

"Yuan Yi, it's actually not good to be rich."

"But you can't live in this cruel reality without money, can you?" My mother told me what I said. She once told me that the only thing that cannot be lacking in this world is money.

People can live without rights and feelings, but they can't live without money. This is the basis of survival.We can't change it, we can only obey.

He frowned, "You think so?"

"Hmm." I didn't want to express my feelings at first, but I responded anyway. Maybe I subconsciously think that money is very important.

He was silent and did not speak.

Even if you like it, even if you understand it, even if you both understand the other person's thoughts, you can't resist the change of mood.The most feared thing in this world is not stubborn love, but not knowing what is the thing that limits your life.

I didn't care about the silence after Zhuo Luoyin, because I was a little sleepy and fell asleep unconsciously.

Dream, do you hear the sighing sound from far away?Who is lost in the fog and can't find the direction of home?

When I woke up the next morning, Zhuo Luoyin was no longer by my side, and the fresh smell of him still remained in the quilt.I didn't lie in bed, I got up quickly, brushed my teeth and washed my face, cleaning myself up so fast for the first time.

I looked at my toothbrush and his toothbrush in the toothbrush and frowned.No, I can't express my thoughts now, I have to wait, when will I wait?Wait until the end of time?Can I break up with Zhuo Luoyin when he likes me?That's unfair to Zhuo Luoyin, but who will give me fairness?

I don't want to blend into Luo Yin's life, but I can't be a transparent person and let him ignore me.So less hypocrisy and less trouble for yourself.

I went to the closet to get some clothes to wear, and saw that Zhuo Luoyin's shirt was very similar to what Yu Yueshui had worn, and I held it in my hand by accident, smelled it, and it didn't smell like that, and it didn't have the same shirt on him. smell.Maybe it's really his body fragrance, but Yu Yueshui also has that smell on her body!

"Yuan Yi, what are you doing?"

Zhuo Luoyin's voice sounded not far away, I was so frightened that I dropped my clothes and quickly closed the door of the closet, but I didn't want to be caught by the clothes and couldn't close it.

I am like a child who has done something bad, afraid to look at him, "I didn't, I didn't do anything."

As soon as the voice fell, I heard his footsteps approaching me, and my heart beat very fast.

Zhuo Luoyin had stood at the entrance of the building for a while, and he could see the opponent's movements clearly, it wasn't because he was thinking too much, but the way the opponent was doing in front of him, it really seemed to be tempting him.

He smiled and asked, "Do you want to wear my clothes?"

He pulled out the clothes from behind me, held them in his hands, and looked at me with a faint smile.

"No, I just heard about it, no, no, I took it unintentionally," I think my image in Zhuo Luoyin's heart must be ruined, he won't think I'm a pervert, right?

"You can wear it if you want, I don't mind," then touched my head, and I was on the verge of crying.

He stuffed the clothes into my hands and stood aside, as if he was waiting for me to change. I couldn't describe my mood at this moment, I felt that my face was completely humiliated by myself.

I bit my lip, looked at him with a blushing face, and hesitated between changing or not.

"Want me to help you?"

I immediately shook my head, walked into the bathroom and slowly put on his shirt.

His shirt was a little too big for me and it was baggy and extremely uncomfortable.

After I came out, he stepped forward to help me roll up my sleeves, and rolled up the clothes underneath for me, so that it looked good in the mirror.

"Yuan Yi really looks good in any clothes," Zhuo Luoyin clasped my shoulders and smiled at the mirror.

I didn't see any change in myself in the mirror, but the casual clothes Zhuo Luoyin was wearing caught my attention.

Suddenly Zhuo Luoyin felt that the other party should be very beautiful if he wore a skirt, but if he really let the other party wear a skirt, the other party would probably be angry.

"I'm pretty ugly," because I really couldn't bear Zhuo Luoyin's compliments on me, and when he praised me, I didn't feel the pride of floating in the clouds, but instead felt humble, which felt like a mockery of me.

"No, it's pretty." After saying that, he lifted my chin slightly with his hands so that I could really look at myself in the mirror.

I am very handsome in the mirror, a little delicate, I think this is me?Or is my mirror distorting me?

"Is there any magic in your mirror? Why do I look better?" I asked blankly, staring at my face in the mirror, but I couldn't be happy.

Zhuo Luoyin smiled, it was the first time he heard others disapprove of him, why is his Yuan Yi so stupid?

"You were already very good-looking, but you didn't notice it yourself."

"Really?" I didn't believe what he said, but I moved my hands, and the self in the mirror also moved. I smiled, and the self in the mirror also laughed. □Ah, then why did Yu Yueshui say that about herself that time?Is he jealous of my looks?

Well, well, I was thinking wildly, he is much prettier than me.

Zhuo Luoyin hugged me even tighter in his arms, almost sticking to him, so that my body and his body in the mirror seemed to be inlaid together, as if they were just one person.

"Yuan Yi, you belong to me alone," Zhuo Luoyin whispered in my ear, his breath sprayed out, and the breath burned my skin.

I was a little shy and wanted to break free from his arms, but he held me so tight that I couldn't even escape.

"Yuan Yi?" Zhuo Luoyin's voice was hoarse, and it rang beside my ears, making me feel hot all over.

I know it's a bad sign, and now I have to wrestle him away, but I can't.

"Huh?" I looked up at him, and what caught my eyes was his lustful expression.

I lowered my head in a panic, but before I lowered my head, Zhuo Luoyin held my chin and kissed my lips.

I widened my eyes, a little surprised and a little helpless, but I saw Zhuo Luoyin kissing me enjoyably, and taking my breath away.He slowly opened my mouth, put his tongue deep into my mouth, lingered with me, tossed and sucked repeatedly, until I could hardly breathe.

I thought he was just kissing me, but when his other hand was walking on top of me, I was terrified and tried to break free, but he hugged me even tighter.

I blushed and glared at him, but I didn’t want to, he continued to kiss me, the situation intensified, and then he reached to the neck, still biting it, I couldn’t stop trembling, this feeling is so strange, and my body doesn’t seem to be It's like it's your own.

"Yuan Yi, don't refuse me, okay?" Zhuo Luoyin's words were full of pleading, full of bewitching, and the smell faintly appeared, making me dazed.

I was already hazy by his kiss.

"No, please don't..." I cried out weakly, Zhuo Luoyin's movements froze.

After he regained consciousness, he looked at me apologetically, but I pushed him away. He couldn't stand still, and I pushed him back several steps.

I wiped my mouth, and somehow felt disgusting, disgusting, just a simple mouth touching mouth, I would not have this kind of reaction, but the moment Zhuo Luoyin put her tongue into my mouth, I wanted to die, because of me I didn't refuse and wanted to die.I don't want to violate the true meaning of love, don't become unbearable, then I will look down on myself.

Seeing the other party wipe his mouth, Zhuo Luo Yin felt a pain in his chest, he didn't expect the other party to be so disgusted, now it seems that he definitely scared the other party.

"I'm sorry Yuan Yi," Zhuo Luoyin wanted to scold him, but he had already done something to scare the other party, so there was no use in scolding himself.

I saw him look uncomfortable and sorry, and it's not easy to get angry, but I really can't face this kind of thing, maybe I can't do this kind of thing with Zhuo Luoyin, probably before I dated Zhuo Luoyin, I absolutely didn't Think about how close you are to others.I don't like him, so I shouldn't have done such a thing with him.

"It's okay." I think it's not Zhuo Luoyin who should apologize, but me, he must be very sad if I reject him like this.

He raised his hand to pull me, but lowered his hand, "Let's go down and have breakfast first."

I nodded.

Zhuo Luoyin glanced at me and walked downstairs.I followed behind him, thinking about how to ease the situation between me and him, but I couldn't think of a countermeasure. Do I really need to contribute my body?

I don't want to have too much intimacy with someone I don't like, even if he likes me so much, I'm not that great.

He went to the kitchen to bring me breakfast, and Zhuo Luoyin's gentleness made me feel ashamed.If I like him, the previous situation will definitely not resist him. If he is the person I like, I won't be like this, but love didn't give me a chance, so I shouldn't mind.But I am his lover now, at least I need to pretend.

I forced a smile on my face and said, "Zhuo Luoyin, after we finish eating later, continue, continue with the previous matter."

Hearing this, Zhuo Luoyin shook her hand holding the chopsticks, and looked at me incredulously.

I feel uncomfortable being looked at by him, but I don't want him to doubt me because of this kind of thing, and I'm sure he won't touch me, because he cares too much about me, so he doesn't want to.

"Do you know what you're talking about?" Zhuo Luoyin said softly with complicated eyes.

"I know." With Zhuo Luoyin's posture in front, isn't she just going to eat me?I'm not an idiot, I know what he wants to do.

"Then do you know what I was planning to do next?" Zhuo Luoyin saw the other party shrunk, obviously afraid, but still said such words to him, he was extremely helpless.

When facing each other, his IQ is as low as zero, and he cannot perform normally.

"I just want to eat me, wipe me clean." I was nervous, my voice trembled, and my hands kept shaking, but I couldn't control my fear for a long time.

"You seem very clear."

I forced a smile and clenched my hands tightly.

"But I don't want to force you, you probably aren't ready."

Zhuo Luoyin didn't control himself before, he felt that his desire at that time was like a tide that wanted him to drown the other party.He wanted to possess the other party and engrave his mark on it, so that the other party really only belonged to him.No one will compete with him.

"Will you be angry with me if you don't do it?"

Zhuo Luoyin thought for a while, is he an unbearable person in the other party's heart?Why did the other party say that?He may have misheard the other person, but the words made him feel uncomfortable.

"No." Zhuo Luoyin suppressed the anger in his heart, and couldn't bear to explode in front of the other party.

I hesitated, "Really not angry?"

He frowned, "No."

I'm a little relieved, at least I didn't anger Zhuo Luoyin, and it's as long as he isn't angry with me.

It seems that I have to learn how to accept that kind of thing between men, but it's not for Zhuo Luoyin.

I smiled, my face turned pale, "I will study hard."

Even if I can't bear it anymore, I must learn to do that kind of thing. This is a determination of mine.

Zhuo Luoyin was silent, looked at me, didn't speak, only responded shallowly, expressing his feelings when he heard my words.

I think he doesn't believe me too much, so I want to learn even more, of course I am planning for a certain day in the future.In fact, forced changes won't have any effect at all, but how can I know who's mood?

I have no love for him, and I have no love for him.