return with a smile

Shen Qing walked aimlessly, feeling cold all over.Someone came with a horse and stopped beside him.

"Have you left yet?" He squinted at Xiao Qi.

"It's difficult to see you." Xiao Qi smiled, got off the horse and walked with him.

"I really don't intend to accept that guy."

"Why would you say such things to a dying person? I accepted him but made him difficult."

"Dying?" Xiao Qi was surprised.

"Want to hear my story, it's the first time I'm interested in telling others." Shen Qing smiled with his lips drawn together.

"Appreciate further details."

Shen Qing is not called Shen Qing, but his name is Shen Chenyi. The Shen family originally lived in the capital, and his father was an important official of the imperial court.

One person was his father's deadly enemy, and he made a series of foreshadowings to make the Shen family never recover.

The first emperor was confused and suspicious, that man was very clever in framing his father, his father was difficult to tell, so he was escorted to prison that day, and asked to be executed in autumn.And the first emperor's edict was copied and executed all over the house. His mother was once a knight-errant, and she was very skilled. She protected him and his brother to escape to the back, and let them run as far as possible with red eyes, and then live well.

Mother is outnumbered, but it delays them for time.

But when they fled to a town, pursuers came, his brother told him to run away, and led the pursuers away by himself.

The words she said when she parted were exactly the same as that of her mother.

"Live well."

He hated himself for being powerless, but what could be done, the imperial power was as great as the sky, and he would die in the end.

But they let themselves live well.

Later, when he hid in Tibet, he heard that his father committed suicide in prison, which was another blow.

He waited until the current emperor came to the throne. This emperor was more just than his father. He always admired Master Shen's upright and honest style. He suspected that the Shen family could not do such a thing. Apologizing for his grievances, he also ordered that no fugitives from the Shen family should be pursued.

Shen Qing no longer wanted to think about how dark those days were. He tried to commit suicide, but the words of his mother and elder brother were always lingering in his ears.

Later, I met that woman, God seemed to have played a big joke with him, and tortured him in different ways.

"..." After Shen Qing finished telling the story with a smile, Xiao Qi was rarely silent.

"What else can I do?" Shen Qing was at a loss, no one could tell him.

His life is a kind of pain, and guilt haunts him day and night. Although the Shen family's destruction has nothing to do with him, when he thinks that his mother and brother died for him, he feels extremely guilty. How can he live freely?

And that woman completely shattered his hope of living.This world is so disgusting and sinister, isn't he suffering while alive?

It is not easy for Xiao Qi to explain him, once he has this kind of thinking, it is still so deeply ingrained that it cannot be corrected overnight, and for him, the motivation to live is revenge.

The case of the Shen family's injustice was overturned, and the woman died, so what he cares about now is Shen Yunxuan.

And Shen Yunxuan is also capable of running the business that Shen Qing entrusted to him, so what is he nostalgic about?

"Aren't you afraid that Shen Yunxuan will collapse?" Xiao Qi asked.

"I don't know, what can I do, I can't respond to Xiaoxuan, I... don't know what to do..." Shen Qing said softly.

"Is that debauchery also a vent?"

Shen Qing smiled without saying a word, and after a while, she started to be in a daze again.

"Are you determined to die?" Xiao Qi looked at him in a daze, and he didn't know if there was any solution to this matter.

It can only be that there is no solution.

There is no solution, even the king of heaven and I can't help it.

Shen Qing sent him to the city gate, Xiao Qi pulled him to a place where no one was around, lifted his chin and kissed him: "We won't see you again?"

"There is one more year, and we won't see each other after one year." Shen Qing smiled, as if he was not talking about life and death, but just simple and commonplace.

"Then you...take care." Xiao Qi didn't know what to say, he pulled the rein and drove the horse out of the city.

"Take care?" Shen Qing said with a low smile.

"Take care." He repeated after a long while.

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The cold war between their father and son lasted for more than a month, Shen Yunxuan didn't dare to do anything to Shen Qing, but just immersed himself in managing the business.

After the New Year's Eve, all walks of life began to flourish again. It was the busiest period of time. Shen Yunxuan would go out every three days, often not going home for a week or two. He began to plan to expand his business to make the busy work to numb yourself.

Su Zhiyuan came to see him several times, he hesitated to speak several times, but seeing his friend's tired look, he swallowed what he was going to say again.

There are some things he can't mix with.

I just hope that Shen Yunxuan won't collapse by then.

Shen Qing was bored these days, he went to the medical store and bought two liang of drugs when he came back.

It is said that this thing is highly poisonous, I don't know if it will be ugly to die.Shen Qing thought about it leisurely.

He intends to experiment, and it will be fun if he doesn't die by then.

He asked his servants to catch a little milk dog, probably a stray dog, and it was dirty. He took the dog to the backyard and mixed the dog with the dog's meal. Afraid that the amount was not enough, he added some more .

He watched the puppy blink and look at him wetly, and put the plate in front of it.

It seemed a little scared, took two steps back, and then realized that the food was for it, happily wagging its tail and stretched its neck over.

It has no idea that it will say goodbye to the world after eating it.

Shen Qing stood watching it sniff the plate, raised his head and barked at Shen Qing, and the moment it was about to eat, Shen Qing gave a "tsk" sound and kicked it aside.

The little milk dog let out a pitiful whine, and immediately lay down tremblingly holding his head, as if he had been bullied a lot, Shen Qing immediately softened his heart.

He picked up the plate and thought about pouring the food into the lake. There are few fish in this lake, and the medicine is dissolved in such a large lake, so the toxicity is probably gone.

Seeing the food being thrown away, the little milk dog almost cried.

It was then carried into the arms of the culprit.

It whined a few times aggrieved, but didn't dare to make another sound.

Seeing its aggrieved look, Shen Qing smiled lightly, scratched its chin, the little milk dog howled, as if he was suffering from hunger.It was rare for Shen Qing to be so gentle, so he asked his servants to prepare minced meat and cook it, mixed with rice for it to eat.

This time the little milk dog looked at the plate, then at Shen Qing, afraid that he would kick it away again, Shen Qing couldn't laugh or cry, patted its head and told it to eat quickly.

The little milk dog happily ate his fill. Although he didn't know why the person in front of him didn't let him eat that plate of rice at first, he still barked to please him.

Seeing its dirty appearance, Shen Qing finally couldn't bear it any longer, and fetched water to bathe it personally.

When Shen Yunxuan returned home, he saw Shen Qing rolling up his sleeves and smilingly rubbing a little milk dog that was flopping around in the water basin. Shen Yunxuan was watching quietly on the porch, as if he didn't want to disturb this scene.It was rare to see Shen Qing's father so happy, he didn't want to spoil the atmosphere.

Since then, Shen Qing hasn't given him a good look, and every time he speaks, he responds with Shen Qing's cold sarcasm.

"Master." A maid passed by, whispered hello, and came over with a bucket. The water was hot.

"Is it to bathe the puppy?" Shen Yunxuan asked.

"Yes." The maid replied.

"Let me bring it up, you step back and have a rest." Shen Yunxuan said gently.

The maid naturally didn't dare to say no, she put down the bucket and went down immediately.

Shen Yunxuan went over with a bucket, Shen Qing looked up and saw him, didn't say anything, took acacia and rubbed it on the little milk dog's body.

"Father, is this a puppy you picked up outside?" Shen Yunxuan squeezed its little paw, and shook it.

"Caught it."

"Ah? I caught it..." Shen Yunxuan didn't understand, what was the purpose of catching a puppy, why didn't he get a beautiful one instead of a dirty stray dog ​​if he wanted to raise one.

But father is happy.

This dog was raised in the mansion just like that. After cleaning it, I found that the puppy was quite handsome, with gray and white hair, but the hair grew a little, so I asked the servants to take care of it, and it was quite cute.

As a result, after raising it for a period of time, the little guy grew bigger and bigger, only to realize that where there was a dog, it was clearly a wolf.

Shen Qing didn't know why the blind would think it was a dog, how could a wolf be so cute?Still barking?He recalled the situation he had just captured, and laughed a little.

"The wolf's words are still too dangerous, why don't you send them back to the mountains..." Lin Butler suggested.

Shen Qing knelt down and smoothed its hair, shook his head and said, "We all have feelings, so it wouldn't be good to send it away, right? Xiaofeng."

Shen Qing called it Xiaofeng, there was no other meaning, just a random name.

Xiao Feng licked his face, Shen Qing snorted for it and stood up.

"Keep raising it, just don't let it hurt anyone."

"Hey."

Shen Qing walked to the backyard and stood there suddenly.

"They all have feelings? Huh?" He hooked his lips and smiled, yes, they all have feelings, so naturally they couldn't bear it.

Can Shen Yunxuan give up?

He smiled wryly, suddenly felt itchy on his hand, looked down to find Xiao Feng following him, and licked his hand.

"Let me tell you," he knelt down, holding the wolf's head and saying. "Do you think Xiaoxuan can bear it if I die? Come on, nod, or shake your head."

Xiaofeng didn't nod or shake his head, it tilted its head, not understanding what the master was talking about.

"Silly wolf." Shen Qing sighed.

In fact, he was stupid enough to ask a wolf what he thought.

He felt that he should talk to Shen Yunxuan.

It's not an option to stay stalemate between the two of them. The child's obsession is still there, so he won't let him give up completely...

Shen Qing paused, how is it possible, close to 20 years of getting along, ten years of obsession, if it can be broken, what is it called obsession.

"What should I do?" Shen Qing hugged Xiao Feng's neck, Xiao Feng rubbed against him, raised his front paw and patted his knee.

"Stupid wolf." Shen Qing sighed again.

At night, Shen Qing knocked on Shen Yunxuan's door.

Shen Yunxuan came to open the door, and was a little surprised to see that it was Shen Qing.

"Father." He still stepped aside, Shen Qing must have something to say when he came over, maybe the two of them will quarrel again later.

Shen Qing watched him close the door, stood there with his head down, and sighed in his heart.

"Come here." Shen Qing said.

Shen Yunxuan walked over and sat opposite to Shen Qing.

"What do you want?" Straight to the point, Shen Qing didn't intend to make any detours.

"What do I think? Father doesn't know?" Shen Yunxuan smiled.

"How do I know if you don't tell me."

"..." Shen Yunxuan was silent for a while, not knowing what exactly Shen Qing wanted to do, he said for a long while: "Of course I want to be with you, like an ordinary couple."

"Ordinary couples? The ones who love each other for a lifetime?"

"Otherwise, I like you, so naturally I hope so."

"I've heard this a lot, how many..."

"What does it mean to listen too much?" Shen Yunxuan immediately grasped the point.

"Do you think this kind of coaxing talk is not common in places like brothels?" Shen Qing said casually.

Shen Yunxuan just thought that he heard the words coaxing those girls when he went to play in the brothel, but he didn't know that these words were said to Shen Qing by those guests.

Although he was disgusted by his father's going to brothels, his father probably didn't like women, that Xiao Qi...

No, no, thinking about what that unlucky person is doing.

Shen Yunxuan's expression was unpredictable, Shen Qing thought for a while and said, "Do you still remember your mother?"

Shen Yunxuan suddenly raised his head, mother, someone who has never appeared in his memory, why did he mention her?Or did Shen Qing still want to break his thoughts, or...

There is nothing else, Shen Qing sneered, and continued: "I think you'd better not have any illusions about her, your mother is indeed dead, she was killed by my own hands."

Shen Yunxuan was already stunned, he opened his mouth, not knowing why Shen Qing said these things.

His mother died, killed by his father?

"She is a heartless person. At the beginning, I also believed in Chang Jiujiu, but not long after I gave birth to you, I found out that she had committed adultery with someone else..." Shen Qing paused, then laughed again: "She still asked me to guess you Whose son is it?"

Shen Yunxuan was stunned, he didn't expect his mother to be such a person, he once fantasized about whether she was gentle and beautiful, but now...

wrong.

"Then whose child am I?"

Shen Yunxuan was a little flustered, if it was, he would naturally be happy, but it meant that the relationship between their father and son could not be changed; if not, the enemy's child, what face would he have to see Shen Qing again.

Still no solution.

Shen Qing didn't answer.

Shen Yunxuan wanted to speak for a while.

"So, I don't believe in any feelings." Shen Qing finally blocked Shen Yunxuan's way with one sentence.

"Then father still came to tell me that this matter is impossible?" Shen Yunxuan's hands trembled a little, but he still spoke calmly.

"I will grow old faster than you, and I will leave before you, so what can you do then?"

"Then can father accept me? Let's talk about it later!" Shen Yunxuan stared at Shen Qing.

Shen Qing looked at him and said the answer in his heart.

"I do not know."

"Father is hesitating?" That means he has a chance.

"Xiaoxuan." Shen Qing suddenly called out. "Why do you like me?"

"Father is very good to me. I know that even though my father often beats me, he still loves me. Even though I don't know why my father beat me...ah, no." Shen Yunxuan was a little incoherent. "My father is really helpless sometimes when he looks alone in a daze. I feel distressed when I see it. My father smiles very gently. I..."

"Okay, stop!" Shen Qing got goosebumps all over, and stopped in time.

"Father, let me hug you, okay?" Shen Yunxuan looked at him and whispered.

Shen Qing was stunned, he naturally understood what Shen Yunxuan said.

But no, he didn't want to tarnish Shen Yunxuan.

Seeing his silence, Shen Yunxuan was not discouraged, after all, making such a request suddenly would make anyone feel uncomfortable.

How can such a thing be casual...

Shen Yunxuan suddenly thought of Xiao Qi, and his face suddenly became ugly.

He asked slowly, his voice trembling: "Father, how many people like Xiao Qi are there?"

That's right, Xiao Qi only met him on the last trip, but his father was with him... Before that, there must be a reason for his father's obedience.

Sure enough, Shen Qing's answer made him sit on the ground blankly, all thoughts were lost.

"There are too many, I can't remember clearly." The tone was casual, as if he was just asking if you had eaten today.

"Father did it on purpose, deliberately ruining himself like this?" Shen Yunxuan was almost desperate.

Shen Qing was too lazy to lie, but at this moment she felt a little regretful.

"Then what my father said just now is what those people said to my father?"

"why?"

There is no why.

It's still a dead end.

Shen Yunxuan looked at Shen Qing with some breakdown, Shen Qing was expressionless.

He didn't know what Shen Qing had experienced, nor did he know why Shen Qing did this.

So he will be mistaken.

Regardless of the misunderstanding, Shen Qing walked over to open the door, looked back at Shen Yunxuan who was suppressing the crying, and still felt distressed.

After hesitating for a while, he closed the door and walked back.

He sat cross-legged beside Shen Yunxuan, waiting for him to cry.

Shen Yunxuan finally stopped crying, Shen Qing handed over the handkerchief.

"If you want me, you can do whatever you want." Shen Qing said flatly.

Still feeling too distressed, he hesitated for a moment and said it anyway.

"Shen Qing..." Shen Yunxuan sneered, Shen Qing had a premonition that he would not say anything good. "Why are you so dirty and shameless?"

He didn't even yell at his father, and still had such a disrespectful tone, Shen Qing knew that his goal had been achieved.

He is not afraid that Shen Yunxuan will hate him, it is best to hate him, only hating him can he feel at ease.

But he still has to wait for a while, until Shen Yunxuan reaches the crown, until he sees that he is truly an adult.

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