There is a love that goes without saying

When I got off work, I was still upset.

I have been a little absent-minded all day long, and I still haven't figured out the matter in my heart. Maybe I need something to make me feel better.

"Xia Qian, shall we go have a drink today?" I looked at Xia Qian who was packing up, and couldn't help saying this.

Xia Qian looked back at me, thought for a while, then shook his head for the first time, "I still have some things to deal with at home, I have to go back early today."

"That's it, okay then." I thought this time Xia Qian would be the same as before, not wanting to go home early, maybe... Xia Qian really has something to do.

"Next time, or tomorrow is fine." Xia Qian looked at me in a daze, feeling a little helpless.

"Forget it, it doesn't matter if you drink or not, I can do it alone." I patted Xia Qian on the shoulder with a smile, and prepared to leave with my briefcase, "I'm leaving."

Xia Qian nodded, "Well, see you tomorrow."

"See you tomorrow." I gave Xia Qian a smile back and left.

I walked out of the company and looked at the sky leisurely.Ever since I was a child, I have never been bothered by the fact that I don't have parents, but at this moment, my feelings for Haojing make me a little puzzled and confused.

What is love like?

I don't understand and haven't touched many.

I once had a girlfriend in college, but they broke up because of the distance.I'm already very weak towards that feeling now, maybe I didn't even know her when the girlfriend came to me.

Think about it as if you really don't have much experience with things like relationships.With a wry smile on my face, I walked through the crowd.No one pays attention to strangers, who can really know who in this big society?Who can really know who?

I went to the store and bought four cans of beer, and sat down in a less crowded part of the park.I opened the beer and drank it alone.

I look at those cheerful people and feel that I am in sharp contrast with them.Why is it uncomfortable?I'm afraid that's what I am now, trying to find the answer to a question, but still can't find it.

When I stared into the distance, I didn't even notice when someone was sitting next to me.When I turned around and picked up the beer to drink, I was startled by the person sitting next to me.

The handsome man sitting next to me is the one I saw at the entrance of the hospital last time, but at this time his eyes seemed to be filled with nothing but sadness, which made my heart ache inexplicably, like a kind of sympathy.

He was looking into the distance with both eyes, and he didn't know what he was looking at. His face seemed to be worse than the last time I saw it, which made me a little afraid that he might have escaped from the hospital, right?But the other party was dressed normally, which made me dispel that thought.

"Can you sell me a can of wine?" His hoarse voice scared me so much that I almost let go of the wine.

How long did this person not speak before he became like this?I hesitated and handed him the beer.

"Thank you, I'll give you the money right away." After he finished speaking, he started to take out his wallet, and I reached out to stop him.

"It's okay, I'll give it to you. I can't finish it anyway." I think that this person will become like that at the hospital gate that time. Something must have happened, although the man's smile at that time was genuine. Weird, but now that I see him, he's normal.

The other party looked at me, took back the wallet with a pale smile, and drank the wine silently.

I looked away, but I couldn't help looking at this man from the corner of my eye. Maybe the atmosphere around him was so sad that I had to pay attention.

When I drink the second can of wine, I don’t want to drink it anymore. I don’t hate or like wine, so every time I drink, I only drink a little. Drinking two cans today is considered as too much for me. .

I looked at him sideways, and felt that he seemed to be thinking far away, as if he was trapped in memories, which was very similar to Xia Qian's expression sometimes.

"Are you thinking about your family?" Before my brain could react, I said this.

When the other person turned his head to look at me, I realized that I had said something stupid.

"Why do you say that?" His expression was very calm, which made me feel a little uncomfortable.

"This, this..." I got stuck, embarrassed to tell him that I had actually seen him in the hospital a long time ago, but I didn't know what to say.

He looked at the sky, "I'm not thinking of family, I'm thinking of... a friend."

"Um, good friend?" I asked, I didn't know whether I should ask, I always felt that I would hear bad things later, even if it wasn't about me.

"Ah."

He responded lightly, very lightly, very lightly, as if it was a taboo and he didn't want to talk about it.

I didn't ask too much, after all, he and I were just strangers.

"Do you have a pen and paper?" He turned his head to look at me, this time I could clearly see the expression in his eyes, which was really filled with a kind of extremely painful sadness.

"Wait a minute." I opened the briefcase and flipped through it, took out a piece of paper and handed it to him, and also took out a signature pen.

I thought he could write on it, but instead he was drawing.The painting was the scene of Sun Yuxia at this time. I was a little stunned, and I intuitively felt that the other party should be a person who had learned painting, otherwise I wouldn't be able to draw so much.

He painted his paintings quietly, as if everything in this world had nothing to do with him, so focused.I can't take my eyes off him, maybe I will never meet a few people like this in my life.

The sounds of children playing and playing in the distance add to the splendor of the sunset, but it also makes me and this man even more lonely.

"Give it to you."

He handed the painting to me, and I looked at it in a daze.Even though the painting is in black and white, it has clear lines and outlines.

When I recovered from the painting again, there was only an empty wine can on the seat next to me.As if he had never appeared before, he was just a passerby and never stopped.

I felt a little strange at this moment.Then he flipped through the back of the paper, only to see the inscribed name, and couldn't help but read it out, "Lan..."

The name sounded nice to me, it should be a pseudonym, I thought about it and put the painting in my bag. Suddenly, I felt that this melancholy by myself was not an option, so I packed up and left the park.

After I took a step, I looked back at the setting sun in the sky, and I seemed to have a clue in my heart.

I didn't go home, but wandered on the street, watching the gradually bustling nightlife, and found that I seemed to be a bit old, and I no longer had so much energy when I was young.Living for the sake of living, living a life that I am not too satisfied with, but can I deny this fact?Probably all I can do is face nothing else.

The night is too long, and one is a little lonely.I watched the time go by, crossing many roads, and I didn't go home until there were fewer and fewer people wandering outside.

I don't want to face a good scene as soon as I go back, so if I can procrastinate for a little longer, I will procrastinate for a little longer.When I took the elevator upstairs, I still felt very heavy, and I didn't know what was really heavy?Still can't figure it out?

I took the key to open the door, and the room was pitch black. Good King should be sleeping, which made me heave a sigh of relief.I closed the door, untied the tie tied around my neck, and sat down on the sofa in the living room. I was a little tired and leaned on the sofa cushion, feeling a little heavy in my head. I probably didn’t go to sleep so late, so I just leaned on it. Sleep on the sofa.

Under the suggestion in my heart, I gradually started to feel sleepy, and I didn't plan to go back to my room to sleep, so as not to wake up Haojing, and before I think about that matter, it's better to have less contact with... Haojing?

I closed my eyes and slowly sank into a dream. When I was confused, I vaguely saw a good scene standing in front of me, but I felt that it was like a dream, too unreal.

The night is quiet, what big changes can there be?